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y'know that feeling where you want to talk about something major in this kind of thread but just don't feel like anyone would care?

...no? oh well...better off anyway. nothing like the unshakeable instinctive sensation that nobody gives a ********.

Well we wouldn't be posting here if we didn't care.

I had my doubts, but the important thing is releasing the secrets building inside you.

thanks guys. its not even anything specific really. i just feel like s**t. but worse. :/ i guess its partly (but not completely at this moment) the fact that ive always been an outsider no matter what, and instead of me getting used to it, it just gets worse every time. even the tiniest things can set off sharp pains in my stomach. and when i see you guys, i see a bunch of close friends who sorta tolerate me tagging along. and nothing can get rid of that feeling. ive tried.

i guess the reason i can never believe it is because i am so used to people lying to my face about liking me, and i know all too well that i can never be sure whether someone is being truthful about that or just polite. people were nothing but jerks to me, covertly or openly, until i was 16 or so (i finally acknowledged the covert abuse for what it was when i was 14, but i had known it for years and let it continue because it was the closest i got to having friends). its not something i get over easily.

trivia: i type like this when im really down. lots of typoes means im either hyper or panicking. dont think theres any unique posting style when im angry.

You, an outsider?
0.o
Curse this only being on a computer, or I'd hug you.


There's no fifth wheel 'ere. It's a freighter truck. We need all the damn wheels we can get to hold up the enormous amount of cargo that comes with it. Sure, some of the wheels are right next to each other. And, sure, some wheels are closer to the center then others. But each wheel has it's place, as you have yours.
Hm.......
Wanna make a game to play?

can't stand the weird quote glitch.

I wish I had a mother that paid attention to me when I was young. Idc on what crap her best friend spews out on like "you're mother cares about you everyday here in CA, this is the only time in summer you get to see here and you're ruining it!". Well get this: WHY THE ******** IS SHE IN CA DOING ALL THE DIRTY WORK WHILE NEGLECTING HER HUSBAND AND HER 2 KIDS FOR YOU!!!

cant stop staring at zCB member pics redface