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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2005 4:49 pm
[Haunted]Quote: I'm haunted By the promises I've made And others I have broken I'm haunted By the lives that wove the web Inside my haunted head As she found herself on the other side of the door and completely blinded by a light that seemed to be reflecting directly into her eyes, Chandra couldn't help but mutter the phrase she had just picked up from her mother.
"Curiosity killed the cat."
Indeed. But cats have nine lives, so they can afford to lose a few.
With her eyes shut to block out the annoyingly bright light, Chandra didn't even bother to turn her head to the voice.
"Where am I?"
Aren't you curious who I am?
Chandra bent her knees and felt below her to make sure the ground was safe to sit on. The surface below her feet felt smooth like glass, but warm. Trusting it, she sat, settling into a cross-legged position with her hands resting folded in her lap.
"Would that help me to figure out where I am? Or how to return to where I came from?"
You can't go back. All the paths here only lead in one direction.
Chandra sighed, starting to feel oddly enclosed - like the space around her was shrinking in and would soon crush her.
"Can you please turn out the light?"
I cannot. Does it burn?
"No, but it is irritating to my eyes. I am sensitive to light."
Interesting that it does not. But the sensitivity comes from still having the eyes of an owl, pet.
"Pet?" Chandra questioned in alarm.
Indeed. Although I wouldn't worry yourself. An eternity of being burned by the light tends to minimize the intense hatred that bound us to life.
"An eternity." Chandra said, her stomach sinking. "I have passed beyond the point of no return," she said with despair.
Yes. Since you have an eternity here, perhaps you would be so kind as to explain how you got here?
"I used the key to open the door." Chandra said, sinking her head into her hands. She realized with rising annoyance that the light seemed to be penetrating her eyelids.
Silence greeted her words, so Chandra lifted her head and turned about blindly in the silence.
"Hello?"
That is not the usual way in. I had thought that way closed when the key was lost. Let us begin from the beginning. You sacrificed your life to end my own and apparently were granted a rebirth.
"Yes, assuming you are who I believe you to be."
I am your one and only former master. Wielder of the dark art of necromancy.
Chandra couldn't help but grimace at the pride the voice seemed to have in that accomplishment.
"The dark art indeed. Necromancy is a perversion of the natural way of things."
You did not always believe so. I would not have expected a change of heart from you.
"I was stripped of my memories before I was reborn. I grew under different circumstances this time."
Stripped of your memories? That explains this meeting then.
"I was stripped of my memories so that I could perform some function for Mictecaihuatl. I suppose this was it, although I fail to see how she benefits from my being dead for eternity."
You are not dead for eternity. If you still have the key, you can go back the way you came.
"I still do not see how this benefits Mictecacihuatl."
I should not tell you this, but hope springs eternal - even for someone such as I. As long as you have the key, anyone you chose may pass through the door - in either direction.
Chandra was stunned into silence by the implications of this.
You do know what that means, don't you?
"I can bring back people who have passed beyond."
Yes, although as I'm sure you realize - opening the door requires more than the key.
Chandra put her head back down in her hands. She still had no idea hwo the door had appeared, although the bloody handprints were nagging at the corner of her mind.
"Souls. It requires an even exchange. A soul destroyed for safe passage through."
Almost.
"I have done nothing else."
There are other conditions which must be met. Think about it, pet. Why would you need to have your memories erased to open the door?
"It requires ignorance of its purpose?"
No. It would be of little use if that were the case.
"I will be destroyed in some way by its use?"
Yes. You will never have the pleasure of seeing what lies behind the light. The guardian of the door is in some way controlled by the key. If you refuse to feed it, or you lose it, you will become nothing more than dust in the wind. You will never receive forgiveness.
"I do not require forgiveness."
Care to guess the second condition which must be met to open the door? Once you know, you can visit me anytime to debate the merits of earning eternal love and forgiveness.
Chandra grimaced at the dry chuckle that choked off in a half scream which followed that statement.
"Kiran's death," she guessed. "Mictecacihuatl and Xochiquetzal wouldn't tell me how he was killed because it had to do with the second step."
Kiran has been destroyed. A pity, I had hoped to someday converse with him again.
"How? What is the second condition?"
Keep in mind that I never had the pleasure of doing this, I simply read about it. The second victim must be tortured to the point of death repeatedly over the course of three days. At the end of that time, the door will supposedly appear. Although how you got the door to open without doing that yourself I do not understand. It would take a very powerful and knowledgable individual to redirect the proper power in your direction.
"Then I will never come here again."
I doubt Mictecacihuatl will let your new found conscience to get in the way of whatever her plan is. Besides, you did not have to perform the second function this time - perhaps who ever did it this time will simply do it again when necessary.
Struck by the logic of that argument and disgusted by the implications, Chandra tried not to think about it.
"I wonder who she wants me to bring back." she mused finally.
That I do not know. She and I never spoke while I was alive.
Chandra lifted her head up again as the voice seemed to fade off slightly at the end.
"You have left me have you not?"
Silence greeted her question, making the answer clear. With a sigh, Chandra struggled back to her feet and felt for the door. If it appeared the same on this side as the other, it would be a trivial exercise to open it and return.
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Posted: Mon May 02, 2005 9:38 am
[Save Me]Quote: So why is it that I feel So cut up and so bad I need to take control Coz my mind is on a roll And it isn't listening to me Leaving so soon?
"Yes," Chandra muttered. "I should never have come through the door in the first place."
You need to realize that there are some events in which you have no choice. Or do you not believe in Fate?
Chandra ceased fumbling for the key at her side and turned back towards the light. Putting a hand up to at least partially spare her eyes, Chandra looked upon the women she was speaking with. She couldn't make out much as her eyes watered in the strong light, especially since the light seemed to go through the woman almost as if she was transparent.
"Who are you?" Chandra asked finally.
My identity is inconsequential.
"I doubt it. But to answer your earlier question - no, I do not believe in Fate. I believe that the choices we make define us."
As she spoke, Chandra shut her eyes with the feeling that it was too little too late and she would be seeing spots for weeks.
And what choice did you make which allowed you a second chance at life?
Chandra sighed and crossed her arms over her chest. This was a sensitive topic for her, in part because she couldn't answer the question as posed.
"You and everyone else seem to assume my second life is a reward, but I am beginning to think that it is a punishment."
As she paused, her pale skin colored with heat. The shame, guilt, despair, and anger that she had desperately pushed into a dark corner of her psyche was starting to surface. It boiled so close to the surface lately, as every choice she made only seemed to lead her farther away from the things she wanted.
"I know it is a punishment. I have been given a second life so that I may see all of the things I will never be able to call my own."
If you are correct and there is no larger plan, it is your choices which make your life a punishment.
Taking a deep breath, Chandra uncrossed her arms and let them hang loosely, awkwardly at her side. She missed the comfort of The Book slung over her shoulder and the feel of Life. Even here, in the glare of the light which seemed to come from everywhere and nowhere at once, she could feel the emptiness of Death seeping into her bones and chilling her from the inside out.
And as suddenly as it had risen, the rage was gone - leaving Chandra tired and empty. Dully, she replied to the voice which refused to identify itself.
"Who or what has made my life a punishment is not important. In either case, I deserve to be punished. I am not a nice person."
You do not have the authority to decide the timing or the extent of your punishment. You are so arrogant, so self-pitying - you have fallen so far from the Chandra who was slave to no one but herself.
Chandra simply stretched her mouth into the parody of a grin, feeling nothing. At this point she was fighting just to remain standing - her fatigue seemed to be growing exponentially.
"I am not who I once was. I will never be her again."
You can accept part without becoming the whole of what you were.
Chandra stepped back against the door, meaning to rest her weight on it for a moment - but even that small motion was too much and she slid down it's length to crumple at the foot of the doorway. As her sight faded into black, she felt nothing but relief that the light no longer tormented her.
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Posted: Mon May 02, 2005 10:05 am
[Missing You]Quote: Tell me it's not happening Say it's not as it seems Tell me that I'm gonna wake up It's just a bad dream Please tell me that it's fiction Tell me it's just a lie Chandra awoke slowly, blinking her eyes repeatedly to try and get rid of the spots that swam there. She groaned and rolled over, wondering why her body felt like she had tried to run a marathon.
Looking around, she noted that she was apparently lying on the floor of her bedroom by the large picture window which overlooked the front lawn. It was sometime shortly after dawn, judging by the weak light which trickled through the window and onto Chandra.
"What happened?" She croaked, more to herself than anyone else.
But an answer came anyway from a very agitated seeming Chetana.
"You opened a door and left me behind. What was behind it?"
Chetana whirled around a bit before coming to rest right before Chandra's face. Chandra shut her eyes and raised one pale hand to brush her hair out of her face.
"Tell me," Chetana insisted, starting to sound childish. "I want to know what was behind the door."
Chandra opened her eyes and pushed Chetana away from her before sitting. As the blood rushed away from her head, she felt slightly faint - but fought through it. What happened couldn't have been a dream or Chetana would not be so insistent.
But if it did happen, how had she returned?
As she often did, Mictecacihuatl seemed to read Chandra's mind. From her perch on Chandra's bed, she answered the unspoken question.
"You had assistance returning."
Chandra turned to look at Mictecacihuatl and ended up squinting as her vision swam. She couldn't quite make out details of Mictecacihuatl's appearance, but there seemed to be something different about the woman.
"You look older." Chandra said, her throat still sore. She smothered a yawn and then used the back of a chair to push herself to her feet.
Chetana, obviously in a huff over being out of the loop, whirred her way over to sit on the floor by Xochiquetzal's feet.
Xochiquetzal reached down to pick up the fandangle with a satisfied grin and then giggled girlishly as Chetana fled from her touch.
"She looks like hell," Xochi purred, pursing her lips. "But then again, so do you. Have a good time behind the door dear?"
Uncomfortable with the attention Mictecaichuatl and Xochiquetzal were suddenly giving her, Chandra frowned at both of them. Knowledge was power and she didn't feel like sharing anything with these two vultures.
"Do I look like I had a good time?" She asked neutrally, gripping the key tightly.
"Good idea," Mictecacihuatl sneered, noting Chandra's motion. "Wouldn't want to lose that."
"I'm just relieved you're alright," Xochiquetzal said, taking a step towards Chandra - but halting as Chetana made a low warning noise. "You haven't quite outlived your usefulness to us. It would be a pity to lose you."
"Get out." Chandra said coldly, oddly feeling like herself for the first time in a while. "I need to get dressed."
She crossed her arms over her chest and stared both Mictec and Xochi down, until they shrugged and filed out.
It wasn't until later that Chandra realized she should have questioned Mictecacihuatl further about the "assistance" she had received.
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Posted: Tue May 03, 2005 12:03 pm
From Chandra's Hand Even though I did not wish to be forced to admit it, I did fancy myself an instrument of Fate. Simply a leaf in the wind, blown forth to destinations unknown - but predetermined.
It is, after all, tough to admit to one's self that you have made a mess of your own life.
In my search for my self I have looked to my past, which I can see now was a mistake. I am not the person I was, nor do I need to be. The expectations that others may have for me are not my concern. It is the expectations that I have for myself which must inform my choices and my being.
I will open the chest and find the secrets locked within.
And - I will open the door again. I will pay the price required of me, no matter the consequences for my eternal soul (which is after all forfeit to the key at this juncture).
I will master Death and find a way to free myself from the curse of the key - or I will die trying. Given what little I have left to myself, I do not stand to lose much.
I wonder where he is and what he is thinking. I wonder what he has done with his life. And I wonder if I will ever see him again - in Life or Death.
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2005 1:27 pm
[Venturing Out]
Lafe was situated on the couch in the Legend HQ, the tarot cards Wren had given him once again in his hands and being looked over. It was probably a little odd that a baby would have a set of fortune telling cards as his chosen toy, but he did like others -- these, however, held his attention far longer than any other toy. ( Most times, but there were moments he was interested more in playing than poking at cards he could only vaguely understand. )
His tail was swishing about with his good mood and he let out a little giggle as he finally thought he knew just what the card he held in his hand meant.
And Wren, for the record, was currently in the HQ kitchen and getting some ice for the drinks that had gotten hot on the trip over. It was taking longer since the ice tray had been empty, and he would peek out of the kitchen every few minutes to make sure Lafe was all right. He had brought the baby over in another attempt to get him to socialize, but since no one was here, it was rapidly going down hill.
... just a little bit longer, the man thought.
It had been some time since Chandra had ventured to the HQ. In fact, as she stretched out a pale cold hand to open the front door, it felt like an eternity had passed. The painful feeling in the pit of her stomach that flared up whenever she thought of the last time she had been here was not gone, but felt more like a dull ache - the sort of thing one could easily ignore.
Steeling herself inwardly, Chandra stepped through the front door with her usual unnatural grace. Without a wasted movement, she made her way through the foyer and into what she thought of as the main room of the HQ. She almost smiled when she saw the only resident was a child. None of the children ever asked anything of her that she couldn't give or asked uncomfortable questions. Making her way over to the couch, Chandra looked down at Lafe and asked quietly, "May I sit with you?"
Lafe's ears twitched at the sound of someone approaching, a scent coming closer that wasn't entirely unfamiliar. He stilled slowly, eyes peering up at Chandra with a curious gaze. After a moment, as if he had reached the conclusion that pleased him, his tail started to swish again and he raised his hand in a small wave.
She could sit, though he wasn't quite aware that was what she asked.
Taking the child's vigorous tail waving as assent, Chandra seated herself beside him and peered curiously at the cards he had been playing with. Settling her hands in her lap, where they would be visible but not threatening, Chandra leaned in a little closer.
"What have you got there," she said quietly to Lafe, not expecting any real answer. "I do not believe I have ever seen cards like those."
The cards were similar to the one that was attached to his scarf, though they were not of the same set. While he was a little shy about Chandra leaning in close, but she seemed all right.
When she showed interest in the cards, he gave her a small smile. The cards told you things! ... just he couldn't figure out what exactly yet. Letting out a small noise, Lafe slowly offered pushed a card towards Chandra and babbled on as he pointed at the card -- as if he was explaining it to her in his own terms.
Chandra blinked down at the card Lafe had pushed towards her and wished, not for the first time, that children were born able to speak. But she nodded seriously anyway, giving Lafe her full attention.
"I have no idea what you have just said, but I will assume for the moment that you are trying to convey something of importance about this card."
She lifted a hand from her lap and tapped the card once with one finger to emphasize what she was speaking about. Using that same hand to then push her hair behind her ear, she looked the child over again.
"I do not suppose you are here alone little one. Where is your guardian?"
The only speaking Lafe was able to do was mimicry and it was a far cry from anything that anyone could understand. That tiny smile changed into a full one and he nodded his head a bit.
She understood! ... well, somewhat. Lafe's tail continued to swish happily for a change, watching Chandra tap to card with her finger. He had done that himself, but no one quite got it ...
Wrinkling his nose up as she continued to speak, his ears twitched slightly as if he picked up a noise. He glanced in the general direction of the kitchen, all most expectantly, before giving Chandra a sidelong glance.
And, of course, it was about that point that Wren came out with Lafe's sippy cup in hand. "Oi, kiddo, I got your drink. Going to have to wait for mine, but at least you've got -- er, hi." The short man paused, eyes widening slightly at the sight of Chandra sitting on the couch with Lafe. "I leave you alone again Lafe and people appear. I'm beginning to wonder." He shook his head with a small grin, nodding his head towards Chandra in greeting.
"Nice to see you."
"And you as well," Chandra said politely, studying the man who had emerged from the kitchen. He looked familiar and she had a feeling there was something about him that she had wanted to ask about. But before she could vocalize it, the thought was gone.
"The little one and I were discussing his cards. They're very interesting," she said mildly, "but I am not sure I completely understood Lafe's explanation."
Wren merely smiled warmly at Chandra, coming closer and crouching down in front of the couch near Lafe. He glanced towards the young lady with a raised eyebrow, chuckling.
"Were you? Lafe's been attached to the set since I gave it to him." He paused for a moment, eyes going from Chandra to Lafe. "They're tarot cards, so each one has it's own meaning -- and I'm sure that was what he was trying to explain. I think, at least." Holding out the cup for Lafe to take, he smiled at his charge.
Lafe set down the card he was holding, leaning forward to grasp the handles of the cup being held out to him. His scarf fell down from his shoulders once more, but he didn't seem to care as he finally got a drink. If he could've talked, he might have said something along the lines of 'Let me get a drink and then I'll finish telling you all about these cards ...' to Chandra.
"Tarot cards," Chandra said, filing that knowledge away as she looked down at the cards again. "What does this one mean?" She delicately used one hand to push the card Lafe had pushed at her earlier towards Wren, her eyes wide and unblinking. It was never wise to pass up another chance for knowledge.
Glad that Lafe seemed content with his drink, Wren turned his attention towards the card that Chandra was nudging his way. "Ah, let me see." Fingers sliding under the card, Wren picked it up under the watchful eyes of Lafe.
"Hmm. It's The High Priestess." The card features a woman in a flowing dress sitting on a stone seat, a scroll held in her hands, a crescent moon at her feet, and a pillar on either side. "She holds secrets, possibly the future not yet unrevealed. Generally, the card can represent mystery, silence, or wisdom." He flipped the card upside down and looked back up at Chandra. "But if you reverse the card like I have, it's meanings change. There could be wisdom, but there is also conceit, moral ardour, passion ..." He chuckled, shaking his head. "It all depends on how you apply the card when you give somebody a reading and how the person receiving the reading takes it."
Lafe was leaning forward himself, watching Wren as he talked about the card and glancing up every so often at his face and then towards Chandra. He'd be able to do that one day, explain the cards and all that. He took another sip from his cup before placing it to the side, making a small noise that could've been agreement with what Wren said.
Interesting. Chandra hadn't known there was such a deck of cards. Her experiences had been limited to games. Furrowing her brow slightly, she reached out for the Pristess card. "It depends on the person as well as the reader? So they have a choice in their fate?"
Fate seemed always to be on her mind lately - popping up all over the place. Looking over at Lafe, she met his eyes with a grim look.
"This is heavy stuff, kiddo."
Tarot cards were considered a game to some, to those that only played around with them at least. Not to somebody who could actually see and tell the future. "They have a choice in how they see their fate, yes." Wren paused, glancing towards Lafe who was peering up at Chandra curiously. Though it was likely to all ways be the same. "Though I tend to think it's only different paths to the ultimately the same fate." It was hard to change somebody's fate drastically, very hard. Or that was how Wren thought of it. Lafe's eyes narrowed, comprehending Chandra's words to some degree and the look on her face. His own face took on a serious look, those silvery-blue eyes seeming older than he was. Reaching forward with a small hand, he lightly patted it against Chandra. He knew, even at this age, that using there was a lot to what he seemingly tried to do with the cards.
Chandra sighed as Lafe patted her, letting out air and tension all at once. No need to get worked up over fate, either her choices would bring her closer to it or not - really nothing she could do. "I would like to think there are different paths and not that our fates are set long before we do anything worth punishing or rewarding." She looked idly at Wren, placing the card back down. She wondered what his opinion was. It was good to talk to someone who she didn't have to constantly question their motives.
Lafe looked up at Chandra, lips turning up in a small smile. He was, if anything, attempting to scoot closer to her. Chandra, to him ... Well, Lafe merely thought it was a good idea to get closer. It was all most as if he felt the urge to offer a little comfort, but didn't realize it. Wren sat back on his heels, fingers held together on his knees. "True ..." He trailed off, thinking. "The sum of our existence determines the fate we receive?" Is that what she meant? It was something he had thought of before. "I tend to think that we have singular fates, our actions take us to that fate, but they also change it -- for better, or for worse. Punishing us or rewarding us, utlimately in the end." If that even made sense.
Chandra looked back down at Lafe and put out a hand to him if he wanted to take it. He felt nice, not as energetic as some of the other young ones. He was calm, a state she could appreciate. "So we can change our fate through the choices we make. Can others make those choices for us as well?" Chandra puzzled along, letting the words come out as they entered her mind. It was nice not to have to let everything remain pent up inside.
Lafe paused for a brief moment, watching Chandra's hand and then her face. It passed though and he put his hand in hers, taking it and scooting so that he was at least up against her side.
Wren, wisely, chose to say nothing about Lafe's movements. It was rare for the baby to make any forward actions, but Chandra was a lot more reserved than most that Lafe encountered. "People can't make your choices for you, no. They can manipulate you and if you go along with their manipulations and make the choice they want you to make, then yes they can." The demon shook his head slightly, knowing far too well of some who did enjoy manipulating fates of others.
Chandra said nothing when Lafe moved closer to her, knowing that if she were in his place, she would not want such a motion to be remarked upon. Even with the realizations she had made lately about the need to be with others, she was not quite comfortable with the notion that she was not necessarily best on her own. Chandra slowly blinked her large eyes in Wren's direction, absorbing his words and turning them around in her own mind. They seemed applicable to her situation and in line with some of the decisions she had made, but it almost made her nervous to have such direct confirmation that she might have done the right thing. Quietly she questioned him, her voice even. "Might there be situation in which the actions of others constrain the choices you yourself can make? In that way others would be able to change your fate without your own consent. After all, no one lives their life in complete isolation from others."
Lafe made little noise, besides the sound of his tail swishing back and forth slowly as he found a comfortable spot against Chandra. His ears twitched, picking up the words that were being spoken between the two in conversation. Absently he nuzzled against her side, all most fox-like in behavior. She felt, to him, nervous and perhaps wary. "Like a mouse in a maze," Wren murmured, blue eyes focused on Lafe and then Chandra's own eyes as she spoke to him. The demon wondered briefly what could possibly cause such questions to be asked, but he'd leave it be. "It is possible, I suppose. Through manipulation of one's enviroment. If they limit your knowledge, what you can work with, along with other things? Well, solution can force you to see the solution only they want you to see." Pushing up his glasses, Wren gave Chandra a small smile. It could've been seen as grim, as it words weren't exactly something he was fond of saying. The demon would never be one to enjoy the games some played with the fates of others. "... just, in that kind of case, remember to look outside of the box contained in. Outthink and outsmart whomever, you know?"
Chandra nodded solemnly to Wren, letting his words sink in. She sighed very softly and used her free hand to sweep her fine hair back behind her ears. When she was done, she let her hand settle back down at her side - as always, moving as economically as possible. "Making one's own choices is so very difficult." She thought perhaps she would leave it at that, but then reconsidered. Up to a point it seemed like the less you told someone, the more they wanted to know more. She might be able to stall further questions by revealing a bit more information. "I am not entirely sure who would like me to do what. I am stuck doing nothing," she glanced down at Lafe, "until I am sure that I have an option that someone else has not already aniticipated." Studying the top of Lafe's head, Chandra could not help but be curious about the child. He seemed very reserved at first glance, but had become more friendly as time passed. "What is Lafe's favorite color?" She said curiously, an idea forming in the back of her mind.
"The choices we all make tend to get harder as time passes," Wren wrinkled his nose up at the thought, but said it nonetheless. "It's how things go." He gave a shrug of his shoulders, fingers playing with the tarot cards still somewhat spread out next to where Lafe and Chandra were. He blew a piece of hair out of his eyes, fingering a card absently. Lafe raised his head slightly, one ear cocked sideways and the other not, as if he felt Chandra's eyes on him. Those silvery-blue eyes focused on her briefly, face all but neutral in expression except for a moment when there might've been a flicker of a smile. All most an involuntary attempt at a 'it'll be okay' type smile. His small fingers reached and latched onto a bit of Chandra's dress, curling into it lightly while he turned his head back down to peer at it. "Ah, well." Wren said after a moment of silence, turning to look at Chandra once more. "Waiting is usually your best option, in some cases. If you can't move one way or another, without becoming further ensnared then wait. The only thing is, if someone is doing that ... Strong enough to manipulate such things around you?" He paused, giving her a warmer smile than before. "Well, unless they're gifted with the gift of foresight, they can't possibly see everything that's too come either." Going silent, and thinking about Chandra's question, the demon turned his attention back to his child. "You know, I can't really say. He seems fond of dark colors, particularly red." There was a small snort at that, considering Lafe's attire. "... but he seems fond of lavendar too." Which was odd.
Pondering the conversation she had been trying to get away from, Chandra decided perhaps opening up was not as bad of an idea as she thought. It seemed as though everyone was always telling her not to, so the best option might be to do so. Blinking several times to clear her mind of circular thoughts, she spoke again - this time even quieter. "The one person involved who can see the future seems to be losing her grip on the present. I can no longer trust what she says and I believe this may be connected to the others. The ones who wish me to do something I am not sure I am comfortable with." Chandra brought her free hand up to shuffle through the cards that Lafe had been playing with, randomly choosing one to study. "I have some gifts I have given to friends in the past. I shall attempt to find one suitable for Lafe, so that he may also be connected." She flipped the card around in her hand, wondering about it's meaning - but not wanting to ask directly.
Wren frowned slightly, brows drawn together in thought and he really tried to push the displeasurable idea of Chandra being controlled like this from his mind before it really started to irk him. This wasn't something he could get involved in and he knew it -- it was Chandra's business and he figured she'd handled it as best she could. At least, from what he thought of how she acted and seemed. "From what I've heard, that's about right. The future is never certain, the paths to different, but ... if this woman is losing her grip on the present then perhaps that's in your favor. Just because someone knows the future doesn't mean they know the correct way to orchestrate things to lead to that future." The demon could only wonder just what exactly these people wanted Chandra to do. Nothing too good, if she was dealing with potentially powerful people. "I'm sure he'd like it regardless of what it is." Wren chuckled, looking at Lafe once more. "All most as sure he'd give you a tarot card reading when he's older, as fascinated as he is with them now." An absent gesture made to the cards. Lafe squirmed around some, one of his hands going to rest against Chandra's arm as he started to focus on the card she was looking at, briefly looking at her as well. That one was one he liked, at least how it looked to him didn't seem bothersome. Like The Moon on his scarf -- that he didn't like.
Chandra couldn't help but give Lafe a rare smile, her mouth moving slightly to display the rarest of her publicly displayed emotions. She brought the card closer to him so he could see it clearly, and then asked, only slightly kidding, "What do you think it means, little one?" She didn't look up at Wren, but she was taking in everything he said. It was true that Kam had been difficult to trust even before her latest bout of what seemed like insanity, but she had been one of the only anchors Chandra had. Kam at least pretended to have concern for her daughter's well-being. Thinking this all through, Chandra couldn't help but stiffen slightly - becoming noticeably still, even if one had thought she was still before.
Once more casting Chandra a briefly shy look when she moved the card towards him, he looked back to it when everything was still deemed fine. The baby actually seemed to look intently at the card, fingers reaching out but not quite touching it with his spare hand. He shook his head some, scarf moving out of the way, before he quietly let out something in that soft-spoken garbled baby language of his. ... and if older people didn't understand, it was there own fault. Lafe knew what he was talking about, really! The card obviously meant things about the future and crowds. Crowds were bad. Except Chandra had gone still and her body stiffened and Lafe turned his attention back to her. Lafe let out a quiet whine, head nudging up against her side and ears held to the side slightly. Something about going that still didn't sit right with him. Wren was just watching the two of them, letting Chandra digest. Raising an eyebrow at the whine, and the way that Chandra seemed to have gone entirely still, he stopped himself from reaching forward. Lafe all ready reacted. "I think he's got something to say about all the cards," he spoke, eyes studying Chandra. Just what was going through that girl's mind? Though he'd likely not want to know.
"It does seem that way, doesn't it?" Chandra mused, mostly to herself. She had often wished there was a better way to communicate with children. From experience, she knew that dragging Lafe's soul into Death with her might reveal an older psyche - but she had no idea what the side effects of such a journey would be. The only one she had taken and returned was Dare - and he was special in his own way, connected to Death through his powers of Time. Suddenly feeling tired (thinking of Dare perhaps, or the phoilosophical discussion weighing her down), Chandra extracted a hand from Lafe and moved to rustle his hair, pausing briefly above his head as she thought better of it. "I think I may be going soon," she said, looking at Wren seriously. "I am feeling weary."
"Mm, it does. Can't say it seems a bit odd, but ..." Wren just trailed off, letting things go unsaid. What can you do about children who are considered Legends in their own right? Nodding his head slightly, he started to pick up the tarot cards that had been spread out. "You do look a little worn around the edges. You should get some rest, if you can. I probably need to get Lafe home too." Lafe's ears went back slightly when Chandra moved, eyes staring first at her hand in the air above him. He shifted, when she didn't, the tip of one ear brushing against the palm of her hand and it was left at that. The fox-child started to move until he could sit comfortably and have a good hold of his tail. His eyes fixated on the white fur, tugging on it some while glancing between father and Chandra. As much as he figured? It was getting close to time to go.
Chandra grinned at the fleeting touch of Lafe's ear on her palm and then stood fluidly, making her way towards the door. "It was interesting to speak with both of you," she said simply, pausing before leaving the room.
It was good to see Chandra grin or smile, but Wren kept that to himself as he cleaned up the cards, turning towards her as a thought crossed his mind and she was leaving. "It was, and you take care of yourself." The demon paused, a thought crossing his mind, and he also added. "And, if you'd like to visit Lafe or anything," if Chandra needed help or anything of the like went by unsaid, "you can come by the house. You could see Lafe and Alex. Don't you've met him, but you might like him." An odd smile was on his lips at the thought of Chandra and Alex meeting. The two were more than likely to either get along in his mind or ... something else. He wasn't sure what. Quickly pulling out a pen and writing down the address on a stray piece of paper, Wren picked himself up and walked over to Chandra to hand it to her. "That's the place. Just be warned, I may attempt to get you to babysit if you come by." The last words were mostly said jokingly. "Just teasing though." He smiled at her. Lafe let out a small whine, crawling towards the edge of the couch and trying to get Wren's attention for a change, but it was fleeting. He looked past him to Chandra and raised his hand briefly in a small wave, tail wagging lazily behind him. It was as much of a good bye the baby could manage.
Taking the paper and tucking it into the recesses of her dress, Chandra nodded at Wren and gave Lafe a quick finger wave before disappearing out the door.
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Posted: Tue May 24, 2005 6:09 am
From Chandra's Hand I am fascinated by the idea of tarot cards, of the role they might play in answering my questions about fate. I will need to stay in touch with the little Legend Lafe until he is capable of communicating with me - so that I may see for myself what the cards would have of me.
When I arrived home from the HQ, I surprised Zayne in the kitchen. She has apparently been teaching herself to write, which I find extremely impressive. Without a past life full of knowledge to pull on, she has certainly advanced quickly.
Kam, however, was nowhere to be found once again. I do wish I knew where she has been disappearing to lately. The whole situation makes me nervous.
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2005 9:13 am
Port Gino: The Faerie Slipper [Rebirth]My children are so troublesome, and yet I cannot blame them for the choices they have made - I am in fact proud of them, in a way only a mother can be. I realize that I may be the only person who still loves my daughters after the centuries I have allowed them their free reign - I am not even sure if they love eachother - but I have no choice. It was my body that gave them form, my breath that gave them life, and my blood that gave them power.
I still am not sure why they attempted to lock me away for eternity and it hurts to suspect they do not love and respect me the way they should.
They did, however, manage to find both a necromancer capable of freeing me and a seer capable of containing me - neither one a small feat. I am not yet sure if this was planned or simply coincidence. Power does seek power, after all. I believe that Mictecacihuatl may suspect my presence back on this plane, but I cannot be sure. She obviously does not suspect that the woman seer is one of my descendants, one of the far flung few who has inherited a small piece of my soul.
It is rather impressive, the size of the powers she has manifested, but it threatens her sanity and ultimately her life. They came on late, forcefully and all at once, something her psyche was not prepared for. According to her memories, she does not even know her true parents - which means she was never warned of her possibilities. My occupation may either cure her or kill her, allthough as one of my children I do hope the former.
For now I am attempting to dampen the storm of futures assaulting the woman - we are at a crossing point, a moment of decision - and assisting my daughters. I wish to see what their end goal is for the girl Chandra.
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2005 2:44 pm
[Falling for You, Part One]Quote: Just wish I had a crystal ball To show me, if it's worth it all Quote: Hugging several records to her chest, Chandra reached out to pluck another one off the shelf in front of her. This tiny hole in the wall music store had been quite the find and she jealously guarded her time here, hiding its existence from her entire household. The time she spent here thumbing through old records to add to her growing collection was some of the only time she had to relax. The place really was a haven of sorts. Studying the back of the Pink Floyd album she had plucked from amongst the multicolored multitude leaning together on the shelf, Chandra couldn't help but wonder what it was that possessed humans to make music. It wasn't as if most of them were even aware of the power it could have - at least conciously. "Can I help you?" Chandra started slightly as one of the sales staff spoke from beside her and shook her head furiously, eyes wide. The records she had been clutching began to slide against the smooth fabric of her dress and both she and the helpful young man lurched forward at the same time. Moments later, sitting on the floor - Chandra favored the young sales person with a look and spoke quietly (dispelling the popular rumor that she was some sort of ghost). "I am quite alright without any assistance." Nervously swallowing at the unnatural seriousness in Chandra's tone, the young man stood quickly and backed out through the slightly maze-like shelves until he was out of sight. Chandra, having already dismissed him from her mind, reached out and pulled another record into her lap for inspection. Quote: "Do you even have anything to play a record on?" A mismatched pair of Rangers walk elbow to shoulder down the busy street, dodging and avoiding the increasing night crowds. One man, dressed fully in a suit and equipped with a briefcase and cellphone, shoves his way through Truth and Dare. The smaller of the two, apparently younger as well, rolls his eyes, straying closer to the shop windows, eyes scanning for a particular store. "Oh, shove it. I'm sure I can find a good player at a pawn shop, or something." And there it is, the store he'd heard about through the grapevine. With Truth's persuasive skills, he'd managed to maintain a job at the Cafe, known under a different name and as his older self's brother. He didn't mind that much, as long as it means keeping Truth off his back for money. Entering the store, he stands in the doorway to pass on a warning to Truth. "Don't stay so close behind me. Go .. look at a different section, or something." Truth takes this chance to roll her own eyes, ignoring how alike the two still remain. "Right. And why do I feel like the uncool older sister here..?" The child Ranger just gives a sly smile as his response, moving along the rows of records to the right. He fingers them randomly, scanning the titles and artists for something that strikes him as familiar. His eyes remain down, and he doesn't pay any attention to other customers around him. Quote: A jingle as the shop door opens and closes briefly attracts Chandra's attention, but as the average customer is about as social as she is - she doesn't worry about it overly much. As the newly entered customers speak to eachother, she rolls her eyes a bit and stands. Hefting a growing pile of records in front of her, Chandra turns and favors the doorway with a scowl - hoping to convey her distaste for noise. She doesn't recognize the woman and she softens her scowl. New people can be forgiven their rudeness - they just haven't absorbed the atmosphere here yet. Looking down at her pile, Chandra begins to thumb through things to figure out the damage. While she didn't have many expenses, an allowance didn't really go that far. She would likely need to find another source of cash soon if she intended to continue shopping. "Five, ten, ..." Chandra muttered to herself, adding things up as she began to walk back towards the front of the store. It was a good thing used records were so cheap. As she absently reached up to brush back a chunk of hair behind her ear, balancing the records on one arm, the Pink Floyd album slipped out of place and raced towards the floor. Quote: Dare peeks over at Truth, finding to his dismay that he can't see her. Frowning, the height thing hits him again. He sighs, his eyes returning to the row directly in front of him, replacing his hand atop the records again. Something hits the ground close to him, and the movement draws his eyes away from the blur of titles as he walks to his right. He pauses, accidentally allowing his childish self drain through and picks up the fallen record. He runs his hand along it as he stands up, eyes busily checking the record for damage retained in the fall. "You dropped this," he states calmly as he turns over the record. "Nice choice, by the way. I don't think it's broken or nothing.." And it's then that he raises his eyes.. Quote: "Or anything." Chandra corrects, reaching out for her record. Her face is already flushed, a combination of the fact that she has very pale skin and her embarassment at having been caught being so clumsy by a child. Raising her eyes to his as she grabs for the record, Chandra stops short and the blood drains out of her face abruptly. She can feel it, the cooling feeling of her cheeks losing blood and the sinking feeling in her stomach that often accompanies it - as if she had just plunged over a cliff of indterminate height. "Oh," is all she can muster, whispering. She studies the boy in front of her, working her way from his feet up to his trademark red hair. "You look like someone I used to know," she says to excuse her rudeness. "But he was older than you." The rational part of Chandra's mind is already pushing her to take the record and go, but her body doesn't seem to want to move. So instead she just stands there gaping, one pale hand extended. "I'm sorry?" she says, making it a question when she doesn't mean to. "Dare?" Quote: Truth watches from closeby, but having the expertise in the area of people observing, she's keen on the subject of keeping hidden. Her eyes, however, tell the whole tale, slitting as the two converse. Biting hard onto his lower lip, Dare's eyes dart from side to side as he takes one nervous step backwards. Caught offguard, he isn't really sure what to say. "Oh," he says clearly and loudly enough for Truth to overhear, knowing her skills and that she more than likely is. "W-well, I'm not that person, I don't.. know you." His face is hidden from where Truth can see it, and clearly tells a different story. His eyes are strange and pleading, finding this the only chance he has actually been provided to connect with his old life. And, without any warning or reason, a sudden rush of nostalgia for his old life explodes throughout his senses. Dare moves two steps forward, he puts the record directly into her hand, his empty hand brushing her knuckles in a way that seems accidental. However, the brief accompanying glance exploits this as something much more meaningful. "Enjoy that record, miss," he plainly says, turning away with utmost regret for having to do so. He keeps an expressionless face, maintaining the act for Truth's sake. The last thing he wants is all ties broken by her. Quote: Startled, Chandra dumbly nods as the little boy tells her he isn't who she thinks he is. She doesn't believe him, especially not after he hands her the record - but she is confused and a little hurt. Tucking the Pink Floyd album back into her pile and setting the whole thing carefully on the shelf beside her, she makes her voice as neutral as possible. "You are taking this whole thing a little far are you not?" she asks, plainly irritated, despite her attempts to hide it. "I realize we parted under less than ideal circumstances, but I really do not think you need to pretend you do not know me." Catching herself, Chandra takes a deep breath and reaches out for Dare's shoulder to turn him around. If he is going to continue lying to her, she wants him to have to do it to her face. "I know you are Dare. Either that or you mugged him, which considering your diminutive size I find difficult to image." Certain in her logic, Chandra holds up her own ever present crescent moon shaped charm so the boy can see if he turns. "You have his hourglass charm." Quote: Dare whirls around, eyes sternly locking onto Chandra's. His face is devoid of emotion, something he's learned to teach himself through Truth's advisories on Ranger life. No Ranger should be allowed to show true emotion, as it shows weakness and allows for foolish mistakes. He grits his teeth a little before deciding on a moment to speak, finding the situation unavoidable. Without a look to Truth whatsoever, especially due to his not being able to see her from here, he calmly speaks to Chandra in a voice much like his own but not quite. "Alright, Chandra, you've got me." He throws up his hands in a mock-giving up stance. "You're very intelligent, so why is it that logic doesn't dominate? How can I be Dare when I'm.. I'm.." His hands drop to his sides while he speaks, but now he raises his right and holds it out palm up. In it lies the charm spoken about moments ago. "I can't come back now. I'm learning that my old destiny will destroy those I care about most, and that I really just cannot let happen." Truth's eyes snap open wide as she listens in, the record she picked up to play the act fell soon after rigidly out of place. She clenches her fists, nails digging into her palms as he speaks just loudly enough for her to catch the words. Blood appears from tiny slitted cuts on her palms, and she eases herself out of true anger. Weakness, as brainwashed into Dare, is in the emotions and emotional connections, and she certainly cannot be weak, especially now that he has exposed to her his ultimate weakness. Quote: Chandra softens slightly at Dare's admission that she is correct, although she tries not to show it - keeping as close a semblance to her natural icy demeanor as possible. Swallowing, she picks back up the records she placed on the top of the shelf beside her. "Logic has never played any role in our relationship, Dare. You can see through time and I speak to the Dead." She spoke softly, her voice pitched such that he would only barely be able to hear her. "Would you like to go somewhere else? The staff here, while friendly, is likely to listen in on any conversation we have." Chandra favored him with a slightly wistful look, hugging her records in close as if they could serve as some sort of shield. "I have been struggling with destiny as well. Perhaps we could... empathize with one another?" Quote: Dare winces, outright and without any attempt to hide it from Truth. He closes his hand on the charm, hiding the hand in his pocket as he fingers the grooves, He often subconsciously finds himself doing now that the pendant isn't in plain sight anymore. "You're right, of course. You always have been." He nods wisely at this suggestion, if anything to take the chance to anger Truth further. Although he can't see her expression, he certainly is aware of her exposed anger. "It's not like I can afford records anyway," he adds cheekily, slipping in a small smile. It disappears as quickly as it surfaces, however, as the boy Legend takes a step forward to Chandra's side. His eyes are up at her, a certainly new experience for him. It had been some time they'd spent, him taller than her, but now with the roles flipped.. "You know, if I didn't know you any better, I'd say you're actually somewhat of a.. an Ice Queen. Y'look all cold and stern while upholding that magesty and stunning delicacy," he comments with forceful blandness, offhandedly shrugging the sort-of compliment her way. "Good thing I do know you better, though," he adds, just as cheeky as his earlier comment. Quote: "Cheeky," Chandra commented dryly. "Should children like you really be out unaccompanied?" She glanced around, trying to get her eye on the woman she had glared at by the door. It would make sense if Dare was not in fact unaccompanied on his trip to the record store. Raising one delicate eyebrow, Chandra set the records down again - this time without any regard for the delicate balance of the pile. She kneeled, getting much closer to Dare, but careful not to actually touch him. "Are you ok?" She asked quietly. Her tone implied that the question could mean more than the usual limited social function it served. Quote: "Oh, I'm sure you already assume otherwise," he remarks, brushing fingers through the front of his red hair. "Though you know very well that I'm not a child - well, at least not inside, where it counts." As she makes the effort to talk to him quietly, he struggles not to fall into a frown, feeling exposed as it is. The height, however, helps to soothe his nerves, bringing them, in his mind, much closer to the actual truth rather than a temporary "fiction." No one really grows backwards, thus this is just a.. setback. "Do I look fine to you?" he whispers, his voice tinged with disappointment. He blinks rapidly, keeping his eyes averted just off to the side of Chandra. Eye contact would warrent unnecessary exposure of emotion, and hiding his seems to be the only logical lesson he's picked up on from Truth. Quote: "I see," Chandra said, her eyes narrowing. "Are we going to be stopped if I attempt to take you elsewhere to speak more freely?" She stays kneeling, also more comfortable with less of a difference in height. It feels so odd to be taller than someone she thinks of as older. It s a reversal of roles which makes her uncomfortable. She isn't comfortable with the idea that she might be the one who needs to lead. Tucking her hair behind her ear, Chandra attempts to smile - she finds that people often find such a guesture reassuring in this sort of situation. Quote: "I don't care if we are," he retorts bitterly, but through the low volume of his voice one can tell that he does. "She isn't the boss of me, no matter how much she'd like to think she is." Although his child-like demeanor might contradict this, his eyes hold back onto Chandra's with a certain age and wisdom locked within them. They are one of the last things he has as physical proof of his actual age. In this position, the longing to reach out and touch her cheek and her soft hair strengthens, but he can feel the eyes on his back. They are not only from Truth, whose eyes he's aware have always been watching, but from a suspicious employee in addition. Instead, he grasps the edge of his coat to prevent his hand from leaving his side. With a nudge of his head, hair swishing accordingly, he breaks out of his dazed silence. "If you want to go somewhere, I'm happy to tag along. I've gotten so sick of running and hiding." Behind this, watching and observing as a good Time Ranger does, not even common sense puts up a good enough resistance for Truth's intervening. She calmly - at least, outwardly seeming calm - steps out from behind the row she'd been preoccupied with, grabbing a firm hold on Dare's shoulder. "C'mon, brother," she says through gritted teeth. "I think we've spent just about enough time at this place." She makes a strong effort not to look at Chandra in any shape or form, focusing strongly on Dare. Quote: As Truth grabs Dare's shoulder, Chandra stands and stretches to her full height. There are two options in her mind at this point and both of them seem equally attractive. She can either play along with this charade (there is no doubt in her mind that this woman is not Dare's "sister"), or she can attempt to call attention to the whole thing. Giving Dare an odd look, Chandra crosses her arms and speaks neutrally to Truth. "I do not believe we have met previously," she said, extending a cold, pale hand in Truth's direction. "Nor have I seen you on any of my past visits to Dare's house." She probably should add something along the lines of, "My name is Chandra..." but since she would have to fight back the irrational urge to finish with, "and I could probably rip your soul into tiny pieces." she decides to keep her mouth firmly shut. It is times like this when she misses her wings and the ability to make herself look much bigger by fanning them out behind her. Quote: Dare stands as the only boundary between the two. The notion angers him, as well as the lack of height making him feel like anything but a contributer to this high-tension conversation. With a simple look over of Chandra, Truth forces a small smile. "No, of course you couldn't see me," she shrugs, rather matter-of-factly as she twists the wrist of her free hand in the air. "I wouldn't expect such a pawn to have that sort of insight." She says this only as an attack, having never actually been present within Dare's house, besides through his dreams. But in establishing power and status here, she can maintain the hold on her prized partner. Soon enough, she'll have him back to his normal self, she promises herself. Tightening her grip, and in turn driving her nails deep into Dare's coat, she brushes Chandra off to speak down, in two sense, to Dare again. "We should probably go now, sweety." Wincing noticably as the nails drive through his thinning coat and into his shoulder, Dare struggles to try and detatch her from his arm. "I want to stay and look at more records. You can go home, if that's what you want. I'm old enough to be able to get back there in one piece," he growls, finding it easier to play the role of the youngest individual now than before. Not only that, but he manages to send the employee off their backs, the uniformed man continuing to resort records. The last thing they need right now is attention. Quote: Chandra smiles, unable to bite back a laugh at the woman attempting to hold onto Dare. Leaving her grim smile in place, a warning sign to anyone who actually knew her, she spoke softly. "If you were anything other than a pawn yourself, you wouldn't have to hold onto him so tightly. You are clearly unsure in your power over Dare. Your relationship is obviously a weakness and since you are attempting to cover it up by speaking strongly, I can only conclude it is a large one." Chandra uncrossed her arms and shrugged, consciously copying Truth's earlier movement. "I am not going to try and steal him, just speak to him. Surely," and here Chandra paused briefly, "Surely the words of a mere pawn couldn't ruin anything." Not a trace of sarcasm entered Chandra's voice and she kept herself from glancing down at Dare. She disliked that this seemed to be some sort of duel where he was the prize. Quote: Truth narrows her eyes, finding herself slipping far too easily than she'd expected. Then again, she should have assumed Dare would not make mistakes with whom he'd befriend and draw allies out of. "Fine," she growls, releasing her hold on Dare and shoving it forward. "I am quite sure of his abilities to play nice with the pawns of this world. After all, I taught him everything constructive he knows myself, and for many lifetimes we've exchanged teachings." Nostalgia slips through, but she can only hope it proves her point. Black hair longer in the front than the back, it hangs close to her line-drawn expression. She can't seem to shake the truth of Chandra's words without losing faith in herself and their destiny, and that simply cannot be. "I expect him back home at a suitable time for someone of his.. age." Dare's face is nothing short of disgusted. Furrowing his eyebrows, he fights back the urge to shout out in frustration about the situation his de-growth has stuck him in. Instead, he rubs at his sore shoulder, sidestepping towards Chandra, having been passed along into her "possession." He bites bitterly down on the tip of tongue, sure that once Truth disappears - she would never truly leave him, this he's found out the hard way - things will improve. Quote: "Very well," Chandra said simply. Having achieved her aim, she no longer feels any need to verbally spar with this woman. Dismissing Truth with a head nod, she looks down at Dare. Lost for a moment, she simply sighs. "This is very odd. I am unused to children - which you are not," she quickly adds. "but which you resemble. I am unsettled." Pulling her cloak in tighter and flipping up her hood to guard against exposure to the summer sunlight, Chandra looks towards the door. "There is a cafe around the corner. The clientele is a bit odd, but there are not many windows." Quote: Truth is gone, and by that it is meant in the literal sense. Dare only had his eyes off her for a few seconds, but she's no longer there, and the door didn't make any noise. Grimly glancing at the door, he hoped it was just his lack of attention and that she didn't, in fact, disappear in public. "It's fine," Dare replies, turning back to Chandra now, his eyes quickly, yet sadly, getting used to looking up at her. "I'm sure it'll do fine." His heart sinks in his chest as he makes his way to the door, inconspicuously glancing around for any sign of Truth. It's much more comforting knowing where she is rather than knowing she could just be anywhere. Pressing this thought aside, he briefly reaches out to Chandra, touching her arm affectionately very briefly. "There's a lot we've got to talk about, huh?" he sighs, conclusively.
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Posted: Sat Jul 02, 2005 8:43 am
[Falling for You, Part Two]Quote: "Yes," she agrees, nodding her head as she pushes open the door and steps out onto the slightly busy sidewalk. Looking in both directions, she takes a left and trusts Dare to follow in her wake. She is too unsettled by the earlier encounter to respond in any rational way to the fact that he has touched her. "The past," she muses, more to herself than to Dare who may or may not be within hearing distance. "The past should stay in the past where it belongs." Even in a neighborhood such as this one, where the fringes of society pride themselves on their ability to shock the mainstream, Chandra's imposing figure and odd dress clear a path down the sidewalk. Seemingly oblivious, she continues purposefully down to a dark alley where she ducks inside and then immediately down a tiny iron staircase which appears to lead into utter darkness. It does not, but the tiny cafe at it's conclusion is not wel lit by any stretch of the imagination. Blue flourescent lights set into the ceiling cast odd shadows across the few patrons faces, which are largely obscured by a standing cloud of smoke. The tables are mismatched, appearing in all shapes and sizes, some of them with oddly clawed feet and spindly metal legs - like giant insects. The small amount of conversation present halts uneasily as Chandra enters and pauses to survey the available seating. Quote: "People can say that all they want, but is it ever really the case?" Dare finds it harder to keep pace with shorter legs, but tries all the same, not even sure if she heard his reply or not. He'd like nothing more to forget everything and start anew, but numerous attempts have shown him it's simply not possible. Looking around uneasily as the street clears for their easy access, he can't help but remember how different they actually do look out in the open. He finds himself reaching out for her in the dark, bitterly withdrawing at how childish the impulse to be afraid of the dark is. Instead, he just keeps a safe pace immediately behind Chandra. Because he steps in second, he isn't aware of the shift in conversation, the eery silence weirding him out moreso than the strange choice in furnature. Eyeing occupants, again uneasy, he allows himself to play the part and presses his shoulder against Chandra's side, closing any distance between them. His eyes wander anxiously, catching onto every movement with wary distrust. Quote: "Any preference?" Chandra says, unaware of any discomfort on Dare's part. "We could sit over there," she lifts one pale hand out from the darkness of her cape and points to the corner opposite the door. The patrons, clearly deciding Chandra and Dare are no threat, pick back up the normal quiet hum of conversation. A very wrinkled old woman emerges from somewhere in the back and hustles over to Chandra and Dare, carefully not looking closely at either of them. "Take a seat, dears." She says, her voice gravelly and anonymous. "Can't take your order until you sit." Quote: "S'fine," murmurs Dare quickly, but not initiating the steps forward to get there. Had it been any other time he wouldn't, but he'd much rather follow her lead on this one. He blinks forcefully once approached by the woman, wondering just where this place is. Certainly, them talking here is a secure idea, but the scene doesn't sit right with the child trying to push into control. He purses his lips, leaving the talking up to Chandra on this one. Quote: "Yes, yes." Chandra murmured impatiently to the woman, already taking steps to the previously mentioned table. She seated herself there and then waited for Dare to do the same. Shuffling along behind them, the old woman waited expectantly for her dears to order something. "I will have tea," Chandra said, not even glancing at the menus thrown carelessly on the edge of the table. "Whatever the tea of the day is. Black." She turned to look at Dare for a moment helplessly. Could children drink tea? She vaguely recalled something about caffeine stunting growth. "They probably have anything you might want," she finished finally, leaving his order up to him. Quote: Dare is used to the bar scene, and along with it comes ordering mildly alcoholic drinks. This, for obvious reasons, had to be one of the first things he changed. Instead, he shifted through various drinks offered, never finding one that particularly sticks with him. Sliding into his seat opposite Chandra, he finds himself again disliking this change all over again. "Water is fine," he decides hesitantly, after a silent look over of the menu tossed in front of him. He doesn't quite trust more than that, from the look of the surroundings and his own judgement. That, and lack of money.. He folds the menu back up, holding it out for the woman to take, ignoring the slight shakiness of his hands. Quote: Chandra frowned, but held up her own menu as well. She tried desperately to resist the urge to correct Dare, but she couldn't help herself. "You might not want the water," she said, as the woman taking their menus sighed loudly. "I try to stick to things that have been boiled or come bottled." Glancing up at the woman as she snatched the menus, Chandra closed her mouth. Nevermind, she said mentally. Nevermind. Quote: Dare shrugs. What could be so bad about water? "I'm sure I have had worse things pass through me," he states with a shrug, tugging at a sleeve subconsciously. Besides, he thought silently, I probably won't even end up drinking much. He moves his hands to the table, careful to keep his elbows off. Some things just stick with him, while others fly by without him acknowledging. Curving his fingers, he offhandedly drums out a vaguely familiar beat, eyes wandering as any curious child's would in a new environment. Just play the part, and all will be fine. Quote: Waiting for the old woman to shuffle off back off into the smoky darkness, Chandra watched Dare idly. Suddenly alone with him, she wasn't sure what to say or where to start. This really wasn't her forte. "Old girlfriend?" She asked, and then sat back and crossed her arms over her chest. "Sorry," she said more quietly. "You know I am not an expert in personal interaction." Letting her hands fall to her lap, so she could play with them out of sight, Chandra started over. "It has been sad not to see you. While I realize you are perhaps not happy with your current situation," she glanced up at him, "I am glad to see you are alive." Somewhere in the darkness, single notes emerged from an old and slightly out of tune piano. No one stopped talking for it, if anything the background noise simply increased to smother it, but it continued anyway and resolved itself into something that might have been familiar. Quote: Slumping back against his seat, he takes a heavy breath before he starts. "Her name's Truth, and we, apparently, go way back. Partners assigned in my past lives, when I held my Ranger position properly.." He shrugs halfheartedly, eyes fixated on a crack on the table's side. What else can he safely tell her, risking the chance of her overhearing? "As for being involved, I have no memory of that." It isn't a complete lie, he argues silently. One kiss doesn't make a relationship. "I've missed you a lot, Chandra," he admits, picking at the crack absentmindedly. He gives her a quick look, eyes catching a fair amount of light to shine their olive green colour. "I'm glad you haven't decided that the dead are more lovable or enticing than us living, or something." Me in particular, he adds silently. If not for her, it's very likely he would have easily fallen back into the Ranger scene, to be perfected as a top notch Ranger, a regular ol' kiss up rule follower with perfect grammar. Yes, a lot of thanks to her, but would he ever say it..? Dare picks up on the music without much notice of him doing so. One of his trademark traits shines through as he gently hums along with the tune, filling in some missing pieces. Quote: Chandra shrugs, controlling her expression through sheer force of will. It is clear to her that if they were not involved, it wasn't because Truth didn't want to be. The woman's behavior made that clear this afternoon. But Chandra did not want this to end up like the last time they had spoken. It was an important lesson to learn, this staying quiet sometimes. It made sense with enemies, but with friends... Chandra looked carefully at Dare ... it felt like lying. "Truth," Chandra said, committing it to memory along with the woman's face. It would possibly pay to know someone else with powers like Dare's. "I missed you as well Dare," she said honestly, removing her cape and allowing it to drape over the back of her chair. "I did not know if I would see you next in Life or Death. Or ever." Her cape removed, Chandra pulled her hair back quickly into a small ponytail at the base of her neck. Anything to keep her hands busy and out of her lap where they would twist and fret. "The Dead are pale comparisons to the Living," Chandra recited dully. It was one of Xochi's favorite sayings. "They do not understand passion in the same way because they are not operating under a deadline." Picking up on Dare's humming, Chandra decided not to recount her latest revelations among the Dead. Instead she tilted her head to the side to better listen to the faltering tune emerging from some unknown source. "Do you know the song?" she asked, trying to keep the conversation light. Quote: "I know most songs," he says with a small, almost sad smile. "I probably won't know names or most lyrics, but the tune.." He leans across the table, minding to keep his elbows off but his forearms on. Smiling wildly now, he brushes aside all of the heavier topics, focusing in on the happier. Anything to avoid remembrance of the last time they talked. "You ever have any cool talents you have no explination for? Like with me and music. I feel like.. like I'm cheating, somehow. Because I know all this - I know it - and it'd take a regular person their whole life to just learn it all. And all I did was wake up one day and hold a guitar, and suddenly I'm some musical genius." He sits back, his hands still on the table. Even like this, the height difference is noticable, but if he continues talking, he can at least block out the mishap of age from affecting anything. He keeps the smile, eyes glimmering through messy red hair. Quote: Chandra glanced away at Dare's words. Her inborn talents weren't exactly the stuff of polite conversation. But if she couldn't be herself, what was the point? Looking carefully down at the surface of the table, where she had now laid her hands - both palm down and still, Chandra let her hair fall down in front of her face a little. "That is a wonderful skill Dare. I'm sure you make some very beautiful music." Music she would love to hear. Or to particpate in, the way they had on a couple occasions when they both were younger - and softer. But time moved on, and they'd changed. Perhaps too much. "My skills tend to be a little less useful. I can sometimes see the color of a person's soul - whether the choices they've made have been good or bad - and I can feel when a person has died somewhere or if they are about to die." Her voice trailed off into silence. She knew this would make him uncomfortable and maybe he would leave, making her efforts to wean him from his companion earlier in vain. But she couldn't be something she wasn't - even if it meant having Dare around more. Quote: It was something he's always known but never really understood, something that dug and buried itself away in the depths of his knowledge. But now, with it open for conversation, it unavoidably surfaces. As she trails off, he pauses briefly before kneeling in the seat, effectively raising himself to a decent height now. Reaching his hands across, he braces himself for hers; if memory serves him right, and things haven't changed too greatly, they'll still be cold. He bites into the inside of his lower lip before choosing his words carefully. "I'm sure my experiences aren't comparable to yours," he starts, "But there's a trait I've got - if you can call it that - and I've had it ever since I can remember.." His eyes flicker to the side, catching on some sort of movement. It isn't a threat, merely a person changing seats, but he's on the edge as it is. She can be anywhere.. His green eyes move back into place on hers, but he can't help but to lower his voice. "Files. The newly dead, s'what I've guessed them to be.. I don't know. But I've held them, and I could see their memories.." A chill runs up his spine, as if someone is dragging an ice cube up it. No, no, it's only his overworked imagination.. Quote: "The newly dead," Chandra said slowly, raising her eyes so she was truly looking into Dare's. It was a bit of a shock to meet his eyes and she realized in that moment that she almost never really looked into someone's eyes. She feared what she would see there - what they thought of her and perhaps what she thought of them. "I see," was really all she could muster. She wanted to tell him that she was sorry, that having to see the memories of people you didn't know anything about except that they were dead had to be heart wrenching - but she didn't really have experience with finding words for such emotions. She tried again, her eyes most likely giving her away. "It must be tough, seeing lives you know have already ended. It is nice that you have the music." Quote: He slides back into his seat, his fingers dragging along hers on his way back. This wouldn't be so awkward if.. he mentally sighs. "Sometimes it's horrible. If I get the choice, I never want to touch them. I guess.. I guess it'd be even harder if it were someone you knew, right?" His voice is almost searching for reinforcement, though half-heartedly due to his knowledge of how well Chandra can express emotions. Brushing back stray red hair, he pushes aside manners and rests his elbow on the tablet, and his chin in his fist. "What happened to us, Chandra? Were we doomed from the start, or did I just mess us both up somehow?" He pulls at his shirt lightly. Maybe it's just me who always will be messed up.. Quote: Chandra lets Dare's hands go without any attempt to keep them. Even though mentally she craves that sort of affection, physically it isn't particularly comfortable. It is simply a reminder of the warmth of the living, a trait she has been denied and one she cannot hide. "Would it be?" she questioned, leaning back in her chair. "At least if you knew the person, you would have a framework within which to place the memories. You might even share some of them. I would like less the memories of those I did not know, for their life and memories are alien to me. What if their memories somehow slipped into mine?" Lost in her thoughts, Chandra is startled by Dare's question. Her normal reluctance to speak is bypassed by shock and she blurts something out. "Doomed? Just because something is not easy does not mean it is impossible. And not to be rude," she says, calming a bit, "but I doubt you have managed to mess anything up past the point of repair." Quote: Dare slides his arms into a crossed position, his chin now resting in the middle. He resembles most a depressed child, though he's mostly just in a troubled thoughtfulness. He kicks his legs gently in the air, forgetting that it could actually be fun to not have your feet touch the floor. "Maybe. You've always been the intelligent one," he remarks, a sad smile following. He gives her a glance as he does so, quickly resting his eyes on the chair behind her as they fade out of focus. "With everything that's happened, though, it just seems like I've been given two choices-" He extends his hands, holding them slightly apart and on their sides, palms facing one another. "- Door one and door two. And every time I had to make the decision on my own, I've picked the wrong door." He nestles back into his folded arms, finding slight comfort in it. "I hope you're right," he finally says, closing his eyes briefly. "And that you can forgive me." All the while, his legs kick and sway in the air, and they too inhabit a sort of rhythm to them, as it seems that through most of the things Dare does it can be calculated like a familiar song.. Quote: Chandra pounces on a particular phrase, sitting up again. Dare has found a sore spot, probably without realizing it. "Forgive you?" she said, her eyes narrowing. "Why would I need to forgive you? What have you done?" And if you're going to so do something, she added mentally, why don't you just warn me now. Quote: Dare raises his head wearily. "You can't tell me you've forgotten how badly I treated you last time.." He drops his head again, rather disappointed with a mix of alarm. "Or maybe you have, I don't know. The world's full of surprises." Kick, kick.. Quote: "Oh," Chandra said, sitting back again. "Well, yes of course I remember. But I would not have verbally sparred with your friend Truth if I did not wish to speak with you. It would have been much easier to walk away." On several levels, she added to herself with a mental sigh. The silent part of this conversation was getting to be pretty heavy. Crossing her legs under the table, Chandra stretched her pale hands out in front of her on the table and spread her fingers wide. "I would not have been upset by the way you treated me if I did not care for you. Since I do, it is easy to forgive you and hope that you will not act that way again." Quote: "Did you expect something else?" He brushes by this quickly, not really wanting to know a true answer. Sometimes there's no line for him between what's said aloud and what's in his head, and from the amount said in his head so far it was bound to happen. Raising up so he's slouching a little less, Dare is now leaning on both fists. "I was upset, too, and for pretty much the same reason. But now I know.. it really doesn't make a difference if I try and protect people. People get hurt all the time, and hurts often make them stronger." He doesn't notice, or at least doesn't mind, that his speech is slowly slipping back to a child's level. Perhaps that's what was meant all along; for Dare to come to a realization, to take a step back and learn something he'd missed all along. It is the baggage that comes along with allowing your self to feel and experience that may make the difference, but when you fast track yourself you tend to miss the big picture. And this he now knows. Quote: Chandra shrugged, she was quickly reverting back to the safety of an impassive mask. "You can assume my forgiveness, unless I tell you otherwise." It was a bit more of a blanket staement than she had intended, but it conveyed the intended sentiment. He had a bit of a special pass in this department, having been around for so much of her life. "One act of ... unkindness ... will not erase the memories and emotions of my childhood." Many such acts, however, would merit a rather special sort of revenge. She grinned seriously, baring a tiny bit of the small fangs she had had since infancy, but then comforted herself with the notion that revenge against Dare would never become necessary. Pushing back a wispy strand of hair, she slouched unconciously in her seat - putting her on more comfortable social footing with Dare. "People have to walk their own paths. You can influence them," she explained slowly, parroting her earlier conversation with Lafe's guardian. "but they ultimately choose for themselves. It is a lesson I am still struggling to apply to my life." Quote: He bobs his head in a nod. That's acceptable, he figures. And it certainly could have been worse. He catches sight of the grin, trying not to think too hard about this, especially at the sight of her fangs. "What're you struggling with, Chandra?" he asks, shifting the conversation slightly. All this attention on his self, especially with weeks of concentration on not being an individual, sets him off uneasily. "I don't think I've ever seen you not sure with yourself." He finally stops moving his legs, instead tracing a finger along the chip of the table to busy himself. Dratted childish attention span.. Her eyes widening a bit, Chandra reaches into her cloak and pulls out the key she has now been shackled to for the rest of her (short?) life. It looks to be made of brass, but a long time ago. It isn't that anything about it says age, it simply isn't as shiny as metal should be. The handle is unnecessarily ornate and set into it are two pieces of amber that could be eyes if one thought about it too much. The key part of it is deceptively simple however, in contrast to the handle. She holds it up, so Dare can see it and twists it around in her hands. She isn't sure he can touch it and be un affected, so she keeps it out of reach. "Someone," she starts, with a heavy sigh "killed Kiran so that I could use this. And once I did," she screws up her face in dislike, "my soul was bound to it. Eventually, if I do not discover a way to reverse it - the key will swallow me." She looks up as the elderly waitress coughs impatiently and holds out a cup of tea. Chandra didn't hear the woman approach, which was odd since she shuffled along heavily - but she tucked that information away without processing it. The tea cup, which Chandra takes gingerly, is chipped in several places and has obviously been cleaned in hot water so many times the pattern has virtually faded away. Without comment, the woman turns next to Dare. Quote: Dare sits up properly, taking his glass of water from the woman. It's slightly discoloured, or at least he can hope that it's merely the glass creating that illusion. Forcefully, he smiles at her and thanks her in a quiet voice. Setting the glass on the table, he again kneels to bring himself higher, peering down at the water curiously. Well, it's.. interesting. "Will that be all?" he hears the woman croak almost directly into his ear. He should probably take a sip of the.. water.. just to be polite about the woman's efforts. He slides back down into his seat, taking the glass with both hands and sipping with a nod. Setting it down, he swallows quickly. "That's all from me," he assures her. Only after this does he notice the strange aftertaste left behind, trying hard not to screw up his face in dislike. The conversation, which he'd love to press further, becomes hazy in his short term memory after this taste; instead, it is filled with thoughts on what he assumed to be water.. Quote: "Yes, of course." Chandra says dismissively as the woman turns to her and then looks in concern at Dare, who is making an interesting face. As the woman shuffles away with a frown on her face, Chandra leans forward across the table. "Are you ok?" Quote: "Mhm," Dare murmurs, lips pursed. Well, that was the most interesting water he's tasted. To push aside concern, he regretfully takes another sip. It takes obvious effort to swallow this time, the water touching his tongue longer this time. Once it's down, he takes a deep breath and shakes his head just enough to get rid of the hair in his eyes. "So this key, it's really dangerous, huh?" he asks quietly, with a hint of hateful concern. "Does it do anything specific, or have you not found out yet?" Quote: Keeping her eyes carefully on Dare's face, Chandra unclenches the hand with the key inside and tucks it quickly back into her cloak. "Besides eating souls?" she said with a grimace. "It allows one to enter the final stage of Death and then return, possibly even bringing someone back into Life with them." She bowed her head and picked up her tea between both hands. The steam rising off the surface of the liquid was comforting and the smell of spices, however weak, steadied her a little. Her ability to taste and appreciate such things meant she was still alive, still able to feel. "Had I known, I would not have ventured through the door the key opens. I do not believe that anyone should be able to cheat final judgement." Quote: Dare frowns, finding himself gripping the sides of his seat for balance. He waits until his eyesight is steady again, as well as for her to finish explaining, before opening his mouth again. "That's an awful lot of responsibility for one key.. and one person," he comments, murmuring unknowingly. If she watches close enough, his eyes obviously are having trouble focusing on anything in particular. Still, he insists to repeat to himself that it's only water, and anything else is just psychological. "I don't think that seems right, neither. Someone.. someone prolly tricked you for that to happen.." Her back to the pair, a slightly disguised Truth gingerly sips on her martini. She keeps her ears open for anything unusual in the conversation, though finds it hard at their volume and at her distance to keep up. Still, she can't exactly risk getting caught, and has had lifetimes of practice blending in, so she isn't so worried about this. The part that worries her is Chandra, but it isn't as if she'll come around to admitting it. Quote: Caught up in her own worries again, Chandra only barely registers the fact that Dare appears to be slipping away. "I was tricked," she admits. "But I do not know by whom. Or how." Taking a long sip from her tea, and then closing her eyes as the warm liquid filled her mouth with a comfortable burning sensation - Chandra thought about all the usual suspects. "Perhaps it was simply fate," she with grudging despair. "Do you ever feel like you are moving towards something and that the more you try to run away - the closer you get?" She looked Dare in the eyes finally and then frowned, noticing he didn't appear to be focusing on anything in particular. Quote: Reaching out for the table to stabilize himself, Dare continues to carry out the conversation, slurring his words slightly noticably. "Yeah, I know what that's like. Fate can.. can be real tricky, like you're on a con..conveyer belt and you keep walking, but you don't go anywhere. S'same, kinda.. 'cept.." He finds that the closest thing to him is easiest to focus on, and ends up seconds later finding himself with the glass to his mouth, taking yet another horrific sip. And down it goes.. Shivering gently, his eyes are bleary when he raises his head again. "Can I sit next to you?" he asks, his voice quiet and pitiful. His lower lip quivers as he wraps his arms around himself, tugging the sleeves of his jacket over the base of his hands. "I don't feel so good." A pair had been moving, making their way out when Chandra and Dare last spoke, blocking Truth's range to listen in. With an annoyed sigh, she rummages in her handbag for a pocket mirror, angling it in order to view Dare. She frowns at the sight of him, wondering what she might have said or done to make him react like that, defensive qualities rising. It could be nothing, she argues with herself, though the mirror remains in her outstretched hand with Dare's small reflection in view. Quote: Her eyes widening both in alarm and because she can see better in the hazy room if she does so, Chandra stands and moves over to the edge of the table. She leans down to look Dare in the eyes and puts the back of one hand on his forehead. "I think you are ill," she says with concern and a genuinely worried look on her face. "I do not know what to do with ill children. Are you going to throw up?" she asks finally, horrified. Quote: He laughs oddly, eyes closing as he sways forward. He pales rather quickly. "No," he assures her, falling against her shoulder before finding the energy to pull himself back up. Blinking rapidly to remain conscious, he pushes the coat up over his chin. "Take me with you," he sighs softly, a distant smile on his face. "Take me back then an' I'll do it all different.. only," he inhales heavily, grasping her arm with fading strength, once again falling forward, "here to be with.." And there, fading off in speech, he falls unconscious, sliding forward with nothing to keep him sitting upright anymore. Truth catches only Chandra moving around the side of the table, shuffling her chair to the side to get a better angle for her mirror. In doing so, a man passing on this side knocks into her hand, the mirror slidding to the floor and bursting into pieces. Truth perks up, her gaze snapping up at the man. "Sorry, missy," he apologizes, swirling the contents of his drink. "That be seven years bad luck, thar.." "I realize that, sir," she retorts with an agitated sigh. She clenches her teeth, giving a quick glance back at Chandra and Dare - still only her back. Oh well, it can't be anything important, she assumes, swooping down to gather the pieces of the mirror up. Being very superstitious as she is, she'll have to bring every piece to her friend Marc.. She growls, keeping her irritated gaze concentrated on the pieces of glass as she gathers them up. Quote: "Take you where?" Chandra whispers quietly, while gathering Dare up in her arms. She isn't strong, but he really isn't that heavy either - amd she hefts him up so she can lean him against her hip while holding him. "I'm supposed to take you home - only I don't know where that is and you do." With an irritated look around, Chandra starts back to the stairs slowly. Maybe some fresh air would help? Quote: Dare flinches as he's raised, but is otherwise lifeless. He weighs far less than one would assume, the number of layers a ploy to make him seem a little bigger in size. Piece by piece, Truth assures herself that she's got every one and that with them the mirror can be repaired. Patting the piecs in her pocket, she raises off the ground and seats herself, fingering the martini glass between her fingers. Stealing a glance at the table, she nearly spits out her sip at the sight of empty chairs. Scrambling, she tries frantically to scan the room. She couldn't have made off with him! Impossible! She should never have taken her eyes off of that thing for an instant around him.. Raising from her table, she slaps down the amount owed, determined to persue them - they could not have gotten very far in that amount of time. Quote: Back outside, Chandra feels uncomfortable carrying Dare - not only because it's Dare, but because she probably doesn't look like his mother. Someone is bound to question the fact that she's running around with an unconcious child eventually and she really isn't sure how she is going to answer the questions that will be raised. She looks up and down the alley, wondering what to do next. She could take Dare home, but that involves a bus ride and the assumption that Kam is in one of her lucid episodes. She could take him to a hospital, but surely they'd ask questions too? Maybe they'd be easier to answer... Turning to make her way back out to the sidewalk, Chandra looks for someone who looks like they might know where to find a hospital. Quote: Dare swivels in her arms, leaning into her in a feverish fit. A hand manages to grip at Chandra's arm, and he mumbles something unintelligable before growing still again. Bursting out the doors, Truth bounds up the steps, her heart rate increasing considerably. "Surely she doesn't know how to fly or turn invisible, or something stupid like that," she hisses under her breath. She doesn't want to have to rely on teleportation, seeing previously how it raises eyebrows and attracts much more attention than it's worth. "I should have seen this coming. Never, ever trust the ones they've been long friends with," she groans, sprinting forward and into the crowds of the streets. Quote: A police car rolled by slowly as Chandra searched among the rows of faces, but she decided against approaching. The cop would want to know what happened to the child. Frowning, she tried to still Dare's arms without overbalancing him in her arms. "Quiet Dare, I am attempting to get us assistance." Ah, there - a pregnant teenager with multiple piercings. She would likely know a source of cheap, and mostly anonymous health care. Approaching the woman carefully, Chandra attempted to look less threatening by allowing her worry to show through a little. "Excuse me," she said carefully to the young woman. "Do you know of a clinic nearby? My... brother is sick." Quote: He goes still and silent anyway, as if he could hear her request that he does. Stepping up on her toes, Truth attempts to raise her head above the crowd in search of Chandra. Dare would be harder to spot, being the shorter and more concealed of the two. She falls back on her heels and continues forward, looking left and right for any sign of them. "I've got to be the worst Ranger," she mutters, dodging a man busying himself on his cell. "Can't even keep track of my own stupid Case." Quote: The young woman gave Chandra and Dare a suspicious look, but appeared to decide that there was no harm in directing them to somewhere they could receive medical assistance. The beauty of being in this sort of neighborhood, Chandra mused - all walks of life converged here. "Up a couple blocks and then left for one," she said, playing with her nose ring. "They'll take cash, no names and all." And with a final look at Dare, she was off into the crowd again - blending in remarkably well for having bright red hair. "A couple blocks," Chandra whispered to the top of her burden's head. "I am reasonably certain I can make it that far." Hefting Dare higher on her hip, Chandra took an immediate left. It would be easier to spot this clinic if she were on the right street. Quote: Fingers curling around material of her sleeve, Dare feverishly coughs, doing so for no more than a few moments before settling down again. Ducking aside, Truth growls under her breath. This is no good. For all she knows, they could have gone the other way. She conceals herself in the nearest alley, black hair swishing forward in front of her face. Closing her eyes briefly to reflect upon something, she opens them as she presses herself against the brick wall. Palms pressed into the brick, she sighs softly. Her body disappears much like a sand would, the wind brushing at it and making her vanish in soft swishes of tiny particles. The process takes no more than a blink for a regular person, but if one is fortunate enough to keep their eyes open they would catch a glimpse of this marvellous process. 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[Falling for You, Part Three]Quote: Looking around her for anything that might resemble a clinic, Chandra almost staggers into it. Carrying Dare is rapidly draining the small amount of physical strength she possesses, not to mention the fact that she is extremely sensitive to the sunlight streaming down around them. As she pushes open the clinic door, causing a little bell to trill overhead, she is at the last of her strength and as the woman at the desk looks up in alarm Chandra sits Dare down on one of the waiting room chairs. "Can I help you?" the woman says, peering up over the counter. "Is he ok?" "No," Chandra said, turning to peer bleerily at the woman, her eyes protesting the change from bright street to darkened waiting room. "He is not, but I do not know what is wrong. Da- my brother here began to seem ill at lunch. I wish for him to see a doctor." Quote: Dare openly shivers, curling up around himself when he's seated. Although his eyes are closed, he tightly pulls his well worn jacket around his knees, next resting his head drowsily against them. He seems to be coming in and out of consciousness, but the fever highly anticipates his erratic ill-stricken behaviour. "..wanna gohome.." he breathes exhastedly, fists clenching around the fuzz of his sleeves. Quote: "If you are not this child's legal guardian, am afraid there is nothing I can do." The woman behind the desk looked at Chandra and raised her eyebrows, waiting for some sort of answer to the implied question in her statement. Fighting a headache, the older Legend sighed heavily before turning to speak to Dare. Kneelin, she whispered to him as best she could. "I cannot take you home Dare, I do not know where you live. You are sick. You need a doctor. If you can pretend I am your sister, I believe they can be convinced to help you." And then she waited to see if he was lucid enough to agree or disagree with her assertions. Quote: Dare nods wearily, clutching his stomach now. Leaning to the side, he just ends up falling over against the next chair, but this doesn't seem to phase him. "Lady, my sister's the only one who cares 'bout me anymore. I dun think .. dun think you letting me get all sick over your office'll do any of us good." He closes his eyes to end this speech, what with the amount of effort it took to say that without feeling that the water might want to make a reappearance. Quote: With a satisfied look, the woman at the desk disappears into the back for a moment and then peeks back out long enough to motion for them to follow her. After a moment of hesitation, Chandra grabs Dare once again and hugs him to her chest. She doesn't have the strength to shift him around to a more comfortable positions, so she pretty much just hopes he won't slip out of her arms and onto the floor. Back behind the desk is a rather generic hallway filled with doors. The quiet hum of voices can be heard emanating from most of them and it sounds as though someone might be quietly sobbing somewhere. The woman from the front desk leads Chandra and Dare into a room about halfway down the hall and then shuts them in. "A doctor will be with you in a moment. There is a bucket under the sink if your brother needs to throw up." It isn't long before foot step aproach and another, older woman enters. She raises her eyebrows at Chandra standing with Dare hugged against her so he won't fall. "Nausea, I hear." She taps one fingernail against her glasses and guestures for Chandra to put Dare down on the examining table. Quote: The scenery changes around Dare again, whirling even more with actual movement. Head spinning, he winces at the light in his eyes as he's rested on the examining table. He can feel Chandra closeby, and wonders just what's going on.. Ohhh, how embarassing.. "Has he eaten anything unusual over the last few hours?" she inquires, directing her questioning to Chandra. "Or at least, is there anything you can think of that has induced this condition on your brother?" She says the last word hesitantly, eyes darting between the two of them, masking this with medical concern. Quote: "The last few hours," Chandra repeated questioningly. "He drank part of one glass of water. I believe that to be it." She noticed the look, but chose to ignore it. She certainly looked nothing like Dare, but so long as he played his part - no one could claim they were not both adopted or something similar. Although it was possible the look had more to do with the fact that Chandra had tiny fangs, pointed ears, and dressed for winter in the middle of summer - she had a feeling that this time it had to with Dare, who to all outward appearances was a relatively normal looking child. "I did warn him not to drink the water," Chandra muttered under her breath, too quiet for anyone else to make out. Quote: "Water?" she repeats, lifting instruments from her side table until she finds the one she wants. "There has been an epidemic of E coli cases from the sketchier parts of town," she comments softly, dragging a stool in front of Dare. "Hello there, honey," she says softly, touching his wrist and trying to gain eye contact from him. Her clipboard balances on her knee, and she takes notes offhandedly. "I'm just going to take a look at you to find out what's wrong with your tummy, okay sweety?" She looks over her shoulder to Chandra, resting her pen down. "What's his name, miss..?" Dare watches the woman appear in front of him, her two heads swirling.. three heads? Two.. He can't keep track now. He just stays hunched over, trying to hide from the bright overhead light.. Quote: Panic washes over Chandra for a split second as she tries to decide what name to give Dare. His real name? That seems dangerous. Maybe something close, so his real name could be a nickname if he messes up? "David," she says finally, behind a calm mask. "Although I fail to see why his name is of importance in diagnosing him." She folds her arms over her hest and deliberatly takes a one breath after another. Appearing nervous would not serve her or Dare here. She can lapse back into her normal, removed state of mind. Quote: She nods, writing his name down cooly. "Just standard procedure, miss," she assures her, reaching under the sink for the bucket. Replacing herself with the bucket, she rubs Dare on the head soothingly. "He has all the symptoms," she explains, turning to stand face to face with Chandra, "Save for the fever, which I cannot explain. His body will eventually force him to vomit, if he hasn't already." She takes a glance down at the papers, marking something off on the side. "Antibiotics won't be necessary, as they often increase complications in this sort of situation. What I can recommend is that you keep him well hydrated and maintain his nutrition accordingly." Dare groans softly, making good use of the bucket. Tears spill down his cheek, his arms folded tightly across his stomach. The doctor winces a little, tapping her pen. "You can stay here with him for a few hours until things settle down. We can spare the room - as you could probably tell from our waiting room, we aren't usually busy weekdays." She pats Chandra on the shoulder a little awkwardly but mostly sympathetically as she passes to the doorway. "If you need assistance or his condition worsens, just have the secretary page me," she adds with a kind smile, giving Dare a quick lookover before leaving down the hall. Quote: "Oh dear," was what Chandra managed to muster as the doctor left her alone with a very ill Dare. After a moment of staring at him and trying to ignore the contents of the bucket, she managed to add, in a very tiny voice, "I am very sorry." Dealing with ill people was not something Chandra wanted to do or felt she would ever be particularly good at. The only thing keeping her from bolting out the door was the fact that this was Dare and she did not want a repeat of the last time they had met. They would part on good terms or not at all. "Oh my," she said, staying a good distance from Dare. "I just want you to know that I am reasonably sure this will not kill you. You do not really feel like you are dying to me. Although it has always been difficult to tell such things about you," she dropped her voice to a whisper, "I have these feelings towards you which get in the way." Quote: Better. He feels much better once that's done. He lifts his head and wipes his mouth with his sleeve, managing to get his eyes focused enough to see the doctor leave. He can't help but feel a little panicked, wondering just what is happening with him. He blinks rapidly, trying to maintain his concentration as Chandra speaks to him. Well, good, he's not going to die.. "What?" he asks, slightly startled. Feelings..? His stomach feels better now, so he straightens up and uses his hands to balance himself on the examining table. Confused, he rubs at his forehead with the back of his hand, next clearing both eyes of a mix of sweat and tears. "Somethingsomething me not dying, and then .." he murmurs, repeating it as if to confirm he isn't now hearing things. "Feelings?" he croaks, eyes eventually wandering up wearily up to Chandra's face. Quote: Chandra tries to stop them, but her eyes widen anyway as she backs away from Dare a little more. She had been babbling, letting too much slip out while she was worried. There had to be something she could say - some way to explain what she had meant. "You appear to be feeling better," she said carefully. "It did seem like you were unable to concentrate on reality for a good amount of time." That was good. Now he would know that she had simply been concerned, which was a perfectly acceptable emotion to have. In fact, it seemed to Chandra as if it was the foundation of most relationships - some sort of mutual concern for the well-being of the other individual. "I was concerned for your well being, as I hope..." she trailed off. Adding the rest seemed unnecessary. Either he would or would not be concerned if she was ill and asking about it would not change that. "If you feel well enough, you can tell me where you live so that I may return you to your place of residence. It would not be prudent to anger your... keeper, if I wish to see you again." Quote: He can't help but appear disappointed, answering her with a glum nod. "Got it," he mumbles softly, resting a hand on his aching stomach. Loss of reality is right.. he winces at the thought of how childish and needy he probably seemed through the worst of his feverish illusions. "Concern's good, s'great. Thanks for bringing me in to get che-" He swallows abruptly before continuing, having been struck with another urge to empty his already-emptied stomach. "- ..checked. I dun think you should take me directly there, in case she's real mad or something. I dun want you two going at it again." He flinches slightly at the recollection, pressing a few fingers into his clothing nervously. "I live in an apartment just off Main Street, the tall reddish one. Seventh floor, apartment 703.." Dare presses his hand into his forehead, the heat proof that his temperature is still above normal. This certainly didn't go anything like he would've hoped; his immediate assumption, as he falls silent with inward anger, is that things would have been much different, had he not been a stupid little kid. Quote: Chandra's brow wrinkles at Dare's obvious disappointment and she opens her mouth to say something, but then simply shuts it - her thoughts unvoiced. She did not understand where he was coming from, but she did not necessarily want to know. Ruffling her own hair, she tries a different tactic. "I do not plan to go at it," she said, making it clear from her tone that she considered the phrase an odd one, "with Truth. I have obtained what I desired - access to you. Beyond that she means nothing to me." Chandra gave Dare a sidelong glance as she reached down to brush a bit of dust off the bottom of her cloak. "You might want to go at it with her, however." Chandra said this reluctantly, not liking to give advice to someone she considered her elder. "She appears to consider you a child and her charge." The older Legend shrugged as straightened. "And I do not believe you wish to belong to her in such a manner." Crossing her arms over her chest, a defensive position, Chandra looked Dare over. He did not look well, but he did appear to be better. Why did he have to regain full conciousness in time to hear her babbling? "You said something while you were unwell. You said you would do it all different only here to be with... What did you mean?" Quote: Dare rubs at his eyes slowly, for no particular reason, really. He pushes himself down from the examining table, stumbling a bit as he finds that balance is something he doesn't exactly have back. He holds out his arm, though, quickly catching the desk to stabilize himself. "I can fend for myself," he confirms with a sigh, "Truth just doesn't know that yet. And she's supposed to look after me, anyway.. I just didn't know this Ranger stuff could be so annoying." He holds against the wall as he makes his way to the door, determined to leave on his own two feet, and as soon as possible. The stench of these places, as well as that bucket, is really unsettling. "I dunno what I said," he continues, closing his eyes, his arm outstretched. He had started to get lightheaded. "I'm sure it was nothing." Well, I wish that things were so different / Change it myself / It's what I'll do.. The song plays over in his head, and he grits his teeth as it pushes itself to the front of his thoughts, trying to erase it as quickly as possible from memory. Quote: "Of course," Chandra said mildly, "words often do not carry any message of substance." It is perhaps impossible for anyone but her to truly tell whether she is being serious or sarcastic. She unfolds her arms, and uses one to open the door behind her back - leading back out into the nondescript hallway. "If you require assistance, you may use my hand to steady yourself." Chandra put out one cold hand and touched her palm to Dare's. Quote: Dare shivers at her touch. The gesture is appreciated, but his childish instincts kick in for him to protest. "I don't need help, but if you want.." He closes his fingers around hers, her help coming in handy as he finds walking much easier with it. The secretary pokes out her head from over the desk, giving them a satisfied nod before burrying her nose behind another magazine.
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Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2005 5:41 pm
[Just Breathe]Quote: Make no sudden movements And no one need get hurt Quote: Maybe it was him being grateful, or just nostalgic, that found Dare walking the familiar path to the Legend Headquarters. He'd often come from the side, the same direction his old home had been, a place he'd sworn never to see again. But fields beyond the screen of trees, he knows it's still there, along with those he left behind inside. Hands deep in his pockets, he kicks a stray rock up the path, stopping before the steps. The weather's alright today, why go inside? he reasons, trying especially to talk himself out of it. He'd promised to leave them with the last impression he gave, and nothing more, so showing his face now would spoil the slightly younger and more naive Legend image he'd fit months earlier. He stands by himself, full teenaged height again, concentration fading and eyes hazing over, blurring the vision of the large doors in front of him. Quote: "Why?" Zayne whined, dragging her heels as Chandra mercilessly tugged her along. "I want to stay home!" Pausing for a moment and pulling her younger sister closer, so she could speak to her quietly, Chandra sighed. "Mother said to take you out. You need more socialization or you'll become odd - like me." The Legend shrugged. "You are a bit odd." Then, without another word, Chandra turned and continued up the sidewalk to the HQ, still dragging her protesting younger sister behind her until she gets close enough to see someone standing on the front steps. Oh, she thinks to herself. Oh dear. "Why are we stopping?" Zayne whined again, more loudly this time. "I'm burning in the sun. I'll get freckles!" Quote: Hearing nothing, Dare shrugs his jacket higher on his shoulders, though having no reason to even wear one in the summer heat. No one's probably even here. There's no danger in going in if no one's there. But- there's always the chance someone is. Isn't it nearly every time I come that someone, new face or old friend, is behind those doors? Taking a few steps backwards with his vision fading back in to clarity, Dare turns around to leave the way he came. It was a mistake to come, anyway. But he stops suddenly, rubber soled shoes digging into the path's gravel, at the sight of who has caught him. "Chandra," he breathes, obviously much more alert having been caught off guard. He nods in greeting, averting his eyes immediately to the grass. Quote: "You should have brought an umbrella," Chandra said, not looking at her younger sister. Her grip tightened as she noticed Dare wasn't meeting her eyes, and then she suddenly dropped Zayne's arm. "Hello Dare," she said, neutrally. "You look like you are feeling better." Looking back and forth between Chandra and Dare, Zayne pouted noticably. No one was paying attention to her. "Who is he?" She asked petulantly, crossing her arms over her chest. Quote: "I'm feeling a lot better, too," he adds, nodding carefully with hopes that she'll get what he means without him having to say it. With the voice of Zayne drawing his attention, his face switches to confusion, quickly masked by curiosity. Crouching down, he offer her a hand and a bright smile. "M'name's Dare. And you are..?" Quote: Suddenly smiling graciously, Zayne extended a hand to just barely touch her fingers to Dare's delicately. "I am Zayne. Chandra's younger sister." She looked back up at Chandra for a moment to give her a predatory smile, before looking at Dare again. Raising her eyebrows, Chandra chose not to react to Zayne's look. Crossing her arms over her chest, she debated what she could even say to Dare at this point. Quote: "Sister!" he exclaims cheerfully, perhaps too much so. "Well, that's great. Chandra never told me about a sister. You're a lovely young lady, Zayne!" Standing up, he brushes his fingers above his right eyebrow, dragging hair with him. Biting the inside of his lower lip, he adjusts to looking down at Chandra again, whereas before.. well. He wished that could be stricken from memory. At Chandra's silence, he smiles weakly, stepping aside. "Well, I was.. about to leave, really. I could stay and keep you two company but I'm sure you probably have plenty of other activites planned that don't need me intruding in on." Stepping lightly out of Dare's jacket pocket, Risk the sleepy mouse shakes his head, dropping in a freefall towards the ground. At what seems to be the last moment, he grabs hold of a pant leg, scurrying the rest of the way down himself and making a straight path towards the younger of the two females, nothing more noticable to someone of a greater height than a rabbit in the field or butterfly in the air. Quote: Having lost his attention, Zayne loses interest in Dare immediately. Leaning over a bit, she brushes methodically at her skirt - brushing out invisible wrinkles. "Oh," Chandra said, finding herself a bit out of words suddenly. "No, we had nothing planned." Searching for a reason to keep Dare around, Chandra looked down at her toes. "You look nice, all grown up." It was not what she meant to say and mentally she kicked herself before overcompensating. "I didn't mean that," she said, looking up again and blinking at him. "You are always making me say the things I intend to keep silent." Quote: Laughing quietly, Dare is clearly amused at this. "Do I, now?" he inquires in faux-disbelief. "Everything about you is up in the air, Chandra, so I don't exactly know how to take that." Scurrying around Zayne's ankles, Risk chatters to himself quietly, speaking a slew of English and his native tongue. "Shinies?" he mutters, looking for a way to climb up onto her, darting quickly here and there in an overly hyped motion. "Find more shinies, yes, trade you, yes, manythingsmanythings - all shiiiiny!" Quote: Sapphire eyes widening in wonder, Zayne kneels carefully, her bracelets clinking as she moves and peers at him. "Shinies?" She questions him, "What are shinies?" "Up in the air?" Chandra asks slowly, coloring slightly. She is unfamiliar with the expression and unsure how to take his tone. If only she could truly rid herself of this concern for his well-being and opinion. "I do not know how to take you. I worry about you when you are not present and I wonder whether you think about me." Leaning forward slightly, she lets her hair shift forward and screen her face. Quote: Grinning wildly, the mouse puffs out his chest, jacket jingling. "Shinies!" he shrieks shrilly, pawing excitedly at the bracelets but not managing to touch them with his small height. Grabbing a hold of his tail, he jitters and nips at the air, tasting it. "Shinies pretty, yes, reFLECT sunnysunsun, YES." He coughs, reaching into his jacket to pull out a stolen ring, sliding it between his two paws and holding it high above his head triumphantly. "Shinies. My shinies, not yours. Mine. Mineyes, unless trade for better shinies." He licks his lips and gives her another grin. Taking this as an odd sort of confusion contest, Dare steps forward towards her, hands returned to his pockets. "That's sweet of you, Chandra. Dunno why you'd do it, s'only me and I'm not a big worry.." Olive green eyes moving to the left, pretending he saw something elsewhere, Dare seeks a distraction to not allow himself to get too involved in this conversation. His eyes catch the light as he briefly looks back at her, expression softening as red hair brushes down and outlines both cheeks. "And if I do think about you? What's this knowledge worth to you?" He speaks quieter now, his tone visibly careful. Quote: Fingering a bracelet with her right hand, Zayne gives the mouse's proposal some thought. Finally having made up her mind, she slips one of her silver bracelets off her arms and dangles it just out of reach. "What else do you have to trade?" She asks, whispering. "I don't wear rings." "Worth to me?" Chandra looks up in confusion, wrinkling her brow so this emotion would be apparent. "I do not seek this information because it has some material worth to me. I just... want to know. I feel it would settle me to know." Quote: Emptying his pockets, he, surprisingly, has a lot. Besides the ring and what he left behind in Dare's pocket, Risk shows her a dozen silver and gold necklaces, two beaded bracelets with shimmering plastic beads, and a good twenty-some-odd earrings, none seeming to match. Visibly shaking, Risk eyes all of his valuables. "Shines, all shines, good shinies, look pritsy on girly likes you, yes. Yesyes." He nibbles on the end of his own tail, eyeballing the collection laid out at his feet for trading purposes. Trying to hide the fact that he's enjoying this, Dare reaches over to her cheek and runs his fingers over her jawline. His face remains neutral until he brings his hand back to resting in his pocket. "This really isn't the place for me to open up to you and say so," he finally decides to say, disappointed in himself for settling on that. Quickly, he masks that, gesturing with his hand to busy himself from making other stupid decisions. "If it'll bring peace to your mind, I'll own up to thinking about you quite a bit. How you're doing, what you're up to, if you're movin' on without me, where you are and if you're safe -" He shakes his head slowly, but not in such a way to mean anything. "Sometimes I think about seeing you again, but it never ends up how I imagine it out. I always mess it up, one way or another." He coughs out a laugh. "I always tell myself then to just stop trying, I only set myself up for disappointment if I aim too high." Quote: "Wow," Zayne breathed, surveying the collection of jewelry before her. Poking at a golden necklace she offered up one bracelet. "Fair trade," she said firmly, "Gold for gold." Chandra moves back slightly, nodding. She has managed to arrange her face back into the mask it normally is, and has her breathing under control. She can't, however, look Dare in the face. "Nothing ever ends up the way you imagine it," she says quietly. "Reality always gets in the way." If only she had the ability to make him feel the way she does. To make him see the way his presence unsettles her and makes her feel unsure of herself and her intentions. "You could try," she says finally, meeting his eyes with her own amber ones. "You could try to make it happen the way you imagine." Quote: Risk raises an eyebrow, but nods greedily, shovelling away his loot. Once it's all gone, he nervously holds out the necklace in both paws. "Yours now. Shinies mine. Yours good, look nice on girl." He hiccups, licking his lips again with a glance at the bracelet. Dare sighs in fake exasperation, revealed by the faint smile on his face. "Why not? I'm on my way out of town again, so if I mess things up again I can just be on my way, an' the only thing that'll bug me will be my conscious. An' I already know I can deal with that." Ignoring his mind's screams to run away, Dare moves in and kisses her for a short time, long enough to drag his fingers down her neck. He backs up immediately, head down with his hand rubbing the back of his own neck. "Sorry. I'd better be going, then," he mumbles, trying his best not to look at her, and especially not stay long enough for a reaction. Quote: Nodding, Zayne holds out the bracelet in one hand while holding the other out palm up for her new necklace. "You know," she said with a malicious grin, "I have many more shinies at my house." If Dare thought he could kiss Chandra and walk away, he really underestimated her. Blinking a couple times and then scowling, she snapped, "You think you can just kiss me and leave? If you plan to dangle this in front of me and then take it away on a whim - I do not want it." Clenching her hands at her sides, she tried to breathe deeper - to calm herself down, but the kiss had unsettled her. She was feeling all warm and yet the pit of her stomach was cold - it wasn't unpleasant, but unexpected. "I only want what you can freely offer me," she said finally. "I have no desire for another one-sided relationship, even if I am on the other side." Quote: Risk's eyes widen, and he hugs the bracelet to his furry face. "More where? Give address!" he demands, stepping up on his toes with the help of his tail to keep balanced. "More shinies, always more shinies, trades, yesyes, I go, I find, I come, yesyes.." Swallowing sharply, Dare frowns deeply, eyes raising and peeking out from behind red hair. He fully intended to walk off, to not acknowledge her reactions, but she makes it perfectly clear that it'll do him worse that way. Taking clenched hands in his own gloved hands, he tries to smooth his breathing. "I don't intend on having this one sided. I never did," he admits, though he suddenly wants to take that back. "I'm an unstable person. I don't know where I'll be ten minutes from now, let alone a week, a month, or a year. I'm sure you want something much more concrete than anything I could offer an' provide." Quote: "I can take you there," Zayne promises. "Why don't you ride in my pocket?" She kneels even lower and opens a pocket on the side of her skirt for Risk to climb in. "I want you," Chandra says, pulling her hands away sharply. "I am not perfect, why would I ask that you be?" Her mouth pressed together in a firm line, Chandra steps back from Dare and leans down to grab Zayne's arm - it's her turn to try and escape now. "I am sure we will meet again, should we choose to or not." Quote: Risk gains a dodgy look, but climbs inside, thrilled with the promise of more shinies. He's already exhasted his options at Dare's place, and he knows how to get back there once he gets bored of this one. "Yesyes," he chatters, sliding into the pocket with ease. Dare holds out his arm in front of Chandra. "Oh no, you're not leaving that easy if I couldn't," he states firmly. "I don't want to leave this up to another chance meeting that we're brought together again." He holds his arm there for a few more seconds before dropping it. "But I sure as hell can't stop you. Go, if that's what you think is the best solution to this.. whatever it was." It's difficult to read into this, with Dare keeping his voice as neutral as possible, though shakiness does leak in. His face is also lowered and mostly covered by red hair, blocking out his expression from her direct view. Quote: Delighted, Zayne stands and then pets the pocket containing her new toy. "We're gonna be good friends," she whispers to the inhabitant. "I'll give you lots of shinies." With a sigh, Chandra remains - but is clearly reluctant to do so. She leaves Zayne to whatever the odd girl has managed to amuse herself with and looks back at Dare. "Whatever this is?" She raises an eyebrow at Dare. "I thought we were friends. As far as I have seen this has not crossed into anything more. I have entertained the hope at times that it might be something else - but it is not." Quote: Risk chatters softly, rubbing the new shiny to his furry face. "Yesyes," he croons, running small paws over the shiny. "Lotsofshinies." "Is it?" barks Dare, eyes flashing as he looks up quickly. "Friends just, kiss each other all the time, that's what you're saying. Are you giving up on that hope? Did I do something wrong - again?" Frustrated, Dare pulls back his hair with both hands pressed to his head, growling. Taking a step backwards he holds out his arms. "If you're not going, I am. I didn't come here for this; I don't even know why I came here at all." Quote: Sneaking a hand into her pocket, Zayne offered her new toy a piece of cookie she had stashed in the other pocket. "Want some cookie? Mommy makes them just for me. Not for Chandra, oh no." "We do not kiss eachother all the time," Chandra said reasonably. "And I never said I gave up hope. It is just that things come between us - or one of us leaves. We are not in a place where this works correctly." She shrugged, trying to be less concerned about the situation. "Someday it will." "But go," she said, kissing her palm and then darting in to lay it quickly on his forehead. "You clearly have places you would rather be." Quote: Cookie? That's the second best word, next to shinies!! Risk pokes his nose out the pocket, nodding furiously and greedily gobbling down the piece offered to him. "You's best, cookies and shinies, goodexcellentyumyum SHINIES." He hiccups the last word, thoroughly licking his paws. He touches her outstretched arm, feeling his fingers brush against the material of her sleeve. "I don't consider any place more preferable than where I can be with you," he barely chokes out, eyebrows furrowed. He's worked up, unsure now whether to lean more to the angry or sad feelings rushing up and opposing each other violently. Brushing his fingers over hers, he pulls away from her so that her hand falls with his. Mentally capturing this image of her, he turns and walks away, shoving his hands away into his jacket pockets, eyes on the dirt and gravel beneath his feet. I won't look back, I won't.
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Posted: Wed Jul 06, 2005 9:41 am
From Chandra's Hand I am going to be, perhaps, a bit more forthright in this entry than I typically choose to be. If I obscure my true feelings from even myself, it makes them impossible to voice to another. And, not knowing my true self, I cannot make the correct decisions to progress at this important juncture.
I encountered Dare again at the HQ while I was out shepherding Zayne to and fro. Things ended as they typically do - short of where I believe they should, ideally. But before Dare left, angry as always, he kissed me.
I was so unsettled by that kiss. I canot even begin to describe it, to describe the way it plays over and over in my head without cease. If only I could go back and explain to him how it felt. They way it warmed me from the inside out, how alive it made me feel.
But my words would likely have made no difference. Dare and I appear to be doomed to constantly have our efforts frustrated by Fate's fickle hand.
He is gone to me and I will stop dwelling on what could have been or could be. I will, as I should, forsake those things which I crave but do not deserve - and venture back into Death.
Kam's behavior as of late has troubled me and I believe the reason lays somewhere in the Land of the Dead. Some clue I have overlooked. The door also beckons me - I shall have to begin looking in earnest for appropriate prey.
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Posted: Sat Jul 30, 2005 4:39 pm
Port Gino: The Faerie Slipper [Mother Knows Best]I have been observing the necromancer girl, Chandra, and I have become worried about the liberties my daughters have granted her. She is not, as I at first believed, a mortal who found the dark arts through study. She is actually herself one of the Dead, brought back to life for some purpose of my daughters.
Unless her soul is banished properly, she is now essentially immortal. A life I do not envy, as she will never truly be able to live - the price one pays to be unable to die. Although, she could easily be destroyed by the key my children have seen fit to allow her to bond with. I realize that this piece of antiquity is the reason for my release from the prison I was banished to, but I can't help but feel a sense of maternal concern for the girl.
I am even more concerned because I believe she is able to see something of the confucion going on inside me. Kam, while fractured beyond repair by my possession, has occasionally been able to wrest control of this body from me. During these times I am blind to what she does, but I believe she may have spoken to Chandra.
If she has been able to convey any information of note, I worry for my position here. Her powers seem unbounded at this point. She has no empathy, no boundaries. She is almost worse than I no her to have been before her Death. I may need to neutralize her.
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Posted: Sat Jul 30, 2005 4:41 pm
Port Gino: The Faerie Slipper [Drowning Slowly] This page is written in a scrawling, halted script. As if perhaps the writer was not at their best.
I am forced to look out of my eyes onto a horrific world that shifts unsettlingly. If I could let it all go, I would. I cannot. I cannot even close my eyes to get a moment of respite. Even when they close I can still see the scenes inside the eyelids, playing endlessly. I have come to yearn for the moments of black that buffer possible futures from one another. Only in that millisecond am I free.
Someone is in my mind. I wish I could tell someone, but I have no control over my words. I can only spill the secrets the visions pour inside me, but I have no frame in which to place them - so I believe they mean nothing.
Crumbling walls, the smell of death, beautiful silk brocade wall hangings, roses, and dark, dusty corners.
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Posted: Sun Jul 31, 2005 7:54 pm
[What is in the Cards?]Lafe/Carmine It was a warm summer day. The air was good and it wasn't too hot yet, but all the same, no one was outside the Concord house. For once, it looked every inch the normal house between the rest of the Port Gino houses. ( Though Nora knew otherwise, but no one was paying attention to the nosey gossip today. )
Carmine was situated in the living room, a medical journal in hand and reading it while he kept an eye on Lafe for Wren. ( The demon apparently needed time to write and had somehow managed to get the Italian man to look after the baby, for a price. ) It was a laid back day, for the most part, and Carmine didn't have an issue with looking after Lafe.
Lafe was far too content to sit on the floor and playing with his tarot cards. He was, once again, thinking of the meanings of each card that was spread out before him. The cards were everywhere, of course, and he loved moving them about. Because just like each card had a meaning, if he moved it somewhere else, it could mean something else! He let out a happy growl, and continued about his work, content himself. Carmine wasn't bad as Wren, in his mind. Chandra Trouble Abnormally unsettled by recent events in her own house, Chandra had taken to the streets. She had almost reached the point at which she would be willing to act, but once she did - everything would change. She was not quite ready for that eventuality.
She had thought of going to the record store again, but she had not even played the music she bought on her last trip yet. Aimlessly wandering, Chandra had idly reached into the pockets of her dark cloak and found something worth exploring. An address for the small Legend that played with cards. And presumably, his philosophic guardian.
Navigating was not Chandra's strength, but Port Gino wasn't particularly large, and she eventually found her goal. Anyone else might have been uncomfortable from walking around in the heat, but Chandra's internal temperature kept her comfortable in all weather - as long as she didn't expose her sensitive skin to the bare sunlight. Oddly enough, the condensation which should have sprouted up on her clothing as a result of the difference between her temperature and the ambient was strangely absent.
As she reached her destination, Chandra pulled her hood back from her face gingerly. She disliked the way her pupils had to dilate in the bright daylight, but others seemed to find a hooded figure disturbing. Once inside she could rest her eyes. Once at what appeared to be the front door of the abode, Chandra rapped several times on the door with her fist. Carmine/Lafe Carmine was a different sort and not likely to be bothered by the appearance Chandra held. At least, one would assume so considering the children that appeared to be taken care of in the house hold and ... the things he kept company with on the occasion. ( Some things were better not mentioned. )
Stretching languidly at the sound of someone knocking on the door, he pushed himself up to go answer it. An idle glance told him that Lafe would be well enough on his own for a bit, the fox distracted by his tarot cards. ( Carmine wondered, if he meddled with tarot cards at this age, just what else he would get into as he got older. )
He didn't have any shoes on, not planning on going out for a bit, and padded silently towards the front door. Stretching out his senses, he pulled back all most as instantly as he tried to sense the one standing beyond it. Interesting.
Charming smile in place, blue eyes glinted at the visitor. Well, well, what do we have here? "Hello," he spoke smoothly, "Can I help you, miss?" His accent slipped through some and Carmine was, if anything, charming when he wanted to be. Chandra Trouble Chandra studied the person at the door carefully, keeping her annoyance at not being met by someone she expected hidden behind a cool mask. Looking him up and down, she felt that encountering him while Xochiquetzal was in ascendance gave him a distinct advantage over her. His good looks and charming nature made a distinct impression, which Chandra attempted to ignore. Her mood shifted even further as she realized she could not get a peek at the color of his soul.
Looking him squarely in the eyes, she spoke slowly and deliberately. She resisted the urge to pat the book at her side for assurance.
"Is this the home of the Legend child Lafe?" She inquired, one eyebrow raised questioningly to offset the lack of intonation in her voice. Carmine/Lafe Curiouser and curiouser. Carmine's smile widened, as disarming as possible. His demeanor was meant to be that way, pleasant to the eye of most, but underneath was anything but. This young teenager was rather interesting, at least, the way she spoke and her appearance and the way she seemed to be holding herself.
"Yes, it is," the words rolled smoothly, and he took a step back from the doorway. This time, when he stretched out his empathy to get a taste of the young woman's feelings, he hid the surprised arch of his eyebrow. It was all ways interesting to meet someone who seemed to surpress their feelings, blunted as it were. But there was a faint taste of attraction there, which wasn't too surprising.
It was the distrust he sensed that did. His lips nearly quirked into a smirk, but he held back. This one, she was intelligent if she was distrustful of him -- or perhaps it was her nature. In any case, it was a good idea to not trust him. Trust was something only given to those that deserved it, in his line of work.
"I'm looking after him today, would you care to come in to see him?" he asked, eyebrow quirking up. "He's in the living room and I believe, with your complexion, that getting out of the sun might be a good idea." In that moment, the doctor in him snuck up. Chandra Trouble After a moment of thought, she decided that while the man at the door was unfamiliar - the address was likely correct and the child worth seeing.
"I would. And indeed," Chandra agreed, slipping past the man at the door and into the interior of the house, "It is best to be cautious, since I am not yet sure I will be able to adequately replace this body if it is damaged."
Once past him, she paused, uncomfortable with him at her back. Carmine/Lafe Carmine held back the chuckle that wanted to come out, particularly when Chandra stopped just after entering. "That's very true," he responded, "it is best to treat your body well -- getting a new one might be a bit difficult." Though her speech and words seemed a bit out of place, it was interesting nonetheless.
Shutting to door, he brushed past her and walked on towards the living room. It wasn't that far, but there was a step down into the room. There was couches and chairs, surrounding a coffee table. Lafe was on the plush carpet, a bit away from the coffee table and had been playing with his tarot cards.
Except now he was looking all most expectantly towards the entrance to the living room, his tail swishing back and forth quickly. Carmine grinned at the way the baby's feelings were so obvious. He was happy to see this particular visitor. "I'd say someone's here to see you, Lafe, but I believe you all ready know." And of couse, he went ahead and stepped into the living room. He didn't seem to have an issue with having his back to Chandra, but that was likely because he knew he could handle himself. Chandra Trouble "Greetings," Chandra said to Lafe as she entered the room. "I see you are again studying your cards."
With a short look to the man who had opened the door, whose name Chandra noticed she still did not know, she walked closer to Lafe and knelt near him.
"May I look?" she inquired respectfully, gesturing to the cards. It was not her place to peek if Lafe did not wish to share. Carmine/Lafe Carmine stood for a bit longer, watching the two of them. Really, was this young woman another like Lafe and Alex? It was an interesting thought, but she ... reminded him of Death in a way.
"Don't mind me," he said to the both of them, "I'll just go back to what I was doing, but do ask if you require anything." That charming grin was back in place. Before he retook his seat, he looked towards Chandra directly. "And my name is Carmine, to share."
Lafe only gave Carmine a brief glance. The man, he could sense, had something dark about him, but he could've cared less. Instead, Lafe's focus was on Chandra and when she gestured towards his cards he gave a slight nod, his tail swishing back and forth still. She was nice ( so far as he knew ) and interested in his cards, so it was fine for her to look.
Actually, the young pooka scooted closer to Chandra, trying to get a better look at her. Chandra Trouble With a dismissive wave of one pale hand, Chandra acknowledged Carmine. Having his name was comforting, so she curtly gave him her own.
"I am Chandra," she said, adding almost as an afterthought - "I am a Legend, like Lafe."
She did not look up, sweeping her gaze over the cards that Lafe had assembled on the floor. They meant something, she was sure, but she did not have whatever skills were required to interpret them.
Moving slowly, so as not to spook Lafe, Chandra removed her heavy outer cloak and placed it on the floor behind her. It gave her more ease of movement not to worry about it.
"Will you read cards for me?" Chandra asked Lafe finally. "I can offer a song in return." She pulled a silver flute out of her pocket and showed it to the younger Legend. Carmine/Lafe Carmine did chuckle at the wave of Chandra's hand and nodded slightly. "Pleasure, then, and good to know." At least her words answered his thoughts, which was never a bad thing. She was probably somebody Lafe would like being around, even though her feelings were so stilted, she was calm and those seemed to be the people Lafe liked most.
Or so he noticed. It was no wonder Lafe didn't all ways enjoy being around Wren. The demon was bound to snap eventually. Situating himself back in his chair, he picked up the medical journal he had been reading and went back to it.
And the former doctor's eyes, if only for a moment were entirely focused on the flute. There was an aura about it, one that made him unconsciously twist the antique silver ring on his finger, instead of the wedding band next to it. There were feelings with the flute, so faint and nearly entirely gone, but ... perhaps despair. Unhappy things.
All the same, Carmine knew an object of potential power when he saw one, and there was something about the flute. The way it gleamed in the light. It spoke of power that could be had, but he turned his eyes from it to Chandra anyway. How did such a young lady come to be the owner of an item like that?
Lafe was smiling faintly, regardless, having watched Chandra warily as she was moving. When her cloak was shed, Lafe eyed it briefly, before trying to gather up all his cards and slide his way over to it. ( It couldn't be helped, he liked cloaks. It was all Alex's fault. )
He might've even made it, if he hadn't been distracted by the flute Chandra was showing to him. Lafe's movements stopped and his eyes focused on the flute closely. It gleamed in the lighting of the room and he looked as if he might've been tempted to touch it, but held back from doing so. There was an air about the flute, something that told him it was best to not touch such a thing. It wasn't his, anyway.
There was a slight nod of his head. So he would ... do something with his cards and she would play with the flute. Glancing down at his cards, he started spreading them out again, face down. It was something of a mess, but he understood it in his own way. Chandra Trouble Watching Lafe closely, Chandra took his movements with the cards to be assent to her deal. To hold up her end of the bargain, she put the flute to her lips and began to play. Softly at first and then growing a little more bold. The tune was one she had been moved to play before, something soft and a little sad. Something that sounded like a familiar lullaby - but wasn't.
The flute really had little choice in what Chandra played, since it was basically dormant, but it liked this song quite a bit. To Chandra it felt like something she had always known, maybe something she had heard as a child? Hard to tell, honestly. The faint feeling of Death which always accompanied the instrument rose slightly at the first couple notes, but Chandra disregarded it. She had found it in Death, so it was not out of place that it should still have some feel of that place. Carmine/Lafe Lafe watched Chandra play, his ears twitching and listening intently as the music began to flow. The melody itself was peaceful, but it felt sad and after a few moments Lafe absently rubbed at his face with a hand. His tail eventually started to swish a bit in tune with the music and the small smile stayed on his face as he listened. The fox was rather entranced with the music and the way in which Chadra pulled the notes from the flute itself.
There was, for a moment, an uneasy feeling that settled over Lafe from the playing of the flute, but he disregarded it in favor of listening to the music. There was a whisper in his mind that things would be all right, there was nothing to worry about from the flute -- for now.
Carmine, however, was a bit unnerved by the flute. Not necessarily the music it played, but the feeling it gave off. It felt like Death itself, if it could be tangible. That same feeling in the air when death was so close to a person, something he had sensed many times in the past. From the ghosts he had come across to the patients he had treated who were dying to the people who's lives he ended.
The tune itself, was calming in way but still remorseful. The bitter ache, perhaps, when one wishes for one thing, but is still bound to another. It made Carmine, briefly, remember being younger. Chandra Trouble Chandra finished shortly, letting the last note hang in the air for a moment before it died. She would have liked to play a bit more, there was something alluring about letting oneself hide behind the music and get lost, but she did want to see what the cards had to say. And his guardian...
Chandra gave Carmine a shifty glance, confirming that she could still not see the color of his soul. Irked at being denied something she normally found so simple, she tried the dangerous step of momentarily slipping sideways into Death. If she could straddle the veil between Life and Death she would have a better view of him, but she was denied. Death was still there, but it seemed to be out of reach - eluding her mental grasp. Finally she gave up, glared at Carmine for a moment, and then placed the flute back into the folds of her robe.
She hated to ask questions, she really did - so it was with obvious distaste that she addressed Carmine.
"You have a way of blocking me from gazing at your soul. How?" Carmine/Lafe Carmine was all most taken back by the sudden glare that was on the young woman's face, the wave of distaste that filtered through, but he slipped easily into the mask of charming gentleman. His smile, though more of a smirk, was meant to be disarming. All ways trying to make himself not seem like a potential threat.
"I would probably argue that my soul is long gone, as someone else has it," Carmine's tone was quiet, but truthful all the same. This Chandra, she was a part of things -- more than most that he had encountered in a while. "But any sensible person would do something to make sure that prying eyes cannot have a look at something so telling as their soul." It wasn't like he didn't know a glimpse at his soul could tell endless stories about him. He arched an eyebrow, head tilted slightly to the side as he looked back at Chandra.
Lafe had been calm, for the most part, during the music. His fingers were brushing along the cards and certain ones pulled to the side. They were the ones that called to him, the ones that needed to be apart and heard.
Except then Chandra stopped playing and things changed. His ears suddenly cocked back at the tone of her voice, and he turned his attention towards Carmine as well, before looking back between the both of them.
Something was going on, he knew it, but ... not quite what. Chandra Trouble If Chandra had been prone to shrugging, she would have done so at this moment. Carmine had not truly answered her question, but she was not going to expose what she did and did not know about such things by questioning him further. Instead she simply blinked a couple times and then turned to look back at Lafe.
Reaching out a hand to touch one of the cards he had been playing with, Chandra shifted it around so it was facing her.
"Do you require more time to read the cards?" Carmine/Lafe Carmine would've have answered her directly anyway, it wasn't wise to share such answers with one he barely knew. There was no knowledge of her being either friend or foe. Unconsciously, he toyed with one of the rings on his hand, the antique silver one once again.
For now, he was merely watching, a half-smile on his lips and he turned his attention back to the medical journal for now. There was no point in continuing, if she wasn't either. Even if curiousity was there.
Lafe made a small whine when Chandra shifted the card around. She had turned it right side up to face her, and he scooted forward to turn it so that it was upside down again. It was suppose to be like that and when he looked up at her, that thought was clearly written in his eyes.
His tail swished steadily and he went back to his cards, pulling out two more and setting them in a line beside the other three he had set aside. The cards were all upside down, but they were meant to be, and he nudged them forward to be next to the card that Chandra had pulled closer to herself. Chandra Trouble Chandra's eyebrows rose when Lafe pulled the card back into it's original configuration.
"I see," she said quietly. "The orientation of the card matters."
Her eyes swept over the cards Lafe was assembling, wondering how a child could learn so many different combinations and their meanings. She fingered the ugly book at her side momentarily as she thought that perhaps the child had been born feeling such things, much as she had been born into her abilities.
"Have you ever read the cards for yourself, child?" Carmine/Lafe Lafe was satisfied with the spread of the cards, his fingers pressed against one of them as he peered at it. The meaning was there, the fragments of it that came together and told him everything, but he wasn't sure if he could let her know. Actually speak the words properly. It was tough, when the images and the words and phrases, and so much more was there for him to grasp -- but ... he couldn't share it.
Ears going flat against his head, he didn't know if he liked what was spread out before him, in the these cards, for Chandra. Silver-blue eyes raised and there was such a grim smile on his face for one so young.
At her words, however, he quickly shook his head. There were some things he didn't need to know, what might be ahead for him was one of them. Though not all were like him, in that case. Chandra Trouble Peering at the cards spread on the ground, Chandra felt a sense of finality to Lafe's movements. Peering at them, she tried to make sense of the arrangement - but realized she couldn't make heads or tails of the cards.
"What do they say?" She asked, realizing that the level of detail she would receive would be low. Carmine/Lafe There were five cards, from left to right, laid out. The Magician reversed, the Eight of Swords reversed, the Page of Cups reversed, the Wheel of Fortune reversed, and finally the Queen of Pentacles reversed. It was past to future, the Page of Cups reversed signifying the current situation.
Lafe's fingers rested against the Magician reversed and he turned his head towards Chandra. "Mahgus," he murmured, pointing to the card. The card itself held a man on it, a practioner of magic, and as easily as he represented good thing, he also represented bad things. Sickness and darkness, and particularly so reversed. In some ways, it was easy to tell the theme of the cards by looking at the pictures that were on them.
The next card held a woman bond and blindfolded, eight swords stuck in the ground all around her. The scenery on the card itself was dreary. Chandra Trouble "I see," Chandra said carefully, leaning in closer to Lafe so she could both hear him and study the cards. "I am assuming these are arranged in some sort of timeline. It does not appear easy things are in my cards."
She placed one pale finger on the magician card, running it down the surface before removing it. It reminded her, in feeling, of her former Master. A man of great power. She felt perhaps the significance of this one she might be able to guess at herself.
"A man of power?" She asked. "And upside down, perhaps makes him one who uses this power selfishly and without regard for others?"
She was reaching, drawing on her own past experience to interpret the cards. Carmine/Lafe Lafe nodded his head a bit, letting out a something that could've been a yes to Chandra's first words. His tail swished back and forth rapidly, as he pointed at the cards in order he thought they were suppose to be read.
It was good she was using the past experience to read the cards, it made things easier on Lafe to help with them. He let out a small keen, in agreement to her words. The man in her past was someone who ... fell into disgrace. Even right side up, the card could've represented an evil man -- but more so now that it was reversed. Still, the man was in her far past and he affected it greatly.
His fingers rested on the Eight of Swords reversed now. This was one of the cards he didn't quite like, if only because of the thoughts it inspired. The woman in the card is bound and blindfolded and unable to see the future for what it is. There is treachery and fatality in her past, and it was with those thoughts in mind, Lafe made a small whine.
Carmine had, for the moment, put aside his medical journal to lean forward and watch the pair with the cards. It was odd, but every time he was around Lafe, he felt as if he was around someone that was older than a baby. Chandra, in a way, was the same way. She felt older than her appearance gave her. Chandra Trouble "I do not like this card either little one," Chandra said soothingly as she touched the next card in the line up. Her touch was similar to the way she had touched the last card, almost as if it was a litle ritual she would repeat with each of them.
"I do not understand the symbolism of the swords, but I have to assume the bound and blindfolded woman represents myself. I am unable to act or to see the dangers around me. This is still the past?" She questioned, reasoning that they were about to approach the present.
Pulling back her hand, Chandra resisted the urge to touch Lafe's ears and tucked a bit of hair behind on ear. Carmine/Lafe ... it didn't have to be her, and Lafe let out another small whine, scooting himself closer to Chandra. He pressed one hand against her side and tugged on it slightly, before letting out a small sigh. This was the past, yes, the next was the present and beyond that the future. He rested his fingers against every card, trying to get that point across.
Still, she seemed to grasp the meaning of the cards well enough, with him agreeing or disagreeing with her assessment. His nose wrinkled up some, wanting to be able to express the words, but not able to form them properly.
The next card was the Page of Cups, reversed. A fair young man, who was likely tied to the questioner in this case. Chandra was likely attached to someone, and this card represented him as he was now. Still, ... not everything was what it seemed. There was still a bitter edge to the card.
It was why Lafe thought this was a dark, just the same as The Moon attached to his scarf. One can't avoid darkness, however. Chandra Trouble Chandra chuckled slightly at the whine and leaned in so she almost curled above Lafe like a human cave. Then she touched the third card and her eyebrows wrinkled.
"My present is a young man? I am afraid I do not understand the significance at all. The only man in my present is you, child."
This was not entirely the truth, but it was enough of the truth for Chandra to believe in it. Dare was both ever-present on her mind and never in her thoughts. She shoved him away when she found her mind dwelling on him.
"Perhaps we should simply move to the next card," she said with a sideways glance at Carmine, who appeared to be listening. Carmine/Lafe Lafe snorted at Chandra, when she spoke, not quite believing her words. He was right, there was a young man in her life -- one that could be good for her, but there was also a chance for things to go bad, ever present.
He nodded his head, however, at let her move along. This was the future, now. The near future. He situated himself against Chandra, all most hiding himself against her form if it was possible for him to do so. His silver-blues were focused on the next card, the Wheel of Fortune reversed. With a small hand, he touched his fingers to the card and pulled back.
This card would bring fortune with it, no matter what, but in this case, it might be ill fortune rather than something good. There would be an increase and abundance and change. ... it was a card of destiny, one that could've hinted that her destiny was approaching.
Carmine, for the most part, was leaning forward. His elbows were rested on his knees, and he was resting his chin on his joined hands. It was interesting how much Lafe could impress upon Chandra, but more important that he seemed to be somewhat accurate with the cards.
Then again, what Carmine knew about tarot, was that you had to apply it to your life, otherwise it would hardly make sense. When he noticed Chandra glancing at him, he merely smiled. Even if he had something to say, he was being polite. You do not disturb someone when they're giving a reading, he knew that much. Chandra Trouble Moving along to touch the next card, Chandra didn't have the same flash of inspiration towards the meaning. Puzzling over the wheel, she decided to break her usual rules and think out-loud.
"A wheel," she said slowly, "Does this perhaps represent things changing?" She paused for a moment. "A wheel of fortune. Perhaps my future contains change. A change which has a chance of being good or bad?"
Chandra looked down to Lafe to gauge his reaction to her thoughts. The child had been able to convey his feelings quite clearly so far. Carmine/Lafe Lafe made another small noise of agreement, his fingers curling into the soft fabric of Chandra's outfit. Even reversed couldn't truly temper the fortune of the card, it all depended on what she made of what she would learn in the future.
"Desh," he started, and then frowned when the word didn't sound like the one that was in his mind. It was irritating when he could picture and see and hear the words in his mind, but couldn't actually say them. In any case, he agreed with her. Things would be changing and it was up to her to make use of the changes, for them to be good or bad.
His eyes shifted to the last card, and it was that card that made Lafe think of Chandra, because it was a dark woman. He made a small keen, cheek rubbing against Chandra's side. Chandra Trouble Chandra nodded as Lafe confirmed her guess on the second to last card. Sweeping her gaze to the final card - her far future, she presumed - she blinked. It seemed to unsettle Lafe, who Chandra absently patted on the head before reaching out to touch the card.
The dark woman, a Queen according to the card, made Chandra reflect on all the rather powerful women in her life. None of them immediately came to mind as she stroked the surface of the card, nor did she have any past experience to pull upon for this image.
"I do not understand this one child. Is this someone else in my life like the Magician? Or is this to be me?" Chandra looked briefly to Carmine, wondering if he could voice what Lafe might not be able to convey. Carmine/Lafe Lafe merely nuzzled up into the hand that patted him on the head before letting out a sigh. He couldn't exactly explain the card to her, not without being able to speak properly and currently he couldn't form the words to his satisfaction.
Shaking his head, the pooka was unsure. Part of him thought this card to be Chandra, but it was possible it was someone else. There were a lot of thoughts in his mind and he let out a small huff, unable to express them.
Carmine shifted in his chair, before picking himself up. "I know very little of tarot," he offered at Chandra's look to him. "If I was to divine the future, I prefer to use bones or entrails." There was a small smirk, before he crouched down in front of the pair and peered at the cards closely.
After a moment, he turned his attention towards Lafe. "Let's see here ..." he murmured, letting down some of the barriers that he kept up mentally. Tentatively he brushed his own consciousness against Lafe's and tried to pick up the thoughts before pulling back. It looked as if he had merely shared a glance with Lafe, who stared at him in return. Carmine was oddly silent for a moment, not expecting Lafe's thoughts to be as complex as they were, before he spoke. "... ah, a dark woman, perhaps yourself," he offered, "or someone else. In any case, I think that there is suspicion and fear and mistrust that go along with the card. It's all around you."
Carefully, he put his shields back in place. He didn't care to get bombarded by thoughts or emotions. Chandra Trouble Chandra left her eyes on Carmine while he returned to his former seat. She was intrigued by what had just passed between him and Lafe. They had just looked at eachother, but somehow Carmine had been able to discern Lafe's thoughts.
She narrowed her eyes and then returned her attention to the final card, shoving everything else out of her mind for the time being. A dark woman, surrounded by fear and mistrust. That could be one of many people, including herself she supposed.
"I cannot place a particular interpretation to that card, Lafe." Chandra said, while leaning into the child. "But I suppose the far future is the most mutable, since there are so many choices to be made in the intervening time."
Chandra touched each of the cards one more time, fixing them in her mind, before smiling a tiny bit down at Lafe.
"Another song before I have to go, since you have done such a wonderful job?" Carmine/Lafe Carmine was oddly mute now, in his seat, and comfortable where he was. He all most made it habit to not poke about at the children, but Lafe was an odd one -- one he had barely paid attention to. Pushing away curious thoughts, he picked up his reading material again, intent on reading that.
... and not letting himself be drawn in by music, should Chandra truly play again.
Lafe gave Chadra a half smile, then a small shrug of his shoulders. Not every thing made sense immediately, but sometimes it took time. He glanced up to her, lips barely upturned in a smile and watched as she touched the cards. Settling against her comfortably, his tail swishing slowly from side to side in relaxation, he let out a small noise of agreement.
He wouldn't mind hearing another song before she went. The music she played was entrancing. Chandra Trouble "I will take that as a yes," Chandra said, pulling the flute out again. This time she had something specific to play in mind. A song she'd been learning slowly, the old fashioned way.
Making sure Lafe would be comfortable agaunst her side, Chandra began to play again. This time her performance didn't have the same sort of easy fluidity, but it was still well played. The flute apparently didn't have an objection to this song.
It was a quickly moving song, full of short high notes jumbled together in a maner that made one want to perhaps smile and tap their feet. Chandra did neither externally, but internally her mood did elevate a little. Carmine/Lafe Lafe actually liked this song a lot more than the other, if only because it seemed to pick up the mood some. Cheek nuzzling against Chandra's side absently, he might've actually started humming along with her playing, if he was one to do something like that. Instead, his tail actually swished back and forth in beat with the song.
Where normally his ears would be back to stop all of the sound from hurting his ears, he kept them up to take it all in. Even if the song was unpolished, the small fox was enjoying it thoroughly.
Even Carmine found himself liking the song, though he still received feelings from the flute that argued the happy tune that was being played. Finger marking the place where he was in his reading, he closed the journal and watched Chandra play intently. As much as the flute was somewhat unnerving, he did not mind the music so much now. Chandra Trouble Playing that particular song took a lot of breath, so when she finally finished Chandra took a couple deep breaths to get back into a regular breathing rythmn.
"I like that song," she said to Lafe, who also appeared to have enjoyed it. "I heard it on the radio, so I bought the music and learned it."
She placed the flute carefully back into the pocket of her cloak and then gathered it up in her arms.
"I believe it is time for me to go, but thank you Lafe for the reading. I appreciate it." Chandra inclined her head to the younger Legend slightly in respect. "I am sure we will meet again." azuredreams Lafe actually smiled widely, when she finished, his mood elevated some. Her music was good and he was interested in the flute she played it on, though something told him he was better off not dealing with that particular instrument. He was thankful she played for him, however.
The smile faded some, and his ears went back a little at Chandra's words once she was finished, her breath caught, and things gathered, but he understood she had to go. He nodded his head in return, small hand actually waving for a change. What was that word that he heard the others use when people were leaving? Oh, that's right. "... bai," he said in his quiet voice.
Carmine pushed himself up, playing the host once again, and meant to walk Chandra to the door. "I'll walk the young lady out and you gather your cards up, Lafe? Perhaps we'll go have a look and see if we can find your guardian," he said with a chuckle and then nodded towards Chandra, once she was ready to leave. Chandra Trouble Chandra stood and gave Lafe a little finger wave before she put her cloak back on in preparation for going back outside.
"Goodbye Lafe."
Once dressed, she walked over to where Carmine was standing - willing to follow him to the door. She had a lot on her mind right now, and she was already starting to think about her next step.
"It was... interesting to make your acquaintance, Carmine." azuredreams Carmine headed towards the door, head tilting back to Chandra to make sure that she had her cloak on properly. The doctor in him made him check that, as it was easy to see her fair skin would likely burn easily in the sun -- never mind he didn't think she was someone who needed to be in the sunlight in the first place.
"I could say the same about yourself, Chandra," he responded, tugging open the front door and holding it for her. "Feel free to come back by, as I'm sure Wren would extend the courtesy to you, if only because Lafe seems to be fond of you." And she was a curious young woman, at least to him. Chandra Trouble Pulling her cloak tight around her and burying her hands in the soft ruff of feathers around he neck, Chandra stepped out the door and into the sunlight.
"Thank you," she said in parting. "I am certain I will visit again. Lafe is always welcome to visit me as well."
She turned and offered Carmine a card with her address and a phone number written on it, before taking off down the path. azuredreams "I'll inform Wren of that." Carmine took the card and carefully placed it in a pocket until he could hand it over to Wren. He was certain Lafe wouldn't be adverse to a trip that involved Chandra, at least considering the amount of whining he heard from Wren about the fox child's disagreeable nature.
"Take care," he said in fare well, waving a hand to her as she disappeared down the path and he retreated back inside the house. He stood in the entrance of the living room, looking towards Lafe who caught his glance and returned it. "You have curious friends, Lafe."
The pooka didn't respond, but his smile shifted just a little.
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