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I looked at him smiling sadly and shook my head. "My will isn't that strong anymore......not like it used to be. I promised myself at the beginning I would do anything to not die....but now if I had to.....I would. I made that promise to those that have died to protect me....but as each hour passes by I am drained further of my energy by my evil side". I tilted my head back and looked upwards, "It seems when something good comes along somthing bad always happens", I said and took his hand in mine and gave it a squeeze. "I'm so sorry for all of this....I promise I'm not going to give into her attacks no matter how much they hurt...but I'm frightened that if I don't make some sort of stand soon....I won't be able to".

I looked at it and bowed my head slightly, "Thank-you Ki....but what are we going to do. Once she wakes I won't be able to commnicate with you....", I said and looked at him with a small smile as I held the charm protectively in my hand. "And what if my evil side takes my charm", I asked him.

I looked up at him and smiled brightly. I nodded my head and reached up taking his hand in mine, "Don't let me go Ki.....please don't let me go....", I begged him.

I watched him cry and I felt a piece pf my heart break. "I'm so sorry", I whispered and wiped away his tears gently. I then held him back tightly as he held me. "If only there was a way, but I won't be here either.....I will return back to.....my room", I said and buried my head into his shoulder.

I looked up at him and wiped away his tears gently while I cried as well. I smiled softly at him, still crying, "I will...I've promised too many people to easily give up but I.....", I didn't finish I figured It didn't need said of what could be. "I love you too....and I'm so glad that I met you and that we became friends and even lovers. I never thought.....that I would get so lucky to find another...When I lost kang I thought for sure I had lost my heart as well. And I'm sure that I did....but then you came along and returned it to me. Fow which....I will always adore you. Thank-you for everything", I said as tears continued to fall down my face and I hugged him again.

"Thank-you, but Ki....theres something I need you to do. What I;m asking won't be easy....and it's not easy me asking you to do it but......If the time comes and I call out to you to leave me....please do. I cannot....I will not allow you to be hurt. Cause if anything happened to you it would be my fault and I wouldn't be able to live with myself after that...please", I said and gently ran my fingers thru his hair as I stared deeply into his eyes. My tears had slowed now. "We will always be together", I whispered and put my hand over his heart. "Right in here".

"Ki", I said despreatly and put my hands on his shoulders. "You don't understand", I cried and laid my head against his chest as I squeezed my eyes tightly shut and begun to cry once more. "I know how hurt you will be if I hurt and not even just on the inside, but in the heart as well. I don't want to hurt your heart", I said as I looked up at him sadly. I then laid my head back against him and cried. I cried for him, I cried for me, and I cried for us. For soon she would wake up and I would have to make a decsion.

"Ki, don't get me wrong, I want you with me. I just hate to know that I've caused you to hurt so much. I don't like seeing you unhappy", I said and looked back up at him. "When my evil side wakes up she will know that her talk will not upset me anymore. For I have made up my mind on that. She will try other tactics though......such as, possibly torture....or worse. I know we are connected even if I can't feel you that well from inside my prison, and I don't want you to hurt. I love you too much for that", I said softly. "Please protect yourself", I put my hand on his face for a second before taking a step back from him. She would wake up soon and I put my head down sadly before looking back up at him and embracing him tightly once more. There were no more words that I could find to say, and even if there had been I didn't think at the moment that I'd be able to say them. For my throat had constricted on me in my sadness and my body shook just slightly. My heart hoped, wished that everything would turn out alright, but I had a deep sense of fear and dread that something would go terribly wrong.