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 Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2013 10:58 pm
Ion's voice was a dull muffle to Donny has he was still lost in whatever world he was now in. When he felt the others arms around him he had flinched slightly as if ready to defend himself and shoot whatever dared touched him but when he snapped back into reality he realized that was only Ion and his words finally processed in his mind. Letting out a heavy sigh he let his gun go and only sat there silently. He couldn't say anything...there was nothing for him to say because he felt as if he had no right to speak to him. This was his fault after all.
When he did speak he simply told Ion to go back to bed and rest and that the butler would get him something to eat. He has sat up straight and reached to finish his glass of alcohol. It was the only thing that kept him stable....ironically.
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2013 11:11 pm
Ion listened to the male tell him to go back to bed...go back to bed and leave him here? For some reason the very thought got his blood boiling. To make matters worse Donny had picked up the glass of Alcohol... well, needless to say that didn't remain in the males hand. Actually he reached out and quite literally smacked the glass out of Donny's hand, ignoring the sound as the glass shattered. So this was what it felt like to get to angry...he'd never really gotten angry before, not like this at least. "Dont." He voiced steadily, his dark eyes narrowed venomously.
"Stop having a god damned pity party and look at me Donny." He demanded, though somehow he managed to keep his tone rather calm. He could feel the heat in his face, which probably meant his face was a bit flushed. He didn't know why he got so angry..but Donny had basically told him to leave him alone and he simply could not.
"Don't ignore me. Don't drink. Alcohol isn't going to make anything go away! Just look at me" He demanded again, though this time his voice seemed to take on a very weak tone at the end. He didn't like this, this wasn't the Donny he was used to. he didn't want to eat, he wanted to stay here with Donny and find out what was the matter. "Why are you doing this to yourself? You already got hurt just coming to get me...... just.. stop" he pleaded, yep, he officially felt like crying.
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2013 11:22 pm
Well what a waste of alcohol. That was Donny's first thought but he chose to listen to Ion speak and he could hear that Ion was angry but also very upset. He honestly couldn't do this right now...he couldn't look at him and he couldn't talk him as to why he was like this. He couldn't bring up how he was feeling internally but he did dare mutter out that he was fine physically. Finally he did turn to Ion's direction though his gaze was on the males torso because he still could not look at him.
When he spoke it was a hushed tone, "The hurt I went through wasn't enough to match the hurt you were put through because of my actions. This is no pity party...I simply want time to think...and alcohol is what is keeping me from losing my mind..." He looked away after he finished speaking. He was so..lost. What was he suppose to do now?
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2013 11:46 pm
Ion stared at the male in silence for a moment, a few tears actually managing to fall from his eyes. "It hurts more...right now because you wont even look at me" He muttered, before he turned on heel and darted out of the room. He wanted to scream ,ooooh how badly he wanted to scream. Catching sight of his own reflection in a window he winced, he looked like a whimpering little girl.....A girl. For one thing...his hair made him far more feminine... it was something he had been prized on at the black Lilly...but now......Now it just made him seem like a girl. Wiping his eyes he glared at his own reflection before he went off in search of scissors... When he did get his hands on some he ignore the protest of the butler who had caught him looking for them and walked back to his room where he tied his hair into a ponytail and well...snip. A large wad of hair fell to the floor and well, Ion felt as if a weight had been lifted off of his shoulders.
He'd locked the door behind himself, and well...honestly taking the scissors in the state he was in might have seemed like a suicide attempt. He didn't care though. Placing the scissors down he wandered to his bed, his eyes darting to the medications strewn on his bedside table.... honestly, he was still angry and well....there was sure to be the sound of a loud crash from his room as he knocked it all off. He grabbed the blankets and wrapped himself up in them, sitting there at the head of the bed with a pillow close to his chest.
If Donny wouldn't eat, neither would he, if he wouldn't talk, neither would he. If Donny wasn't going to listen, then he was not going to listen to him either. He drank to make himself feel better! like hell that was actually going to help. But if Donny was going to shut everyone out, so would he.
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2013 11:59 pm
The poor poor butler. This man had to deal with two moody people though Donny was probably just in his mental ******** up state. Sighing heavily he came up with a plan. Walking into Donny's room he told him that Ion had ran into the room with scissors and that he locked himself in there and that after the loud noise it was quiet in there. He told Donny that he would shoot the door knob but he would have to go and check if Ion was still alive.
Now, knowing that Ion did care about Donny he knew that the gun shot (because he was not really going to shoot the door knob) would get his attention. So in the end both would rush out of the room and meet each other face to face in the hallway. Yep that was his plan.
Walking into the hall one shot went off toward the ceiling and then he simply left though he hid in another room and watched to see if his plan would work. He could hear Donny scrambling to his feet so it worked for Don.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 12:10 am
Oh yes, the gun shot had indeed caught the boys attention and it didn't take him long to scramble to his feet, though he caught his foot and took a nice tumble first. taking a moment to get his wind he clambered to his feet and threw the door open...only to bed met by a frantic looking Donny in his own doorway. Dark eyes stared at the male dumbfounded, before his legs quite literally gave out and he fond himself sitting on the ground in...relief. Dark eyes watered once again and Ion quickly ducked his head to hide any tears that threatened to spill "damn" He murmured, not wanting Donny to see him in a weak state again.
There was debris on the ground...which could only mean that the butler had let off a shot, and Ion knew exactly why. Now Ion wasn't even thinking about his appearance right now, and the fact that he had quite literally cut most of his hair off. "Your stupid" He muttered, though obviously he didn't mean his words. But.....he just didn't know what else to say to Donny now. He had simply ignored him before so now he was unable to come up with...anything.
"Your just stupid" He muttered again, lifting an arm to wipe away the tears that continued to fall despite the fact that he wanted them to stop. He didn't like crying, and he didn't like seeming weak in front of Donny...but that's all he was doing.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 12:23 am
Donny too had a sense of relief when he saw Ion open his door and look...well alive. It took him a moment to realize that his hair was lopped off and the male began to cry though he clearly didn't like doing so. He remained silent for a while before quietly walking over to him. Helping Ion up to his feet he cupped his hand under his chin and made Ion look at him. The butler had slowly slipped away to give them a bit of privacy. He knew that he did a job well done despite the fact that they both probably wanted to punch him right now.
Looking at Ion Donny smiled ever so weakly and replied, "And you look stupid.." he was talking about Ion's horrible hair cut but the tension in the air was lighter and for now he was calm. Suddenly he wrapped his arms around Ion and held him tightly yet gently as well because he was glad that Ion was okay. He didn't want to let the male go and wanted to keep him safe despite him being dangerous in general.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 12:41 am
Ion choked back a laugh at the males words, burying his face in the males chest when he pulled him into a hug. Donny was back... he wasn't acting lifeless and he had actually spoke to him. Ion was clutching on to the male desperately "Don't you dare do that again" He muttered, knowing that he had to look like a complete and total mess. He finally calmed down a little bit, the tears no longer falling though he still felt like a mess. "I think... " He murmured, cutting himself off for a moment to catch his breath, which was tough since he now had a mild case of the hiccups. "I think i need to get a haircut" He murmured as he pulled his face out of Donny's chest and looked up at the male with a small smile.
He didn't want to pull himself out of Donny's arms, but he had to. He needed to wash his face and clean up, and...well go get a hair cut. He hadn't don't that bad of a job, it's just that it was all one length and maybe a little crooked. So he leaned back out of the males grasp , lifting and arm to wipe his eyes "I'm a mess....so is the floor next to my bed...and the bathroom...lots of hair" He murmured, another hiccup bubbling from his lips. He scrunched his nose up a bit at the feeling, he didn't like hiccups...they were annoying.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 12:55 am
He let him speak though he was a bit reluctant to let him go but Ion left his embrace. His eye brow rose in amusement when Ion had said he needed a hair cut. Well that was for damn sure. With a nod he would let Ion get fixed up but Donny would go with him to get his hair cut. Now he was paranoid and afraid to let Ion out of his sights and he wanted to be there to make sure nothing happened to him again. If anyone tried to hurt or take him away again he would pounce on the b*****d and break their neck.
Donny told Ion to meet him down in the kitchen so they could both eat (for he could no longer stand the hunger pains) and from there they could go somewhere where Ion could have a professional fix his hair.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 1:09 am
Ion nodded when the male told him to meet him in the kitchen after he freshened up and wandered back to his room, were he changed again since he..well he just didn't feel comfortable. He slipped on a turtle neck shirt with no sleeves but kept the black trousers. After going to the bathroom and seeing just how bad his hair was, he grabbed a hat. After washing his face he pulled the hat on and wandered out of his room, realizing how much of a kid he was being right now. Once he entered the kitchen he simply smiled at the male and took a seat. It didn't take long for them to get dinner...and well it didn't take long for Ion to eat it either.
Once he finished Ion looked to Donny "So, haircut time?" He voiced, a small smile gracing his lips."Is it okay for you to come with me? I don't want to ....." He voiced but cut himself off...."Actually. I'd rather not go alone" He stated, shrugging his shoulders a bit. Sure he wasn't letting Donny know just how shaken he really was. He had been....well, to put it bluntly, raped, by those men and even if he used to sleep with people, he'd never been taken forcefully. Ion simply pushed the thoughts away though and folded his hands behind his back.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 1:19 am
Donny ate as much as he could though there was still left overs. He nodded when Ion said that it was hair cut time so he got up and headed off to go out to the car. His eyes still avoided Ion's face and when the male spoke cheerfully it made him cringe almost every time. He knew that Ion was forcing himself to act that way for his sake...but it was only making him feel worse. He wanted to just....Sighing heavily he got in the car and once Ion was in they went toward the hair salon. They sat in silence half the way there.
Finally Donny spoke as he was serious again much like he was in the room. "I need to state this so it's no longer weighing on my chest..." Glancing at him for a brief moment before looking away again he continued, "Stop acting like you're okay....like nothing happened. It's going to drive me insane...the pain you're feeling from being raped will only fester inside you and then you'll...you'll only end up like me. Don't pretend..." He became silent for a moment as his voice shook a bit, anger and agony beginning to build up again.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 1:42 am
Ion felt his breath hitch and glanced over at Donny, who was still avoiding looking at him too, which still hurt. "I'll stop if you actually look at me." He voiced, knowing that was a lot to be asking for. "I wont lie...it hurt and still hurts, but i can't let it rule me either. If i can't be cheerful then i'll just end up shutting everyone out....and i don't want to." he added, staring down at his hands which were currently folded on his lap.
"You being unable to look at me hurts too you know"
With that he looked up at the other male, a small smile pulling at his lips "I'll be alright Donny. I just...don't want to think about it." He stated firmly. Sure it hurt, and he wouldn't get over it for a while, but it didn't help to dwell on it either. Once he felt the car come to a stop and the doors unlocked Ion slipped out, he didn't want Donny to see his disappointment. He didn't like it when the other saw him upset "Anyways, we can talk later." He added when he was out of the car, and then he simply walked into the hair salon before Donny had even gotten out. The girl behind the counter knew they were coming at smiled at the boy, she could tell he was upset and thus took him to a seat near the back so he'd have a bit more privacy.
She took off his hat and of course pestered him about the shape his hair was in, but she also got him laughing, actually laughing. Truthfully she reminded him of someone back at the Black Lilly, a friend. When she finished she walked over to Donny to speak with him. Basically just about the fee, though she did state that Ion was a sweet heart and to take care of him. She was nice... though she had no idea about what the two of them had just been through.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 1:55 am
After Ion got out Donny sat there and lingered in the car for a bit. In fact he only got out when he saw that the hair cut was done. Getting out he went inside and paid for the cut and only gave a faint nod at the woman before turning and going back into the car after Ion got in. Again they sat in silence though the driver asked where to take them or if he should just take them back home. When no one said anything he sighed and just headed toward the house.
Don still didn't look at Ion. He really didn't know what to do or say...he couldn't do this. Donny knew that he himself was ******** up and had his own problems. How could he even sit there and tell Ion to talk about it and not hold s**t in. He was a complete hypocrite but he couldn't talk about many things without going insane. Ion would break down and who knows what else he would do...but he knew for a fact that Ion would not end up going as crazy like him. He sighed heavily and looked down at his feet yet again starting to feel like a lost ******** puppy again!
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 2:05 am
Ion knew that Donny had gone back into one of his moods and sighed as he got into the car. The ride there was silent and the air was heavy again...tense. When Donny got out of the car without a word Ion was quick to follow and quite literally grabbed Donny's arm to stop him "Don't do this again Donny. You need to look at me." he stated, though he probably sounded hurt more than anything. "It hurts Donny. I know you don't want to but please.." He voiced, yes, he was pleading. How could he not? Donny still wouldn't meet his eyes and he was back to trying to avoid him. "I can get over what happened, but you ignoring me and not looking at me just hurts, it hurts right now. Not past or future, now." he added, his voice cracking a bit.
"I know your hurting. i don't know why and i don't know if i can help, but please just......let me in." He murmured, letting his gaze remain on the males face, even though he had yet to look at him. "If you don't want me to break down, then talk to me, listen, please...." He stressed, hell, Donny hadn't looked at him properly since earlier.... Did he realize how much it hurt to be shunned like this? To not be looked at or talked to?
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2013 1:57 pm
Sighing heavily Donny looked down and rubbed the back of his neck still unable to look at him. It took him a moment to compose his thoughts and when he did he finally glanced over at Ion but remained silent. It was still very hard to look at him without remembering the things they had done to him but also remembering the tragic death of his sister. Frowning he reached out and grabbed Ion's wrist gently and pulled him into the house where they were greeted by the butler. One thing they would notice would be the bags beside his legs. One would also assume the butler was leaving or something like that.
Donny finally spoke only to explain the current situation as he faced Ion again. "You have your freedom now and so you are free to live your life. I've arranged somethings so that you can live on your own in a nice house on the other side of the city. You won't have to worry about paying for anything and there will be some maids to assist you if you need anything and you'll have a driver as well so you don't have to worry about getting around. I have the fianances covered so don't worry about it....I just can't have you living here any longer. It's for your own safety..." He looked over at the butler and motioned for him to go take the bags in the car.
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