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 Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:02 pm
Home Alone Well, Kam has just informed Sunil and I she will be taking off for Ireland within a couple hours. A couple hours?! Honestly between this and the car trip I think the woman is off her rocker!
She said that Sunil and I were welcome to stay with Tera, Maquinar and Quantel's bond. I politely declined, but inwardly I was seething. She is not going to push me off on someone else and force me to go to someone else's house. Hotels are bad enough, god only knows what this woman's cleaning habits are. Kam didn't seem confortable leaving me here alone, but I reminded her that someone would need to watch Rishi and the leopards. She knew I was right and she gave in, but not before lecturing me on taking care of the house. I am much better at keeping my areas neat than she is, so I don't know where she gets off. I'll be happy when she and Sunil are gone.
In other news, Salah and Sakina really let me have it the first time I checked in on them after my trip. I hadn't realized they actually spoke, although I had heard muffled sounds coming from their drawer. Anyway they seemed pretty miffed no one had told them where we were all going and at least let them out of the drawer. They're both extremely intelligent but nothing they can do about the sort of stuff that tends to accumulate in there if you know what I mean. I cleaned out the drawer and spoke to Kam about it. Apparently they are now completely my responsibility. Excellent. Now I don't have to worry about them falling victim to Kam's absent-mindedness.~Ruya
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:03 pm
Woah I have to write fast because you never know who could be watching in this damn house of Tera's.
I believe I have an anti-allergy to Quantel. I saw her the other day and I began to feel all fluttery in my stomach. At first I thought I had contracted some sort of medical condition, but then I realized that it worsened when in close proximity to Quantel. Clearly it was some sort of allergic reaction to her presence.
Ther is only one problem with my original theory. I didn't feel bad. I didn't feel sick. I felt good it sort of an overwhelming way. Hence an "anti-" allergy.
This phenomenon bears further study. I shall have to find Quantel's hidey-hole here in the house.~Sunil
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:04 pm
Frustration Maq is a frustrating twit. I would say little but apparently he has grown. And he is bigger than I am. I must master the whip. I practiced for quite a while the other day in the store and I believe I have improved my accuracy, but I still managed to cut the crap out of myself.~Sunil
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:05 pm
Weird Living at home alone and taking care of the pets has been quite the adventure. I even have a new pet to take care of. Lady, who is a fox. She is quite a bit more trouble than the others. Rishi spends most of his time following me around and Salah and Sakina just move around the upstairs like a little mini pack sticking to themselves (although they've let Susu join them for the last couple days - I wonder what Sunil would think of that).
But after a while it gets monotonous, and more than a little creepy at night. The house is so big and there are so many noises outside. Not to mention a girl can only do so much working out, reading, cleaning, and watching tv.
Last night I went to the store for a change of scenery and I saw Maq. Maq lives with Tera, which is where I believe Sunil is right now. It is where she is supposed to be anyway. I'd met him before, but last night he was acting very odd. And he made me feel odd, in a good way. I'm glad his bond eventually came to get him, he didn't seem to be well. Something about a flask.
Although he did say I was smart. And that if he wasn't so much bigger than me maybe I could have beat him up. I hope he meant it, but with the way he was acting, who knows. Honestly I felt a little dumb around him. Especially when I fell into his lap. I hope I see him again.
Maybe I should even make a visit to Tera's house and make sure Sunil is behaving and see if Tera has heard from Kam.~Ruya
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:06 pm
Frustration!1!! I want to see more of Quantel. I haven't seen her as of late AT ALL. I can't believe we live in the same house and I never see her. If I didn't think stupid Ruya would cause a lot of problems I would head back to Kam's house. Speaking of which, where the hell is she? I swear the woman has abandoned us. I wonder if she died overseas. I suppose I can only hope.
Anyway, I think I like Quantel. In a stupid mushy loser way. I'm gonna go beat something up and practice with my whip.~Sunil
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:07 pm
Angst and Potential Allies I haven't seen Q in quite some time. For some reason I miss seeing her and it annoys me. Such weakness is not something I expected in myself. And yet, I can't being myself to try and fix the situation. Oh well, as long as I don't see Q my weakness will not be exposed.
An interesting thing happened to me when I was in the store the other day. I was watching some of the stupid juvenile feien and I think I may have found one with some potential. His name is Calico and hes very stupid. A lot like a rabid dog really. I had to pull some tricks just to get the brat to tell me his name. And he refused my offer of instruction. Can you imagine? He passed up the chance to learn from ME. He must have been dropped as a bloom. Despite his wishes, I will keep working at him. It will be a good lesson for myself in manipulating others.~ Suni
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:08 pm
In Which Sunil Makes a New Friend Sunil Up on a high shelf of one of the store's bookshelves, Sunil yawned widely and stretched. She had been cat napping up there for some time and her joints were stiff. She threw a couple punches into the air to get herself loosened up before looking down on the store. From her perch she could observe most of the store without being observed herself unless she chose. There didn't appear to currently be anyone in the shop and Sunil settled back down with a sigh. She could only hope something interesting would come along, since she really didn't feel like going back home herself. There wasn't anything to do there either. Calico What was with days as boring as this...? With nothing to do at home, as usual, the quoteful feien had flit his way back to the shop. He was hoping that today would be as lucky as it had been the other night. Finding one of those more clumsy feien alone and wandering... No such luck. The droning hum announced his appearance as Calico touched down upon the open sill, hands perched upon his hips to scout the shop stretching before him. Nothing. Not even a damn roach. Of course he didn't think to look up and confirm the shelves empty since it was always the counter that was the center of attention. Pfft. Well, he could play with the junk here again, right? So that had been his intention now, rising to the air once more and buzzing unhurriedly for the display case to mull over the silly weapons stored there. Sunil Sunil perked up as she picked up the sound of a feien approaching. Reaching out magically she was disappointed to find she didn't recognize the magical signature. It must be one of those tiny useless juvenile feien. Sunil settled back down on the shelf and stifled a yawn. As the feien came into view however, she perked up again. Those garish quotes sould only belong to one particularly interesting juvenile. He seemed to be going for the display case, so Sunil pondered her next mood. After all, he had not been very receptive to her suggestions before. Her frown faded as an idea popped into her head. Amusement crossed her features and she reached out to send a medium strength breeze to blow the little feien off course. Calico Though he was getting used to much of this new world, flying was something taking some time. On nice days he seemed like a master at it... but put in something in the way, like a little magical help, and he was a bit clumsy. "Eh?" He swooped a little to the side and buzzed his wings more frantically so not to tip into such a position that he couldn't stay aloft. ******** breeze! He turned toward it, expecting to glare toward a window... but when he followed the direction it had pushed against it, he only found himself staring toward the shelves. It took him a moment, scanning them blankly, to make out a blue figure that was unlike the supplies otherwise lining them. That scowl crawled to his lips as he hovered where he as, managing to remain in perfectly one place given the high speeds insect wings could drone. "Yer tha' b'tch... whatevah yer name was." Sunil Sunil hopped off the shelf and rather abruptly dropped the breeze which Calico had been fighting. As she approached Calico, she grinned and was careful not to get too close. The bite wound on her arm still hurt. "You can refer to me as that b***h if remembering my rather short name is too difficult for your pea sized brain." Sunil crossed her arms over her chest and looked Calico over. "Have you considered my offer?" Calico The insult toward his intelligence wasn't much of a blow. He mere cocked his head to one side and raised his chin in that posture of reckless arrogance. The kind for the people who like to flaunt their strength rather then bide their time and wait. "Not that I can't remembah it," He corrected her in a snapping tone. "but it'd jus' be a waste of thought." Despite his arrogant look and response, he had drifted back just a bit even if she was keeping her distance. It didn't look so much as because of fear as it was because of annoyance. She annoyed him. That thing she did, where he couldn't touch her... it was annoying and he simply didn't want to get pissed enough to endure that frustration again. "Whut offer?" He replied forgetfully. Sunil Sunil snorted. "Is there anything going on in that head of yours? You can't remember my name and you can't remember what I said the last time we met. I trust you can remember the beating I gave you and how easy it was for me. Don't make me knock some sense into you again. I offered to help you develop your talents." Sunil sneered at him. For all his seeming potential he might be totally useless to her. Calico Twitch twitch went the temper. Calico narrowed his eyes in annoyance when she made reference to their fight, which really hadn't been much of a fight at all... just an utter failure on his part. The only reason he hadn't been beaten to a pulp was simply because she apparently hadn't been in the mood. How frustrating. "I told yah my answer then too, I remembah that at least." He snapped back, positive to she was up to something tricky. "The rest wasn't interest'n 'nuff to recall. So sod off, yah?" Sunil Sunil sighed, slowly willing herself not to beat the crap out of this little snot. "Do you want to be weak for the rest of your life? I saw you with the other juveniles. They don't trust you and they're going to band against you to stop your fun. I am offering you the means to trounce all of them and do as you wish. Are you really dumb enough to throw that away?" Calico Calico paused a moment and glanced faintly at the counter, recalling the group of brats with their little carebear cuddling. They were going to take Shalafi from him, he knew that much. They had sworn it once already, and when they discover he had already claimed the crippled worm they were going to get in the way. "... What're you gett'n outta this 'den?" He tilted his head just enough to eye her out of the corners distrustfully. Tempted? Maybe, but he didn't like her any better then those brats. It was hard to weigh the choices evenly. Sunil Sunil smiled slowly, feeling victory within reach. "I like seeing people made aware of just how powerless they are to save those they care about. I like seeing people realize that friends are a waste of time, a weakness, and a luxury they cannot afford to indulge. I like seeing people realize that world is an ugly place and that ultimately evil is stronger. To help you means I will see more of that." Calico Calico rose an eyebrow and slung up a hand to itch at the back of his head, tousling about twists of dual-quoteed locks in the careless process. "Tha's a pretty pitiful goal." He declared blankly. "If'n tha's all yah want then yah damn well bettah not turn 'round and say I owe yah anytime, got it?" The deal didn't seem so bad. When she got annoying he could just bail. And apparently he owed her nothing in return for any of it. She wanted people miserable? Sure, whatever. He'd hurt who he wanted and she'd just have to be satisfied with that, he figured. Sunil Sunil frowned a little and uncrossed her arms placing them on her hips. She narrowed her eyes and though about warning him off Quantel, but decided against it. She hadn't seen the younger girl in a while and what she had seen implied Q could take care of herself. As far as Sunil was concerned, everyone else was fair game for Calico. "You will owe me nothing, but if I don't like what you do with the knowledge I share with you - I will break you. Literally. Are we clear on that?" Calico Calico studied her thoughtfully at that and smiled after a moment. It wasn't something really allowed the honor to be considered a smile as it was a version of a sneer less obvious but twice as dark. "If'n yer so called knowledge is so good, then you shouldn't be able to." Was what he challenged back for his own amusement. Even if he acted so decided upon the situation, he really hadn't declared yet what he wished to do. Her knowledge was tempting but what did he care what she knew? What made her so tough besides that cheating wall of hers? He was sizing her up unknowingly with his eyes now. Bigger, stronger, yes.. but when ambushed with an unfair advantage, say a weapon, what did that matter? Hmm... Sunil Sunil didn't like the way Calico was now sizing her up. She prepared herself for a fight, getting ready to call on both her strength and her magic. "I'm not an idiot. I'm not going to tell you everything. But if you don't want the scraps I'm willing to throw you, so be it squirt." Calico "The way yah talk..." He started slowly, closing his eyes and giving his head a rather violent shake as though he were trying to clear his thoughts. Apparently it didn't work for when he opened those eyes next they were glaring at her furiously. "Sumthin 'bout it just really pisses me off!" Calico really wasn't so good at learning when he was out-matched and even though he had the memory of their last encounter clear in his mind, he was attacking again. He was a speedy little creature at that, a quoteful little fireball launching itself right at her with every intention to tear apart that damned shield if it appeared again. Nothing could stand forever, right? ... He wasn't thinking so coherently right now, you see. Sunil Sunil had a split second to try and decide what to do as Calico launched himself at her. Her quick assessment convinced her she wasn't fast enough to get out of the way, so she took her split second to launch herself at Calico in return. If she could get a moment away, she would unwind the whip curled up around her shoulder and teach Calico about poison. Until then she was prepared to knock his teeth out the old fashioned way. With her fists. Calico He hadn't any weapon. Again. A fact that constantly ticked Calico off. And since he had no issues with honor, he had on goal in mind: her face. The fact that she had lunged back had been a bit of a surprise but it didn't hesitate his flight in the least. He made the whole act short anyway, blitzing across and immediately into her. Getting away for a moment could prove a problem. He was an entirely close-combat sort of beast, in that he attacked without strategy or intelligent thought. Once he was close enough he was just recklessly tearing at any flesh, hair, wing or limb that he could bury his nails or, hell, even teeth into. Not the brightest plan but maybe it at least got the honor of being unpredictable in its instinctive way. Sunil Sunil found herself under a constant, annoying, and rather painful attack of flying limbs. Her first assessment had been correct. Calico fought like a wild animal. No strategy or discipline at all. Sunil reached out her arms and crushed Calico to her in a hug before completely stopping flight. If he didn't wiggle his way out of the hug before they hit the ground she was going to make sure he was on the bottom. If he did, it would give her time to get out her weapon. She was determined to ignore the many scratches and bite marks she was sure to accumulate by using this particular move. Calico It was a tactic he remembered, but it didn't mean he had prepared any idea of how to get out of it either. Calico issued some irritated growling swears, though really they were just incoherent sounds that he was too angry to pronounce correctly, and did his best to squirm about. There was indeed biting and kicking and whatever else he could achieve, but if she tolerated that then he was thoroughly trapped... given her strength and her size, her arms were so very easily around his own small and too young body. So floor it was, apparently. His wings couldn't buzz in their position and even if they did there was no way he'd keep her aloft too. And with him on the bottom, that definitely knocked him for a loop there... and there was choked sound, a cross between a cough and a loss of breath both at once, mixed into the impact before he stilled a moment and fought to restore air to his lungs. His back had a brief seering pain that numbed into that dull quality, the type that promised to be a real b***h later when it truly set in. Sunil The problem was that as Calico hit the ground, Sunil did too and his little body did almost nothing to cushion the blow for her. But she bit her lip and got back up as quickly as possible, before slowly beginning to unwind the whip. She smiled despite the pain and the fact her left eyes was probably going to be swollen shut soon (the squirt apparently had gotten a lucky shot). This would be her first time she could practice using the whip on a living target. As she finished unwinding the whip, Sunil slid into a crouch. It wasn't her best and she knew her shins were going to be black and blue for days from his panicked kicking on the way down, but it would do. As soon as he stood, she would be ready for him. "How does it feel squirt? You like being overpowered?" Calico It was the words, if anything, that drove him to move. His fight had been killed off by that rude landing. Smashed to the ground, crushed under her body, his body really didn't want to move at all let alone fight. <******** you..." It was pure defiance that made him gradually roll over until his knees were beneath him. And then it was pure denial in the fact that he was weaker that forced him to push off the floor and get his feet under him, rising him listlessly back up. What to do from there he wasn't so sure, especially when she was holding that... thing now. What the hell was it supposed to be? Whatever, a few knots of string weren't anything to be arrogant over. And so he lunged again, however half-heartedly. It was more stubbornness then a threat anymore. Sunil Sunil grinned as Calico lunged at her and flicked her wrist half heartedly. She really had no desire to continue fighting him. He wasn't her equal, but this apparently was the only way he would let himself be taught. Besides, the power of a weapon like a whip is that it took very little effort to cause a great deal of damage. Unless he was very good at dodging, he was about to get a long poisonous scratch across the center of his body. Calico It was a dual agreement, Calico was a little fed-up with the fight but what could he do when provoked? His anger always won. Nonetheless, given the current state he had gotten himself into, dodging wasn't much of an option. The only best reaction he had was to hit the breaks and lurch backwards, which didn't clear him entirely of the lash. "..." Well. That was different. A burning pain that subconciously encouraged him to fold an arm over the injury with little understanding to why it seemed to sting far more then much else. He stood unevenly but still, refusing to approach her now, held at bay by her unusual weapon. ... Damn b'tch. Sunil Sunil laughed, pleased with herself. "Feel good? The tip is a poisonous bee stinger. I don't suppose you know how to heal yourself? Qu - Someone I know once told me the poison doesn't take long to seriously weaken someone your size. It will be interesting to see it in action." Calico Calico narrowed his eyes, seething. He was angry and when angry he wanted to hit something. So he staggered forward a step and, upon second thoughts, only backed off again. It was a weaving action that thumped him onto his knees instead where he panted his frustration. ******** adults... he didn't bother speaking to reply, it seemed pretty obvious he was resigned to the situation now. He couldn't fight her, full healthy or injuried, it was hopeless with how he was. He thought up a whole string of quoteful swears in his mind but voiced none against her. Sunil Although Calico probably couldn't see it, Sunil was fighting an internal battle. She was pretty sure the tiny amount of poison that could have entered his wounds wouldn't actually kill him, but combined with the beating he was looking pretty low. Should she or shouldn't she offer to cure him? "I can cure you, but you'd have to make the effort worth my while." Calico Now he wasn't entirely sure if his voice even worked or if he was just refusing to talk. Funny how he didn't even know. But at her words Calico lifted his head. He wasn't sure when it had hung so low and forward but it had, and now he was staring at her rather fiercely through scattering and unmatching dreadlocks. A stare the clearly was asking what she wanted... okay, maybe now he was willing to strike deals. This feeling, it was a feeling he couldn't stand. To be weaker then her was horrible, to feel his body just falling apart though, to be weaker then everyone else? He wanted this gone. Whatever the price. At least he did learn, at long last, to stop underestimating the strong blue feien. Even if she pissed him off, it wasn't worth dealing with that annoying weapon of hers. Sunil Sunil took the stare as an invitation to keep talking. "I'll teach you whatever you wish to know, but if I come to you and ask you to go after someone specific I expect you to do it. I won't ask very often, since I prefer to fight my own battles. But sometimes it would be advantageous for my name not to be attached to an attack. Do you agree to the terms?" Calico Orange eyes narrowed faintly but it didn't take much thought to mull over. It annoyed him, like pretty much all the world did, but it wasn't anything that'd get in his way. What did he care who he hurt as long as they bled... and so, though gritting his teeth in absolute fury over the situation as a whole, he drooped his head and nodded wearily. "G-get rid 'o it.." He raspily demanded in return. Sunil Sunil nodded and coiled the whip back up before tucking it back over her arm. Nervously she approached Calico, but he didn't appear to be playing at being hurt. Sunil reached out an arm as soon as she was close enough to touch him, laying it on the top of his head. She closed her eyes and pushed her magic out along her arm fighting the poison she could see spreading throughout his body. As soon as she was done, she walked back granting him more space. "Now is probably not the time to teach you anything. I'm annoyed and you're weakened. But I would suggest that if you don't already know it, you figure out your element. It will make teaching you much easier." Calico It was hard enough to get him to listen when he felt well, right now he'd much rather sleep for a week. Maybe two if he was so lucky. Calico sat back heavily and tentatively drawing back his arm from his chest to momentarily examine the blood. "Un..." Who knew what the sound stood for. Agreement, acknowledge, 'go the hell away'... either way it was his own reply as he heaved himself to his feet. Element, eh? Whatever. He was wandering away from her, namely for the counter and around back of it. Where ever he could find first that seemed a likely hiding place to just flop down and rest. He'd think about this stuff later, when he felt like living again. That'd take some good long hours of sleep at the very least. Sunil Sunil sighed as Calico snuck away. She really hoped she wasn't going to have to beat the crap out of him everytime she wanted to teach him something. She was too old for this s**t. And she didn't really want bruises everywhere all the time. But she let him go, content that they would meet again and perhaps he would have thought about his element by then. She herself wouldn't mind going home for a nap and some food, so she took flight and carefully winged her way out of the shop.
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:10 pm
Returning Home Coming home has been an interesting experience.
Ruya, as expected, has kept the pixapets in line and the household in a semblance of order in my absence.
Sunil, however, was not at Tera's as expected. Apparently she has been staying at home, unknown to Ruya for quite some time. She won't say why and she is bruised and scratched all over. The wounds aren't new, but haven't been there long enough to have fully healed.
Anyway this all means lots to sort out even though all I want to do is take a nice long nap and readjust to the time difference here.~ Kam
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:11 pm
Books I haven't seen much of Tam lately. He and I had a rather unproductive conversation about his moping as I called it and he has been spending most of his time reading in the living room. Ruya volunteered to turn pages for him, which I think made him happy. I'm not sure what she gets out of the whole thing, but it seems to make her happy too. Maybe just having someone around to share her love of books?~ Kam
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:12 pm
New Arrivals Today I gained another new member to the household. (I'm worried we're gonna have to finish the basement to have room if I don't stop getting new people moving in to my life soon!) Her name is Riana and she is a young elf girl who will be here to assist me. After all, going back to school and keeping track of this household is gonna be more than a one person job. Sunil is going to be pissed, but I have put Riana in the spare bedroom on the second floor where Sunil previously had possession of the closet (and room). Sunil is going to be moved (good thing she is still a little sore from whatever fight she got in or I'd be in trouble for this) into the linen clost down the hall on the same floor. I suppose I'll have to find a new home for my towels, but that shouldn't be too tough to be honest.
I've really only just met her but Riana seems to be a rather soft spoken and quiet individual. I just hope she has the backbone to put up with Sunil... and Ruya, who in my absence has apparently decided she is master of the house.
Yesterday I was perusing my bookshelves for something to read for a little bit (I needed a break) and she spent the whole time staring over my shoulder and "fixing" books after I pulled them out and put them back. I also got a lecture about not making my bed properly in the morning. She may have to move out of my room and into her own like Sunil. Although once again I'm running out of room. I suppose I could make room for her somewhere in the kitchen. Maybe I'll talk to her about that.
In other news, Tam seems to be adjusting a little bot to life here. He has taken to watching TV and asking me questions about my life. I'm glad he seems to be working through his issues. While I sympathasize completely with his anger at finding he is somehow here when his family has passed on, I really didn't know what I was going to do with a sulky ghost. Especially such an attractive one. Journal? Upon Kam's advice I have decided to start a journal. For now it will hold little of import as I must dictate to someone and have them write for me. I was not particularly literate, as Kam says, when I was alive before besides the fact that languages have shifted quite a bit since I was alive. Kam tried to explain the concept of shifting vowels and derivative languages to me, but I wasn't particularly interested. Through some fluke I can speak this American english and that is really all that matters.
It feels odd to expose myself on a piece of paper like this, but I have been bored of late - perhaps this will present a new routine to add to my day and take up time. For some time I have been reading up on this era and I must confess a measure of confusion at their social values. The raw emotional pain I felt upon first learning I was here without my family has dulled somewhat, but I still long for my own time. I long for things to be the way they were. It seems a cruel joke that I worked so hard to achieve a measure of happiness in my past life and now I've been thrown back into life to start all over again.
I hope I am not doomed to stay quite so insubstantial for the rest of my duration here. I would feel much better if I could practice my swordplay or venture into town to seek some new people.~ Tam Plotting, planning, working stuff out I'm being moved. Kam says I have to get out of MY closet and move down the hall to make room for some new elf girl. I am outraged that she thinks she can just bump me out of my home like this. I'll get even. Just as soon as I have time. For now I am concentrating on recovering from my fight with Calico. I must be weak to have allowed him to injure me to this extent. Most of the wounds are minor (scratches and bruises), but I shouldn't have gotten any of them at all.
I am back to my hardcore training regime. Lifting weights, running, and meditating. I also need to work on my speed. If I had been faster, I could have dodged before he reached me. Towards that end I have begun timing myself during the day when flying down the stairs, running in the morning, and anytime I have a set distance I travel on a regular basis. I will be recording those scores and attempting to improve my times.
Also I have been thinking quite a bit about Q. Maybe it shouldn't matter if she wants to see me. Maybe I should just go confront this stupid feeling of mine and decide what to do from there? I hate this! I am so indecisive when it comes to her. I know what I want from every aspect of my life except this! I hate her. I hate her for doing this to me. If I see her again I don't know whether I will kiss her or kill her making me even think about kissing her.~ Sunil Snapshot and Journal Entry Ruya flew into the bedroom with a tiny bottle cap full of water balanced in both hands and landed on the lip of a partially opened drawer. "Salah? Sakina? I've brought you some new water. May I come in?" There were vague grumblings from the drawer for a while before a pixaleopard poked its head out and yawned widely. "Of course you may. Salah is still sleeping in the back of the drawer, though so try and be quiet." "Still sleeping, " a tiny bit of irritation crept into Ruya's otherwise sweet voice, "I can't believe you are still sleeping at 2 pm in the afternoon. Does this mean you also don't have the scraps I need to throw into the wash today?" Ruya hopped down into the drawer and set the water down with a sigh before hopping back out. "Ruya - " "Nevermind, " Ruya cut Sakina off with a curt wave, "I have better things to do than laundry anyway. But I expect you to be ready tomorrow." Ruya fluttered back out of the room with Rishi now following on the floor below. As she entered the kitchen again to wash out and put away the old bottlecap water bowl, a large banana flipped over the corner of the counter and almost crushed Rishi. Rishi managed to dodge and Ruya landed on the counter with a clear look of disapproval on her face. "Lady! Get you a** out here NOW." A grinning pixafox poked her nose out from behind the fruit bowl at the yelling. "Oh Ruya, " she peeked over the edge where Rishi was growling at the banana, "and Rishi too! What a pleasure, I had no idea you were here." Before Ruya could say anything, Lady disappeared behind the fruit bowl again. Her laughter could be heard as she high tailed it out of there. Extremely frustrated now, Ruya threw the bottle cap in her hands at the wall and had to dodge quickly as it bounced back at her. "These stupid pets are taking up all my time." Ruya hopped out the counter, and ignoring Rishi and the fallen banana, zoomed out of the open kitchen window and into the back yard. Quote: After a long, long day of picking up after Kam, helping to move Sunil and Riana around the house, transcribing a journal entry for Tam, and then dealing with the damn pixapets I have made a decision. I am so unchallenged here. I have nothing to occupy myself. I tried meditating, and I've been practicing the limited fencing I know. I've imporved my mastery of my own flight. But I have no greater project to work towards. I have no purpose and nothing to challenge me. I spend my days drifting though life with little thought. Now that Kam has returned and Riana has joined us, I am going to find a purpose and pursue it.
Finding a purpose should be an interesting challenge in and of itself. In novels it seems like some event always happens to trigger the heroine/hero's quest for greater knowledge. They never have to start that journey themselves.
For now I think I will read up on mathematics. Kam has several textbooks starting with precalculus and progressing through differential equations and linear algebra. I should find something to challenge me in there. Perhaps I can even get a hold of her own tests to check my absorption of the knowledge available.~ Ruya
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:14 pm
Another new member? I am so relieved to find that I am not pregnant. The whole time in Ireland I was worried, but I didn't dare write it down openly in my diary for fear that that would make it true. The truth is that my dreams about children were not a sign of my own state, but a sign of a new member of the household who has now arrived.
Chandra is an odd child, prefering darkness to light and the night to day. It is wreaking havoc on my sleep pattern. Additionally, she seems to be completely uninterested in normal toddler foods like milk and apple sauce. Instead she wants hot dogs and lunch meat. I'm not sure what to make of her quite yet to be honest. I have several bite marks on my arm and one on my left ankle where she has bitten me, even drawing blood in one case. This alone would make me want to give her away, but when I lean over her cradle and she looks at me with her big, big eyes and reaches her arms out and coos to be picked up, my heart melts and I can't imagine her anywhere but here.
I can only wonder what the rest of my household will think about her.~ Kam (( Chandra's Diary))
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:15 pm
Quick Trip I went to confront Q today and found that she, Maq, and Tera are all gone. There was a note on the gate to the house about the having to help someone. I admit I was crushed with disappointment when I realized I would be unable to see Q until she returned, however, when I saw that she had left a small note to me about finding a way to communicate my heart soared and I got that funny feeling in the pit of my stomach again. That she thought to leave me a note comforted me. Perhaps she has been thinking of me too?~ Sunil Mathematics I have made a lot of progress on my study of advanced mathematics. I have mastered precalculus (with a detour through trigonometry) and moved onto what Kam refers to as Calc 1. According to Kam, math is a language and once mastered can be used to describe almost anything. I find that hard to believe. How can something so ordered and black and white be used to describe this world?
Anyway, reading up about math has been of interest to me, but it has led me no closer to an ultimate goal or quest. At this rate I believe that I shall never discover myself.~ Ruya
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:16 pm
Back in Action I've been doing some thinking. I need to stop worrying about Q. Out of sight, out of mind. I have more important things to do with my time. For example I need to resume my study of chemistry in order to facilitate my study of alchemy.
I have decided to refresh my memory of basic and organic chemistry quickly by reading and taking notes on Kam's old textbooks. I remembered she had them when I saw her getting out some for Ruya. I had a momentary moment of panic then when I thought Ruya might become competition in my search. She did after all see my lab while I was forced to move my base of operations. It turns out though that she is actually studying mathematics.
If I can breeze through the early chemistry information, I should be able to start in on some experimentation. I believe that my fascilities will be insufficient for the type of procedures used to alter atomic structure, but I'll work around there when I get to it. First I'll need a better understanding of biology. After all if I am to extend my life I must first understand it. I am unsure what the best way to go out about studying feien biology would be. The best would be if I had a subject, but I doubt Kam will allow me to slice up feiens in my lab.
As well as resuming my interest in alchemy, I have continued my quest to stay on top physically. I have found that my speed has not increased in the short time I have been working on it. Perhaps my body is not capable of faster movement? That would be quite a disadvantage in a fight and I'll need to find a way to compensate. Perhaps I could use my ability to manipulate wind to my advantage?
I have been having trouble with my meditation lately. It gets harder and harder to clear my mind of outside thoughts for 10 mins. It does not appear to be affecting my mastery of magic, but I have to wonder about the cause. Kam says that I sound stressed and perhaps I have taken on too much. Nonsense! I can handle everything I have taken on, but perhaps her advice holds weight. I will try scheduling things for certain days so I do not feel the need to fit everything in every day. That way I should also get more sleep. Often when it comes time to go to sleep I feel that to stop what I am doing only to space out for many hours would be a waste of my time. Besides its hard to get a full nights sleep with that brat bawling all the time anyway.~ Sunil
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:18 pm
In Which Ruya Talks to Her Mom Ares Ares glided along the street, flapping her blue and black wings every so often as her red eyes glanced at the houses she passed, beginning to feel a little drained from flying for so long. Why couldn't she find the house? She wanted to see Ruya, and it was as if the streets alone were keeping her from doing so. Fortunately for her, she was persistant, and wasn't about to give up without some sort of fight. That was, until she found a house that looked rather familiar. Having only seen Kam's house twice before to deliver gifts, she had almost passed it when she recognized the door somehow. Well, there was no use in not trying. Flitting up to the large door, the feien raised a hand to attempt a knock before remembering how quiet that would be. Running her hand through her short blue hair instead, Ares looked around for a moment, wondering if there might have been a doorbell somewhere. Ah! There it was... Moving herself to the doorbell, Ares placed both of her hands on the little button. She was a little hesitant, but she pushed down, hopefully ringing the bell, and waited to see what would happen. Ruya When the rather loud doorbell rang, Ruya was in the middle of trying to figure out a particularly nasty integral. Her concentration broken by the sound she snarled and hopped off the desk, ready to yell at whoever had broken the silence. As she flew down the stairs, she remembered that she still hadn't devised a way to open the door. Turning to face back up the stairs, she yelled for Kam. "Kam! Doorbell!" Kam, who had just skidded into the foyer from the living room winced at Ruya shrill voice before opening the door. "Hello?" There didn't seem to be anyone there for a moment and then Kam spotted Ares. "Hello? Are you here to see Sunil or Ruya?" She said it before she spotted the third eye and realized who this must be. Resolving to get more sleep, Kam gestured for Ares to come into the house. "Ares, correct? You'll want to see Ruya, who I believe is right here." After Kam moved, Ruya was finally able to see who had been at the door and rushed over to hug her mother, her earlier irritation at being interrupted forgotten. "Hello mother! How are you?" Ares Ares raised her brow a little bit when the doorbell sounded, wondering how it could be so loud. Mumbled cries, and then the door opening, only to have been confused for someone else. Until, of course, the human had said her name. Nodding her head a little bit, the black and blue feien floated into the house, and was immediatetly greeted by her daughter. Ah...just who she wanted to see. "Hello, child," she said softly as she smiled, hugging the little feien gently. "It had been so long since I heard from you, so I thought I'd stop by to see how you were doing. I've been...well enough. What about you, Ruya? How have you been? Has everything been all right?" Ruya Kam shut the door as Ares came in and then beat a hasty retreat. It wouldn't be polite to spy on Ruya and her mother. Ruya shook her head slightly as her mother asked how she was. "No, I haven't been all that well. I realized that I don't know who I am or what I am here for. What is my long term goal in life?" Ruya sighed and then remembered her manners. "I'm sorry, I haven't even asked you if you'd like anything to eat or offered you a place to rest. We can sit on the couch if you'd like, " Ruya gestured just off to the side into the living room where an ugly orange couch sat. Ares At least her daughter was well mannered over guests. However, she didn't have to with family, Ares felt. Gently resting a hand on Ruya's head, she smiled down at her. "I'm quite all right, Ruya," she said quietly, her tail flinching a little bit, "but if you'd like to sit, we can sit." She glanced around the room for a moment, taking in the surroundings. It certainly wasn't anything like Neko's home, that was for sure, but it was still quite nice. Thinking back to what Ruya was saying, she wondered why she was worried about such a thing. "Ruya, why do you seem worried about where your life should be leading? What do you mean, you don't know who you are?" Ruya Ruya flew slowly over to the couch and touched down on one of the arms. She had been working on her flying endurance, but it still was very low. "I mean I don't know what I want from life. I mean Sunil has goals and projects. She has a purpose. I don't have anything to work towards. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't even have magic." Ruya smiled sadly before continuing. "I'm sorry to bother you with this, I feel like such a child." Ares Ares followed after Ruya, folding her wings down over her shoulders as she landed near the small feien. So she was trying to take examples from Sunil? It made sense, as she was the only feien really around here... "Sweety, everyone has magic," she tried to explain, sitting down on the arm of the couch. "We can't live without it. And trust me...if Merri has it, you do, too. If you'd like, perhaps we could practice a little bit." Upon the last comment, Ares closed her three eyes, bowing her head a little bit. "It's okay to feel like a child. You technically are still one, even though you've grown so much, but you will always by my child. You can talk to me about anything you want to, Ruya. I'm supposed to be there for you...and I'm sorry that I haven't been. I love you just as much as I love your brothers..." Ruya "Of course you've been here for me, it isn't your fault I live so much farther away. And I suppose I would like to practice magic. At least enough to know what sort of magic I can do." Ruya ran a hand through her hair in frustration. "But once again I don't know what I'll do with myself. Do you have any hobbies mother?" Ares "Hobbies?" Ares echoed aloud, thinking for a moment. "Well, I like to weave...and sewing it kind of fun. I love to read, and when I'm not doing any of those things I'll meditate and practice my magic." Opening her eyes, she looked to her daughter, folding her hands in her lap. "I guess you could say that, according to books and history, I could be considered some sort of "house mom", but without the cleaning. However, I don't like stereotypes, and I just do as I please. What about yourself?" Ruya Ruya sighed and thought for a moment. "I take care of all the pixapets, which is sometimes more of a chore than anything else and lately I have started studying math. Its nice, but it gets frustrating sometimes when I can't figure something out. I think I need something like your weaving, something where I make something. How did you discover your magic? I asked Sunil once and she just ignored me." Ruya frowned and briefly glanced over at the stairs to the upstairs. She could only hope Sunil was too busy to be spying on them right now. Ares "Well, for the longest time, I didn't think that I had any magic, either," she said softly, closing her eyes once again as she remembered the way she'd found out about her abilities. "The first time I became aware, I was with Arturo. We were talking, and when I touched him, I saw a piece of his past within my mind. At first, I didn't understand what was going on...I didn't know how it happened, it just DID. I couldn't control it, either, until I started practicing." Ares sighed lightly, her tail curling around herself a little bit. "I'm not sure if it works that way with all feien, but my magic seemed to have just appeared one day. Sometimes I'll gain new abilities, but they just come to me. It's like a natural instinct you can't completely control. However, if you concentrate hard enough, you can turn it on and off." Ruya Ruya ran her hand through her hair again and frowned a little. "So I might just suddenly find out I have magic? I don't really like the idea of that. How do I learn to control it?" Ares Ares couldn't help but smirk slightly, opening her eyes halfway. "By practicing," she explained. "You may have the same ability as I do, to see into one's past. I discovered that Merri has it, and I haven't checked with Nero about it yet." Ruya "To see into someone's past? Interesting. Did Merri just stumble into his power like you did?" Ares Ares nodded slowly, remembering how scared Merrimack had gotten when he first discovered it. It's not easy to calm someone down who thought that their mind was being possessed by something. "I have a feeling that you would take it much easier than he did, however," she said softly, smiling slightly. Ruya Ruya smiled and nodded. "Indeed, I am not quite so scared of things as Merrimack can be. Perhaps I don't spend enough time around people to know of my power. I have spent a great deal of time alone recently." She ran her hand through her hair again and made sure it was tucked behind her ears. "Maybe I can get Kam to let me practice on her. I assume it works on humans..." Ares "Mm, yes...it works on anything, actually," she explained. "Humans, demons, flowers, trees...you name it, you can see its past. It might not come right away at first, and it may not make sense, but with practice the images will become clearer." Sighing lightly, Ares thought for a moment, wondering what else she could say. "So...have you and Sunil been getting along?" Ruya Ruya frowned and once again glanced up the stairs. "No. She was gone for a while at Maquinar and Quantel's house and just returned. For the most part she avoids me, but I see her lurking around a lot. I think she is working on something, which is never good news. Kam said you and Sunil were once friends..." Ruya trailed off making the statement more of a question. Ares Ares nodded, scratching her head a little bit before resting her hand on the back of her neck. Idly, she looked to the flower-gem bracelet she always wore around her right wrist, a symbol to her of her youth. "Yes, we were once," she said calmly. "However, things changed...we grew up, and everything was different. That's the only explination I can think of." Ruya "I see." Ruya decided not to pry farther. She really couldn't picture her mother and Sunil ever getting along. In fact she really couldn't picture Sunil and anyone getting along. But in the end it was none of her business. "So I assume Merrimack is well? Are Nero and father also well?" Ares "Last time I was able to check on them, yes, they seemed to be doing alright," she assured her. "And Merri...I guess could be better, but he's working on that." Ares felt that it wasn't nessecary to explain the events that had happened to her brother, especially when she didn't know all of the details herself. Ruya Ruya nodded, happy to know her family was still all doing well. She was out of topics so she leaned forward to hug her mother. Ares Ares smiled, hugging her daughter back and gently smoothing her short hair. She almost wasn't looking forward to her children growing up, as she'd miss being able to do this. "Are you feeling any better? Have I been able to help at all?" she asked, her tail thumping once lightly against the arm of the couch. Ruya "Yes, I do feel a little better. I'm probably not a freak feien with no magic and I don't have to change the world to lead a fulfilling life." Ruya closed her eyes and relaxed, feeling truly at home in her mother's arms. Ares Ares couldn't help but laugh a little bit, resting her head lightly against the child feien's. "Even if you didn't have magic, you wouldn't be a freak. You're my beautiful little girl," she told her quietly, holding her a little closer. "And who knows, maybe one day you will change the world with something that do you. And if not the whole world, then maybe the feien world, hm?" Tilting her head a little bit, she planted a soft kiss on Ruya's head. "I'm proud of you no matter what, you know. Just remember that I'll always love you." Ruya Ruya closed her eyes and drew in a big breath. "Thanks mom. I'll always love you too."
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Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 2:19 pm
Mommy Dearest My mom stopped by today and she made me feel so much better. Its been secretly nagging at me that I seem so weak in magic, but mom said she felt the same way when she was young. So hope is not lost. I'll just have to try concentrating on it from now and hope something happens.
Also mom gave me a good idea. I should try getting a hobby where I create something, so I have something to show for all my hard work. I haven't decided what I will do yet, but the first person I'm gonna make something for is my mom.
Even beyond having her solve my problems, it just feels good to be loved. I haven't made enough of an effort to meet other feien lately and I think thats contributed to my funk.
Tomorrow is the start of a brand new Ruya. Tonight though I need to get some sleep.~ Ruya
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