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 Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 8:27 pm
Mr. Sarcastic Foam-Dome ...Maybe you should move out and sever all ties with your family. Your dad's doing a horrible job of, well, being a dad. If he's just going to immediately disregard what you say and how you feel while hypocritically spoiling your sister rotten, then screw him.
Just remember that we all care about ya, arrite? We'll be your family if need be. o3o
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 9:15 pm
My secret? I don't feel guilty by wanting to leave. Mom takes it personally and I hate to hurt her feelings so I try not to talk about it but I want to leave really bad.
I told my mom I was bored. It's no surprise. Summer is my least favorite season for a reason. For the last year I've wanted nothing more than to leave, now more than ever. I love my family but I don't want to be around them any longer. Mom takes it personally. I love her, but I can't stand to be around them anymore. Part of it is just restlessness but my sister doesn't have a job, she's not going to school, she doesn't do anything. It frustrates everyone, especially Mom. And when she's frustrated, she takes it out on everyone. Frankly I'm tired of being brow-beaten. My sister has no life and so she clings to my life. She needs to get a job, to move away, to make friends and get her own life and be successful.
I've been depressed ever since I moved to Ohio. I suddenly went from being with three close friends nearly every day to being almost completely cut off. I don't think I've ever been this depressed before. I stay up late and sleep in. I'm short-tempered, snippy, and grumpy. I can't handle my sister's mood swings. Even the tiny things set me off lately. I don't like it. I can't help it a whole lot. I stick to my room because I don't want to see other people and because it feels like there's no point in doing anything outside my room and the computer. What's in this small town? No friends, no entertainment. Mom likes this small town, but I need to go to college and have a social life. I can't sit in this room forever. It depresses me.
They don't get it. That's cliche, I'll admit. Mom tries to be understanding. She really tries. They understand on some level, but they're not in my situation, so they don't get it. I'm lonely, bored, eager, trapped, frustrated, pent-up, excited, anxious, nervous... I'm waiting for my life to begin.
It's only a few days until I leave. It's almost unbearable.
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 3:10 am
Secret: I think I'm going deaf in my left ear, but I'm more annoyed than worried. D:
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 3:31 am
I hate my computer, my internet, my itunes and my ipod
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 8:48 am
This had better work. If it doesn't, I'm going to be very angry.
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 6:44 pm
I'm crying after reading Mr. Sarcastic's post o-o Hiding it so dad/sis won't think I'm crazy... damnit I coul really hug him if that was possible crying
I'm dealing with the universal fact that if something goes wrong, it's all my fault. Just cuz. I'm still suicidal, but I still have that will to live onto teh next day. So many times I get away from everyone, all the pain and get blamed for doing so. It's all a cycle of pain for me.
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 6:50 pm
keito melfina I'm crying after reading Mr. Sarcastic's post o-o Hiding it so dad/sis won't think I'm crazy... damnit I coul really hug him if that was possible crying I'm dealing with the universal fact that if something goes wrong, it's all my fault. Just cuz. I'm still suicidal, but I still have that will to live onto teh next day. So many times I get away from everyone, all the pain and get blamed for doing so. It's all a cycle of pain for me. I just got dumped as beta's tool...it isn't your fault. Nor do I blame you? All things that go wrong in my neck of the woods are not your fault keito.
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 7:21 pm
Thanks Foam =D
Hmm... as of now I feel like asking a guy out for the Gaia Ball LOL! Hopefully laptop's hard drive can be fixed!
I'm currently dealing with my damn hormones. Crushing on guys to a point where I would be crushed [physically].
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 7:28 pm
keito melfina Thanks Foam =D Hmm... as of now I feel like asking a guy out for the Gaia Ball LOL! Hopefully laptop's hard drive can be fixed! I'm currently dealing with my damn hormones. Crushing on guys to a point where I would be crushed [physically]. XDXD You mixed me up with Epic David. (Why is everyone doing that lately...?)
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 7:37 pm
Foam-Dome keito melfina Thanks Foam =D Hmm... as of now I feel like asking a guy out for the Gaia Ball LOL! Hopefully laptop's hard drive can be fixed! I'm currently dealing with my damn hormones. Crushing on guys to a point where I would be crushed [physically]. XDXD You mixed me up with Epic David. (Why is everyone doing that lately...?) It's the black! Well in truth that totally mixed me up X_X; I'm horrid when it comes to identifying. And... as of now I'm really confused why my parents still named me "Bien"...
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 8:13 pm
Foam-Dome keito melfina Thanks Foam =D Hmm... as of now I feel like asking a guy out for the Gaia Ball LOL! Hopefully laptop's hard drive can be fixed! I'm currently dealing with my damn hormones. Crushing on guys to a point where I would be crushed [physically]. XDXD You mixed me up with Epic David. (Why is everyone doing that lately...?) Seriously?
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Posted: Thu Aug 05, 2010 8:14 pm
keito melfina Foam-Dome keito melfina Thanks Foam =D Hmm... as of now I feel like asking a guy out for the Gaia Ball LOL! Hopefully laptop's hard drive can be fixed! I'm currently dealing with my damn hormones. Crushing on guys to a point where I would be crushed [physically]. XDXD You mixed me up with Epic David. (Why is everyone doing that lately...?) It's the black! Well in truth that totally mixed me up X_X; I'm horrid when it comes to identifying. And... as of now I'm really confused why my parents still named me "Bien"... cause you're a good man Charlie brown. O3O
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Posted: Fri Aug 06, 2010 12:26 am
So I was perfectly fine to sleep, but then I get up for a second, go back and lie down. Now I can't stay still at all. Don't feel tired in the slightest anymore, but I know I am. It's so damn annoying. Also after listening to Nana Mizuki's "Take a Shot" I can't get that damn ticking out of my head. It'd be the best song ever with out the damn ticking. After I noticed it I can't listen to the song anymore. The sound is more than annoying, it's maddening. Also I'm quite probably prone to blowing s**t out of proportion right now seeing as how I can't convince my body it's tired, and can't sleep.
On another note, I feel bad that I never post in my compliment thread anymore. I never know the people enough to say something not completely superficial, and I absolutly refuse to make a superficial compliment.
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Posted: Fri Aug 06, 2010 12:59 am
I really want a carrot jockey necklace.
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