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 Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 8:35 am
cow of the null I can't stop thinking so much..I don't know what to do. Distract yourself? 's what I do if I can't stop over-thinking.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 9:04 am
cow of the null I can't stop thinking so much..I don't know what to do. watch inception or the matrix they usually make me stop thinking
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 1:33 pm
I don't know why but I'm still surprised reading the words "until Chapter 2" after all this time O_O [for zOMG]
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 2:28 pm
I hate making birthday lists. Mine can always easily be solved by everyone just giving me giftcards to Barnes and Nobles.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 2:31 pm
Alex does an amazing job of making me feel beautiful and special and loved. It's hard to believe that he could make someone as ugly as me feel this beautiful. I don't know how he does it, but he's definitely the best boyfriend everrrrr >w< heart
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 2:36 pm
Hmmmm
I dont know what to say, other than Im kinda shocked
also baaaah how paranoid can my mom be *gonks*
more importantly,
Must try harder, must try harder
OOOoo I think I m addicted to training
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 2:44 pm
The Aurora Borealis is supposed to be visible over Britain tonight, and I'm hoping to get a looky!
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 3:10 pm
I hate her. Seriously. I never wanted her here. There was no need for them to have a second child. I have ALWAYS hated her. Why couldn't you see that?!? You think me running her into walls when she was a baby was an accident? Hell no. It was an attempt to give her permanent brain damage so that maybe, maybe you would take it somewhere to rot and live the rest of its miserable life alone. I was only two and I knew that I would never like her.
You think the reason that I sleep all day is just because I'm lazy? That I'm not trying? Yeah, because that's totally it. Not. I sleep all day because I'm depressed and no one here notices. Why? Because everyones always fawning over her. If somethings the matter with her, everyone just bends over backwards to try and make everything better. And god forbid if she's in a bad mood or upset, they do anything and everything she wants to make her feel better. Seriously, my Dad just bought her a car yesterday because she was upset that she might have to take the bus or walk somewhere.
But if I even so much as look like I'm in a bad mood or upset about something all they say is 'There's no reason for you to be acting like this' or 'Stop acting like there's something wrong with you. We all know it's just an act'. The hell? I've been suffering from depression and sleeping disorders since I was 13, and you're going to sit there and tell me I've been faking it for 7 years?
You won't even let me try to get help or be treated for anything because you have my doctors convinced that I'm just faking too. So how the hell do you expect me to get better and make more of an effort when you won't let me get the help that I need? That I've needed for years?
And you wonder why I just lay under my blanket and cry all day.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 6:50 pm
Next week the testing begins. I see the pulmonologist, cardiologist, and the gastroenterologist. I'm getting my lungs, my heart, and my digestive tract tested to make sure everything's working properly and identify the things we know aren't working. I know what Scleroderma does, I know people who have to carry around oxygen tanks and have needed to have organ transplants. I know the procedure I need for my throat and that I'm going to have my throat literally stretched so I can swallow food without feeling it get stuck.
But I'm not scared. The fact I'm not scared is what's scaring me.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 7:27 pm
Mr. Sarcastic I hate her. Seriously. I never wanted her here. There was no need for them to have a second child. I have ALWAYS hated her. Why couldn't you see that?!? You think me running her into walls when she was a baby was an accident? Hell no. It was an attempt to give her permanent brain damage so that maybe, maybe you would take it somewhere to rot and live the rest of its miserable life alone. I was only two and I knew that I would never like her.
You think the reason that I sleep all day is just because I'm lazy? That I'm not trying? Yeah, because that's totally it. Not. I sleep all day because I'm depressed and no one here notices. Why? Because everyones always fawning over her. If somethings the matter with her, everyone just bends over backwards to try and make everything better. And god forbid if she's in a bad mood or upset, they do anything and everything she wants to make her feel better. Seriously, my Dad just bought her a car yesterday because she was upset that she might have to take the bus or walk somewhere.
But if I even so much as look like I'm in a bad mood or upset about something all they say is 'There's no reason for you to be acting like this' or 'Stop acting like there's something wrong with you. We all know it's just an act'. The hell? I've been suffering from depression and sleeping disorders since I was 13, and you're going to sit there and tell me I've been faking it for 7 years?
You won't even let me try to get help or be treated for anything because you have my doctors convinced that I'm just faking too. So how the hell do you expect me to get better and make more of an effort when you won't let me get the help that I need? That I've needed for years?
And you wonder why I just lay under my blanket and cry all day.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 7:38 pm
I am going to be relieved and ten kinds of hostile if my period starts anywhere from now and Sunday.
The relief: I'm three and a half weeks late, but I'm not pregnant, which is really weird cuz it's not normally irregular like this.
The hostility: My boyfriend is coming home on Sunday from spending the past month with his dad, and he's got a lot of making up to do.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 7:48 pm
I sense the possibility of a trap from my older brother. He wants something.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 7:57 pm
Foam-Dome I'd like to hear your parents explain their logic there. Seriously, have them read what you just wrote and try to explain themselves.
It's just like, he doesn't care. It's not his problem, he's not going through it, so he doesn't understand how it feels. And no matter how many times I try to tell him just how much all the stuff they say and the way they act towards me hurts and isn't helping, they don't do anything to stop/change/help me in anyway.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 8:02 pm
Mr. Sarcastic Foam-Dome I'd like to hear your parents explain their logic there. Seriously, have them read what you just wrote and try to explain themselves.
It's just like, he doesn't care. It's not his problem, he's not going through it, so he doesn't understand how it feels. And no matter how many times I try to tell him just how much all the stuff they say and the way they act towards me hurts and isn't helping, they don't do anything to stop/change/help me in anyway.
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Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 8:13 pm
Foam-Dome ...Maybe you should move out and sever all ties with your family. Your dad's doing a horrible job of, well, being a dad. If he's just going to immediately disregard what you say and how you feel while hypocritically spoiling your sister rotten, then screw him.
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