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 Posted: Thu Apr 03, 2014 4:35 am
TH3_G1ITCH_ I'm worried I'd be fired for doing so, though. Hes already "not impressed by my attitude" as though I can flip on-and-off my depression like a light switch. I understand what you're saying, I truly do. I just worry what the consequences of my actions will be. I already don't earn enough money to live in my own place. If I lost this job, I'd be f'd! D8 What do you do at your job? You need to let your manager know the extent of your condition so the two of you can grapple with the problem meaningfully instead of saying s**t like "just quit being so mopey." A good employer would try to help you instead of being a little b***h like he is.
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Posted: Thu Apr 03, 2014 4:47 am
Foam-Dome TH3_G1ITCH_ I'm worried I'd be fired for doing so, though. Hes already "not impressed by my attitude" as though I can flip on-and-off my depression like a light switch. I understand what you're saying, I truly do. I just worry what the consequences of my actions will be. I already don't earn enough money to live in my own place. If I lost this job, I'd be f'd! D8 What do you do at your job? You need to let your manager know the extent of your condition so the two of you can grapple with the problem meaningfully instead of saying s**t like "just quit being so mopey." A good employer would try to help you instead of being a little b***h like he is. I'm just an administration assistant. He's out again today so I haven't had time to stop him and talk to him about this BUT I think he's in tomorrow morning so I'll speak with him about all this then! biggrin Thank you for your post, too.
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Posted: Fri Apr 04, 2014 7:13 pm
Of course it was too good to be true...
I'm having a really really hard time with this and I could really use someone to talk to T___T
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Posted: Wed Apr 09, 2014 1:16 pm
I'm starting to get really sick an tired of the way my mom thinks. It's always a case that she seems to utterly believe that if I don't get out, lose weight, or stop being who I am in general. I will not find a girl to date and have children with.
Seriously, I've come close to a relationship over 3 times in my life. Of the closest encounters that didn't end with me in a relationship, I was the blunderer because I was afraid of how to act and pulled out the friend card to protect myself from nothing.
The worst part is that I know that no matter what I say. She's not going to listen, even if I explain that I'm demiromantic. I only fall for girls that I become friends with first. I'm not going to go out there seeking a girlfriend like other guys because what I'm looking for is a best girlfriend with romantic undertones.
I'm just annoyed as hell that my mom won't ******** listen to what I'm saying.
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Posted: Mon Apr 28, 2014 7:35 pm
herp dee derp derp
I've spent bits of the past few days looking up 'reliable suicide methods' and so far I think suffocation would be the best go-to but it'd be best if I had access to helium or carbon monoxide. I could consume pesticides but that's apparently super painful and I'd probably just chicken out.
I'm not actually really formulating a plan to kill myself but it's been on my mind a lot lately.
I'm posting this here because all the other internet places I say things at (facebook, twitter, etc.) people I know irl follow me and I don't want them getting all worried about me.
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Posted: Fri May 02, 2014 9:53 pm
That was the most scared I've been for a long time... I still can't stop shaking... I don't know if he even realizes what kind of effect that has on me...
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Posted: Fri May 02, 2014 11:56 pm
Jedi Sasquatch herp dee derp derp I've spent bits of the past few days looking up 'reliable suicide methods' and so far I think suffocation would be the best go-to but it'd be best if I had access to helium or carbon monoxide. I could consume pesticides but that's apparently super painful and I'd probably just chicken out.
I'm not actually really formulating a plan to kill myself but it's been on my mind a lot lately.
I'm posting this here because all the other internet places I say things at (facebook, twitter, etc.) people I know irl follow me and I don't want them getting all worried about me.
wtf Jedi don't be a d**k.
You've done the reading around depression and know when this happens its a cry for help.
Tell someone.
Don't ask why, don't try to justify, don't try to cope alone.
Just. Let. Them. Know.
Recently all my s**t hit the fan too. I had another episode so I know what it's like. I feel you. But you gotta let someone know.
It's like if you have a broken leg, you don't keep trying to walk on it and pretend you're fine.
Do it scream heart
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Posted: Sun May 04, 2014 4:29 pm
really don't see how I'm being a d**k here...
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Posted: Sun May 04, 2014 9:44 pm
Sent in an application to someplace fun, and it's bothering me now.
Like, if nothing happens, it's all fine. Situation normal, flies ahead like normal.
.....
But what if they respond?
It's unlikely, but thus far I'm incapable of completely ruling it out, and that bothers the crap out of me. On account of the fact that if they respond it'd require me to actually do stuff, which would be absolute hell compared to the do s**t nothing I'd otherwise be needing to do.
confused
Why can't I be certain about everything? Even a definite negative's less annoying than a potential positive.
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Posted: Mon May 05, 2014 3:51 am
Jedi Sasquatch really don't see how I'm being a d**k here...
When upset I get cranky. On hearing bad news some people cry, I throw things and yell. Just be glad I can't throw that far.
That's not the point.
The point is that you tell someone.
So have you?
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Posted: Mon May 05, 2014 11:31 am
Jedi Sasquatch herp dee derp derp I've spent bits of the past few days looking up 'reliable suicide methods' and so far I think suffocation would be the best go-to but it'd be best if I had access to helium or carbon monoxide. I could consume pesticides but that's apparently super painful and I'd probably just chicken out.
I'm not actually really formulating a plan to kill myself but it's been on my mind a lot lately.
I'm posting this here because all the other internet places I say things at (facebook, twitter, etc.) people I know irl follow me and I don't want them getting all worried about me.So, just because we're just internet friends, we don't worry? Newsflash for you. We all care here. I may not know what has your depression flaring up.....if anything. But I can tell you this much. We all care here, and if you die, I'm going to put my necromancy training to good use and give you a stern talking to.
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Posted: Mon May 05, 2014 6:29 pm
I came here to vent a secret, not to be told what to do.
I get that some of you care, but next time I feel this way I won't be posting about it here.
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2014 6:11 am
Okay i gave up on the new acc i made on here within a day of saying i'd make it (i did) because i saw some new cash shop items and once again lost my s**t at gaia because holy ******** $75 three-pose item batman.
But every once in a while i get nostalgic and i google familiar usernames, especially artists (because holy s**t some of you guys on gaia have improved like hell over the years). But anyway, i accidentally came across an ancient (in internet terms anyway its like 3 years old) list of 'legendary zomg users' or some s**t and couldn't help crack up partially because it was the most elitist sounding thing ever and partially because at least the person put down a lot of recognizable names if definitely not all of them. But yeah, just. The laziest list ever, i don't know why specific dev names in there weren't at the top or why they decided to be extra lazy and list this guild in there as a user. The silliness of it and looking at all the names was nostalgic as hell though, even if half of them i'd probably only passed by in-game briefly. I should not feel sentimental over a list of names like that, especially such a pretentious drama-baiting one, but still. Made me feel like 5 years younger xD
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Posted: Wed May 21, 2014 9:22 am
I'm so annoyed with everything right now crying
I got like no sleep last night, and I don't have time for a nap today, so I'm just going to be cranky and pissed off all day. I just want to sleep soooo badly D=
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