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 Posted: Fri Nov 22, 2013 8:46 am
Miss Perfection Cannibal Horsey I think I *might* might be starting to feel almost normal emotionally again. Or maybe that's the alcohol talking... sweatdrop I feel s**t too because life is (as always) so freaking brilliant /lathers on the sarcasm with a paddle Am completely down for an excessive chocolate and alcohol fuelled binge of Disney and nerdy-as-hell action flicks interspersed with gaming and screaming at the screen. emotion_donotwant Screw long distances
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Posted: Sat Nov 23, 2013 9:19 pm
I need to fangirl but can't 'cuz my sister hasn't seen it yet. Ummmm......
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
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Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2013 8:24 pm
Cannibal Horsey Yeh, it was definitely the alcohol talking. Today has been horrendous. I got home and went to bed.... again. Thank god I didn't start drinking as I intended though as I've just had a Keith on the phone asking to come round (thank god, my parents are away on holiday and I'm hating being alone in the house).
Beds are wonderful things, Still think the world should adopt the afternoon nap time policy. Good to know he is going over to keep you company. Your parents always seem to be on holidays the lucky ducks!
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Posted: Mon Dec 02, 2013 10:52 am
Miss Perfection Cannibal Horsey Yeh, it was definitely the alcohol talking. Today has been horrendous. I got home and went to bed.... again. Thank god I didn't start drinking as I intended though as I've just had a Keith on the phone asking to come round (thank god, my parents are away on holiday and I'm hating being alone in the house).
Beds are wonderful things, Still think the world should adopt the afternoon nap time policy. Good to know he is going over to keep you company. Your parents always seem to be on holidays the lucky ducks!
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Practically never in the country! In other news I spend far too much time at counselling. The receptionist knows my name and how I like my tea. I am unsure as to whether this is a good or bad thing...
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Posted: Tue Dec 03, 2013 1:46 pm
I must be a better actor than I thought if no one in my family knows how I really feel.
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Posted: Tue Dec 03, 2013 9:58 pm
I found a post randomly paging through this thread that basically...there's something I've been feeling guilty about for years and now I guess I have it confirmed that the situation isn't what I think and I have nothing to worry about...this should feel good, but I guess it just feels neutral. I'll save the link in case I ever get bothered about it again.
Otherwise, I'm actually going through a lot of the same thing that the post itself was part of a conversation on...
Even if I could stop thinking about her, I don't want to. The sadness is all I have left of her.
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Posted: Wed Dec 04, 2013 4:11 am
Cannibal Horsey Practically never in the country! In other news I spend far too much time at counselling. The receptionist knows my name and how I like my tea. I am unsure as to whether this is a good or bad thing...
Lucky people!
It's a good thing because it shows you're being proactive and working to improve <3
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Posted: Wed Dec 04, 2013 6:40 am
I'm failing my 500 level course (Numerical Analysis). My parents don't know x_X;
I only took it since I had the pre-requisites, then I got really confused and was too embarassed to ask help from the professor ("Hi, I'm confused on just about everything!"). I usually read the text book and lecture notes til something clicks (if it does).
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Posted: Thu Dec 05, 2013 12:09 pm
Miss Perfection Cannibal Horsey Practically never in the country! In other news I spend far too much time at counselling. The receptionist knows my name and how I like my tea. I am unsure as to whether this is a good or bad thing...
Lucky people!
It's a good thing because it shows you're being proactive and working to improve <3
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I know! I've also had my medicine dosage upped. So hopefully things will improve. Though the massive anxiety attack I had this morning says otherwise.
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Posted: Sun Dec 08, 2013 12:40 pm
Val keeps psyching me up to finally tell Kyle I like him, and I always walk away from the conversation going "YEAH, I'M FINALLY GONNA DO IT!" and then two seconds later, I'm back to "Nope, way too scary. Never gonna happen."
I want to be with him soooo badly, but I'm way too scared to put myself out there. I have to see him alllll the time, so if he doesn't feel the same way, things will be super awkward between us. It's getting harder and harder to be around him anyway, though. I just like him SOOO much!!! T___T
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Posted: Sun Dec 08, 2013 2:15 pm
Sherlock is killing me.
I seriously can't focus on anything because of that damn show.
How cruel they are to release this, when they know people are busy with finals.
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Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2013 10:19 pm
I could not have predicted that this would happen. I'm not sure how I feel yet, but it's kind of interesting
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Posted: Sun Dec 15, 2013 12:06 pm
I had a massive mental breakdown while at my boyfriend's on Thursday night. Complete melt down. God he was so amazing, he tried so hard. Ok him crying was actually what got me out of it, but I can't SAY that. The fact I'd made him cry was more than enough reason for my brain to go back to a slightly more normal state of psychosis. I need him too much. He means too much and if he went.... *sighs* god knows I'd be more of a mess now than I was last year. The rebuilding of our relationship, my counselling, and actually seeking help for what I know now to be a Generalised Anxiety Disorder (whoop for labels!) has made me even more dependant on him. And ******** me if it doesn't make things hard sometimes.
He KNOWS I get wound up when he says he'll do something and doesn't. He KNOWS that I like to know what is happening as well in advance as possible. He KNOWS that I get hacked off when he doesn't answer his phone, even if it's literally to pick up and say, "look Cat I'm busy." He KNOWS what he does that sets me off down Anxiety Lane. SO WHY THE ******** DOES HE KEEP DOING IT?!
I'm so set on being with him. I'm so ready to move on and upwards, but these little things still drive me mad. When I've had a complete mental breakdown in front of someone, you'd think they'd try and make my life a little easier for at least a short while afterwards. He knows I'm not stable. He HEARD what I said to him, why I was in the bathroom why.... AHHHHHHH
I just needed to get this out. I don't think I expect replies anymore. Everyone has moved on. Its sad. I miss this place. I miss running here for comfort everytime something went wrong, guess we've all got to grow up sometime *sigh*
TLDR; Canni is nuts, life sucks
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Posted: Sun Dec 15, 2013 6:49 pm
Cannibal Horsey
I just needed to get this out. I don't think I expect replies anymore. Everyone has moved on. Its sad. I miss this place. I miss running here for comfort everytime something went wrong, guess we've all got to grow up sometime *sigh*
TLDR; Canni is nuts, life sucks I read every post here, as it's not like they come in quickly. You can always post here and know at least one person will read it and send you a prayer.
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Posted: Mon Dec 16, 2013 3:22 am
CH0Z0 Cannibal Horsey
I just needed to get this out. I don't think I expect replies anymore. Everyone has moved on. Its sad. I miss this place. I miss running here for comfort everytime something went wrong, guess we've all got to grow up sometime *sigh*
TLDR; Canni is nuts, life sucks I read every post here, as it's not like they come in quickly. You can always post here and know at least one person will read it and send you a prayer. Thanks, you have no idea how much that means to me
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