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"Oh so thats how you wish to play it now do you?" He said teasingly to the angelic kitty "use me as nothing more then your personal driver" he said as he started up the car, lent over and kissed the other tenderly once more. "I guess I could put that done to a final kiss till I get a little more respect around here" he teased a bit more, obviously not meaning anything by it, he cared to much about the angelic cat beside him to follow through with that.

"Maybe I should take the long way home just to teach you a lesson" he said grining wickedly though teasingly at the other as he pulled out of the parking space and made his way out of the parking lot.

Kim stopped on the part where cars drove in and out of the parking lot to let some cars passed and looked over at the other, wraping one arm to bring the other towards him and smiled sweetly at him. "I love you so much" He said sincerly as he giggled softly, he lent over and put his lips gently agiesnt the angelic kittys and kissed him passionatly as he wraped his other arm around him now also and just held him close.

Kim pulled away rather fast as Vahns hands went under his top, it was only caressing but after what happened to him he was still a bit scared in that area. " Y...yeah, lets" he said trying to keep the fear from his voice and ignored his now shaking hands as he placed them on the wheel and pulled out of the parking lot and onto the road, making sure to go the back streets.

Kim pulled over and softly sighed "please, dont go, im sorry Vahn" he said as he looked at the stearing wheel "I am just still alittle scared thats all. After what happened, getting along with you, finding I could at least fall in love again with someone as sweet and as kind as you it is great but I just didnt know I would still be scared to let another touch me me other then hold me.

I know I have sort of been flirting with you and the like, I thought I would be fine about it, but obviously when push came to shove im still scared due to what happened. Im sorry Vahn, please forgive me? I love you so much I just dont think, despite wanting to, go that far yet, not so soon after it happend."

He said as he wiped a few tears away that had started to fall "please stay? I dont want this night to be ruined, this night can still be perfect, I just dont want you to leave me." He said softly though audiable, allowing the angelic cat to leave if he wished though hoped he wouldnt, he wanted tonight to go on as planned, he wanted a romantic dinner for them both, just that going that extra step might just have to be missed out for the time being that was all.

Kim sighed softly "I know, im sorry, it wasnt far as one would usually mean it in this case but its just when I got back to Sabins appartment I was badly wounded, the coon basically tore me to shreads without actually killing me." Kim said as he turned around and pulled up his shirt to show the hybrid his back which had four scars from his right shoulder going down the middle of his back and stopping at the small of his back.

"that scar is rather sensitive to touch, he damaged a muscle in my back when he did what he did and though it is healed for the most part it isnt completely healed. Aariel and even a friend of the estates head of houses tried to heal it but couldnt, they said that it would take a bit longer to heal completely but it will."

He said as he put his top down "I know you arnt the kind to get into my pants, its why I love you but because of this scar, one of the two reminders I have left of the incident, I am just a tad bit skittish thats all. I should of told you, I am sorry I didnt, I just never thought about it till now thats all. I can be touched a little on my back but for a while longer I just dont know when I could actually be caressed, I dont want you to keep me at arms length Vahn, it will just kill me if you did.

I want to be with you, I love you, I dont want to be kept at arms length, I just dont know how long this muscle will take to heal thats all, every time its touched, more then just a second thing, it hurts me a little." Kim dropped his top and reached over and wraped his arms around the hybrid and cuddled him as he ignored the tears starting to fall "please, I want you to touch me, I just cant be touched on my back just yet thats all.

I just want this incident to have never happened and just forget about it but untill my back mucle has healed at least I just cant forget about it. Please Vahn, please dont keep your distance from me. I dont want the one guy in my life who means so much to me to keep me at arms length, I know it isnt good, I know you are hurting, but please forgive me, if it wasnt for my back I would of enjoyed it greatly.

I just cant have my back touched like that yet, im sorry, I truely arm, but please, for a little bit longer, please just let my back heal, that is all I ask of you Vahn and then you can caress my back as much as you want." Kim said as he kissed Vahns cheek, letting the other go as he rested his hands on the wheel and then rested his head on his arms "please forgive..." he said trailing off, making the last two words an audiable whisper as he silently cried, wishing to god this never had happen to him.

What the hybrid didnt know was that no matter what he did Kim could never lower his opinion of him, he loved him and while there would be times one would think another wouldlower their opinion of the other Kim couldnt.He couldnt find it in himself to do that, not when he loved the hybrid greatly, it would bewrong to lower his opinion of him.

Kim looked up and dried his eyes "I promise, as soon as my backs healed you can touch me all you want, I will WANT you to, i just need a month or so to properly give it time to heal. Im sorry for scaring you sweetie, I never meant to, I swear as soon as this pain mostly goes away at least I swear I will let you do as you want with me."

Kim said as he lent over and kissed the hybrid tenderly "I love you, thank you for understanding some what" he said as he started up the car and carried on driving home. Kim silently loathing the coon more now, sure he loathed him greatly before but now that he had seen what damage the coon had done to him which effected his relationships he loathed him more.

Kim knew it would effect his relationships he just didnt think it would effect them in THIS way, he just wanted to be as close as one could be to the guy he loved and yet he couldnt or at least not yet. This silently this tore Kim apart greatly, especially since he was hurting Vahn also and that wasnt even the last thing he wanted to do to him.

Kim bit back the urge to cry, he knew what he must do and it was only fair, he hated it but he had to do it "I...I will take you home" he said as he turned the car on and sped off towards the hybrids home. Vahn was right, Vahn didnt deserve to be treated like this, he deserved someone better, it shows that this will just never work out, not untill hes completely healed. When is one healed from after getting raped, with or without physical pain? Either way, he shook his head, ignored the tears and carred on back to the hybrids home.

"I will drop your clothes around to you later or get Aariel to come and get them, I will just leave you be and not upset you anymore, im deeply sorry about what I have done to you, hopefully one day you will forgive me." He said as he turned the corner, making sure to find the quickest way back to Vahns house, wanting now to just go home to bed and not come out again.

Kim had just, from the looks of things, lost a boyfriend, he couldnt even keep that, he just wanted to go to to his room and not leave it. He wanted so much to get on with life, not let some incident hold him back but instead it will just ******** up his love life instead. "Im sorry for wasting your time" he said as he started to cry heavier a little but carried on driving.

If there was anything Kim could do he would do it in a heart beat if it meant keeping Vahn, there was no way he wanted to lose him but how could he keep him? How could he not send Vahn home and probably never see him again? He loved the hybrid so much that he didnt want to lose him. It was killing Kim inside, but but he couldnt force someone to be with him, it was wrong, he just hoped Vahn would be happier now that he wasnt in his life and screwing it up.

Kim drove on for a little bit till he found a parking space and drove into it, he stoped the car and turned it off and did nothing but place his hands in his and toy with the hem of his top. However Kim didnt let up on crying he kept looking at his hands as they toyed with the hem of his top "yes" he croaked before clearing his throat "what is it?" He asked softly, fearing what was about to come despite wether it was good news or not.