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 Posted: Sat Aug 17, 2013 9:11 am
Cannibal Horsey keito melfina Cannibal Horsey Having one of those evening where everything is crappy. I need cuddles
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Posted: Sat Aug 17, 2013 9:13 am
cuddleypanda18 keito melfina cuddleypanda18 sweatdrop well its a very confusing situation I am currently in. So I know these set of twins that were my best friends ever. I mean like, when we all met each other it was just click and I felt like they were the only two people who would understand me and be with me for a long time. redface but then over time, one of the twins started to catch my interest (note that I can tell the difference from the start so I don't get confused) and after a wild goose chase, we started going out. this happened in I say about 2 years of friendship. I have been going out with one of the twins for a complete year so one day we get into an argument and it ends up being when he asks me to just stay friends with him. sad but then being the ******** that I am, I ran away from him and didn't speak to him for a long time. now about 6 months have passed without my best friends, I apologized to both of them for my behavior and I still like my ex.....ALOT, should I hold on to this or let go? I mean I really do like him and even when I don't want to think about him, his image just waltz back into my brain out of nowhere. I have known both of them for 5 years. We were best friends..idk if I should keep trying to get that back or move on. any advice??? It depends on how much resolve you have in wanting them back in your life. Maybe you could start over as friends once more, I don't know the state of how their emotional state. If they were receptive to your apology and didn't disconnect, you seem to be in the clear. We talked but only one of them actually is my friend now. The one i like a lot wont talk to me and gets mad if i even look at him. I want to save our friendship but im afraid to make him hate me even more. I like him a lot and i stay away from his brother because i dont want him to think that i like his brother. I mean me and his brother hang only once in a while and he's cool with me but still. It doesnt feel the same and i just really miss having both of them in mynlife. I wish you the best of luck, and that the other brother would cool down and be more open/understanding of your intentions/feelings.
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Posted: Sat Aug 17, 2013 9:18 am
keito melfina cuddleypanda18 keito melfina cuddleypanda18 sweatdrop well its a very confusing situation I am currently in. So I know these set of twins that were my best friends ever. I mean like, when we all met each other it was just click and I felt like they were the only two people who would understand me and be with me for a long time. redface but then over time, one of the twins started to catch my interest (note that I can tell the difference from the start so I don't get confused) and after a wild goose chase, we started going out. this happened in I say about 2 years of friendship. I have been going out with one of the twins for a complete year so one day we get into an argument and it ends up being when he asks me to just stay friends with him. sad but then being the ******** that I am, I ran away from him and didn't speak to him for a long time. now about 6 months have passed without my best friends, I apologized to both of them for my behavior and I still like my ex.....ALOT, should I hold on to this or let go? I mean I really do like him and even when I don't want to think about him, his image just waltz back into my brain out of nowhere. I have known both of them for 5 years. We were best friends..idk if I should keep trying to get that back or move on. any advice??? It depends on how much resolve you have in wanting them back in your life. Maybe you could start over as friends once more, I don't know the state of how their emotional state. If they were receptive to your apology and didn't disconnect, you seem to be in the clear. We talked but only one of them actually is my friend now. The one i like a lot wont talk to me and gets mad if i even look at him. I want to save our friendship but im afraid to make him hate me even more. I like him a lot and i stay away from his brother because i dont want him to think that i like his brother. I mean me and his brother hang only once in a while and he's cool with me but still. It doesnt feel the same and i just really miss having both of them in mynlife. I wish you the best of luck, and that the other brother would cool down and be more open/understanding of your intentions/feelings. Thanks biggrin it means a lot. Right now im going to focus on my work and hopefully this whole thing will resolve itself soon, I did all I could so its all up to him if he forgives me or not.
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Posted: Mon Aug 19, 2013 12:06 pm
Val makes me feel all bubbly and special emotion_hug heart
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Posted: Mon Aug 19, 2013 3:37 pm
I haven't been on zOMG Chatterbox in almost three years and it kinda freaks me out some people are still hear 3 years later that I already knew for like 2 years, let alone if any of them remember me. >.>;
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Posted: Tue Aug 20, 2013 12:55 pm
NeoVatic I haven't been on zOMG Chatterbox in almost three years and it kinda freaks me out some people are still hear 3 years later that I already knew for like 2 years, let alone if any of them remember me. >.>;
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Posted: Wed Aug 21, 2013 3:59 pm
Cannibal Horsey NeoVatic I haven't been on zOMG Chatterbox in almost three years and it kinda freaks me out some people are still hear 3 years later that I already knew for like 2 years, let alone if any of them remember me. >.>;
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Posted: Wed Aug 21, 2013 7:48 pm
Apparently the strongest man I know is presently on life support, hallucinating and forgetting.
The tower that pierced the heavens sits crumbling as a mere shadow of itself, destined to fall.
The worst is how they suffer.
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Posted: Thu Aug 22, 2013 3:43 am
NeoVatic Cannibal Horsey NeoVatic I haven't been on zOMG Chatterbox in almost three years and it kinda freaks me out some people are still hear 3 years later that I already knew for like 2 years, let alone if any of them remember me. >.>;
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Posted: Mon Aug 26, 2013 7:39 pm
Both of my parents passed soon after the most loyal of loyal cats.
I wonder if there's an afterlife. And if Pumpkin and Rocky are with them.
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Posted: Mon Aug 26, 2013 9:38 pm
I have lost so much of my will to live. It is practically non-existent. I don't know how much longer I can do this for. Everything I am feeling has been amplified 10x today and I am ready to break down and let everything go.
How is college supposed to be fun and the best four years of my life when I am who I am and I feel like this?
I am tearing up writing this and I can't even cry and let loose some emotions because I have a roommate now.
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Posted: Tue Aug 27, 2013 3:14 am
Toxic_Trumpeter I have lost so much of my will to live. It is practically non-existent. I don't know how much longer I can do this for. Everything I am feeling has been amplified 10x today and I am ready to break down and let everything go.
How is college supposed to be fun and the best four years of my life when I am who I am and I feel like this?
I am tearing up writing this and I can't even cry and let loose some emotions because I have a roommate now.
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Posted: Tue Aug 27, 2013 7:51 am
College is supposed to be fun?
Right.
There's so much propaganda revolving around that over-inflated institution that I'm not surprised, but at the end of the day it's only as fun as you make it, and by no means any more than the alternative.
One shouldn't take what they believe to be the norm as the only way to do things. If you don't like something, don't do it. If a place is making you miserable, leave it.
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Posted: Tue Aug 27, 2013 11:09 pm
K4M Toxic_Trumpeter I have lost so much of my will to live. It is practically non-existent. I don't know how much longer I can do this for. Everything I am feeling has been amplified 10x today and I am ready to break down and let everything go.
How is college supposed to be fun and the best four years of my life when I am who I am and I feel like this?
I am tearing up writing this and I can't even cry and let loose some emotions because I have a roommate now.
The other part is that I really don't know what I want to do. I seriously have no interests in anything other than spending my time on the computer, alone. I have no subjects in school that I am particularly good at or have any interest to expand my knowledge on, I don't have any hobbies (since I don't consider the computer, tv, and movies to be hobbies), I'm not as good with the computer as I would like to think, and I just don't have any skills of any sort whatsoever. That's why I am going to college because there is no other way that I would be able to discover if there is something out there for me. Without this I would just be living with my parents, spending all my time in my room alone in a terrible, rural area with absolutely nothing to offer and would probably end up working in a fast food restaurant the rest of my life.
I realize that this is pretty much all just my fault and my problem, and I am the only one who can do anything about it, but I don't know how to fix it. If I did, I would have fixed it long, long ago, when it wasn't this bad.
I just don't understand how everyone I've talked to is/was very excited to be in college even though they are nervous, while I feel like all of this.Wow, I am really sorry about all this, sounding like a whiny, self-absorbed baby that uses too many commas. I think this just really needs to come out in some form or another.
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Posted: Wed Aug 28, 2013 8:14 pm
Toxic_Trumpeter A lot of what I am feeling is because I don't have anyone I can talk to because I can't seem to make a decent connection with another human being. I have become so socially inept (along with already having a boring, pessimistic personality) that I can't even maintain a conversation with people I have known for years, people that I consider "friends" (more like acquaintances now). College at the moment is just really making me notice how bad my social anxiety and social skills/life are and it is making me feel terrible about myself. I feel like I am trying so hard but falling flat on my face, rolling down the giant hill my school sits atop of, and down into a very deep abyss. If I could just make that one really strong connection that I have never had, be it a friendship or relationship, I think I would be in a much better place. Just knowing I could have a strong bond like that would give me some peace.
The other part is that I really don't know what I want to do. I seriously have no interests in anything other than spending my time on the computer, alone. I have no subjects in school that I am particularly good at or have any interest to expand my knowledge on, I don't have any hobbies (since I don't consider the computer, tv, and movies to be hobbies), I'm not as good with the computer as I would like to think, and I just don't have any skills of any sort whatsoever. That's why I am going to college because there is no other way that I would be able to discover if there is something out there for me. Without this I would just be living with my parents, spending all my time in my room alone in a terrible, rural area with absolutely nothing to offer and would probably end up working in a fast food restaurant the rest of my life.
I realize that this is pretty much all just my fault and my problem, and I am the only one who can do anything about it, but I don't know how to fix it. If I did, I would have fixed it long, long ago, when it wasn't this bad.
I just don't understand how everyone I've talked to is/was very excited to be in college even though they are nervous, while I feel like all of this.Wow, I am really sorry about all this, sounding like a whiny, self-absorbed baby that uses too many commas. I think this just really needs to come out in some form or another.
And if you need someone to talk to, you could drop me a line. I think I've been helpful in other cases.
Indecision, on the other hand, is something I've no ability to aid with.
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