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 Posted: Sat Aug 15, 2009 7:34 am
I play mind games with people and tell them I like them while wishing theyd get the hell out of my life.
I hate 3/4 of my friends. >>
Im also excessively violent.
Also im wearing a black glove over my hand because my hand starting to peel, All the skins just falling off and its starting to crack and bleed in some areas.
im also getting extreme chest pains to that feels like a mild heart attack.
im just not telling anyone irl or going to a docter.
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and I should mention that I hate gaia ive been here on 4 different accounts and had to leave because of assholes and stalkers that cant mind their own ******** business.
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 5:11 pm
Secret: I feel so sad right now, and it's so strange because I have no true reason to be this way.
I'm worried, yes, but not tear-worthy.
I'm stressed, but again, not tear-worth.
I think it's saddening that my brother isn't getting anything for his Sweet 16th birthday today.
Money may be tight right now, but all he's getting from my parents is a birthday card and some bacon.
[[Long story; just PM me and ask]]
And I feel like crying for him, because I know he won't cry; he's too tough to cry.
I really want him to have a good birthday today, I truly do.
But it's not possible at this point in time.
As his older sister and as the only person he can truly rely on, I feel like I'm letting him down, and it's breaking my heart right now.
I always want the best for him, and every time he can't have it, it hurts me even more.
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I think it's time for me to cry hard.
Too much has been building up, and I believe it's time for it to all come out now.
I really want to be with my prince when I do, though...
I don't want to feel numb.
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 5:39 pm
Angel of Windz Secret: I feel so sad right now, and it's so strange because I have no true reason to be this way.
I'm worried, yes, but not tear-worthy.
I'm stressed, but again, not tear-worth.
I think it's saddening that my brother isn't getting anything for his Sweet 16th birthday today.
Money may be tight right now, but all he's getting from my parents is a birthday card and some bacon.
[[Long story; just PM me and ask]]
And I feel like crying for him, because I know he won't cry; he's too tough to cry.
I really want him to have a good birthday today, I truly do.
But it's not possible at this point in time.
As his older sister and as the only person he can truly rely on, I feel like I'm letting him down, and it's breaking my heart right now.
I always want the best for him, and every time he can't have it, it hurts me even more.
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I think it's time for me to cry hard.
Too much has been building up, and I believe it's time for it to all come out now.
I really want to be with my prince when I do, though...
I don't want to feel numb. Aw, it's okay *pats* You sound like an awesome big sister, and I'm sure your brother knows how much you care. Maybe if you're able to get some money, you can give him a late birthday present or something. I'm sure just a heartfelt "Happy Birthday" is a good present for now. Now for my secret: I'm thinking of suicide again. My parents don't seem to give a damn. My little sister hates me. I used to have a friend to talk to about it all, but not anymore. She's mad at me because I've been ignoring her at school. I don't know where to turn anymore. I guess cutting would be better than suicide, but I don't want to have to be embarrassed by scars everywhere on my body. I'm really scared. But I don't want to ask for help. I hate asking for help.
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 6:38 pm
The Ravenclaw Beauty Angel of Windz Secret: I feel so sad right now, and it's so strange because I have no true reason to be this way.
I'm worried, yes, but not tear-worthy.
I'm stressed, but again, not tear-worth.
I think it's saddening that my brother isn't getting anything for his Sweet 16th birthday today.
Money may be tight right now, but all he's getting from my parents is a birthday card and some bacon.
[[Long story; just PM me and ask]]
And I feel like crying for him, because I know he won't cry; he's too tough to cry.
I really want him to have a good birthday today, I truly do.
But it's not possible at this point in time.
As his older sister and as the only person he can truly rely on, I feel like I'm letting him down, and it's breaking my heart right now.
I always want the best for him, and every time he can't have it, it hurts me even more.
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I think it's time for me to cry hard.
Too much has been building up, and I believe it's time for it to all come out now.
I really want to be with my prince when I do, though...
I don't want to feel numb. Aw, it's okay *pats* You sound like an awesome big sister, and I'm sure your brother knows how much you care. Maybe if you're able to get some money, you can give him a late birthday present or something. I'm sure just a heartfelt "Happy Birthday" is a good present for now. Now for my secret: I'm thinking of suicide again. My parents don't seem to give a damn. My little sister hates me. I used to have a friend to talk to about it all, but not anymore. She's mad at me because I've been ignoring her at school. I don't know where to turn anymore. I guess cutting would be better than suicide, but I don't want to have to be embarrassed by scars everywhere on my body. I'm really scared. But I don't want to ask for help. I hate asking for help.Raven... Don't do it... Life isn't worth giving up, and 99.9999% of people suiciding do NOT want to die when they are in the process of it, many begging for help If you do it, many people will be crying Don't underestimate your worth towards other people *sigh* Guess it's time to cave... I find myself a mixture of many different characteristics, many clashing, but not mixing well together
I am often paralyzed when i must make decisions, and ALWAYS do they come out to be disastrous
My life has been a string of upsets and dissapointments
But, i know that life isn't worth giving up over some stupid emotional stress, and i must work harder
I have the uncanny ability to make people not like me, for some strange reason. Even though i made many friends here and in CTY, somehow i still have no friends in school, where it matters the most
Everything i have worked for was destroyed at one point, and i'm basically at bare essentials right now...
However i'm also a strong believer that i shouldn't bother people with my problems, even though i do
Man my life is strange
oh, and I'm a terrible lover, even though i try hard to be a good person (no, not cheating, but being clingy)
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 6:44 pm
Uhh Secret:
I've had to start my social life over 3 times.
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 6:46 pm
sratsnsdrowS Uhh Secret: I've had to start my social life over 3 times......Kinda 6 times for me. But that was because of moving so much. >.>
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 7:39 pm
Secret: (i dont think its even a secret because i dont mind telling others... because they dont ask ._.)
Im a freak... Someitmes I see the future in my dreams.... and they come true ninja
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 7:40 pm
Secret: Lambo's going to Idaho from Thursday till Sunday biggrin Bai Gais!
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 7:51 pm
[~Lam~] Secret: Lambo's going to Idaho from Thursday till Sunday biggrin Bai Gais!DON'T GOOOOO crying I has Cheezits smile @ Hikari: Statistically, that's bound to happen However, i have the strange power of having everything in my dreams being the OPPOSITE
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 8:01 pm
I secretly wish my IRL name was Chantelle or Rachel, not Jennifer. >.<
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 8:02 pm
SoulSkourer [~Lam~] Secret: Lambo's going to Idaho from Thursday till Sunday biggrin Bai Gais!DON'T GOOOOO crying I has Cheezits smile @ Hikari: Statistically, that's bound to happen However, i have the strange power of having everything in my dreams being the OPPOSITE hmm I had a dream of the 'future' everyday when i was a kid ninja but now its only once in a while
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 8:04 pm
Kats Kokeshi Doll I secretly wish my IRL name was Chantelle or Rachel, not Jennifer. >.< Jennifer is better than Serina. Sounds Mexican, but I'm ultra-white. Then people spell it wrong (Serena) or don't even get it right (Sabrina, Selena, Sierra)
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 8:07 pm
That age-old joke about hillbillies being inbred? Yeah, not so funny in my family.
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 8:09 pm
I used to be a lot more outgoing and social {a few months ago}, but after I had been assaulted randomly out in my street, I've lost some of my closest friends and getting into heated fights with them because of my depression and paranoia. Now I don't even feel like going out anymore and hang out with my friends after realizing how pathetic and insignificant I was and acted that day. These days, shame even follows me till sleep. I've even decided to take up volunteer work to escape summer free-time.
This doesn't leave this thread. kthx.
Literally, no one else knows how I actually feel because of it.
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