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 Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:06 pm
XxCritical_RomancexX KisukeRULZ I still refuse to accept that Van is going to die...... Even if it is fact, I simply won't accept it......... And I am ******** useless.......... I can't do anything to help anyone......... My friends are hurting themselves.... I can't do anything to prove that I care for Damion. I can't do anything to help Van, to help him with the pain. I can't do anything to help my friends. I can't do anything to keep my ******** parents from fighting.... I'm useless. I can't do anything. I can't help anyone. I act so happy, I try to stay hopeful, I don't want to worry anyone. I'm the one who uplifts everyone else. Who always has the upbeat attitude. The one who is always trying to keep everyone else from being sad. I can't keep this up anymore. I can't pretend that nothing is wrong..... My mind is tormented by worry all the time.......... I feel sick almost every day because I'm holding back these emotions. I don't show how worried I am all the time....... I'm useless.........Chloe! Your not usless. Do you not realize how much you've changed my life? Look at yourself, your sad because you can't help others-your a great person! I know your parents may fight, but they're in a tight situation. And just because... Your friends...Hurt themselves, doesn't mean you have to. Maybe they'll stop once they feel like they can't be sad anymore, or...or they've done something to be proud of, and not so many things are wrong... Right now I could possibly be in the process of killing myself had it not've been for you. You have a wonderful life Chloe. You are truly Amazing... I completely agree... And your friends will grow stronger, knowing that you love them from the bottom of your heart. Whenever they're down or hurt, they have the comfort of knowing that they have an incredible friend like yourself who'll stick up for them no matter what.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:06 pm
I wasn't even there for him last night. I'm the worst husband in the world. I know that. I can't help it. It hurts me so badly to see him like that. He always wants me to hold his hand or hug him when he's screaming in pain and I just can't. I have seen him go through so much already and knowing that his days are numbered lower and lower is taking a lot out of me. It takes all that I have just to be in the same bed with him some nights.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:10 pm
Professor Spike I wasn't even there for him last night. I'm the worst husband in the world. I know that. I can't help it. It hurts me so badly to see him like that. He always wants me to hold his hand or hug him when he's screaming in pain and I just can't. I have seen him go through so much already and knowing that his days are numbered lower and lower is taking a lot out of me. It takes all that I have just to be in the same bed with him some nights. You should always make sure someone is there... Even if you have to search all day, make SURE someone is with him to take care of him incase anything happens. What if he stops breathing and you're not there? crying
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:14 pm
Professor Spike I wasn't even there for him last night. I'm the worst husband in the world. I know that. I can't help it. It hurts me so badly to see him like that. He always wants me to hold his hand or hug him when he's screaming in pain and I just can't. I have seen him go through so much already and knowing that his days are numbered lower and lower is taking a lot out of me. It takes all that I have just to be in the same bed with him some nights. John......... I know it is hard. I'm sorry you have to see him like that. You shouldn't have to..... Van shouldn't have to go through this..... I'm sorry... I would sell my soul if there was a way for me to help Van and you and Damion...............................
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:15 pm
Professor Spike I wasn't even there for him last night. I'm the worst husband in the world. I know that. I can't help it. It hurts me so badly to see him like that. He always wants me to hold his hand or hug him when he's screaming in pain and I just can't. I have seen him go through so much already and knowing that his days are numbered lower and lower is taking a lot out of me. It takes all that I have just to be in the same bed with him some nights. Forgive me if I'm wrong in saying this...but I think he woudl feel worse knowing you feel like this. Im sure he wants you to be happy and not suffer more because of him.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:16 pm
KisukeRULZ Professor Spike I wasn't even there for him last night. I'm the worst husband in the world. I know that. I can't help it. It hurts me so badly to see him like that. He always wants me to hold his hand or hug him when he's screaming in pain and I just can't. I have seen him go through so much already and knowing that his days are numbered lower and lower is taking a lot out of me. It takes all that I have just to be in the same bed with him some nights. John......... I know it is hard. I'm sorry you have to see him like that. You shouldn't have to..... Van shouldn't have to go through this..... I'm sorry... I would sell my soul if there was a way for me to help Van and you and Damion............................... If only I was older... I would gladly give up my heart for Van and I bet that would make things a million times better for everyone because it would fix things for awhile...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:20 pm
Cluey-kun Professor Spike I wasn't even there for him last night. I'm the worst husband in the world. I know that. I can't help it. It hurts me so badly to see him like that. He always wants me to hold his hand or hug him when he's screaming in pain and I just can't. I have seen him go through so much already and knowing that his days are numbered lower and lower is taking a lot out of me. It takes all that I have just to be in the same bed with him some nights. Forgive me if I'm wrong in saying this...but I think he woudl feel worse knowing you feel like this. Im sure he wants you to be happy and not suffer more because of him. I was thinking that too...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:22 pm
Cluey-kun XxCritical_RomancexX KisukeRULZ I still refuse to accept that Van is going to die...... Even if it is fact, I simply won't accept it......... And I am ******** useless.......... I can't do anything to help anyone......... My friends are hurting themselves.... I can't do anything to prove that I care for Damion. I can't do anything to help Van, to help him with the pain. I can't do anything to help my friends. I can't do anything to keep my ******** parents from fighting.... I'm useless. I can't do anything. I can't help anyone. I act so happy, I try to stay hopeful, I don't want to worry anyone. I'm the one who uplifts everyone else. Who always has the upbeat attitude. The one who is always trying to keep everyone else from being sad. I can't keep this up anymore. I can't pretend that nothing is wrong..... My mind is tormented by worry all the time.......... I feel sick almost every day because I'm holding back these emotions. I don't show how worried I am all the time....... I'm useless.........Chloe! Your not usless. Do you not realize how much you've changed my life? Look at yourself, your sad because you can't help others-your a great person! I know your parents may fight, but they're in a tight situation. And just because... Your friends...Hurt themselves, doesn't mean you have to. Maybe they'll stop once they feel like they can't be sad anymore, or...or they've done something to be proud of, and not so many things are wrong... Right now I could possibly be in the process of killing myself had it not've been for you. You have a wonderful life Chloe. You are truly Amazing... I completely agree... And your friends will grow stronger, knowing that you love them from the bottom of your heart. Whenever they're down or hurt, they have the comfort of knowing that they have an incredible friend like yourself who'll stick up for them no matter what. I know I help people..... I know that I act upbeat. I know that I seem happy. But it is so hard. It is so hard to always seem so happy. It is so hard. I listen to other people talk about their emotions. I help them with their problems. I help people..... But I never tell about mine. I keep mine hidden... Because everyone needs someone who can be always upbeat. Everyone is always so sad..... so worried.... so miserable.... They need someone who can help them and I am usually that person, but I can't do anything to really help them........ I can give them hope...... But that is all... I can't keep Damion from hurting himself.... I can't prove that I care about him..... I can't help Van with his pain.... I can't even keep my best friend from hurting herself............. I hate for everyone to see me acting like this. To see me so broken up. But I just......... I am just....... I can't do anything. I am useless.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:22 pm
Oo Dorkalicious oO KisukeRULZ Professor Spike I wasn't even there for him last night. I'm the worst husband in the world. I know that. I can't help it. It hurts me so badly to see him like that. He always wants me to hold his hand or hug him when he's screaming in pain and I just can't. I have seen him go through so much already and knowing that his days are numbered lower and lower is taking a lot out of me. It takes all that I have just to be in the same bed with him some nights. John......... I know it is hard. I'm sorry you have to see him like that. You shouldn't have to..... Van shouldn't have to go through this..... I'm sorry... I would sell my soul if there was a way for me to help Van and you and Damion............................... If only I was older... I would gladly give up my heart for Van and I bet that would make things a million times better for everyone because it would fix things for awhile... It wouldn't fix anything. What about the people who love you? What are they going to do without you?
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:23 pm
Cluey-kun Forgive me if I'm wrong in saying this...but I think he woudl feel worse knowing you feel like this. Im sure he wants you to be happy and not suffer more because of him. You're not wrong. Van is far to compassionate. He is so understanding even when he doesn't need to be. He's the best man I've ever met and thats why it rips me to pieces seeing him so hurt. Seeing him suffer. I wish I was stronger. I wish I could lay with him, hold his hand, hug him when he's in pain. I just cant. I can't stand it. I fell in love with him a year before I ever met him and I will remain in love with him until I die but I can't watch him die.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:27 pm
KisukeRULZ Cluey-kun XxCritical_RomancexX KisukeRULZ I still refuse to accept that Van is going to die...... Even if it is fact, I simply won't accept it......... And I am ******** useless.......... I can't do anything to help anyone......... My friends are hurting themselves.... I can't do anything to prove that I care for Damion. I can't do anything to help Van, to help him with the pain. I can't do anything to help my friends. I can't do anything to keep my ******** parents from fighting.... I'm useless. I can't do anything. I can't help anyone. I act so happy, I try to stay hopeful, I don't want to worry anyone. I'm the one who uplifts everyone else. Who always has the upbeat attitude. The one who is always trying to keep everyone else from being sad. I can't keep this up anymore. I can't pretend that nothing is wrong..... My mind is tormented by worry all the time.......... I feel sick almost every day because I'm holding back these emotions. I don't show how worried I am all the time....... I'm useless.........Chloe! Your not usless. Do you not realize how much you've changed my life? Look at yourself, your sad because you can't help others-your a great person! I know your parents may fight, but they're in a tight situation. And just because... Your friends...Hurt themselves, doesn't mean you have to. Maybe they'll stop once they feel like they can't be sad anymore, or...or they've done something to be proud of, and not so many things are wrong... Right now I could possibly be in the process of killing myself had it not've been for you. You have a wonderful life Chloe. You are truly Amazing... I completely agree... And your friends will grow stronger, knowing that you love them from the bottom of your heart. Whenever they're down or hurt, they have the comfort of knowing that they have an incredible friend like yourself who'll stick up for them no matter what. I know I help people..... I know that I act upbeat. I know that I seem happy. But it is so hard. It is so hard to always seem so happy. It is so hard. I listen to other people talk about their emotions. I help them with their problems. I help people..... But I never tell about mine. I keep mine hidden... Because everyone needs someone who can be always upbeat. Everyone is always so sad..... so worried.... so miserable.... They need someone who can help them and I am usually that person, but I can't do anything to really help them........ I can give them hope...... But that is all... I can't keep Damion from hurting himself.... I can't prove that I care about him..... I can't help Van with his pain.... I can't even keep my best friend from hurting herself............. I hate for everyone to see me acting like this. To see me so broken up. But I just......... I am just....... I can't do anything. I am useless.I know it's not easy Chloe, life is never easy. And you're a strong person for always being the upbeat one, you should continue to grace your friends with your positivity. And if you need to talk about your issues, I am a hundred percent sure, everyone here will be all ears to listen to you and help you with them. Don't try to hide them...we're here for you, just like we're here for Van and Damion and others. Chloe...there are some things that none of us can do, don't blame yourself for that. You have done a lot already by giving them your support, they wouldn't any more of you...that's the greatest gift of all.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:30 pm
Professor Spike Cluey-kun Forgive me if I'm wrong in saying this...but I think he woudl feel worse knowing you feel like this. Im sure he wants you to be happy and not suffer more because of him. You're not wrong. Van is far to compassionate. He is so understanding even when he doesn't need to be. He's the best man I've ever met and thats why it rips me to pieces seeing him so hurt. Seeing him suffer. I wish I was stronger. I wish I could lay with him, hold his hand, hug him when he's in pain. I just cant. I can't stand it. I fell in love with him a year before I ever met him and I will remain in love with him until I die but I can't watch him die. I know it's hard...I understand...but I am sure Van knows you love him and you're doing the best you can...don't blame yourself for that. We're humans, we have limitations to how much we can do for anyone...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:32 pm
Come on Chloe. Everyone Loves you. They all love you. Your so great, and look at all the people who you've helped, and who care about you. I mean if anyone's useless it's me... You've done all these great things in your life for others, and made so many people happy.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:33 pm
XxCritical_RomancexX Come on Chloe. Everyone Loves you. They all love you. Your so great, and look at all the people who you've helped, and who care about you. I mean if anyone's useless it's me... You've done all these great things in your life for others, and made so many people happy. Thank you, Audri.....
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:34 pm
KisukeRULZ XxCritical_RomancexX Come on Chloe. Everyone Loves you. They all love you. Your so great, and look at all the people who you've helped, and who care about you. I mean if anyone's useless it's me... You've done all these great things in your life for others, and made so many people happy. Thank you, Audri..... Yeah...It's true Chloe, honestly.
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