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 Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:42 pm
He doesn't want to be alone when he goes... and he can't call you and have you come home when he does...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:43 pm
Professor Spike Van is dying. It's a fact. Deal with it. I have to. I disagree with people who say that you're wrong to make such a comment. Loving someone doesnt mean ignoring reality. You gotta face what you gotta face.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:44 pm
I'm sorry John...I feel bad for you...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:44 pm
You mean when he dies he doesn't want to be alone? who would? I can't help it though. I can't be with him all the time.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:47 pm
Cluey-kun Professor Spike Van is dying. It's a fact. Deal with it. I have to. I disagree with people who say that you're wrong to make such a comment. Loving someone doesnt mean ignoring reality. You gotta face what you gotta face. I agree with you Cluey...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:48 pm
If you agree with him, why do you feel sorry for me?
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:51 pm
Cluey-kun XxCritical_RomancexX Cluey-kun XxCritical_RomancexX Cluey-kun XxCritical_RomancexX Cluey Kun. That's true...Thanks for trying to help her. No, it's very true Critical...I've only RP'ed/chatted a few times with her but her personality is amazing. She's a fun person to talk to, she's kind, she stands up for her friends...I dont know how much more anyone could possibly expect... Yeah she's a great person, but she's always sad. I don't exactly understand why though. Maybe...she just wants to be there for people...I kinda know that feeling, wanting to be there for someone but physically impossible Well, that may be part of it. But the other part's much more complicated that being physically unable. that does sound complicated... It is... I'm worried for her-as she is for me... -Sigh- Why is this so difficult?
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:52 pm
I still refuse to accept that Van is going to die...... Even if it is fact, I simply won't accept it.........
And I am ******** useless..........
I can't do anything to help anyone.........
My friends are hurting themselves....
I can't do anything to prove that I care for Damion.
I can't do anything to help Van, to help him with the pain.
I can't do anything to help my friends.
I can't do anything to keep my ******** parents from fighting....
I'm useless. I can't do anything. I can't help anyone.
I act so happy, I try to stay hopeful, I don't want to worry anyone.
I'm the one who uplifts everyone else. Who always has the upbeat attitude. The one who is always trying to keep everyone else from being sad.
I can't keep this up anymore. I can't pretend that nothing is wrong.....
My mind is tormented by worry all the time.......... I feel sick almost every day because I'm holding back these emotions. I don't show how worried I am all the time.......
I'm useless.........
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:53 pm
Professor Spike If you agree with him, why do you feel sorry for me? Because, of your feelings towards Van. Your sadness and love It's got to be difficult for you to have to deal with that...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:55 pm
XxCritical_RomancexX Cluey-kun XxCritical_RomancexX Cluey-kun XxCritical_RomancexX Yeah she's a great person, but she's always sad. I don't exactly understand why though. Maybe...she just wants to be there for people...I kinda know that feeling, wanting to be there for someone but physically impossible Well, that may be part of it. But the other part's much more complicated that being physically unable. that does sound complicated... It is... I'm worried for her-as she is for me... -Sigh- Why is this so difficult? I can understand it's difficult...but every obstacle that you guys get through makes you guys infinite times more stronger than someone who has it easy all the time...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:57 pm
XxCritical_RomancexX Professor Spike If you agree with him, why do you feel sorry for me? Because, of your feelings towards Van. Your sadness and love It's got to be difficult for you to have to deal with that... I agree...I think sometimes when you really love someone, it's not shown by what you say but by what you do for them...and nobody should pass judgement on how much you love Van, cause in truth they have no idea...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:58 pm
It's not hard for me. I know where I need to be and I know where I can be. Van is my world but my life consists of more than just being by his side. Dont get me wrong, I love him. I love him more than anything. I almost feel like I busy myself to get away from him. It hurts me seeing him so weak.
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 5:59 pm
KisukeRULZ I still refuse to accept that Van is going to die...... Even if it is fact, I simply won't accept it......... And I am ******** useless.......... I can't do anything to help anyone......... My friends are hurting themselves.... I can't do anything to prove that I care for Damion. I can't do anything to help Van, to help him with the pain. I can't do anything to help my friends. I can't do anything to keep my ******** parents from fighting.... I'm useless. I can't do anything. I can't help anyone. I act so happy, I try to stay hopeful, I don't want to worry anyone. I'm the one who uplifts everyone else. Who always has the upbeat attitude. The one who is always trying to keep everyone else from being sad. I can't keep this up anymore. I can't pretend that nothing is wrong..... My mind is tormented by worry all the time.......... I feel sick almost every day because I'm holding back these emotions. I don't show how worried I am all the time....... I'm useless.........But Chloe...you're there for your friends when they need emotional support...that's more valuable than anything
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:00 pm
KisukeRULZ I still refuse to accept that Van is going to die...... Even if it is fact, I simply won't accept it......... And I am ******** useless.......... I can't do anything to help anyone......... My friends are hurting themselves.... I can't do anything to prove that I care for Damion. I can't do anything to help Van, to help him with the pain. I can't do anything to help my friends. I can't do anything to keep my ******** parents from fighting.... I'm useless. I can't do anything. I can't help anyone. I act so happy, I try to stay hopeful, I don't want to worry anyone. I'm the one who uplifts everyone else. Who always has the upbeat attitude. The one who is always trying to keep everyone else from being sad. I can't keep this up anymore. I can't pretend that nothing is wrong..... My mind is tormented by worry all the time.......... I feel sick almost every day because I'm holding back these emotions. I don't show how worried I am all the time....... I'm useless.........Chloe! Your not usless. Do you not realize how much you've changed my life? Look at yourself, your sad because you can't help others-your a great person! I know your parents may fight, but they're in a tight situation. And just because... Your friends...Hurt themselves, doesn't mean you have to. Maybe they'll stop once they feel like they can't be sad anymore, or...or they've done something to be proud of, and not so many things are wrong... Right now I could possibly be in the process of killing myself had it not've been for you. You have a wonderful life Chloe. You are truly Amazing...
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Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2011 6:02 pm
I'm sorry, John.......
I know that it is the hardest thing in the world for you to have to see Van like this....
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