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 Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2007 7:10 pm
BakaTulip I got confused for a second because there's a Jenny in the Buffyverse too. Bleh. My room smells of hetero-sex *cries* lol why? ____________________ Hangovers SUCK when you have to go to school. BAH! exclaim wink sweatdrop xp lesson learned. don't drink on school nights.
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2007 8:37 pm
Scenario =
Coming out -safely- in a small private Jewish school.
Okay. How does one go about it in a positive way? D:
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2007 9:36 pm
You should just get a megaphone and start screaming, "I'M A LESBIAN!" Nobody would expect such a gung-ho action. It's so crazy it just might work.
Also, listening to my advice would be a bad idea.
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I really don't know. I've never had any experience with private schools, or conservative communities, so... yeah, sorry I can't help. Maybe one of the actual lesbians in here may be able to be of more assistance, because when it comes to me, lolpenis.
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2007 9:51 pm
Karnell You should just get a megaphone and start screaming, "I'M A LESBIAN!" Nobody would expect such a gung-ho action. It's so crazy it just might work. Also, listening to my advice would be a bad idea. biggrin I really don't know. I've never had any experience with private schools, or conservative communities, so... yeah, sorry I can't help. Maybe one of the actual lesbians in here may be able to be of more assistance, because when it comes to me, lolpenis. Haha. Well thank you for trying. <3
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Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2007 6:47 pm
A.Dream.Within.A.Dream. Scenario = Coming out -safely- in a small private Jewish school. Okay. How does one go about it in a positive way? D: Start with Friends. think of good comebacks. make sure you know someone you can live with if your family kicks you out. xp thats all i can tihnk of at the moment. good luck dear.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2007 8:57 am
Ooooh, I do have something that might help, now that I think about it! You could ask them, hypothetically, how they would react if one of their friends (or family) were a lesbian (although I would just use "gay", as "lesbian" kinda singles you out as a female, making it seem less hypothetical), to kind of judge their reactions. Test the water before jumping in, y'know?
Actually, I can kind of relate to this. I'm not gay, but I'd say that I have a lot of bisexual tendencies. I don't mind guys (even though I like girls more). I've been wanting to tell everyone this, but I just don't know how to go about it.
I'm sure they already know, though. I act like a flamer a lot for laughs, because I can do it perfectly. In addition, I have quite a few female cliche tendencies, which I'll get into some other time.
In other news, if I had to pick just one thing that I disliked about living in Kansas, it would be that the weather changes every FIVE FREAKING MINUTES. Seriously, the forcast today was chilly, and it WAS chilly... but only in the morning. I dressed for "chilly", and now it's what I would describe as "FREAKING HOT". Kansas' weather has ADD.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2007 12:04 pm
TT Okay.
I'm kind of frightened.
This girl, Ashley.
She's like, a stalker.
And today, she was like "Do you guys know about the band t.A.T.u?"
And I was like "OMG."
Then she started talking about Ellen Degeneres, and Rosie O'Donnell.
T.T It's not a coincidence, is it? She was also talking about Girls Gone Wild a while back.
Like, she'll just mention it.
She's really creepy. I mean, I'm not trying to be mean or anything, but she is. She is a pathological liar, and she's just...Bizarre. I've tried to get to know her.
But it didn't work. She's just bizarre.
And I think she likes me. I think she may be a lesbian considering all she talks about. And I'm pretty sure she knows I'm one.
And it freaks me out.
On a side note...
Okay, so, I don't like guys. I'm not physically attracted to them. But I saw this REALLY REALLY hot guy today. xDDD He was the sound guy, with the big furry microphone at our school with some guy doing Slam Poetry. People were shocked that I thought he was hot. But, hey, it's not like I'd sleep with him or anything. He was just attractive. xP
And that was my day.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2007 2:16 pm
Your day sounds better than mine.
I got up and my ******** mom was in a pissy mood so now she's screaming at Ray (my step-dad) about ME but isnt saying my name! Just because I sleep in the day time rather than at night she picks ME to blame that she doesn't get any help in the house.
Jesus Christ. If our dog is too old to stand on her own, why in the ******** hell are we keeping her alive? Dont stand there and complain about it. And definitely dont take your stupid s**t out on me. If you want help, ******** ask. Why is that so hard to understand?
Im not a OCDing clean freak like she is. So ******** what? neutral
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Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2007 12:11 am
...Why am I alive you guys? I've done nothing. Accomplished nothing. Never helped a single solitary soul. Never bettered the world in any way. I'm purely a waste of space. So why, guys, do I just keep keepin' on?
I got called sheltered today by a junior.
I've watched my mother suffer the pains of a debilitating disease. I've fought my own disease. I've watched my father slowly kill his brain cells with alcohol. I've been yelled at for nothing. I've had my two best friends-my almost sisters abandon me because I wasn't "cool enough" for them. I've recently had another friend abandon me for bigger and better things. I've survived being bullied all throughout middle school.
...And yet I'm sheltered. Wow. What do I have to do to be worldly? Someone tell me, 'cause I haven't a clue.
G-d I really want to disappear. ********.
I know I'm childish and selfish.
I know this doesn't belong here.
Sorry.
I just..have no one else to talk to. I'm utterly serious. Whenever i tell my mother what I'm feeling she calls me crazy. And none of my friends would listen to my banter.
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Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2007 3:09 am
A.Dream.Within.A.Dream. ...Why am I alive you guys? I've done nothing. Accomplished nothing. Never helped a single solitary soul. Never bettered the world in any way. I'm purely a waste of space. So why, guys, do I just keep keepin' on? I got called sheltered today by a junior. I've watched my mother suffer the pains of a debilitating disease. I've fought my own disease. I've watched my father slowly kill his brain cells with alcohol. I've been yelled at for nothing. I've had my two best friends-my almost sisters abandon me because I wasn't "cool enough" for them. I've recently had another friend abandon me for bigger and better things. I've survived being bullied all throughout middle school. ...And yet I'm sheltered. Wow. What do I have to do to be worldly? Someone tell me, 'cause I haven't a clue. G-d I really want to disappear. ********. I know I'm childish and selfish. I know this doesn't belong here. Sorry. I just..have no one else to talk to. I'm utterly serious. Whenever i tell my mother what I'm feeling she calls me crazy. And none of my friends would listen to my banter. I dont know, and it's apparent that you dont know but you and I both know this: You're here for a reason. Life is hard right now. It gets hard sometimes but when you get through this you'll say "Wow, I dont know why I even thought that." Just because some people dont know how to appreciate you doesn't mean you're worthless and just because you dont see it, doesn't mean you dont help someone. Everyone has their place on this earth. We're all worth something to someone. As for those so called "friends", if they're willing to leave you because you're not "cool" enough or because they'd rather be spending all their time with someone else, they're not your friends hun. You deserve alot better than them. In their own little way, everyone has their own problems. For that person to call you sheltered says something about them. That person is an insensitive b*****d who needs to get their head out of their own a**. So, someone has a bigger problem than you do right now. That doesn't make you sheltered for wanting someone to talk to for your problems. The world doesn't revolve around one person and their are plenty of people on this earth that can be turned to / have someone to turn to. You have every right to turn to someone and express your problems and feel bad about those problems as much as the next person. (huggles) Feel better my friend.
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Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2007 12:01 pm
Okay days of doom scenario:
3 PM Wednesday- My roomie's boyfriend shows up
5:30 PM- I go to dinner at my friend's room, and watch Angel
6:30 PM- I come back, my roommate tells me to come back later. I read Harry Potter until 30 minutes after she told me she'd be done.
7:30 PM- I go upstairs. My room STINKS.
8-10 PM- I watch Bones and Mythbusters with my friend and my girlfriend.
12 midnight- I crash on my girlfriend's floor and get a very lack luster night of sleep.
9 AM Thursday- Class
10:30 AM- Skip class, go shopping
1 PM- Logic class, barely awake
3 PM- Return to room. Once again smelling of sex.
4 PM- Offered a ride home for spring break friday at noon. Thinks about refunding bus ticket.
6 PM- Goes to Friend's room for the night, gets 5 hours of sleep
8 AM Friday- returns to room, then goes to CVS
8: 30 AM- Locked out, sexcapades
10 AM- Test in Japanese Class
11:05 AM- Finds out my ride left 4 hours ago. Proceeds to scream.
11:06 AM- Shoves haphazzardly half my stuff into a suitcase and run out to the bust station leaving behind toothbrush and deodorant.
11:30 AM- Bus is late. It starts to snow.
1:30 PM- Arrive in bus station at Hartford in the middle of a blizzard.
2:45-6:45 PM- A generally 90 minute busride to the station near my home take four hours with constant calls and berating from my mother saying I should have never left in the first place. Snow totals are well over a foot and there are accidents left and right. But hey, at least I'm away from the sexcapades.
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Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2007 2:12 pm
Heh. A lot of our lives are kinda sucky right now, aren't they?
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Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2007 3:43 pm
I've had about 15 hours of good sleep all week.
razz though it was my choice.
And i got 2 new poems out of my insomnia.
almot 2 weeks late... my period FINALLY starts and its been going for almost a week now. There's something wrong.
My head hurts constantly... probably from when i hit my head on my cabinet and had to go to the nurse at school xp my third head injury in the past year.
at least.
My parents are gone and i can't DO anything because 1. i'm on my period and 2 my mom, lovely mother, assigned me already to weekend chores and grandparent duty. i've no social life.
and i performed at a funeral today. 2 solos.. eh it was okay i can always do better.
So really my life isn't that bad... everything wrong with it is my own fault.
*shrugs* whatever.
hope everyone starts feeling better soon biggrin
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Posted: Sun Mar 18, 2007 2:07 pm
Moocat Heh. A lot of our lives are kinda sucky right now, aren't they? Hm, I feel kinda bad, now, because things are looking up for me, haha. I'll give it a week, tops, before something happens that drags me down again. XD But life doesn't really have much of a point (and I don't mean that in a suicidal manner). A couple of weeks ago, I did some serious thinking about this, and that age old question of what our meaning is. Well, I came up with an answer: there is no meaning of life. We exist to further our existence (woahshi--"Equilibrium" flashbacks...). That's all it really is. If you're religious, well, fine, you have purpose. However, if you're not religious, like me (my girlfriend would kill me if she caught me saying that--she's highly religious), there really is no point. Being remembered? What's the point--you're a name. Giving the world something of use? What's the point--someone else would've come up with it eventually. Helping cure a disease? What's the point--someone would have cured eventually, and they're going to die just the same. YAY DEATH! biggrin Hahaha, you'd never know that I'm an optimist from reading that. Oh, and my AIM name is now Zombilicious17. I've had it for a couple of years (as the numerical value would indicate), but just never made it my main account until recently.
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Posted: Sun Mar 18, 2007 2:59 pm
I had a dream that i was arrested!
But they would only make me go to jail during the day.
but they got rid of ALL my belongings except eyeliner and my mp4 player.
smile
But i met some hella cool people there. Like this kid with long hair and he was ridiculed because he has long hair because its easier to be in jail with short hair...
it was wierd.
it was sad. all i did was sit in my cell and talk to him.
his name was Jared.
I don't know what i means.
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