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 Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 12:32 am
I believe not others, is just me. *he replied honestly* Ziven i love you and the reason i havent shown my sad moment or my upsetness is for one reason only...You. Fear seeing you crying like this was my first wall for not telling you. But if you wish to know what it is i have in my mind about this... Just ask and i will honestly reply to you my answer. *he said softly wanting to rather not tell what's on his mind but should she ask he will tell her everything*
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 12:34 am
"Please .. please speak the truth so that I may understand." she said softly, looking both sad and stony, trying to prepare herself for whatever he may say. "I will be strong for you with the truth."
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 12:40 am
You should seat this could be very heavy for you. Relax first and i will gather my thoughts so that i say this in the least hurtful way or in the most tactful way ever. *he summoned a sofa for her to seat and a seat just the opposite side so they could be looking straight in the eye like his dad always said. Sitting but not after she took seat first and was breathing fine*
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 1:29 am
"As you wish." she said softly, sitting as requested, trying to be calm while reading herself to listen.
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 1:59 am
*Sighing to exhale any nervouness or jitters he had, she knew at heart what he was going to say. This was not the first time* You know that for the longest time i have been not your companion but someon you can depend on. That i always wanted to help you and to see you happy, but, if you remember the dojo i also tried to show you that i was more than a friend. That before any in this realm saw you with eyes of love and care i was there trying to show you i was doing that. In that same night i showed you, and even sang to you my emotions, that i wanted for you to see that my heart belonged to you and even that for those two times you and i were the closest friends my wish was that i could make you the happiest woman on earth no... The universe to show with actions my unending love for you and that if you let into your heart you will never be feeling alone again. That same that you opened your eyes to my actions and sadly even though you had hunter. You were confused and wanted time to make a desicion. I went and agree to it and for the past almost two years i been trying to show you to assert myself into your heart without breaking my promise to you that you were with hunter. Carefully bidding my time and thinking now that you no longer wanted to be with hunter , you would see my actions and finally be with me as a mate. I dont what Yawg told you, or what did he do to make you fall for him. But im sure he saw that i was showing you my best to make you my mate. Thus the why he is now mocking me and in the past was not "tolerating" me. He saw me as a threat and that rightfully so as would battle till the ends of the earth for you. But i felt something, you were always were drifting to him, even that he had that baddest of actions at the time you still looked like you trusted him more than me. That saddened me a great deal.... When i heard those words you said were like a stab at my heart. I was never seeking you to be sophisticated or to be educated in the romantic parts. I thought that by now you knew that i see you as you that i always wanted Ziven not a reformed or a high class one Ziven. I love you with your faults and meirts and that said i also think that i wanted to you to see that in choices there two not just one. Equality, thats one way to put it. I never wished you to see like you werent worthy of me in fact it was quite the opposite that you were exactly for me. In fact you were the only one aside from a few that have left this place that actually cared about me.
Yet in just one month you chose Yawg. I think he told you you cant make everyone happy and your decision was going to make one happy and the other sad. in this line of thought this is true. I should know that you are just inexperienced in this things and that yet you dont have the "maturity" in you as you appeared physically to show. I mean no offense with this but Yes i was extremely angered at he mocking me and then stepping on me heart while is stil recovering from such a blow. And i still think i am the one for you. I just hope that one day when more time pass you see this and smile, one day you be finally at my arms, being no longer your best friend but also the one that has your heart.
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 7:42 am
And here I thought Yawg was the womanizer.* Ali narrowed his eyes at Sei as he approached them, having entered the bar for a shot of whiskey and overhearing that long speech. It was all fine and dandy that Sei loved Ziven but in the long run now Sei had been putting pressure on her and quite frankly he seemed fanatical about her.* You seriously need to move on, who she wants to be with is her choice and if it's not you then she is not immature in the way of romance. That is the largest load of egotistic bullshit I've ever heard. Good, you love it that's fine and everything but if you really loved here then you would stop pressuring her like this and want her to be happy cause right now you are just ruining her happiness and you know it.
If you don't then you seriously need to open your eyes.* Ali held the stern tone in his voice as he walked past and poured himself a glass of whiskey, taking a sip of it when he was done talking and giving Sei a long stare.* Sometimes you don't get what or who you want, putting pressure on them in desperation is pathetic, weak and egosentric.
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 9:41 am
She looked at Seisuke as he spoke, her expression sad at all times but turning to troubled also. As he finished, she needed a moment to think. It was then that she took her eyes from Seisuke, looking to Ali with surprise, somewhat grateful to hear his words. With a small nod, she looked back to Sei, bobbing her head. "Ali speaks the truth .. you act as a child would when they do not get their way, making a thinly veiled attempt to act as if you are not disappointed when the truth is that you are quite disappointed and wish you were getting your way. It is times like this that I question why we are even friends, why we still speak with each other, with the exception of remembering our contract." she said softly, lowering her head now.
"You said that you would support whatever decision I made regarding who I would be with. The truth is that you are quite unhappy and do not support my decision. Because of this, you are saying hurtful things to me, about my decision and about the love I share with Yawgmoth. These words .. everything you have spoken of tonight all come from jealousy. If you would please come to terms with this fact, I would very much appreciate it." she said softly, looking up to him with tearful eyes, wishing she had not felt the need to say all of this.
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 10:40 am
*he sighs deeply and began to speak once more calmly* Ali, Ziven sometimes you missunderstand my words and this is one of them. In all that ive said... You know what? I will say it. I said it here i was saying from my heart, is because i wanted you happy that i didnt wished to speak to try and tone down and to try to move on. Just like you said, it maybe egotistic what i've said but is the truth. You say i get my way or else i act like a crybaby, the truth is i never get my think of it. I always helped and never asked anyone anything in return, I been seeking others happiness instead of my own and for the firt time in my life i was seeking my own happiness as well as others and i am acting like am forcing my way? Yes i admit that i wish things were different that somehow i was on the other side of things, yet i am not. I was trying with all my might to move on and i still am. I am human i make mistakes and i try to correct them trying to get wiser trying to see the path before me ahead. You gotta understand that both of you. I support your decision i honestly do and this is why i was trying to hide this from you. For what else would i be doing it, to lie to myself? No i already know the truth and you know what is not pretty. I will get this off my chest now to bring closure to it . I do love you and i do know by telling you this i am ruining your happiness, and i seriously wish to mend it. If you are happy then so be it and im glad you are happy with him. But i tell you yet again i am not a cold wall that when something is said i would scoff it off like nothing and keep going with my life is not like that. If i speak of your losses you both will get angry at me. Yet you both took your time to heal or mend your hearts and move on. Mine is still healing and trying to slowly get back on what i was before this whole ordeal happened. Silmeria was helping me a great deal i was seriously doing the move on. If you both are my friends and you know i am trying then dont said i am acting of pure jealousy. Because if i did i would have killed hunter when i had the chance and i didnt i would have twarted reeve and i didnt i would force my thing in very unpleasant way with Yawg and i again didnt. I am not decalring myself a saint but i aint a jealous twerp. You both gotta understand that and see that i am honestly wanting to move on.
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 11:43 am
She stood, looking to him with a sad expression. "I feel nothing but pity for you in this moment. My apologies, I must go, I can bear this no longer." she said softly, bobbing her head respectfully to him. "Until next we meet." she said before disappearing with a pop.
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 3:22 pm
He sighed and looked at the direction of her depart and after a moment used sha'ara abilities to dissipate into thin air to be alone and finally get his head straight
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 7:05 pm
With a laugh Loki poked his head into the room from a window on the side of the building. He had spent the first few weeks of his presence here simply gathering information, as was his custom when going to new places. In his life he had come to realize that it was far better for him to know the people around him than it was for the other people to know much about him. Now he was ready, at least with the people that popped up the most in this place, to reveal himself. Smiling, he pulled himself through the window and walked around the inside of then inn, admiring the work on this building once again.
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Posted: Sun Oct 26, 2008 8:56 pm
Mai walked into the bar quietly and looked around wow full house tonight. Shurriging she headed to the bar and sat down being careful of the red pletted skirt she had on. She love the out fit Fox had given her to ware but now that she could dress herself she found to have more fun in that. Along with the red skirt she had on a black strapless shirt with a red ribbons of corresets down the back. Both her hands adored with fingerless gloves and her nails painted white with red tips. Her shoes were simple black heals. But not only was her outfits unusual for her but so where the lips rings something new from her Master; Fox. On her neck instead of a collar layed a black chocker with a red cross on it her hair down and with its new red streaks stilli n place. Ordering a cup of scotch she sat there and siped at it glad that the red on her lips would never come off it was like a perminate tattoo only with make up makeing it better.
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Posted: Tue Oct 28, 2008 10:28 pm
The Large metal being entered the main room. His metal was still slightly scorched from hunters attack. He has been adding and removing various metals from his body. Testing them against the darkness, to see which will survive through it. He has tested several already with rather interesting results. Not only is he experimenting with which can withstand it, he is trying to find one impervious to yawgmoths darkness. It has been hard, though they are making pretty good steps in the right direction.
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Posted: Wed Oct 29, 2008 8:24 pm
The Dark Metlican, looked about the main room. A quiet night tonight, or so it seemed. He didnt spot any others in the main room with him. He walked over to the bar, a rather intelligent Idea came across his head. It was to his knowledge that the bar, was indestructable. Of course, he would wait for conformation on this. But, if it was true, maybe it would help him in his cause. When he arrived to the bar, The metal which made his legs, shifted and changed. His lower half turned into what seemed to be just a mound of metal, while his upperhalf rested upon it. There were few things able to support his weight, especially things made from wood. He sat there waiting. For what, he wasnt sure.
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Posted: Wed Oct 29, 2008 8:34 pm
As Mephisto sat there, another walked in through the door. This time it was Ryan. He looked rather upset, so of course, he wished to drink. Walking to the door he nodded to Mephisto. "Well.. Looks like I might not be drinking alone tonight." He said with a laugh. "You can drink... right?" He asked actually unsure.
Mephisto nodded his head quietly. "Good Then.. Lets fire us up some whiskey!" He said with a laugh as he grabbed a stool and sat by mephisto.
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