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Really, what a shock! xd Eva will be perfect for this, Erin. Talk to you when you get back. Drop me a message, ok?

Meat.............. Female meat...........

xd Erin so isnt going to come back at this rate. You horrible mangey lot.

I have ketchup! twisted

Well... I'm joining the unemployed train too. So uh... yeah. Who wants to welcome me back? :/
Atleast I'll have more time to sketch. And.. uh.. oh god this is looking to be a nightmare again. FML.

I'm going to go sit in the corner and .. well.. not know what to do with myself.

*WELCOMES ERIN HAPPILY*

^^;; I seem to be the nice one of the crowd anymore. >_>;; XD

Kidding.


So... Where do I begin? I dont know what to say to most of you really...cuz Ive been away for... a year? two? Something like that. Insane really. Sigh, I just got out of this relationship with this guy named Tracey.. *points to the pics* and... well... He wouldnt allow me any time on the net at all truthfully. He liked to hit me.. and.. Im sure you can tell in the pics Im not too happy. Im preggers. AGAIN. 2 months this time. Sigh. Not quite on the sure how that one occurred, considering I had my tubes tied. IT DOESNT WORK FOLKS.

But, yeah. I had lots of bruises to mend when I finally left.. He had me pretty... uhm... whats the word? Brain washed? I guess. I just.. fell inlove and didnt wake up til I had a fat lip and bruise on my cheek. Then heard from others he was pickin up on girls while he was with me. So.. yeah... That's embarrassing to even mention. I had days where I didnt stop crying. Im kinda ..depressed now. Like hard core. I wait til WAAAAY late in the night to go to sleep. Like 6 am... and crash hard so I can just sleep..cuz I cant sleep otherwise, I just lie and look at the ceiling, crying. I dont even try to, the tears just come. I feel alone, right now.. and no matter how pretty people tell me I am, I feel ugly. Like.. lower than ugly.

The baby daddy and I are in conflict with alot of things, mainly our kids. I hate him for alot of reasons and I just want to tear his throat out sometimes. But, he's been somewhat supportive through this endeavor Ive been through.

I got hooked on crack, cocaine and meth for awhile... Yeah.... >_<;; I dont even want to talk about that little stint in my life.. I lost like 6 pant sizes from it. I started looking older too, I noticed. Just did the drugs to ease the pain, I spose. But.. yeah. I was partying every night, getting them for free and I went where I could get it free. Never did any ho like things to get them, just had alot of "friends" who wanted to help ease my pain.... *snorts and laughs* Yuh.

This guy, Tracey.. that's one good thing about him, he got me away from that... helped me get up when I fell hard.

Then ... I left him and now here I am... back to square one and trying to deal without getting stupid. Oh yeah.. I nearly killed myself too... I was two seconds away from death, almost literally. I took an entire bottle of tylenol, and over amped my heart... I started seeing triple what I was sposed to see and passed out, when I woke up.. I was at a hospital... Tracey beat the s**t out of me for that too.

So, yeah... I thought Id give you a rundown on my selfishness in the past year... Now and only now am I truly waking up... and I dont really know how to deal, scary, huh?

Theresa isnt the same bubbly little kid she used to be. x_x;

I... have no idea what to say to that Lamia :S

@ Akiko: Know what you mean having job of doom. Welcome back xd

Thanks Roan, they're trying to give me a disciplinary now for voicing my opinion, so instead of working my notice, it's looking more and more likely that I'll quit. Why should I pay an arm and a leg to get to work for a few hours, and then pay the same to get shouted at at a disciplinary, and then picked on by my manager (who's stalking my facebook page... or getting someone to grass me up)?

Honestly, my temper has been on overload. My dad says I should quit, my mum says stay for the notice (and the little amount of money I'll make) and then get JSA... Opinions? I'm trying not to jump the gun and tell my manager to do one, but after the constant grief I've had from these guys, it's looking more appealing. (Its like the boys+Threshers all over again!)

eek... that'd be the Fenrir/Corbin you warned me about huh, Roan?

::slinks under a rock and hides::

Thank you Lady Illya, sorry to hear about your woes.

::Cautiously joins in the rp thing::