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 Posted: Sun Feb 19, 2006 5:58 pm
ButterBalls Kori Elzix Why does it seem like as soon as I get my life on track, and I sort through all my emotions, I get derailed again? I am an emotional train wreck at the minute, and there's nothing I can do about it. And the few people that know about it are telling me to get over it, but I'm seriously an emotional basket case. I guess I can tell you guys though, because well, it's an issue. The other night, some guy tried to force me to have sex with him. He was on top of me, pulling up my shirt and undoing my belt, and I was screaming at him to stop the whole time. I have a huge bruise on my arm, and another side. He just wouldn't stop until I kicked him in the balls and ran out of the room. I know he didn't do anything, but still... I'm having a really hard time dealing with this. I just want to go home... I've had enough.
Try doing things that you like to do and make you happy.butter's got a piont.
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Posted: Mon Feb 20, 2006 6:38 pm
remirez08 ButterBalls Kori Elzix Why does it seem like as soon as I get my life on track, and I sort through all my emotions, I get derailed again? I am an emotional train wreck at the minute, and there's nothing I can do about it. And the few people that know about it are telling me to get over it, but I'm seriously an emotional basket case. I guess I can tell you guys though, because well, it's an issue. The other night, some guy tried to force me to have sex with him. He was on top of me, pulling up my shirt and undoing my belt, and I was screaming at him to stop the whole time. I have a huge bruise on my arm, and another side. He just wouldn't stop until I kicked him in the balls and ran out of the room. I know he didn't do anything, but still... I'm having a really hard time dealing with this. I just want to go home... I've had enough.
Try doing things that you like to do and make you happy.butter's got a piont.
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Posted: Mon Feb 20, 2006 7:04 pm
ButterBalls Yeah, I always have a point. Sometimes it's just very not understandable. I understand it... It's just hard to move past something like that... Especially since the guy lives here, and I have to see him every day, and everyone is aware that something is going on, because we use to be friends, and now I won't even look at him.*shrugs* I'm going to go work out, and maybe that'll help me feel better.
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Posted: Mon Feb 20, 2006 7:11 pm
Mmm
I bought a pearl necklace today.
Old, antique one, each bead individually strung. $8
Pretended to be my friend's girlfriend the other day because she was having problems letting a guy know that she was a very uninterested lesbian.
Was on a school retreat thursday and friday. On a scale of 1-10 10 being the highest, rate your relationship with God.
Uhhh, how deep? It was still fun, but I was reminded of my hate for manzenita.
The girl I kissed spooned with me the night we stayed at God Camp, still claims no lezbionicy or biosity.
Silly humans.
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Posted: Mon Feb 20, 2006 7:11 pm
Kori Elzix ButterBalls Yeah, I always have a point. Sometimes it's just very not understandable. I understand it... It's just hard to move past something like that... Especially since the guy lives here, and I have to see him every day, and everyone is aware that something is going on, because we use to be friends, and now I won't even look at him.*shrugs* I'm going to go work out, and maybe that'll help me feel better.
I was talking more like, I'll say Mac and cheese and no one will have any idea what I mean except me.
Yeah, i would imagine shits going to go down sooner or later and someones going to find out. if youdont want to say anything then just.. dont i guess. tell people when your ready. do something when your ready.
working out didnt work out for me. i feel like crap. now im listening to depressing music feelin kind of like im going to cry. and all i can do is laugh about it and smile and say "i love life" which is the weirdest thing.
I love love.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2006 9:17 am
ButterBalls I wasn't talking about that, but yeah, thanks.
I was talking more like, I'll say Mac and cheese and no one will have any idea what I mean except me.
Yeah, i would imagine shits going to go down sooner or later and someones going to find out. if youdont want to say anything then just.. dont i guess. tell people when your ready. do something when your ready.
working out didnt work out for me. i feel like crap. now im listening to depressing music feelin kind of like im going to cry. and all i can do is laugh about it and smile and say "i love life" which is the weirdest thing.
I love love. May I recommend the Aquabats as an alternative music? Or perhaps The Left Rights. It's what the cool retards listen too wink You'll be to damn confused to be sad. Overall, things have been kinda blah for me. Got to see 'Date Movie' but hanging out with my friends reminded me how damn single I am.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2006 11:34 am
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2006 2:31 pm
I found my camera. I just got home from a photo shoot in front of the mall, where they are building a Starbucks. There aren't any tall trees or buildings in that area so I got a lot of good effects from the setting sun.
I realize that I am almost burnt out for this year. I am continuously tired and my effort in math is going down. I made my first C on a test (thankfully the curve brought it to an A, but my actual preformance is disappointing).
My mother tells me I invest too much of myself in long distance relationships and I should spend more time studying. However, I am pleased that I have found the perfect balance of school-work and Katie that ensures I am an A student and not insane. I could go without internet completely and have freakishly high grades, but I would be terribly miserable. I'm supposed to be enjoying these years, right?
I still cannot quite get over how disappointing Valentine's Day was. But what a wonderful weekend I have had.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2006 4:55 pm
Photo shoot. Color me curious.
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2006 2:01 pm
Soleq Photo shoot. Color me curious. Yeah. Not with my digital camera, though! No, I borrow Mr. Davila's Canon EOS 20D sometimes and in exchange he gets to keep whatever prints he wants. I might have something to show you by March. Edit: I would also like to add, with a tone of urgency: what happened to the sub-forum??
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2006 2:58 pm
Coolies. I should really put my photo web portfolio back online.
Hmm...dunno about the sub forum. Seems like either it got trashed, or the server's having issues again. Reminds me of sushi.
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2006 3:20 pm
Soleq Coolies. I should really put my photo web portfolio back online. Hmm...dunno about the sub forum. Seems like either it got trashed, or the server's having issues again. Reminds me of sushi. Yes, you should consider posting that! I would enjoy browsing it. *flashback to sushi* crying
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Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2006 4:21 pm
Relationships are not for me, it seems.
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Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2006 5:22 pm
I've been feelin' pretty damn worthless. WOOhoo.
Sometimes I wonder.
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Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2006 5:30 pm
Leviticus can shove it Relationships are not for me, it seems. I know exactly how you feel, hon. Seems like the only girls who like me are in relationships. They like me because I give them the attention that their a*****e boyfriends don't give them, so they can feel good about themselves while they date them. Gotta love being an Intellectual Whore.
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