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Saix stood outside still looking around. "Xemnes?" he whispered out softly. Ok so no one would come with that soft cry. He had ment to call out be his voice wasn't there. For so long he had stood by the mans side dreaming of having his heart back and now he wasn't sure what to do with all these feelings. Shame it was a new feeling how could he let the others see him like this..they were used to his calm collected self.

Saix was at the front desk now. "What do you mean..he isn't here...he died before me..I know he did!" he said shouting. "Oh...sorry...well..I'll..just...wait." he said softly. He walked off and heard running it was Xigbar. He almost hid. He didn't know why but he didn't want the others to see him but he calmed himself. "So you're here too." he said a bitterness in his voice.

Saix hung back and looked around. "Well..did Roxas make it ok?" he said quickly not wanting to reveal his weakness to the other.

Saix frowned biting his lip. "I...I was..he's not here." he stated simply. "So..what..are we supposed to do now..without a leader. I'm just concerned I mean why does this place exsist? How is this all possible and what are we supposed to do? Xemnes would know....he always does. I..just don't like feeling like I'm in the dark thats all." he said his voice cracked a little. Ok he didn't just not like it he was utterly terrified. Xemnes gave him a purpose and with out without a heart he didn't like not having one.

Saix looked over shouting. "Don't Say things like that! He was our leader...we need him at least so he can see his dream realized. He should be here but he's not!" he looked shocked by his own anger. "I...didn't mean to shout...having a heart..its new..and I had forgotten how confusing it was. Xigbar...you may know what to do here but I don't. I've been serving Xemnes and trying to reach our goal for so long..I never thought about what I'd do with myself without him. I.." he trailed off for a second. "I'm...worried thats all...the others..are much better at this then me. I'm a workholic I guess."

Saix backed away. "He helped us all find each other. He made sure..we weren't all alone in the world. Without him we would of been wandering around with any idea of we were." he screamed. "You're lieing...I was his most trusted advisor...always by his side..he even gave me the honor of pretending to be him..he...he needed me for his plan. If he were here right now you would see." he had broke down crying. "You would..."

Saix looked over a little surprised "What?...Xigbar..is that what this is about? No..its..not like that...I just...listen I just got my heart back. You can't expect me to know how I feel about anything. All I know..is I don't know what to do with myself..without Xemnes here to at least make me feel useful...I..feel useless. Thats why I'm so upset." he went over and hesitently pat the other men on the shoulder. "Will you stop..crying like that..you..are making me feel bad." he said looking away a little. "Just..show me around or something..lets forget about it..if you tell anyone you saw me like that..I will kill you by the way." he said in a serious tone though he might of been joking.

Saix let himself be dragged rolling his eyes. "Alright...if it will make you stop whining." he said softly. "But...well..is Roxas here..I know I helped him..doesn't make me anyless mad at him for leaving us. He nearly doomed us..to never getting a chance to have our hearts, but..I did tell Xemnes..to tell him the truth to begin with. He never listened to me."