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Second-In-Command-Of-Hell
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 Posted: Fri Jun 30, 2006 1:14 pm
D:
I still don't know why..it's going to my lifelong quest why I am so damned cool!
xDDD
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Posted: Wed Jul 12, 2006 11:25 pm
>.>;
-gulp-
Since this thread is sorta dead..and..and it's for family shtuff I Mean...
<.<;
I could post all my problems here, right?!
Just..just to vent.. -nods reassuringly-
Yeah, yeah...I can so do that...no rule-breaking there...huzzah..
>.>;
So, yeah here's what I'm having trouble with:
OK, about 6 months ago I moved out of my mom and step-dad's house to live with my father and step-mother. The process started from last summer and only 6 months ago did it become reality. I have been dealing with....better than most. >.o
My mother she, she had gastric bypass about a year and a half ago, and now she can't eat jack-s**t! So, I was helping her out A LOT! My step-dad was cheating on her and my sisters were beating the s**t out of each other like crazy. Sounds like a typical dysfunctional family, Heh...that's funny. Alright, so...so I told my mother I liked girls and not guys. She spazzed for about 4 hours and didn't like that. She told me on the phone about two weeks ago, "Come talk to me again when you're either married or you're in college, because I have a new life and it doesn't include you." sweatdrop
And I love my mother..I mean...yeah...she may have rammed me into walls and shtuff but it wasn't as bad my step-dad.
>.o
My step-dad made me take a cold shower for a half an hour naked when I was 7 because I used the hot water....He held me by my neck..I mean...and now that I Was 13 and told him I hated him..and hoped he got his head blown off while he was in Iraq, which SERIOUSLY ******** the guy up. I mean he was so mean..the military made him such a drone to the world and he was powerless..he worked at a jail so he could beat the s**t ouf of people and feel better!!
ANYWAY, back to the main point after I moved out...I...missed all my friends. They moved on..my best friend calls me everyday, but just loves to dump her problems on me and that's it. She doesn't ever call just to see how I'm doing or how I'm adjusting....she's so selfish and...everyone at this school I've been going to for the past 6 months hates me...I mean either a few of the guys want to ******** me or they all just hate me because I have a 4.0, which I haven't had since 3rd grade! I was failing ********' BAND LIVING WITH MY MOTHER!! FAILING!! BAND!! How does one do that?!? =.=
I Mean...it was so ******** up...and I didn't even get to say good bye to anyone there..I never got to hug them all on my final day and say wow, it's been fun! nope nothing I just was picked up and we left...now my mother has left my step-father in our old home. My mother now lives in a different state, my sisters are living with my cousins in my hometown and I'm with my father...and I feel guilty because my sister who is really close to me..she's like a mini me..it's so funny and cute but she has this anger streak like I had..she beats the s**t out of her other sister that's on year younger..I mean..it's HORRIBLE and I Used to do that to them! I used...to beat the crap out of EVERYONE..I Have scars all over my arms and...it just hurts to think about it..I Mean..my mother and step-father don't give a s**t about me and I didn't give a s**t about my sisters, but now I do and I call them often to show my support...I Mean last week my mother rammed my sister's CD Player in the wall for having the TV On when she wasn't supposed to.
TALK ABOUT ********!
Also, my father and step-mother could get a divorce..I mean....there's just too much going on and...it's tearing me apart...
....
This is the real me.
No laughs no jovial hellos!
My depressing life has seaped through...and that's why I haven't been posting as much...
ninja
I do not want sympathy.
I only want people who can make the walk along this road easier...
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Second-In-Command-Of-Hell
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 1:06 am
About your best friend, she probably doesn't even realise she's doing it. She still finds some comfort in talking to you, so maybe try telling her you wish she and her could just talk.
And your sisters fight because that's what siblings do. The worse your homelife is, the worse they'll fight. The only thing that can help is to know that someone that's going through it with you that you love can console you. If you want to make their lives a little easier, you should tell them, "It's hard. It's ******** up. But you're gonna make it through and be stronger than most anyway." That's all I know.
Disregard this next part if you want.
I really can't stand when children are born into an unstable household.
Parents should be parents. Parents raise little people to be functioning members of society. Parents are your guids to the world. They should be teachers. Not 'friends,' not 'crack-addicts,'.
It makes me sick.
Sorry sweatdrop I have strong feelings about motherhood.
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 12:45 pm
She doesn't and even if I point it out she's not paying attention. x.x;
Yeah...yeah...I know..but still god...one of them rebels the other triest to be a suck up to mom Dx
Heh, no crack-addicts and they weren't ******** buddys pretty much.
Dx
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Second-In-Command-Of-Hell
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 5:40 pm
Second-In-Command-Of-Hell She doesn't and even if I point it out she's not paying attention. x.x;
Yeah...yeah...I know..but still god...one of them rebels the other triest to be a suck up to mom Dx
Heh, no crack-addicts and they weren't ******** buddys pretty much.
Dx
Everyone has to handle it a different way. It's still not easy for either of them. They need a rock. And so do you. Someone or something you can depend on.
And that's the same thing to me. A 'crack-addict' doesn't even have to try drugs to be sick in my book.
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 7:37 pm
LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell She doesn't and even if I point it out she's not paying attention. x.x;
Yeah...yeah...I know..but still god...one of them rebels the other triest to be a suck up to mom Dx
Heh, no crack-addicts and they weren't ******** buddys pretty much.
Dx
Everyone has to handle it a different way. It's still not easy for either of them. They need a rock. And so do you. Someone or something you can depend on.
And that's the same thing to me. A 'crack-addict' doesn't even have to try drugs to be sick in my book.
><; I know what I Need and want. Dx
>.>; I didn't even describe my mother..if you want me to do that ask about my last birthday.
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Second-In-Command-Of-Hell
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 7:44 pm
Second-In-Command-Of-Hell LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell She doesn't and even if I point it out she's not paying attention. x.x;
Yeah...yeah...I know..but still god...one of them rebels the other triest to be a suck up to mom Dx
Heh, no crack-addicts and they weren't ******** buddys pretty much.
Dx
Everyone has to handle it a different way. It's still not easy for either of them. They need a rock. And so do you. Someone or something you can depend on.
And that's the same thing to me. A 'crack-addict' doesn't even have to try drugs to be sick in my book.
><; I know what I Need and want. Dx
>.>; I didn't even describe my mother..if you want me to do that ask about my last birthday.
*huggles*
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 7:51 pm
LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell She doesn't and even if I point it out she's not paying attention. x.x;
Yeah...yeah...I know..but still god...one of them rebels the other triest to be a suck up to mom Dx
Heh, no crack-addicts and they weren't ******** buddys pretty much.
Dx
Everyone has to handle it a different way. It's still not easy for either of them. They need a rock. And so do you. Someone or something you can depend on.
And that's the same thing to me. A 'crack-addict' doesn't even have to try drugs to be sick in my book.
><; I know what I Need and want. Dx
>.>; I didn't even describe my mother..if you want me to do that ask about my last birthday.
*huggles*
Maybe I'm just...just...making it more dramatic than it really is..I ******** getting 10 whips on your arms from a belt is nothing compard to other people..I Mean...there's nothing wrong with it...right?
Psssh, If anyone who has both their mother and father complains should be salpped....really ********' hard...because that's all my dream used to be...was for mommy and daddy to be together forever and live in a big house....and have a great family...but that's been ******** seven ways into hell!
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Second-In-Command-Of-Hell
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 8:26 pm
Second-In-Command-Of-Hell LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell She doesn't and even if I point it out she's not paying attention. x.x;
Yeah...yeah...I know..but still god...one of them rebels the other triest to be a suck up to mom Dx
Heh, no crack-addicts and they weren't ******** buddys pretty much.
Dx
Everyone has to handle it a different way. It's still not easy for either of them. They need a rock. And so do you. Someone or something you can depend on.
And that's the same thing to me. A 'crack-addict' doesn't even have to try drugs to be sick in my book.
><; I know what I Need and want. Dx
>.>; I didn't even describe my mother..if you want me to do that ask about my last birthday.
*huggles*
Maybe I'm just...just...making it more dramatic than it really is..I ******** getting 10 whips on your arms from a belt is nothing compard to other people..I Mean...there's nothing wrong with it...right?
Psssh, If anyone who has both their mother and father complains should be salpped....really ********' hard...because that's all my dream used to be...was for mommy and daddy to be together forever and live in a big house....and have a great family...but that's been ******** seven ways into hell!
What it is like in hell?
Can you imagine how strong you will be when you come out on top of this?
If you survive this and struggle above it, how much of you will be capable of. There is a reason you had to go through this. A greater purpose to your life than others will ever know, regardless you believe in. Dont let this pull you down Kana. I want you to know I do care about you.
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 8:38 pm
Meh, it already has..and plus I've always been told that the world doesn't give you anything you can't handle...
><;
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Second-In-Command-Of-Hell
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 9:08 pm
Second-In-Command-Of-Hell Meh, it already has..and plus I've always been told that the world doesn't give you anything you can't handle...
><;
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 9:10 pm
LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell Meh, it already has..and plus I've always been told that the world doesn't give you anything you can't handle...
><;
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Second-In-Command-Of-Hell
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 9:20 pm
Second-In-Command-Of-Hell LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell Meh, it already has..and plus I've always been told that the world doesn't give you anything you can't handle...
><;
lol ^-^
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 9:31 pm
LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell Meh, it already has..and plus I've always been told that the world doesn't give you anything you can't handle...
><;
lol ^-^
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Second-In-Command-Of-Hell
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Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2006 9:36 pm
Second-In-Command-Of-Hell LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell LilBitNekoKiwi Second-In-Command-Of-Hell Meh, it already has..and plus I've always been told that the world doesn't give you anything you can't handle...
><;
lol ^-^
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