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 Posted: Thu May 10, 2012 6:23 pm
I knew something was different since I was... around 5. I tried to ignore my feelings and thoughts towards girls, because my family is Christian and my dad would drill certain concepts into my head. I've kinda broken away from religion as I've gotten older. (I'm bisexual, by the way.) When I was 12 I realized what I was, it wasn't until then that I learned about it. I always was scared to think the way I did because my dad would always say how people like that go to hell. I was only a kid though.. c:
~ yum_puddi yum_strawberry yum_cupcake
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Posted: Thu May 10, 2012 10:00 pm
I remember when I was in elementary school I would always wonder why I thought girls were cute, and I would yell at myself when I found myself thinking about them. Once I was in middle school I got a bf and I thought that with that I would be normal. See my mother always told me it was bad for a girl to be with another girl so I tried not to get such thoughts into my head, but everything changed when I could no longer hold my feelings for this girl and I finally just let myself realize that it is not bad to be myself and that I am not different from any other kid; no matter what my mother said. I am in high school now and I am proud to say that I like girl and guys. heart
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2012 8:40 am
I learned just recently, i'm 15 and four months and I figured it out when I was 13.
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2012 10:25 am
I had a slight suspicion around early middle school but I ignored it because of the fear of being judged. at high school i knew but still wasnt willing to come out so i dated girls just to "fit in". now im proud and i dont care what anyone thinks of me!
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2012 11:51 am
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2012 11:54 am
iiDaemonKiki I knew something was different since I was... around 5. I tried to ignore my feelings and thoughts towards girls, because my family is Christian and my dad would drill certain concepts into my head. I've kinda broken away from religion as I've gotten older. (I'm bisexual, by the way.) When I was 12 I realized what I was, it wasn't until then that I learned about it. I always was scared to think the way I did because my dad would always say how people like that go to hell. I was only a kid though.. c: ~ yum_puddi yum_strawberry yum_cupcake same here
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2012 2:33 pm
I first noticed that I was "different" when I was 7. At the time, I liked to be around girls than guys. They said that I was trying to "pick-up" girls, which at that age, I don't know what that meant. I thought nothing of it until I was 13, 14 when I realized that I am gay since most of my people that I had a secret crush on/wish to be with are guys. I guess I shouldn't just ended my personal assumptions and evaluations there. When I was around 17, 18 I felt attracted to other genders (not just male and female) and I became very confused. So I did some research and finally found out what it is that I'm feeling, I'm pansexual. I guess sexuality is truly fluid.
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2012 2:53 pm
Raeiko iiDaemonKiki I knew something was different since I was... around 5. I tried to ignore my feelings and thoughts towards girls, because my family is Christian and my dad would drill certain concepts into my head. I've kinda broken away from religion as I've gotten older. (I'm bisexual, by the way.) When I was 12 I realized what I was, it wasn't until then that I learned about it. I always was scared to think the way I did because my dad would always say how people like that go to hell. I was only a kid though.. c: ~ yum_puddi yum_strawberry yum_cupcake same here
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2012 3:40 pm
Well, wen I was around 12 I had discovered the internet and was using it for evil purposes. But I was sort of in denial about it, telling myself that I was looking at all these pictures of gay porn out of curiosity and simply being an open minded person or something. Idunno I was stupid and young. It wasn't until the summer of 8th grade that I put my foot down and told myself "okay. Come on. lets face the facts. you gay." And just like that suddenly I was simply done being confused and in denial.
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Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2012 2:14 am
When I was 10 I was on the school wrestling team, and we had a meet that was far enough away that we stayed overnight in a motel. My parents couldn't come, so I went with one of the coaches who had a son my age named Luke, who was on the wrestling team too. Luke and I had to share a bed, and when I saw him laying there next to me in just his underwear, I pretty much knew something different was going on in my head.
It took me another agonizing 15 years before I came out to anyone, but that's a much longer story.
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Posted: Thu Jun 07, 2012 7:35 pm
1st grade The year began odd as i was moved from 2nd grade back to first grade because I failed 1st grade once due to surgery, so on my transition back to 1st grade, i ended up meeting this one cute boy....i told myself NOOO NOOO i can't possibly...but i did, I had my 1st crush redface it was soo random and i done dumb things because i was trying to hide my feelings
3 years later.....
I completely forgot my orientation since
Age 11: started watching porn o.o it was straight porn but occasionally i went to gay porn, but i was in denial, telling myself that this was my friend with my other friend, when really those where just 2 gay pornstars and i was liking what i was watching redface
2 years later....
age 13 - had sex with my best friend, I did not knew he liked guys but he did
I still like men and sometimes idk why but i feel ashamed
I dont know why
I feel like what I done was wrong
I get confused
I feel depressed after thinking about a guy, so thats like 24/7
sometimes i dont care that i like guys but i regret having sex with my friend who is now someone i loathe stare
I think i need some advice
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Posted: Sat Jun 09, 2012 3:05 pm
Honestly it's hard for me to pinpoint a certain age. I think maybe around the time I was in middle school I knew something was off? I didn't really develop any crushes or have any interest in the boys much at all. I remember when my friends asked I had to kinda make up one or something? I think that was something I inwardly knew, but never really wanted to admit till I got older. I mean I live in the bible belt and my parents are democrats but very conservative in some ways? I have no idea it's weird. I always remembered some of our gay family members that were "the weird ones or the ones we don't talk to", and I was pretty convinced I was not like that. I was half determined I just never wanted to date anyone or something, but getting older it was hard to ignore things forever. @_@ I was actually in college before I had any freedom to date or figure myself out though.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2012 9:21 pm
I never had the realization. I've had both male and female crushes since preschool, and it was always completely natural to me. I was also a very spacy, dreamy kid, and was homeschool from 2nd until 6th grade. So I didn't even realize that liking the same gender had a different name to it until jr. High. And by that time I didn't really care. So when one of my guy friends pointed out a hot chick I would happily agree or disagree. A few of my friends have also told me that me being so open about my sexuality, and treating it like it's not anything different, weird, or important helped them accept there own.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2012 11:42 pm
I was 12 when I told my best friend I was. =P
I had a few crushes before that, but I didn't actually realize I did until then
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