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 Posted: Sat Mar 19, 2011 9:40 pm
 +Where's the door again...?+ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Glad to see that Kaoru was in good spirits, Dae hyun felt better about them spending the day together. When Kaoru mentioned wanting water, he said, "Yeah sure, I can grab you one out of the fridge before we head off." Heading back across the street with a smile, Dae hyun hoped the rest of the day would be as easy as that, just simple conversation and little distractions that didn't really mean anything.
At the mention of a ballet movie, Dae hyun sighed uncomfortably. "I don't really like ballet, and it's got nothing to do with it being boring or girly. It's kind of disturbing...ballet dancers and their habits. I mean, they're always so thin and it never looks natural, plus I hear they can be pretty vicious and unstable, probably because of all the competition. Well, professional ones, anyway, I suppose people who just do it for fun or a hobby probably aren't so obsessed. Maybe it would be a good horror show, though. You like horror movies?" he asked, not remembering if they had talked about it already.
When they reached his front door, Dae hyun took out his keys and fumbled with them for a moment, having not expected to need something else from his house. Looking back when Kaoru said something, it looked as though he was having some sort of attack, but his apology made Dae hyun think he was just nervous. "Just wait out here, okay? I'll be right out," he said, heading inside alone, not wanting to be followed. It only took him a moment to grab a bottle of water from the fridge, and soon he was back outside, handing the bottle over after locking the door and climbing into his car.
Once they were both ready, Dae hyun pulled out of the driveway, glancing over at Kaoru occasionally to be sure he wasn't going to freak out. "You can turn on the radio if it helps you, or I've got some CDs in the glove compartment." As they pulled out of the neighborhood, Dae hyun mentioned the movies again, hoping to keep his passenger's mind off the road. "If you want to, I'd be fine watching the ballet movie. I mean, you said it was a psychological thriller, right? I wouldn't mind seeing something like that. Do you know what kind of reviews it got?" he asked offhand, wondering if Kaoru read movie reviews before going to see something.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~+...And who are you supposed to be?+
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Posted: Sun Mar 20, 2011 8:49 am
Kaoru ✺ Masako███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ❝...Within the мση†ħ of ₳prїℓ, Love is §мéℓℓїηġ §ωéé†ℓy...❞
Kaoru smiled to Dae-hyun, giving him a quick nod before watching him enter his house. He shifted his weight to one side, standing nervously as he watched down the road. He didn't feel so bad now that he was here. Gladly taking the water from Dae, he hurridly climbed into the car, tensing as he sat down. Biting his lip, Kaoru stifly pulled the seatbelt over himself and sank a little into the seat before locking his door. Feeling a little safer, he cleared hus throat.
"The, uh, movie... Just like you said, it's actually about the dancers being competitive to a breaking point, at least that's what I get from it. Reviews... Uhm... Best actress, supporting actress, and all that stuff. I heard as a horror it's pretty bad, but as suspense in general it's really good. I wouldn't expect anything scary anyway." Kaoru quickly unscrewed the cap of the water, taking a hasty drink. He couldn't remember the last time he'd spoken so much without a break. It was a bit strange but it kept his mind off the moving road.
"Y-yeah... Horror is pretty cool but I can never find anything really scary. I guess I'm just not scared of something I know isn't real." Giving a short-lived chuckle, Kaoru didn't bother with music. Despite having the buttons and knobs in a car labeled, he'd feel stupid trying to figure things out. Afterall, it's been a long time since he bothered with anything like it.
"Horror, suspense, or just old films are my favourites. A but of sci fi too. Same with books too. Classics are always nice. Timeless. Shakespeare or Poe... Flowers in the Attic, Lolita, Dracula... Do you like books?" Kaoru knew he was starting to ramble but it kept him more calm, keeping his focus away from motion sickness. He'd rather not mention how ill he can get. If he did start to feel sick, he'd just make Dae-hyun stop somewhere then.
"Hopefully when we get back I might have a skeleton of a kitchen half-built. My house used to be part of apartments but they tore most of it down. I know the house to my left was part of it. It's why I don't have much of a house or a kitchen; the kitchen was shared I think until torn down... And my therapist says I should better my eating habits, anyway." Another drink of water, a long one. The bottle was probably half empty now. Feeling less trapped, Kaoru fidgitted his fingers, drumming them on the bottle every now and then. There would sometimes be something that caught his eye which he would press against the window to watch it go by, like an interesting building or people. He was curious about everything and less tense being around Dae-hyun.
❝...In the §prїηġ ßréézé...❞
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Posted: Mon Apr 18, 2011 9:44 pm
+Where's the door again...?+ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Listening to Kaoru describe what he'd heard about the movie as they pulled out of the driveway, Dae hyun made sure not to drive too fast, worried that Kaoru might have a panic attack. "Sounds good I guess. I wouldn't mind checking it out," he said casually, not really caring either way. While the movie didn't really sound like something he would be interested in, it was enough that he and Kaoru would be going somewhere together in a public area. Even though the weekends were really his only days off from work, Dae hyun knew that these things would be important for Kaoru to adjust to a normal life again. That seemed like a good enough reason for him to check out a movie he normally wouldn't see.
To Kaoru's awkward comment about horror, Dae hyun smiled. "Oh yeah? Maybe you just haven't been checking out the right movies, then. Yeah, there are a lot of horror films that deal with the supernatural and stuff, but there are some that are more down-to-earth and realistic. I know it technically isn't horror, but have you ever watched one of Quentin Terantino's films? They deal with a lot of realistic situations and the characters are usually pretty believable.
"If you haven't checked any of them out, you should come over and watch one with me. I've got most of them on DVD, since he's one of my favourite directors. What's impressive, though, is that he acts in his own movies too, and he's pretty good. It's never a really big role, but he's got a really distinctive face so you can always tell it's him." As they spoke about normal things that anyone else might to pass the time, Dae hyun wondered if things could ever really be normal between the two of them after what had happened. While he'd forgiven Kaoru in his mind, he still felt a cautious sense of mistrust in his heart whenever they were alone together.
Chuckling a bit before he had even said it, Dae hyun admitted, "I actually don't read all that much. I mean, when I'm not working or practicing, I'm watching TV or movies. Do you read a lot?" he asked, wondering if it was something important to Kaoru. "I can't really stand the older stuff, but I did like Poe and I guess I kinda liked Dracula. It was a little difficult to follow, though," he admitted, hoping it didn't make him sound like an idiot.
When Kaoru mentioned his house being worked on, Dae hyun asked, "Does that mean you gotta have a wall knocked down?" Thinking about living in a house that was missing a wall didn't sound safe or comfortable, but Dae hyun kept his mouth shut. He didn't want to get himself caught up in any of Kaoru's problems unnecessarily.
Wondering if it was still too early to talk about such things, Dae hyun asked hesitantly, "Do you and your therapist talk about me much?" While it sounded strange even as he said it, Dae hyun was honestly curious as to how prominently he featured in their discussions. Of course, it had been Kaoru attacking him that had prompted the entire incident, but now that it was over, he wondered if it was still something that came up between the two of them. Honestly, he wondered how much he meant to Kaoru. After what had happened, they had never really talked about that kind of stuff, and it bugged him a little. Still, with the two of them on the road to recovery and actually becoming friends, he didn't want to risk it by asking too much.
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Posted: Wed Apr 20, 2011 2:28 pm
Kaoru ✺ Masako███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ❝...Within the мση†ħ of ₳prїℓ, Love is §мéℓℓїηġ §ωéé†ℓy...❞
Kaoru smiled to himself, licking his lips in anticipation. Watching the scenery was beginning to make him dizzy, so he focused more on Dae, instead.
"Quentin? I love his movies! His world war two movie was great. You, uh, have them? I'd love to see them sometime..." Kaoru became quite sheepish, smiling sincerely to the other man he adored so much. "Resivoir Dogs is one of my favourites." Clearing his throat, he suddenly felt a strange feeling come over him. Could Dae-hyun ever truly forgive him? Thankfully he didn't need to dwell on the thought much longer as Dae's smooth voice broke the short-lived silence.
"I sometimes have to read the same lines a few times to get any old poetry or classic novels. It really is hard for some people. But it's definitely not easy for me, either." Kaoru didn't want to sound like he was mocking Dae, but he couldn't help answer his question with enthusiasm. "I love to read. It used to be one of my favourite pass times but..." Scratching his head he continued, "I can't concentrate very well anymore. It's hard now, like something broke. My bookshelf in my room used to be filled books, but now only butterflies."
"When we get back, there should only be the one wall knocked down with a few boards built up for a skeleton. I'd sleep in the living room. I don't think I could handle a motel, you know? I'm barely able to leave my house." Not wanting Dae to feel bad for him, he reassured, "But I'm just scared of new things. I can handle myself pretty well, even with a hole in my wall." He gave a light chortle, feeling more open to Dae-hyun.
Kaoru was one usually to openly share his thoughts when asked, but Dae's hesitant question threw him off guard. He was silent for a while, sucking his lips in before giving a quivered nod. Remembering Dae shouldn't take his eyes off the road, he added, "Y-yeah... Actually... A lot. " Kaoru was emberassed to admit, how much.
"At first, she asked about that incident. Wanted to know what happened, what triggered it. I uh... I told her how much I liked you, too." Kaoru shifted uncomfortably, but tried to keep together. "Sometimes, we can talk for hours. Just about you. I have a terrible memory, especially after blunt force trauma, twice. But I can remember every detail spent with you, crisp and clear. I never thanked you for helping me to my bed, or ventilating my living room when I was high as a kite in paint. She noticed my obsessions pretty quick— butterflies, and my phobia of new things and open spaces. But that all can be considered normal. I... I uh..."
Was he saying too much?
"I'm obsessive conpulsive. " he finally spat. "She said that my feelings weren't real, that it's all in my head, that I should just forget you so I don't have to be so worryingly obsessive!!!" Kaoru's voice broke as he chewed the inside of his cheek. He felt his eyes sting.
"I don't want to just forget you. I like you, Dae. I know I do! I just have trouble... Er.. Expressing it in a healthy way..." Kaoru against the window, rubbing his arm to comfort himself.
"Im sorry... For all the trouble I cause." Now sulking, Kaoru looked to Dae hyun. "Sometimes... I just want to know what you feel like, smell like. It sounds creepy, maybe terrifying... But I've been holding back! I don't ever want to hurt you, never again. I just... I just want to touch you, get closer... Even for a moment. But I'd be happy just to see you."
❝...In the §prїηġ ßréézé...❞
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Posted: Thu Jun 02, 2011 10:52 am
+Where's the door again...?+ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Laughing warmly, Dae hyun said, "Inglorious Basterds? That's definitely one of my favourites. Yeah, I've got that one, Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, Kill Bill, Death Proof, and a bunch of others...they're all pretty good. If you really like 'em, we should watch a few sometime. It isn't often I've actually got someone to watch movies with." Even though a few of his friends liked action movies, none of them had the same respect and love for them that he did, and few of his friends ever came to his house to hang out anyway. Also, it seemed like it could be a good way for the two of them to spend time together without Kaoru having a panic attack.
Falling into silence for a moment as Kaoru described his failing interest in reading, Dae hyun had to wonder what might have happened. Still, it seemed personal, and he still didn't want to get too involved in Kaoru's problems, despite the fact that he couldn't seem to keep himself away. "Maybe you're just stressed. I know when I'm stressed out about something, I have trouble concentrating on anything else. Maybe if you just took some time off to relax and clear your mind, you might be able to pick it up again."
Chuckling awkwardly as well, Dae hyun asked, "Wouldn't it be safer to sleep in your own room with the door locked if there's going to be a hole in your wall? Then again, the crime rate in this area and especially this neighborhood is pretty low, so I guess you don't have much to worry about other than maybe catching a cold." Despite what he was saying, Dae hyun really wished that Kaoru had another place to sleep, somewhere safe while his house was being rebuilt. Even so, he wasn't about to volunteer his own place for a sleepover. He still wasn't that comfortable around his neighbor yet.
Blushing a bit as Kaoru admitted it, Dae hyun fell silent for a moment as well. Thinking about it, he shouldn't have been surprised, considering he was so deeply involved in the incident that first sent Kaoru back into rehabilitation, but he had never thought that Kaoru would still be discussing him with his therapist after all this time. In fact, it was almost creepy, and put him on edge as he wondered how much Kaoru really thought about him in a given day. Sure, they were neighbors and by this point something akin to being friends, but what had happened between them in the past was still in Dae hyun's mind, and he was finding it more difficult to shake than he thought necessary.
Twice?, he thought to himself, trying to remember if Kaoru had ever told him about what had happened. Of course, he remembered that a car accident had been the start of Kaoru's phobias, but he couldn't recall a second incident.
Hearing Kaoru's voice break was almost painful, mostly because of what he was saying, but also because he sounded so upset about it. "I think is a little more than just being obsessive compulsive. It's...well, I'm so psychiatrist, so what do I know?" he said flatly, not really wanting to think about it. Still, as much as he didn't want to hurt Kaoru's feelings, Dae hyun didn't want to lie either to himself or to his neighbor. That could only make things worse.
"I don't know if forgetting me would really help you," he finally said, having calmed himself down a bit. "No matter what your therapist says...even if you could forget me, wouldn't you just latch onto someone or something else? I mean...treating the symptoms isn't treating the cause. If you've got leaky plumbing and you cover up one hole, won't the water just push through another weak point?" As they stopped at a red light, Dae hyun glanced over at his passenger momentarily, feeling too many different things to try and sort through them all. "And who is she to say your feelings aren't real? Feelings are completely subjective, and pretty cosmic. What's it mean that someone's feelings aren't real, anyway? I mean...if you have any kind of emotional response to something, that's exactly what a feeling is, and if you feel it...well, isn't that real enough?"
Not really knowing what he was trying to say, Dae hyun smiled weakly, trying to stay calm for the both of them. "Honestly, it does kind of creep me out. I don't want to be mean, I just don't want to lie to you is all. You're a really interesting guy to be around, Kaoru, and I think that the two of us could become really good friends if we can both just manage to keep our heads on straight, you feel me?" As they pulled into the mall parking lot, Dae hyun felt relieved. Even though it had been a pretty tough ride with the two of them getting so much off of their chests, it felt as though they had settled a few issues and could have a nice day together now.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~+...And who are you supposed to be?+
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Posted: Fri Jun 03, 2011 6:22 am
Kaoru ✺ Masako███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ❝...Within the мση†ħ of ₳prїℓ, Love is §мéℓℓїηġ §ωéé†ℓy...❞
Kaoru was silent for all of Dae-hyun's talking and past. He felt terrified. Terrified of what the the other beside him thought. But as he litsened, he felt better, relieved that the other hadn't quite shunned him away. Kaoru always thought the worst, it was a bad habit of his he was also trying to fix. When Dae stopped his sentance, Kaoru thought dauntingly. "More than... Obsessive?" Kaoru, for a moment, was about to speak again before changing his mind at the last second. He wouldn't want to add another detail he hadn't even told his therapist of himself stalking Dae at a distance their first times together. His little scope by the window in perfect view, if Dae didn't shut his own window. If he confessed that little detail, his sessions would be turned into jail time and he knew it. Instead, he litsened.
Dae's words were pure comfort to him. The essence of music at the moment with every word. It warmed Kaoru's heart a little to know that Dae-hyun seemed to care and even questioned the therapist of his. Perhaps it's true; Kaoru would only pop another obsession, if not take up to fully stalking Dae-hyun where ever he went. He'd risk all his fears if needed, but he didn't say it. He was sure it would only worsen their bond if did and he couldn't have that. His treasure was all that would matter. Kaoru expected wholeheartedly to be ridiculed or be asked to sever his ties with Dae-hyun, but the more the man spoke the more he loved him. His voice was a rope, and Kaoru clung for life. In his own mind, he held back what little was keeping him from an asylum; he refused to think Dae loved him back at all, more than mutual. The moment such thoughts would enter Kaoru's mind, he would have to give everything up and spend time away. His last stage of obsessive compulsive.
As the car was pulling closer to their destination, Kaoru let the silence grow from Dae's last sentances before they finally had come to their stop. He smiled sincerely, finally saying, "Yeah, I feel you." Kaoru didn't move for a while as he began to wonder... How in the world is this man still here? He heard Dae admit even he was creeped out by him. So, how? Or better yet, why? Just to be friends? Would Dae really go through so many hoops to stay friends? It was pressing in Kaoru mind so he blurted, "Why are you still here?" He didn't look at Dae-hyun, but he still let a smile creep it's was to his lips. "No, forget it... But thank you..." Nevertheless, it didn't matter what the reasoning behind Dae's sincerity was, Kaoru would still glad.
Not wanting to press any more issues with Dae-hyun, Kaoru finally moved, streching as he stepped out. He nearly toppled over, catching himself in time. Not going to work for a while and sitting in the moving car made him really feel the gravity for a moment. A small chortle left him, saying yo himself, "I need to get used to this..."
Turning to look at Dae-hyun, he smiled warmly. "Lets go," he said enthusiastically. He looked at his surroundings and especially noticed the giant building they parked near in the river of cars. Kaoru stiffened and touched his hand to Dae's vehicle, sliding his way to the front and over beside his friend. He was neevous, scared of all those cars more than the outside and the public combined at that moment. Some of them turned on, moving backwards before leaving. "Uhm, lead the way..." he asked more than stated. He gingerly snaked a finger around one of Dae's, needing an anchor for now as they would enter. Being as shut-in as he was, he'll just leave it all for Dae-hyun to handle, having little people skills as it was. If it wasnt for television, he wouldn't know a thing about the theatre or even mall. He let a gaunt silence fill the air, focusing on not getting lost.
❝...In the §prїηġ ßréézé...❞
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 8:29 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2011 10:11 am
+Where's the door again...?+ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Not letting Kaoru's brief outburst shake him, Dae hyun calmly replied with a smile, "If I just left you out here, I wouldn't know if you got home safe or not. Besides, it would be a d**k move on my part if I stopped hanging out with you just because you're strange. I mean, I'm weird too, in a different way. It doesn't really bother as much as you think. Maybe you shouldn't be so hard on yourself." Even though he hadn't needed to explain, Dae hyun didn't want Kaoru to feel isolated just because of his personal issues. If anything, he knew it was important to give his neighbor some support. After all, he met bigger freaks in the past he'd still been able to get along with.
Looking over at Kaoru as they got out, Dae hyun asked, "You okay? Ride got you off balance?" Kaoru certainly was an odd one, down to the simplest things like being able to ride in a car. Trying to remember what Kaoru had told him about his past, Dae hyun wondered if he pitied him, but couldn't decide. The more he tried to figure out why he was drawn to Kaoru so much made his head hurt, so he shrugged it off.
As they were about to head in, Dae hyun noticed Kaoru's hesitation, and seeing the look in his eyes, Dae hyun wondered if their day would really go off without a hitch. Not wanting to lose Kaoru in the sea of cars, as soon as he felt Kaoru's finger wrap around his, he grabbed the other's hand reassuringly, planning on leading him up to the doors, at least. When he realized they were holding hands, Dae hyun blushed, knowing what it probably looked like. Trying not to let Kaoru see his embarrassment, Dae hyun quickly led the two of them up to the front doors before letting go. "That wasn't so bad, huh?" he asked, regaining his composure.
Inside, Dae hyun was glad to see that there weren't too many people there yet. They had come before the real crowds began to show up, and he hoped they would be leaving right as they were getting there, not only for Kaoru's sake, but also because he himself hated having to push through hundred of people just to get where he was going.
"So what do you want to do first?" Dae hyun asked with a smile, wondering if Kaoru was more into window shopping or actually searching for something specific. Glancing at his phone, he said, "It looks like we've still got an hour before the movie starts, so we can probably wander around for a bit. Are you hungry? They've got a food court too." Having already eaten a light breakfast himself, Dae hyun was saving his stomach for popcorn in the theater. Even if it wasn't very healthy, popcorn was one of his favourite foods, and he could never deny himself a chance to have some. "So...Wanna look at the directory?" he asked, pointing at a large display with a map and list of stores on one side.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~+...And who are you supposed to be?+
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Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 8:36 pm
Kaoru ✺ Masako███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ❝...Within the мση†ħ of ₳prїℓ, Love is §мéℓℓїηġ §ωéé†ℓy...❞
Kaoru enjoyed listening to Dae talk, especially his reassurances. It made him feel so warm. Kaoru cleared his throat, nodding to Dae-hyun with a quiet 'yeah'. "But I'll be fine." He reassured, more to himself than the other man in the car. But he was glad the ride was finally over. If it were anyone else, he knew he'd be really freaked out, but he wanted to try his hardest just to not scare the other guy away. He'd have to re learn how to drive again, too, wouldn't he? It shouldn't be so bad, right? At least he'd have control of one of the millions of cars in the world, so one less that could run him over again, right? He didn't want to think about something so negative right now, so instead he glanced at Dae-hyun every now and then instead.
Kaoru was still weary of the cars, scared someone won't see him and just hit him for, what, the third time in his life? It made him uneasy, but when he felt Dae-hyun hold his hand completely, his face flushed and nothing else mattered. He lightly squeezed his hand, looking down as he led him to the other side. No, it wasn't that bad. not while you're here, he wanted to say. but instead settled with a simple "No… Thanks," and a smile. His face tinted slight pink when Dae-hyun let go of his hand. Now he wanted to just cling to him, but he knew for Dae's sake and his own he shouldn't.
When they were inside, Kaoru was a little surprised to see not many people were there. Perhaps they were early? Still, he shrugged it off. Being asked what he wanted to do, he was at a loss of words. He honestly wasn't sure what to do until the movie, and he didn't have an appetite. Following Dae shyly, he peeked at the directory. "Oh-" He said quietly, seeing the stores. "I used to buy clothes from there-" he pointed at the alternative clothing shop, but he hadn't bought any of their clothes online in a long time. To be honest, he was a little weary of heading into the store. Not because of people but because it still reminded him of his old self. He didn't want to look like his old self again. Instead, he found the flower and gardening shop somewhere on the other side of the map. He said nothing, but maybe if they went by that way, he could have a little peek inside.
"I guess we could walk around until we find something or until the movie starts…?" He suggested in a shy question. It would be nice to hold his hand again, slightly calloused but so warm...
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Posted: Mon Aug 01, 2011 5:57 pm
+Where's the door again...?+ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Checking the store on the map Kaoru pointed to, Dae hyun said, "Yeah, I buy from them sometimes. Their stuff reminds me of what we sell at the store I work at. The atmosphere's different, but the style is pretty similar. Do you want to check it out?" he asked, though when he saw the hesitance in Kaorus' face, he wondered if the man had purposefully been distancing himself from his old fashion sense in order to clear out his system. Not pushing the issue, he said, "Well, maybe not. If I'm looking for clothes like that, I should really buy from my own store."
Nodding to the suggestion, Dae hyun agreed. "I guess we can just look around. We've got some time...let's go," he said with a smile, leading the way down one of the halls. As they walked, Dae hyun noticed that neither of them was really saying much, the air between them conspicuously silent. While he wanted to chat, he didn't have a clue what to talk to Kaoru about, and he always worried he'd say the wrong thing. With how delicate Kaoru was, the last thing he needed was to upset him in such a public place; it would be a mess for both of them.
Trying to start a simple conversation, Dae hyun asked, "So, how have you been feeling lately? It must be exciting getting a kitchen added. I've never actually had any additions put on while I've been living somewhere, so it's pretty neat." As lame as it was, it was the best Dae hyun could come up with. When he thought about it, other than the time they'd spent together and the fact that they were neighbors, Dae hyun realized that the two of them didn't have much in common. Sighing to himself, Dae hyun almost wondered what he'd gotten himself into.
After a while of them wandering around and occasionally popping into a store for a minute, Dae hyun said, "Looks like the movie will be starting soon. Let's go get ready." Heading over to the theater, the two got their tickets and Dae hyun got himself a medium popcorn. Heading into the room, he was pleased to see that there weren't many people there with them. Finally sitting down and getting comfortable, Dae hyun said, "Are you glad you got out of the house today?" Since the movie was starting, he wasn't worried about them having to talk long, but he was secretly happy he'd been able to help Kaoru into the world for the day. It would be good for him.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~+...And who are you supposed to be?+
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Posted: Mon Aug 01, 2011 11:44 pm
Kaoru ✺ Masako███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ❝...Within the мση†ħ of ₳prїℓ, Love is §мéℓℓїηġ §ωéé†ℓy...❞
((ahh. it feels good to make kaoru a creeper again~ ))
Kaoru was happy simpply being around Dae, and especially so without so many people around. He didn't notice the silence growing between them as they walked. Infact, he much enjoyed the time he was spending with Dae, even if neitehr of them spoke a word. Although, he did wish Dae-hyun would speak up more. He so loved to hear that swet voice, that perfect voice. His thoughts had wandered away from the world and focused on only Dae. When the man would go check out a store, Kaoru took his time to check him out, observing him and just plain checking him out. He would smile nonchalantly at Dae-hyun for a moment, before, turning his gaze to the floor if he were to be caught mid-stare. If he could only get to hold his warm hand again..
"Hm…?" He was snapped from his thoughts as they continued to browse the mall, seemingly more Dae than he, when he was asked a question. Remembering human speech, Kaoru answered, "Oh, I uh.. I fel kinda nervous, actually.. I.. Change is weird for me, especially something so.. Well, big. An entire new room. But if the change is beautiful I can cope with it, I guess." Butterflies and flowers, they changed all the time. He loved the way the creepy little worm-like creature would cocoon itself and become something so beautiful. Not all change was bad. Dae-hyun moving in was a big change for him, something new. But the man was gorgeous in Kaoru's slightly off mind. He almost hadn't noticed he was staring right at Dae. Looking away quickly, he felt his fingers twitch. Shoving his hands in his pockets, he fought the urge to grasp Dae's hand.
Eventually, the time to see the movie was coming close and they went to get their snacks and seats. Kaoru only took a simple soda at first but was tempted by the taunting sweets to get a few boxes of little milk chocolates. The theatre was dark, not that he imagined different, but he was glad. Sitting beside Dae, he heard him ask another question. Kaoru was caught a bit off guard but recovered and smiled brightly. "Yeah. I'm glad we could do this, actually." He said sincerely, his mood better off than he usually seemed. He was more relaxed, he could feel it. With Dae around, he knew it was perfect…
Kaoru sat with one leg on the chair, excited to see the movie. He looked over to Dae. This darkness did no justice to his beautiful face.
Kaoru was completely sunk into the movie. The abstract parts that would frighten the others around him, he had no expression to. The girl ripping parts of her skin, only to show it was a dream. Or the feathers appearing from her rash, also just a hallucination. Even if it was girly to say, Kaoru quite enjoyed the ballet itself inside the film, the black swan dancing so beautifully. The shadow of her wings folding out, it reminded him of a butterfly, a deadly little butterfly. The unhealthy obsession over dancing, it, for just a fraction of a moment, made Kaoru think of his love for Dae-hyun. Eventually, the movie finally ended with the credits being bits of feathers fluttering about. Like little butterflies… But feathers weren't living things, he could never replace his butterflies for silly little feathers. His mind was on other random little thoughts, comparing and contrasting to the film.
Quietly, Kaoru murmured, "I really like you.." For a moment's thought, he spoke a little louder, but not further than a whisper. "I really like.. Hanging out with you." Yeah, that's what I meant… He smiled and stretched his arms and legs out in front of him, waiting for Dae before he'd stand or follow.
❝...In the §prїηġ ßréézé...❞
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Posted: Tue Aug 02, 2011 10:02 pm
+Where's the door again...?+ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~At the end of the movie, Dae hyun thought he heard Kaoru say something, and was glad to hear him repeat himself more clearly. "It's nice to have someone to spend the day with," he agreed, thinking about how he never spent time with his band mates while the sun was still up. Finally out of the theater, Dae hyun stretched. Since his band played in a lot of different places, he was used to crowds of people, but he'd always hated having to sit still for so long with such limited leg space.
"That was pretty cool. Some parts were a little random, but...the black swan's part was pretty. Oh, I finally remembered where I've heard that music before. They used it on the title card of the original Dracula movie, you know, the one with Bela Lugosi? What did you think of it?" he asked, wondering if the movie seemed more normal or creepy to Kaoru.
As the pair continued to wander around the mall, Dae hyun realized he had already run out of things to talk about with Kaoru. Even though they were having an enjoyable enough day without chatting much, it bothered him that they had so little to talk about. In the past, he'd always imagined that friends would never run out of things to say, and that's usually how things were when he went out with his band mates. Whenever he was around Kaoru, however, the words just never came to him. Even if Kaoru seemed to be having a good time, Dae hyun wished they had more in common.
"So, do you listen to much music?" he asked, finally setling on the most mundane thing he could think of. "If you like metal I could get you a copy of my band's first CD...we're still working on the second one, and we're really hoping it'll do well so that we get noticed and are signed by a worth-while label sometime soon." As soon as he'd finished, Dae hyun realized there was nothing more to say. He was already forcing himself to make idle chatter he wasn't truly interested in, and Kaoru never seemed to be the one to initiate conversation anyway. Somewhat annoyed, he allowed the two of them to fall back into silence, wishing they would be done with their day already.
"So...was there anywhere else you wanted to check out before we left?" Dae hyun asked after checking the time on his phone. There was still plenty of time left before he was supposed to meet up with the others, and he and Kaoru had already been at the mall for a good few hours. If they were both finished, he hoped they could head back home and give him some time to himself before he went out again. Although he wouldn't mention it to Kaoru, he secretly hoped he would have a better time out at the bar they were all planning to hit up.
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Posted: Fri Sep 30, 2011 9:41 pm
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Posted: Sun Nov 20, 2011 3:18 pm
Kaoru ✺ Masako███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ❝...Within the мση†ħ of ₳prїℓ, Love is §мéℓℓїηġ §ωéé†ℓy...❞
(( If you would prefer to simply skip most of the drive until they get to their respective neighbourhood, unless you have something planned which is fine, I dont think it would be very eventful until they get home~~~ I smell a Kaoru Freakout starting to boil *nudge*nudge* ))
Stepping out of the theatre alongside Dae, Kaoru's cheeks flushed with the other man's reply. Kaoru hardly noticed the incoherent murmurs of the crowd around them. He tried not to, wanting to only focus on Dae-hyun. Other than the company of Dae, Kaoru enjoyed sitting with to watch the movie with someone. "Ah- 'The Swan Lake' is the title, I think. It's the original theme for the ballet. I, uh... Like some ballet. I guess my manliness points aren't the highest in the world, are they?" Kaoru turned away, brushing his hair a few times as his face was still growing hot. "But it's been forever since I've seen Dracula. I used to have it; I don't think I do anymore. I really couldn't tell you, I don't really remember it. Sorry..." Kaoru was trying to force himself to speak, but every word sounded awkward to him. With working, he never needed physical confrontation. It was something he definitely needed to work on.
The silence was starting to almost bother Kaoru. He occupied his thoughts but no matter what he thought about, his mind always went on to wonder if Dae even enjoyed spending this time with him, if he cared for the movie, if Kaoru was simply wasting his time. The small male cursed at himself for his lack of social skills. He wondered how much of a burden it was to Dae. Maybe the other wasn't paying any mind to it. If that were the case, than Kaoru was just being silly. The sudden sound of his companion's voice startled him, but he tried not to jump/ He looked up to Dae, curiously, ask he was asked about music. He smiled as happily replied, "I love metal, and I'd love to hear your music. I actually like some classical, but only if I'm in the mood." Kaoru unfortunately could not find anything else to say. It bothered him, being inept in even small talk.
Wanting to force himself to at least try, Kaoru bit his lip before asking, "Do you still have your snake? Is she grown yet?" He regretted telling the other he actually liked those things. Behind glass, they're fine, but actually near him, the poor man would scream and go cry in a corner, not that there are few things that wouldn't make him do so.
Passing by the flower shop on their way out, Kaoru heard Dae ask if there was any place he'd like to go. Being conveniently beside the shop, he quickly said ,"Just a second-" Trying to hurry so he wouldn't waste any more of Dae's time, he looked about the shop to find what he needed, and anted. A few packets of flower seed and a small, plain pot. He shrunk slightly, hoping the other wasn't irritated by his sudden departure, even if it only took five minutes. "I guess we can go now." He said quietly, holding the pot to his chest with the seeds inside. Only a very special plant would grow here...
Kaoru was feeling his heart sink and his body grow somewhat cold. How badly he wanted to connect with his treasure, but it somehow seemed just so hard. He was frustrated at himself and clutched the pot tightly, some of the bumpy grains were sharp enough to cut his fingers without too much blood being drawn.
❝...In the §prїηġ ßréézé...❞
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Posted: Sun Nov 27, 2011 10:06 pm
+Where's the door again...?+ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~((B-But that's bad. D: ...isn't it? I mean, Dae hyun hasn't even really had his breakthrough yet. ;>.>))"Eh, ballet's one thing I never could get into," Dae hyun admitted, scratching his head. "It just always seemed so...hoity toity," he explained, watching the other people in the crowd flow around them. He loved crowd watching. After all, when he was up on stage, other than pouring his heart and soul into the music when he sang, the only other thing to do was to watch the crowd for reactions. It wasn't always a good way to know how they felt about the performance, but it certainly did get entertaining at times.
Shrugging at the comment about manliness, Dae hyun said, "If that's how you measure a man's worth. Whatever. I never really cared how manly or feminine anyone acted, you know? People are who they are; we shouldn't project our expectations onto them."
Smiling, Dae hyun said, "Then I'll pass our first CD along to you when I get the chance. You should definitely come to one of our concerts too, when you get the chance. Even if you just hang backstage." Hoping he wasn't being too pushy trying to get Kaoru to go someplace he knew there would be massive unruly crowds and little time for them to actually spend together, Dae hyun dropped it for the time being, wondering if it would be better to wait until Kaoru was more used to being around people. After all, during a concert, Dae hyun wouldn't have the time to watch out for Kaoru the whole night, and there was no telling what might happen if he were left alone in a place like that.
"My snake? No, I had to take her back to the pet store. Even though I'm home a lot, I just didn't feel like I was treating her right, and my pal said they had the space to take her back, so I handed her over to them. Are you disappointed? I'm not planning on getting another pet anytime soon, either. It's a lot more peaceful being home alone...but somehow unsettling too," he muttered, wondering what it meant.
Looking around inside the flower shop, Dae said, "It's cool. This place is actually really nice. It smells good," he noted, which was especially pleasing to him considering how many of the places he normally hung out in smelled like a backstreet dumpster. Trying to see inside the pot, Dae asked, "What kinds of seeds did you get?" wondering if they weren't for the garden.
When he looked over at Kaoru, Dae was surprised to see him so tense. He almost reached over and touched the man's shoulder, but retracted rather quickly, not wanting to set him off or anything. Things between them were still a little tense, and Dae hyun honestly did not know how to handle the man sometimes.
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When they finally arrived home, Dae hyun said, "That wasn't so bad, was it? And you even got some stuff for your garden." Getting out of the car, Dae hyun could still see that Kaoru was even more tense than when they had left, though he thought they had had a good time at the movies and even just wandering around the mall. Checking his phone again, Dae hyun saw he had an hour or so until his friends would come over to pick him up, which suited him just fine.
Swapping the phone for his keys, Dae said, "Will you be okay? I'm heading out later tonight, so if you need any help, let me know now, okay?" Not even sure what he was talking about, Dae hyun scratched his head uncomfortably, wondering if Kaoru thought of him as socially awkward.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~+...And who are you supposed to be?+
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