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 Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 1:09 pm
"Why should I?" whispered Calum. He felt like he was torn in two. Part of him wanted to forget everything and just slip back into Syd's warmth. But the other...the other half wanted to run and hide. To tired to fight them off this time, tears began filling his eyes.
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 1:32 pm
He frowned, and shook his head, "No, no, please..." He said, as he saw the tears, all of the guilt bubbling up again. "Just stay, I just want to be with you...I want to talk to you."
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 2:11 pm
Though he didn't relax, Calum nodded slightly. He would listen to what Syd had to say. As a tear escaped to slide down his cheek, he reached up to rub at his eyes.
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 3:30 pm
Sydney winced as he saw the tear, "Please, don't cry love." He said, sadly, "I'm sorry..." He let go of Calum and rolled on his back, "I didn't even mean to say those things...I didn't want to...I don't...know how I did...I couldn't stop it."
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 4:06 pm
"What do you mean you couldn't stop it?" He edged back, putting space between him and Syd.
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 5:47 pm
He sat up, "I don't know..." He muttered, "It just happened, it was like something else was doing it...I didn't want it...!" His head was in his hands, now, and he was tangling his fingers in his hair.
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 6:08 pm
Calum's arms ached to wrap around Syd, but instead, he wrapped them around himself. He pushed out of the sleeping bag and walked over to his clothes, putting more distance between Syd and himself. And with that distance, he could gain somewhat control over himself. "So then you didn't mean it when you said being around me makes you want to gag? Or that you didn't want it to slip out into the open?"
He kept his back to Syd as he began to dress.
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 6:24 pm
He looked everywhere but at Calum, feeling sick, "I didn't mean it, I would never dream of saying something like that..."
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 6:38 pm
"Yet you did." He buttoned up his shirt, his hands trembling as he did so. A shiver ran up his spine from the cold. Already he was missing the warmth of the sleeping bag, and man inside it. Lastly, he slipped on his glasses, and hoped that his head would remain clear. He didn't need to let his emotions have control, or else this would turn into an even bigger mess.
What he needed to do, was pick the situation apart like a puzzle. Find out what really happened, and if Syd was telling the truth...he hoped he was. "But, you don't know why you said it?"
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 7:58 pm
He stood, finally, and looked, "I didn't..." He'd run out of ways to defend himself, he hoped Calum would believe him. He picked up his clothes, the gun tumbling out of his pocket. He stared at it, disgusted with himself. He got dressed, letting it lie there alone and cold on the floor, and he picked it up. "If you want me to go, I will..." He said, sounding hurt, his voice trembling.
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 8:09 pm
Calum stared at the gun, his insides going cold. An image flashed through his mind, Syd standing on the log with the barrel of the gun in his mouth. He looked at Syd with wide eyes as he paled. "You were going to kill yourself!"
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 8:37 pm
He nodded and stared down at the gun, almost emotionless, until a few tears slid from his cheek and landed on the barrel. Soon, he fell onto his knees, dangerously fiddling with the gun and sobbing, trying to speak. "Calum..." He muttered, "I can't begin to explain what it's like! I can't live without you...please...! I need to be with yo-" The gun fired, the bullet whizzing past his face, barely missing him, and hit the ceiling of the cave, a few pieces of rock falling next to him. He put the thing down and sat there, shaking terrible, struggling out a very small, "Calum.."
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 8:46 pm
"Jesus on crackers and rice!" shouted Calum as the gun went off. Everything else was shoved to the side as he practically dove at Syd. "Are you alright?! Did it hit you?!"
He shoved the gun to the side and settled on the ground in front of Syd. Cupping Syd's face in his hands, he turned it every which way to look for injuries.
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 8:52 pm
He didn't care if he was hurt, and, instead of letting himself be checked over, he fell against Calum, clinging to him, sobbing and shaking, "I miss you, Calum!" He said, "I need you!" He buried his face in Calum's neck, "I love you..."
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Posted: Mon Dec 29, 2008 9:11 pm
Logic lost as emotions took over. Calum wrapped his arms around Syd and held him close. Tears of his own leaked out as he buried his face in Syd's shoulder. "You..." He swallowed. "You want me back?"
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