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 Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 2:55 am
"Timothy sort of flinched a bit. He didn't like that term, especially with that tone. It was rarely ever used in a good light.
"Yes I am, I figured you of all people would know that." he shrugged it off and smiled.
"What's this about?" he wondered if he had heard about Timothy being with Avery.
Timothy had to wonder why the idea of Vasile knowing that seemed to horrible.
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 2:57 am
Vasile's ears twitched. "Well. uhm....." He twisted his hands through the fluffiness in his tail. "How did you...know? I mean, did you always know... because it just seems to me when you're growing up you're just kind of ... expected... so was it different for you one day or was it just like... you began to notice or... and how...old? And stuff?"
Vasile was talking high and fast.
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:00 am
"It's different for different people, some people know their whole lives. Others it seems like they trick themselves, so they don't have to realize it. I mean, I just absorbed myself in my music and didn't worry about. I did my best not to think about that..." Timothy half laughed, half sighed.
"It wasn't till I met you that I was really forced to consider it."
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:04 am
Vasile blinked. "Really? Me?"
Vasile traced a figure eight in his tail. "What about me made you. I mean... had you liked girls or boys before? You can't tell me you didn't at least, you know... fantasize and stuff. Watch porn... check out girls - or boys- at the beach."
He shrugged. "How did you know. When you met me? I mean.. was it a feeling.. or just a 'hey he's hot..." kind of thing?"
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:08 am
Timothy snickered a bit, embarrased. "It really was a hey he's hot type thing." he didn't want to go into too much detail.
"I had some... dreams when I hit puberty, but I immersed myself in my music and they went away. I didn't watch porn or anything like that, I didn't go out very much. Didn't even really surf the net." he rubbed the back of his neck.
"I was too busy being sensative to realize just how sensative I really was. I don't think my parents could have dealt with it. I just distracted myself for years so I wouldn't dwell on it."
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:09 am
"Ah.. I see."
Vasile was silent for a little bit. "So, like. Have you done anything about it? I mean.. do really know?"
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:11 am
Timothy didn't know how to respond to this. If he admitted he had he'd have to spill the beans about Avery. He wasn't sure he wanted to do that.
"I mean... I've had... I mean... thoughts."
That was the trick
"I'm pretty sure, some of them were pretty vivid." Timothy decided it'd be best not to mention to Vasile that he was in some of these. Not unless he wanted to drive him away again.
Why did he want to know all this anyway?
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:14 am
"Oh, okay."
Vasile shifted in his seat. "Well, because, you know.. I don't know if it has anything to do with the injections or whatever, or if its just because I've been thinking alot or... but... I'm wondering. I mean.. I think..I may.,..." Vasile squeezed his eyes closed, hoping he wouldn't have to say it.
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:16 am
Timothy's mouth dropped a little bit. He tried to not make it too obvious though.
"Your trying to say you think you might like guys?" Timothy tried to say it easier, since Vasile was seeming to have trouble using the word gay in reference to himself.
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:20 am
Vasile's ears turned bright red and he slumped back against the couch.
"Well.. you know. Ever sense, like, Cass changed.. I felt SO HORRIBLE because I didn't really.. find her sexy anymore. I mean... god, that sounds so horrible, doesn't it?? I mean, I still really like to be around her and talk to her and stuff.. but she feels so much more like... a friend now to me than a girlfriend. And at first I tried to rationalize it like maybe it was because I've never really has a steady girlfriend before..but then... I just... oh god."
Vasile covered his face with his delicate hands.
"Anyway, I beat myself up about it forever and then I began to notice I was noticing... guys. First Ambrose, then Jamal was jogging on the beach shirtless and there was a definate...."
Vasile gesticulated wildy. "You know... reaction."
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:22 am
"Yeah... I know exactly how you feel. It was sort of how I felt the first time I saw you. Take that as a compliment, if you can." Timothy shrugged.
"I mean... I might have an idea to test it." he had a sort of silly idea. But now he had to know if it was true as well.
Maybe he'd have a chance with Vasile then... of course... what about Avery?
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:23 am
Vasile coughed. "Oh yeah...how?"
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:32 am
"Well, first you close your eyes..."
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:33 am
Vasile swallowed, having an inkling of what was coming. "OKay..." he said quietly, closing his eyes.
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Posted: Mon May 08, 2006 3:35 am
"Pretend I'm not here... just sort of go whereever you go when you lay in your bed trying to sleep..."
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