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I'm so sorry, darling.

I know the 'Everything's-my-fault-and-I'm-a-horrible-person'-
when-it's-really-not-the-case thingy. Know it way too much,
trust me. I also know the 'I-don't-deserve-you-and-neither-do-
I-deserve-to-live' crap, but I'm going off. Hope you can get
things worked out and that you two still get along well.

It would be such a waste if you couldn't talk to each other
anymore.

Moving on already, huh. neutral I can't believe this... And like you said, the: 'Ooh, noo, we're just friends' probably means he likes her. It could also not mean that, but the playing around is just too obvious.

Awesome! I'd love to see it; maybe you could take a picture? Quite original, I must say, to use the scar as a smile. 3nodding

Woo, awesome! surprised Very cool eyes. Nice work.

That's awesome. I'd love if someone from my family was in a band... My brother's supposed to form one, one day or another... He plays the guitar... And one of my uncle plays the drums and he's awesome! And my other uncle plays the guitar (a bit of electric but mostly acoustic) and he's very good.

Girls our age attract old drunk geezers like magnets. Very disturbing.

Was the band good? How was the show?

Well... Here's more about Colin. From my journal.

...He's gonna read this and go...

"lol wut"

So, like, even though we are NOT a couple, and I'm trying reeeeeaaaaaally hard to find someone else, Colin has been talking to me more. Like... what? Okay, I know he likes Christina more than me. I just know. (Unless, something happened and that caused him to do something that I'll talk about in a later paragraph... maybe.) He's been talking to me more than he did when we were "going out", and just like before we were, you know, "going out", when he suddenly started talking to me more and then when I went to his house on November 6, 2005, started showing more affection towards me. I think the reason why he broke up with me was because we never had a moment to ourselves. Either it was Ali who wouldn't leave me alone when Colin was around, or when he was at my house and my mom lied about her taking a bath because she knew something was up, all we could do was, um, have hot, intense, sweaty think-out sessions.

Anyways, yesterday, he called me because it was apparently easier to say how much Ali and I are alike. We ended talking for about.... an hour. He kept bringing up things like the reason why he can't have girlfriends.

Colin says, "You're afraid of me."
I reply, confused-like, "What..? How?"
"You just are."
"Why?"
"You just are."
"Okie dokie."
"...And that's why I can't have girlfriends."
"What does me being afraid of you have to do with you not getting a girlfriend...?
"What? When did I say that?"
"Just now! I heard you say that! What does me being afraid of you have to do with you not getting a girlfriend?"
"Oh did I say that..? Oops. I'm going to play WoW."
"Well, AmazinG is a better game..."
"It doesn't exist. You even said so."

Wow... Change of subject attempt was successful! I'm a sucker for those...

Then he starts talking about never giving up on love! To me!? I'm SO not the right person for him to talk about that. He brought that up because another friend of his was going to give up on love at that moment on YIM... or MSN... or something, because her crush has a girlfriend or something. I think, though, that bit I read in The Princess Diaries. O.O;;;;;; I dunno. But yeah, he was talking about that to me. Was he implying something? Implying something to make me infer?

Man, what a confusing love life I have.

So now, I'm, um, soul-searching.

Oi. sweatdrop We talked for a long time yesterday on YIM as well. Man, that kid has a lot on his mind, and he confuses me greatly. We were talking about the picture of Daron in my signature, in a combination of German, Japanese, Spanish, and English (We're language whores.) I said Daron was good beer in German. Don't ask!! But, I guess he felt offended that he wasn't good beer himself, and so I said, (in my best German) "Colin ist guten Bier!" I wanted to say something else, but I couldn't think of anything besides the German slang for "horny", which also means "hot". (Get it? Those dirty Deutsch...) so I said that he was "good horny". O_O Meaning, he's good when he's horny, but oh so very bad, but oh so very goooooood.... O///O He thought I meant Daron as a kid, so I had to clarify. I said that I would love to have a child that looks like him. He's so adorable, anyways. Who wouldn't want an adorable kid like Day-won? I thought I made him misinterpret that, thinking he thought I would rape Daron as a kid and have a child that looks like him and blah-dy blah blah... "He'd be scarred for life! But," I said, "then again, anybody who would get as far as getting me pregnant with me would be scarred for life."

"No. Liar." he says to me.
"It's true!"
"I know I wouldn't be and since I think that, nobody else would be scarred."
"Yeah, right."
"You aren't creepy!"
"Wait... did I interpret that correctly? o////o Like... Oh. Whoa. Uh."
"I only speak the truth. ^^"

DAMN YOU, COLIN! DAMN YOU! Why must he be so confusing?!

No no, it's "adowaboh". ninja

My friend, Emily, is getting a book she wrote published, but she needs $8,675 for it to actually be published.

A friend, Jessica, sent her story to a publisher, and they want to publish it. All letters from the publisher are sent to Jessica, and then given to Emily. We didn't tell Emily about the price, just in case she may give up on ever having it published because none of us have that much money to spare! We're fundraising it to give to her as a present on her birthday! We planned a bunch of fundraising techniques, like a bake sale, and (because we're bandgeeks, mostly) we're going down to Seattle to play music. There's others, but I'm too tired to think of them. Carwashes wouldn't work now, because it's way too cold and wet.

But yeah, I'm excited!

My codename is: blank