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 Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:47 am
mm just read it all. >>
No complaints, But why do you grab a ride if target is so close? o:
Overuse of cars bother me....
o3o In any case, Foxie thinks its good for what you have in mind.
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:49 am
•·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ I have to cross a super busy road which is right off the high way to get to the store without having to go the long way (which would take around 30 minutes or more) :c  ----------------------------------
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 1:09 am
♦ ♣ ♥ ♠
Day read it, may she observe a spelling error for you?
You act like that car is a GOD but if it works in your favor, than it is perfectly find to talk about it and say something is wrong
Should be 'fine' yes?
Otherwise, effective. She sounds like my mum on a more severe scale x.x My parents have been screaming at me to find a new job since I lost my last one due to medical difficulties, but.... when I get calls about my applications, they don't give me the messages and they refuse to help me look. My mom actually called me a waste of space a few months ago before my neurologist verified that I had a legitimate medical condition and gave me working medication.
It, uhhhh... wasn't the highlight of my life. That is certain.
♦ ♣ ♥ ♠
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 1:14 am
Rayne Bloodstone •·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ I don't expect anyone to really read this.. but this is basically what I am going to tell her. I want it to be blunt and a bit rude.. considering how she has treated me lately... but I also want her to understand how I feel. If you see any mess ups, lemme know. (I'm doing this on word so... it's telling me everything is clear but sometimes it gets stupid.) I'm at 1,483 words. >> Just a warning. <3 ---------------------------------- Quote: Well, I’m not really sure how to start this off but let’s put it this way… I’m fed up. I’m not trying to sound rude but I am seriously tired of this… Every week, if not every other week, we get into it over something stupid and petty… It used to be that I would act like I am five and scream and yell until my heart was content and I couldn’t take it anymore… But now, I back down and shut up, I keep my mouth shut and either I get on the computer to vent to friends or I go take a nap. Now, it is YOU that acts like the child; it is YOU that continues to battle.
It’s like you do not wish for me to succeed or something. I mean honestly, how do you expect me to react when you act this way? Let me give you a few examples.
When I started job searching, you didn’t encourage me... Hell, you didn’t honestly care, did you? You certainly didn’t act like it. Yet there I was, trying to find a job so that I could help with bills and pay for my own s**t. When it came to filling out applications that were not on the internet… you would FIGHT me on trying to go to a store so that I could try and get their application forms. It took me a week before I could finally get you to just take me to Target which is less than what? Five minutes away? IF that? Seriously?
How about this one… We were going to ITT to see the college. It was the closest one around that I was actually interested in since I had already told you I want nothing to do with Ivy Tech. We got lost due to MapQuest not updating itself and so we went too far out. We were forced to turn around and told the guy that I had been talking to, we would try this another time… I told him we would call next week to set up another appointment and see what we could do from there. Instead… you continued to avoid it. I would ask and you would come up with every excuse in the book, just like you did with the application hunt.
“I don’t feel good, I’m tired, something is wrong with the car, we’ll do it tomorrow, we’ll do it next week when I’m not so busy, I’m not in the mood, let’s go out to eat instead!”
EVERY TIME!
We haven’t tried to go to ITT since then. So because of how often I pushed and how often we would FIGHT about it, I gave up! I got SICK AND TIRED of arguing with you over that s**t. Now, I finally get interested in college again, this time it was AI. A beautiful art school, over in Indianapolis that I’ve heard many friends speak so highly about. The only issue is they are fairly expensive. Funny thing is, almost every art school is expensive. Almost every school is expensive.
Instead of being happy that I am interested in furthering my education, and getting out in the world on my own, you FIGHT me over it.
“I’m not making the money I used to, my hours have been cut, and my money has been cut. Something is wrong with the car, we have to get the car fixed but we don’t have the money. We can go in the fall…… maybe.”
Wow…. Seriously? I find this a bit funny, to be perfectly and brutally honest. Every time I talk about trying to get a job which would bring in MORE money, you show no interest… NO support! Every time I mention something about the car, I get s**t for it. You act like that car is a GOD but if it works in your favor, then it is perfectly fine to talk about it and say something is wrong, right? And in the FALL?! Are you kidding me? You do realize I may not be able to get into ANY school until the spring, after that. Hell, I might not be able to get in until next YEAR if I wait. Instead of being supportive, you just attack, you fight me over it!
It’s like you do not wish for me to go to school, you do not want me to get my own life and live it. Instead, you want me at home so you have someone to yell at when the house isn’t spotless because you didn’t give me a list… like I have told you a million times. I’m sick of it, I really am.
I get it; you want me to help around the house. Look at it this way, as I’ve said a MILLION times. YOU have to write yourself a list, does it not make sense I would ALSO need a list to know what needs to be done? Instead, you act like I am 3 and tell me to just look around, that it should be OBVIOUS as to what needs to be done. You do not seem to understand. My point of view is different from your own, so I do NOT view things like you view them. To you, if a pillow is not placed on the couch in the right area and a blanket is curled up in the corner, then the couch and the entire living room is a mess. To me, it looks like someone actually LIVES there.
You don’t seem to see that when you tell me to do something, I usually get it done instantly, if not before I go to bed. Instead, you choose to remind me multiple times in a shitty assed tone that does nothing but succeed in PISSING ME OFF!
This is why I like to sit at the computer all the time. This is why I don’t want to watch a movie or a show with you all the time. We have a conversation and something happens, next thing I know, we’re arguing or something. It’s really annoying. I get that you are stressed out at work but it’s your own fault when you choose to stay there, instead of looking for another place to work. You have done nothing but complain about this job for 2 years. The average person, by now, would have said screw it, and went looking for another job. Yes, I know, you NEED a job in order to pay for the bills. I didn’t say to quit your job; I said to look for a different one.
(You like to put words in my mouth so I had to clear things up)
Your actions, half the time, ever since you got on this medication have made me want to do nothing but move out. I am tired of you hovering over my shoulder and telling me what to do with that TONE! It’s a tone that you hate with a passion, it’s a tone that pisses you off and it is a tone that makes you not want to be there. One day, I will record that tone and play it back to you. You will understand what I mean. When I use a certain tone, you get pissed off and give me a nasty look. Maybe that is the same tone you use with me 90% of the time.
Basically, what I am trying to get at… I’m tired of this. I’m sick of this! You have treated me like crap lately and I honestly don’t want to be here like this. If you would look back, I don’t act how I used to. I don’t throw fits and act like a child. Yet here you are, playing the cold shoulder game and acting like I don’t exist. Turning up the TV as loudly as you can handle it just to counter the sound from my computer while I try to watch something… even though what you are watching could be watched upstairs. The only thing you have said to me lately is “Supper time” and “WHERE IS ANGEL?!?!?!”
…….
I’m getting to the point... well, no… I’ve been at the point for a while now, where all I want to do is get a job or go to college, move out and live on my own. Without you.
I just want you to look back at how you have been acting. Look back at how you used to act. Look back, period. You certainly are not the same person I used to know and honestly, I don’t like this person that I call a “mom”. This person I call a “mom” makes me want to move out, makes me not want to be here, and makes me feel uncomfortable in my own home. That should be something to think about.
Also, there were technically no misspelled words. However, I saw three words that were mess ups.
Two "than"s when they should be "then" and "find" instead of "fine".
I edited those in the quote above.
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 1:26 am
•·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Day - >< Ouch My mom hasn't really said that.. but she kind of says it.. Like, she tells me I never do anything at home, I just sit around all day and "take up space"... So I guess it's kind of the same thing. =/ I mean.. if she would give me a list, I'd clean the whole house.. Instead, she chooses to yell at me over something I've told her about tons of times. Lo - ^^; Thank you. I knew a few things would have been off. I just kept writing to the point my wrist actually really hurts. D; ----------------------------------
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 1:50 am
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She said it right to my face, while we were in a public place neutral It was all I could do not to cry, then she questioned why I wouldn't get out of the car and go into the next store with her. To this day she denies saying it.
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 2:00 am
•·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ My mom does that a lot. >< She will say something and then say I made it up to make her feel bad =/ ----------------------------------
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 2:18 am
Who wants to go to the park with me? biggrin It's super hot outside xD
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 2:47 am
I feel bad for you guys. :c
My mom stopped being a b***h around me when I was 11 and she tried punching me, Since I hit back.
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 3:03 am
I feel lonely, no one else is awake 'cept for my kitten and she's pissed at me 'cause she's wearing a collar. emo
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 3:15 am
Shiori Miko I feel lonely, no one else is awake 'cept for my kitten and she's pissed at me 'cause she's wearing a collar. emo <3 Welcome to my world crying
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 5:57 am
*curls into ball&cuddles something*
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 5:59 am
Kammy-kins! Hello~
ARE YOU OKAAYYYY?
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NIGHT PATROLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!~ D:
MY BEST FRIEND IS LEAVING FOR FOUR WEEKS ON VACATION
LIKE WHAT I DID WITH HER
AND SHE'S LEAVING TOMORROW ;A;
WRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
_____________________________❥ { em / tart }
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 6:01 am
Im good yoU? I m just really tired
@Emmi-4weeks? D8
*hugs Emmi*
EDIT: I is sorry to hear Emmi hmmm maybe
have an adventure to help time fly until shes back?
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 6:07 am
asianretart Kammy-kins! Hello~
ARE YOU OKAAYYYY?
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NIGHT PATROLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!~ D:
MY BEST FRIEND IS LEAVING FOR FOUR WEEKS ON VACATION
LIKE WHAT I DID WITH HER
AND SHE'S LEAVING TOMORROW ;A;
WRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
_____________________________❥ { em / tart } FOUR-EPIC-WEEKS?! WRRRRYYYYYYYYYY?!?!?!??!11?!?!?!/1?!?!/1?!?!??!
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