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 Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 11:46 pm
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Coke it is C: I don't drink either x3
I know the feeling :< It's been a long week here as well. I'm talking to a good friend of mine, and she's been telling me of a terrible time she's been having also. We have a mutual friend that's causing.... well, drama would be putting it very VERY lightly. We have another mutual friend that we're very worried about as a result of this and we can't get a hold of them D:
I don't envy anyone right now, really. I'm hoping that we'll be able to let some steam off tomorrow. See some other friends and enjoy ourselves.
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Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 11:50 pm
•·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Foxie - Thank you <3 Damson - <3 Thank you, too :3 Day - ;p I'm 19, can't drink anyhow. Aww :c /hugs/ Yeah, it seems like this is just a nasty month. I've noticed people have done nothing but have bad days/weeks and I guess it kind of rubs off on everyone else. It'd be nice to be able to finally relax. Hopefully next month will be a much better one 3nodding  ----------------------------------
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Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 11:54 pm
Rayne Bloodstone •·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Foxie - Thank you <3 Damson - <3 Thank you, too :3 Day - ;p I'm 19, can't drink anyhow. Aww :c /hugs/ Yeah, it seems like this is just a nasty month. I've noticed people have done nothing but have bad days/weeks and I guess it kind of rubs off on everyone else. It'd be nice to be able to finally relax. Hopefully next month will be a much better one 3nodding ---------------------------------- Just need to learn how to make the most of what you have.
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Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 11:56 pm
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I'm hoping :3
-More huggles-
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Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 11:58 pm
•·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Writer - It's a bit hard when you cannot handle stress very well ^^; /sigh/ I've wrote 1023 words and I'm still not done.. and I've got 30 minutes left before she gets up.. D; Maybe I should just wait until she goes to work so I can leave it on the couch while I am asleep... Give her some time to think about what I'm saying. ----------------------------------
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Posted: Fri Jun 25, 2010 11:59 pm
Why do I find this Avi amusing D;
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:01 am
Rayne Bloodstone •·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Writer - It's a bit hard when you cannot handle stress very well ^^; /sigh/ I've wrote 1023 words and I'm still not done.. and I've got 30 minutes left before she gets up.. D; Maybe I should just wait until she goes to work so I can leave it on the couch while I am asleep... Give her some time to think about what I'm saying. ---------------------------------- You should find a convenient time for her as odd as it sounds. >> Just after she wakes up while shes half asleep, When shes tired and about to sleep, Or if shes tired from a tough day at work isn't really "Good" times to give someone something like that. >>;
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:04 am
Misa Catailia Why do I find this Avi amusing D; •·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Kinda looks like you were trying to light the fire pit and it exploded D= Foxie - After work is actually a better time than any time. This is the time where she relaxes so she would be able to read that while chilling back.. Plus, I'd be dead asleep and she wouldn't dare bother me while I'm sleeping. xD ----------------------------------
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:07 am
Hello Night Patrol!
Rayne, you doing okay? What's going on? /will read back to see all of it after posting
And how is everyone else?
Yes, I know it's been forever since I've even posted in here. You may shun me if you wish.
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:14 am
Rayne Bloodstone •·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Writer - It's a bit hard when you cannot handle stress very well ^^; /sigh/ I've wrote 1023 words and I'm still not done.. and I've got 30 minutes left before she gets up.. D; Maybe I should just wait until she goes to work so I can leave it on the couch while I am asleep... Give her some time to think about what I'm saying. ---------------------------------- Stress blows. It likes to come out of nowhere and go "Oh hai, I'm here to ruin your day with tedious dilemmas."
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:16 am
•·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Hey Lo! Long time no see =o It's all actually in the secrets thread but the whole thing is a while back.. Long story short, me and my mom are fighting. She's been ignoring me for a few days and it's all because I want to go to college... rofl Writer - xD Basically ----------------------------------
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:16 am
Leviticus Lo Hello Night Patrol!
Rayne, you doing okay? What's going on? /will read back to see all of it after posting
And how is everyone else?
Yes, I know it's been forever since I've even posted in here. You may shun me if you wish. SHUNNNNNNNNN
Naw, this is my first time here.
Jkay.
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:22 am
Rayne Bloodstone Misa Catailia Why do I find this Avi amusing D; •·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ Kinda looks like you were trying to light the fire pit and it exploded D= Foxie - After work is actually a better time than any time. This is the time where she relaxes so she would be able to read that while chilling back.. Plus, I'd be dead asleep and she wouldn't dare bother me while I'm sleeping. xD ---------------------------------- o3o Tis good then. Glad you have a good solution planned out. o3o
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:23 am
Well good night Night patrol, I have to go, my alarm is still armed to go off at 5 am my time. (2:22 am right now as I post.) Wow, almost 24 hours...Usually zonk out after 20.
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Posted: Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:32 am
•·.·´¯`·.·• ♪ ♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ •·.·´¯`·.·•´ I don't expect anyone to really read this.. but this is basically what I am going to tell her. I want it to be blunt and a bit rude.. considering how she has treated me lately... but I also want her to understand how I feel. If you see any mess ups, lemme know. (I'm doing this on word so... it's telling me everything is clear but sometimes it gets stupid.) I'm at 1,483 words. >> Just a warning. <3 ---------------------------------- Quote: Well, I’m not really sure how to start this off but let’s put it this way… I’m fed up. I’m not trying to sound rude but I am seriously tired of this… Every week, if not every other week, we get into it over something stupid and petty… It used to be that I would act like I am five and scream and yell until my heart was content and I couldn’t take it anymore… But now, I back down and shut up, I keep my mouth shut and either I get on the computer to vent to friends or I go take a nap. Now, it is YOU that acts like the child; it is YOU that continues to battle.
It’s like you do not wish for me to succeed or something. I mean honestly, how do you expect me to react when you act this way? Let me give you a few examples.
When I started job searching, you didn’t encourage me... Hell, you didn’t honestly care, did you? You certainly didn’t act like it. Yet there I was, trying to find a job so that I could help with bills and pay for my own s**t. When it came to filling out applications that were not on the internet… you would FIGHT me on trying to go to a store so that I could try and get their application forms. It took me a week before I could finally get you to just take me to Target which is less than what? Five minutes away? IF that? Seriously?
How about this one… We were going to ITT to see the college. It was the closest one around that I was actually interested in since I had already told you I want nothing to do with Ivy Tech. We got lost due to MapQuest not updating itself and so we went too far out. We were forced to turn around and told the guy that I had been talking to, we would try this another time… I told him we would call next week to set up another appointment and see what we could do from there. Instead… you continued to avoid it. I would ask and you would come up with every excuse in the book, just like you did with the application hunt.
“I don’t feel good, I’m tired, something is wrong with the car, we’ll do it tomorrow, we’ll do it next week when I’m not so busy, I’m not in the mood, let’s go out to eat instead!”
EVERY TIME!
We haven’t tried to go to ITT since then. So because of how often I pushed and how often we would FIGHT about it, I gave up! I got SICK AND TIRED of arguing with you over that s**t. Now, I finally get interested in college again, this time it was AI. A beautiful art school, over in Indianapolis that I’ve heard many friends speak so highly about. The only issue is they are fairly expensive. Funny thing is, almost every art school is expensive. Almost every school is expensive.
Instead of being happy that I am interested in furthering my education, and getting out in the world on my own, you FIGHT me over it.
“I’m not making the money I used to, my hours have been cut, and my money has been cut. Something is wrong with the car, we have to get the car fixed but we don’t have the money. We can go in the fall…… maybe.”
Wow…. Seriously? I find this a bit funny, to be perfectly and brutally honest. Every time I talk about trying to get a job which would bring in MORE money, you show no interest… NO support! Every time I mention something about the car, I get s**t for it. You act like that car is a GOD but if it works in your favor, than it is perfectly find to talk about it and say something is wrong, right? And in the FALL?! Are you kidding me? You do realize I may not be able to get into ANY school until the spring, after that. Hell, I might not be able to get in until next YEAR if I wait. Instead of being supportive, you just attack, you fight me over it!
It’s like you do not wish for me to go to school, you do not want me to get my own life and live it. Instead, you want me at home so you have someone to yell at when the house isn’t spotless because you didn’t give me a list… like I have told you a million times. I’m sick of it, I really am.
I get it; you want me to help around the house. Look at it this way, as I’ve said a MILLION times. YOU have to write yourself a list, does it not make sense I would ALSO need a list to know what needs to be done? Instead, you act like I am 3 and tell me to just look around, that it should be OBVIOUS as to what needs to be done. You do not seem to understand. My point of view is different from your own, so I do NOT view things like you view them. To you, if a pillow is not placed on the couch in the right area and a blanket is curled up in the corner, than the couch and the entire living room is a mess. To me, it looks like someone actually LIVES there.
You don’t seem to see that when you tell me to do something, I usually get it done instantly, if not before I go to bed. Instead, you choose to remind me multiple times in a shitty assed tone that does nothing but succeed in PISSING ME OFF!
This is why I like to sit at the computer all the time. This is why I don’t want to watch a movie or a show with you all the time. We have a conversation and something happens, next thing I know, we’re arguing or something. It’s really annoying. I get that you are stressed out at work but it’s your own fault when you choose to stay there, instead of looking for another place to work. You have done nothing but complain about this job for 2 years. The average person, by now, would have said screw it, and went looking for another job. Yes, I know, you NEED a job in order to pay for the bills. I didn’t say to quit your job; I said to look for a different one.
(You like to put words in my mouth so I had to clear things up)
Your actions, half the time, ever since you got on this medication have made me want to do nothing but move out. I am tired of you hovering over my shoulder and telling me what to do with that TONE! It’s a tone that you hate with a passion, it’s a tone that pisses you off and it is a tone that makes you not want to be there. One day, I will record that tone and play it back to you. You will understand what I mean. When I use a certain tone, you get pissed off and give me a nasty look. Maybe that is the same tone you use with me 90% of the time.
Basically, what I am trying to get at… I’m tired of this. I’m sick of this! You have treated me like crap lately and I honestly don’t want to be here like this. If you would look back, I don’t act how I used to. I don’t throw fits and act like a child. Yet here you are, playing the cold shoulder game and acting like I don’t exist. Turning up the TV as loudly as you can handle it just to counter the sound from my computer while I try to watch something… even though what you are watching could be watched upstairs. The only thing you have said to me lately is “Supper time” and “WHERE IS ANGEL?!?!?!”
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I’m getting to the point... well, no… I’ve been at the point for a while now, where all I want to do is get a job or go to college, move out and live on my own. Without you.
I just want you to look back at how you have been acting. Look back at how you used to act. Look back, period. You certainly are not the same person I used to know and honestly, I don’t like this person that I call a “mom”. This person I call a “mom” makes me want to move out, makes me not want to be here, and makes me feel uncomfortable in my own home. That should be something to think about.
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