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 Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 5:28 am
Moving to his side, she looked at him with concern, placing a hand on his shoulder. "Ali, what happened here? What was that?" she asked gently, trying not to jump to conclusions.
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 5:45 am
The release of anger, I directed it back inside me instead of outwards so I wouldn't destroy something. It causes the muscles and nerves to tense up to the point where it feels like parts of my body are slowly being torn off, better to do that then to go berserk or destroy something in someone else's home* Ali smirked afterwards, showing that he in fact enjoyed this. His entire body felt numb now, it was as if he was floating in space. Then a thought struck him, he would be able to push himself even further if he felt like this in combat. Also by directing a portion of his anger back inside him it would in theory work as a temporary energy booster as he would be even more angry and therefor harness even more energy. He would have to test this theory some time.* I think I'll try some tea for a change now, mint flavor if you have.
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 5:56 am
"As odd as it may sound, you may destroy my home, it can be fixed easily. Anything of great value is enchanted. Though I would not like to see you go berserk, it is an option here. I have needed to make sure my house can hold up to quite a lot and then be repaired. I cannot tell you how many times in my life I have dreamed of being in harm and had a physical, magic reaction to it - setting my sheets on fire, blowing up furniture, putting great holes in the walls and ceiling .." she went on with a bit of a laugh, creating a tea service for them bpth, offering up a cup to Ali before making her own.
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 6:04 am
Hmm...I've never had that problem, well besides quite a temper of course.* Ali snickered a bit afterwards as he picked up the tea cup and drank the contents in one gulp, he smiled at her afterwards.* Only person who has stood their ground face to face with me in all my anger would be Clavi, usually she won those arguments too.
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 11:29 am
"I have nightmares occasionally. In them I am always struggling, people I know are being slaughtered, many dark things happen. It is very distressing and I react .. normal people simply thrash about, wake up in a cold sweat or crying. I react with magic, trying to use magic in my dreams, instead it happens in reality." she said softly, bobbing her head. She smiled at him for a moment, pleased that he could speak of Clavi without feeling grief or anger. "Someone must stand up to everyone. For each person, it is different."
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 12:33 pm
Not me, not anymore at least.* Ali smirked a bit afterwards, Clavi was the only one who could give him orders in which he would actually follow. Others he would simply oppose or take their orders as suggestions and then deciding if he wanted to follow that suggestion.*
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 3:39 pm
She nodded, looking to him with a calm expression. "How fortunate for you, yes? she asked, not sure what else to say. No one should force others to do things they did not want to do but for anyone to be able to always say no, to never have to submit to another was not something everyone could brag about.
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 3:44 pm
So, what is going on with you* Ali inquired as he leaned back in his seat, eventually making the chair stand on it's hind legs.*
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 3:46 pm
Tilting her head, she was futher confused. Moving to the couch, she again took a seat, watching him with curiosity. "You are intentionally avoiding that comment? No matter, that is fine. Presently I am doing nothing but making sure you, as my guest, are comfortable and .. pleased, I suppose."
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 3:50 pm
I asked what was going on with you not what you were doing right now.* Ali smirked slightly again, dodging questions seemed to be frequent right now.*
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 4:16 pm
"So many different ways of saying and asking the same thing, I always become confused." she said with a nervous laugh. She bobbed her head. "Well .. I am .. I do not know how quite to answer. I have been going about my normal routines, I have incorporated the extra training by your request .. and .. everything else is the same. My master are still here, Brom is with Seisuke-ona doing something with his mecha .. machines .. and Feldspar is growing accustomed to a human form. Is this an acceptable answer to your inquiry?"
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 4:23 pm
You're making this sound like I'm interrogating you* A laugh exited from Ali's mouth afterwards, it was nice to hear things were fine. Though she seemed edgy and nervous, but Ali guessed it was that she probably didn't trust him all that much yet.*
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Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 10:57 pm
"Goodness, no, that is not how I feel. I know that you and others have said that I should 'stop living in the past' yet .. I do not believe that I am living in the past. I believe I have learned from the past. Most people do not want me around sooner or later. I always expect for one to change their mind, to not want me around at any moment. My confidence in friendship will wax and wane from one moment to the next, most of the time it is nothing to do with you directly but with how I am feeling in the moment. I .. simply must be prepared to be cast aside at any moment for any reason or lack there of." she said softly, looking to him with a somber expression, not even blinking as she said this. Sure, most would see this as nativity, as foolishness, but it was nothing more than self defense. Do not become attached. If necessary, push the person away so they could not get that chance to be the one to end it, which usually was quite unfriendly.
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Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2007 11:26 am
Maybe you should just walk around like a lone wolf then, you make it sound like you're both happy but also unhappy by having a partner and friends.* Ali arched an eyebrow at her afterwards.*
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Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2007 2:17 pm
"Aye, that is true. I crave companionship .. yet I just know anyone I become close with will fall or be taken from me somehow. It is how all tries of friendship have been." she said as a fact, looking to him with a somber expression. She was only being realistic to what she knew from experience over her whole life.
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