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Letting out a heavy sigh, he had been like that for quite sometime. "I'm sorry, but I need to sleep..." She said as her eyes where barely open. "I'm not sure what is wrong, but I will leave you alone for now." Kissing his forehead, she left the room, door still open, and walked down the hallway into another room, it a room that just had a bed, some blinds, and an empty dresser. Since each bed in the building was always made up, unless occupied, she folded the covers down and fell into the mattress, her throwing the blankets over head and falling asleep within the next minute.

Something had moved in her room, the noise echoing through her mind. Her eyes opened and she stared blankly into the dark wall. For some reason, she had a feeling that something was wrong.. This time, it was her doing. She turned her body sideways off the bed and stood, her starting up the stairs to the roof.

At the time her arms were holding each other and her hair was thrashing about in front of her face. It was indeed a windy night. "Okay... No more lies... I will give you the truth." She wiped a tears from her face and then, called to him, "Mordrid! I don't know if you will hear my call this time, but I want to... be honest now. Just... let me figure some things out please..." Her voice died down then she called to him again, the wind picking up, it looking as if there might be a storm on the way.

"Mordrid.. I'm sor--" She sighed, trying to figure out something more to say.. Something worth his time seeing to how she lost all of it. "Okay. I'm just going to be straight with you. I lied. My emotions started to crumble the day after we met, the night after I told you what I said. I would have never--" She stopped again, not really knowing where she would be going with that sentence. "I don't know how to say this really. I'm sorry for those lies. I lead them on indirectly, not saying things to you comments, and really just... just leading you on the wrong way." She wasn't sure how she would have felt for him at the very moment if she was well, but everything seemed to have been caving in on her at the moment and she just wanted to stop screwing people over. She didn't bother trying to look at him for she knew he was probably more than disgusted with her.

"I don't.. want you to be gone." She cringed, knowing that he might get sick of her words. "I enjoy your company. I enjoy being with you. I have never made anyone feel as bad as I have you.. Once I was happy that night, my mind started playing tricks on me, so I told you things that I usually would never tell anyone." Letting out a sigh, she turned to look at him, her face stained with tears, "I don't know where we stand on our feelings period, but I want you to go.. You for one would be more happy without me, and I could take some time to try and recover from whatever my problem is... I was thinking a- Nevermind, you probably don't care." She took a step forwards and gave him a light hug, her then back up to the ledge, a gust of wind once more sending her hair to hide her face.

"I don't want you gone because I'm happy with you, but I want you gone so I don't hurt you." This was only making her look like more of a spineless fool. "If you leave, then I will be unhappy because.. Because... I don't know what my feelings are for you, no! But I do know that I want to be with you. It may not be to tie the knot, or have a family, but I know if you leave, I may just go back to living a crud life. I know I would just feel worse, but I'm not stopping you for your choice." She knew very little about him, the same for him to her. When he said said he loved her, she didn't know what to do. "Mordrid, I just want you to be happy. I know what I'm going to have to do if you take one choice, and if you take the other. Just please don't pick over me." She threw her hair out of her face and turned, rubbing her eyes, then turning back to face him.

"It means so much that someone could actually love me. I never said I didn't love you, but I know my feelings aren't that strong, and I'm forcing myself to stop even though it causes us both pain. I thought it would be for the better, but to hear that you have to go off and fight. It's my fault that you have to go back.." She was thinking at first that he used her, but nothing in his tone or actions showed it, and he was an honest person... unlike her.

"So... even after what I said you think I have no feelings for you? That they just died? What do you think I am? Stupid? I may be crazy and a bit off the edge, but that doesn't mean I still can't make choices. When I cut my feelings from growing, I told you about my past. I didn't know what else to do because life was in the crapper. I know it is just going to stay there to unless I can find so help." Kasai was once there to help, but Kinn needed help and he left without warning to anyone but her. "What do you want to do? Do you even have choices to pick from?"

She sat on the up on the railing and looked at him. "I'm tired of lying. If you make up a lie, then I would hate myself if it didn't happen.. I already am bordering that line... and I know it wouldn't matter... Aes could tell if I was pregnant or not." Looking down at her stomach, she then sighed, "I lost two when I was engulfed in darkness.. I don't know if some sort of presence is there or not, but.." At the time all she wanted to do was get him to stay with her, yet it seemed to complicated.