Mickeymoot
I wish I knew exactly what the ******** that I want to do in terms of career/jobs. I mean, even in high school, I was just secretly hating on all the people who knew exactly what they wanted to do. Sure, college is about "finding yourself" and "adventure" and maybe even "finding what you want to do." And I'll accept that. If it weren't for the fact that I need to write a paper on exactly what I want to do. I mean, sure, it's just a paper, I don't need to follow it exactly for the next few years. But wow. College is expensive! Time's ticking! I need to know what classes to take so I don't end up taking some random classes that eventually do me absolutely no good in the long run.
I was told to write down what you like to do and try to make something from that list. Yeah, well, I have a notebook of that stuff and it went no where. I'm too.. liberal artsy with no direction to go.
I'm currently classified as a "Pre-Business major attempting to specialize in marketing." But in order to fulfill the second part of the assignment as to why I want to major in this, I found that business majors aren't exactly what the economy is looking for right now. And of what the business world is looking for, it's not marketing. Yay. There's just so many people being business-oriented/related, not enough jobs. Not in what I'm looking for anyways. I'm currently taking a communications theory class and I find it rather easy to apply to everyday life and it's easy to remember and it's really interesting. And comm is it's own kind of psychology and... yeah. It's fun. But I'm not really interested in politics or speech writing and stuff... so I was looking at Business-related communications and it bores the hell out of me. And advertising? It looks.. "fun" because it uses communications and creativity and yay-ness. but with jobs being in the advertising field/marketing it depresses me. And I saw that most advertising jobs go to the art-folk who major in art and do more "creative" stuff for four years rather than those who are sitting around with theories and such. And communications is basically marketing. pointless to major/minor in both. and marketing is sales and retail. Starting from the bottom, and hopefully moving up the chain. sales and retail. maybe commission based. Not something I could do.
I can maybe see myself like.. owning a business... yeah? sucks that you don't exactly need a business degree to start your own business. sure, it helps, but it's not a requirement...
Maybe I just never looked into the future often enough? and now when I need to, it just doesn't come easily. aghh
the words "just find something you're interested in" means nothing to me. photography, reading, design, talking with people, deadlines (I hate "just turn it in when you think it's ready"), hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng
dad goes "pharmacyyyyyyy. engineeringgggggggg. something usefullllllll"
mom gave up on me doing any of that and is saying "business administration!" then going "in japan, people who go into business are those that just want an easy job." yeah, well, looks like it's the same in the US, mother, unless you go to wharton or something (which, I do not).
I've had over 70tabs and my notebook tonight just trying to figure out what I can do about this paper/my thoughts and it's just ended in me being frustrated. Sure, I shouldn't be getting all worked out about a single paper, right? But I know that I really do need to figure my stuff out before scheduling for the next set of classes. It's more of a... self-requirement. I guess I learned that unless someone can actually show me that marketing or communications is useful, I want to go look at advertisement and some other science based stuff. I've only been looking at social science stuff. but it's the social sciences that interest me. And sure, I should do stuff that I like and find what I love and turn it into a job. And I should stop looking at salaries and job-market percentages and "live my dream" and not worry about the future so much. Right? Yeah, maybe. I don't know. But I don't want to go into something in which there will be no jobs available and I'll end up sitting around not being able to do something that I put time and money into?
*I realize this whole thing makes me look like an a** who is only worried about job salary or something. I don't really feel that way? I just can't find my niche, and want a future security? Maybe that's the issue. I'm too scared to go forward and have confidence in myself in being able to do something. And I'm just constantly looking for what's right and what's wrong. Then never being able to go and do something by myself without the reassurance of others. In short, maybe I'm just a wuss.
I was told to write down what you like to do and try to make something from that list. Yeah, well, I have a notebook of that stuff and it went no where. I'm too.. liberal artsy with no direction to go.
I'm currently classified as a "Pre-Business major attempting to specialize in marketing." But in order to fulfill the second part of the assignment as to why I want to major in this, I found that business majors aren't exactly what the economy is looking for right now. And of what the business world is looking for, it's not marketing. Yay. There's just so many people being business-oriented/related, not enough jobs. Not in what I'm looking for anyways. I'm currently taking a communications theory class and I find it rather easy to apply to everyday life and it's easy to remember and it's really interesting. And comm is it's own kind of psychology and... yeah. It's fun. But I'm not really interested in politics or speech writing and stuff... so I was looking at Business-related communications and it bores the hell out of me. And advertising? It looks.. "fun" because it uses communications and creativity and yay-ness. but with jobs being in the advertising field/marketing it depresses me. And I saw that most advertising jobs go to the art-folk who major in art and do more "creative" stuff for four years rather than those who are sitting around with theories and such. And communications is basically marketing. pointless to major/minor in both. and marketing is sales and retail. Starting from the bottom, and hopefully moving up the chain. sales and retail. maybe commission based. Not something I could do.
I can maybe see myself like.. owning a business... yeah? sucks that you don't exactly need a business degree to start your own business. sure, it helps, but it's not a requirement...
Maybe I just never looked into the future often enough? and now when I need to, it just doesn't come easily. aghh
the words "just find something you're interested in" means nothing to me. photography, reading, design, talking with people, deadlines (I hate "just turn it in when you think it's ready"), hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng
dad goes "pharmacyyyyyyy. engineeringgggggggg. something usefullllllll"
mom gave up on me doing any of that and is saying "business administration!" then going "in japan, people who go into business are those that just want an easy job." yeah, well, looks like it's the same in the US, mother, unless you go to wharton or something (which, I do not).
I've had over 70tabs and my notebook tonight just trying to figure out what I can do about this paper/my thoughts and it's just ended in me being frustrated. Sure, I shouldn't be getting all worked out about a single paper, right? But I know that I really do need to figure my stuff out before scheduling for the next set of classes. It's more of a... self-requirement. I guess I learned that unless someone can actually show me that marketing or communications is useful, I want to go look at advertisement and some other science based stuff. I've only been looking at social science stuff. but it's the social sciences that interest me. And sure, I should do stuff that I like and find what I love and turn it into a job. And I should stop looking at salaries and job-market percentages and "live my dream" and not worry about the future so much. Right? Yeah, maybe. I don't know. But I don't want to go into something in which there will be no jobs available and I'll end up sitting around not being able to do something that I put time and money into?
*I realize this whole thing makes me look like an a** who is only worried about job salary or something. I don't really feel that way? I just can't find my niche, and want a future security? Maybe that's the issue. I'm too scared to go forward and have confidence in myself in being able to do something. And I'm just constantly looking for what's right and what's wrong. Then never being able to go and do something by myself without the reassurance of others. In short, maybe I'm just a wuss.
the world is massive
if there isn't a place for business people in US then look outside the box
