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 Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2008 11:24 pm
Though still not in her right mind, she found herself returning to the dojo, wanting to talk to him more, though she knew he would likely not like what she would have to say. Walking in, moving the heavy doors, she moved to the center of the room before lowering herself to her knees, resting her hands calmly in her lap. She still looked desperately sad and confused. Blue eyes, still shaped like that of an animal, she waited, for now, in silence.
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Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2008 11:29 pm
He in a speedy return to his dojo found Ziven in it worried he stopped in fron of her "Whats wrong? Why are you acting like this?"
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Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2008 11:40 pm
She did not move, did not react. A moment of silence before she spoke to him with her mind. "Still .. I am lost. You seem to have so much faith in me, so much .. hope. I will say to you and you must believe me when I say that your faith your hope is appreciated .. yet is misplaced. I am not as wonderful as you believe. It would be better for us to remain the friends we have been since the first day we met."
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Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2008 11:51 pm
He grimaced at her words but he spoke to her "'Faith is the assured expectation of things hope for, the evident demonstrtion of realities though not beheld' By this words i abide all this my love for you. Yes you turned out to be more that i could ever hoped for. More than i could have expect to be a reality. My feelings will not falter not even by grimaced words ziven. I have faith and that has rewarded me time and time again. Though you may not see it i see it as clear as the sun in a clear day"
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2008 12:14 am
Her head bowed lower as she seemed to tremble for a moment before her body reacted and released her emotions through magic instead, a much more satisfying feeling for her. An aura of emotions swirled around her, pushing and pulling around her and anything near enough to feel. As relaxed as she could be while feeling so upset, she again found words. "I am like fire. Pleasant to view, useful, portable but when one comes too close .. they are harmed." she said, her head lowering further in apology and shame. Though she tried, she could not stop tears from coming. "In some ways, I have great strength. In other ways, I am tremendously weak. There is so much I can or cannot do. It is simple fact that I cannot be like everyone else, I cannot be with another like others are. To have the love you seek .. I cannot give, though I would certainly try."
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2008 7:43 am
He nods and walks closer to her "I love you. But alas you found another to lay your love and devotion. Funny i felt love for you for such a long time yet i didnt tell you to evade something like from happening. Though you may not like it you have stolen my heart and you must know that even if the earth was to be thorn asunder i will still love you i will still be her for you like i always have and i always had been up to this day. That no matter if you find a thousand husbands and still you dont find me apt to be with ill still be here for you with open arms. Perhaps you dont understand this but i think i know the solution to convey my words into you. of how long i been loving you " He then hugged her gently as tears went down his cheek he started to hum a tune and started to sing*
I'm your best friend
Your tissue of tears
from lost loves
*as he began to sing images went to her head showing events from the past*
You lean on my shoulder
Your crying doesn't stop
I only caress you
*then images from her first love reeve flooded her mind as her pain and sorrow was shown but also shown how seisuke was there for her in her needing time offering his shoulder to console her from her pain*
And you ask me why is life so cruel with your feelings
I just hug you, and console you
You ask me for a thousand ways to protect you
from your next encounter, you know that I care for you
what you don’t know is
*The showed her when she asked many times what was wrong in her part and he offered to help her in anytime possible as he raised his voice singing*
I wish I could be the one that keeps you awake and hopeless
I wish I could be your cry… that comes from your Feelings
I wish I could be the one that excites you when you wake up
I wish that you could always be in love with me
*As he stopped singing for a second he continued humming the rhythym as more images went to her head*
You just stare at me
and ask me
If something is happening to me
*showing how she encountered him in akward moments when his feelings for her sparked and grew. As he tried to feign them so that she wouldnt know what has been happening in his heart*
And I don't know what to do
If you knew that I am dying
I would want to tell you how I feel, no
*he showed how his emotions were eating his heart slowly. As he looked for her happiness more than his. Battling in his mind not to tell her for being afraid*
but I’m scared that you’ll reject me
and that only in my mind you live, forever
that’s why
*he smiled as he continued with his song his weary with tears but with a smile that could contradict what he was showing*
I wish I could be the one that keeps you awake and hopeless
I wish I could be your cry…that comes from your sorrows
I wish I could be the one who excites you when you wake up
I wish you could always be in love with me
*he slowly fade the song he was singing he kept hugging her as showning how she did with him the air filled with warmth and peacefulness*
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2008 11:04 am
She watched him all the while, never taking her sight from him though looking troubled all throughout. Returning his hug, she released him just enough to look at him better. Reaching to his face, she dried his tears with her thumbs. "I know not what to say, Seisuke-ona. I love you .. I do not love you like your words describe .. I know not if I even love Hunter in the way you describe. Perhaps .. this is the difference .. between myself .. and true love .. as a real person .." she replied, confusion, pain, appreciation coming with her words. Gently she rested her forehead against his, wanting to comfort him, knowing it was the only thing she could do in this moment, it was the only thing that made sense.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 1:07 pm
He sighed as he heard her words clearly she is new to this emotions and seisuke is not. But for her will do anything so he spoke "I understand and i will do this. I will wait for you to flourish your feelings towards me. Even if it takes my whole life waiting. Stil know that im here for you always and i will still be here for you." He just held her there not speaking another word more to her as words didnt work as he thought. At least now he is certain that the seed in her heart is planted. and he hopes it flourishes this time.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:01 pm
She held him as he held her, feeling better immediately that he understood, even if he did not like it. "Thank you .. Seisuke-ona .. you are always so kind."
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:41 pm
Alex-chan sighed as he lay back against the wall of the makeshift hut he had made outside the dojo. He spoke to himself, having had no one around in days, " Honestly, I'd hate to interrupt Seisuke-san, and I'd Definitely don't want to disobey onii-chan... but THIS IS GETTING RIDICULOUS! Sheesh! Well, onii-chan has been sleeping for days now, he must have forgotten to feed again... And I did sense him claiming some property to build a house on... Well, I'll just wait a bit longer here... if no one comes out of that dojo... I'll be waking onii-chan up so we can get started on our house here..."
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 7:11 am
No need to thank for anything. I just hope you would have seen sooner. Guess i wasnt good enough for laying my feelings to towards you. Perhaps all that it was needed was a more direct aproach to things. *he sighed to himself know that he was a fool for trying to hint her all this time and not let her know from the first time around. Well to late to regret was he has done in his life at she was happy and that was all that he needed. With a soft sigh he kiss her forehead. "don't worry about me just worry that your choices in life doesn't harm you in any way" He let go of the hug. He didnt want to do somethig he would regret. And he still heartbroken a bit he muster to maintain self-control over his actions again almost completely hiding his feeling in front of her. Just making sure that she wouldnt worry about him anymore, Or trouble her anymore. He did sufficient damage in one day.
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 8:58 am
"You have pointed out that I am naive on many occasions .. why you do not recognize this trait of mine here is mildly confusing. Though I suppose, again, I see the phrase of love being blind to hold true again. I will always worry for you, care for you, Seisuke-ona. We are close friends, I hope never to loose touch with you." she said softly, her head still bowed in shame the entire time she spoke. She was feeling slightly more relaxed, this showed as she spoke aloud instead of with her mind.
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 10:12 am
I do recognize it but you were agravated every time that i pointed out to you *he said sternly* I stopped cuz i thought you will learn more with time and you did yet you still naive in a lot of ways. How can it be blind? love is yes spontaneous yet you seek it with logic you are quite the conundrum Ziven. I hope we dont stop being friends but i want to be in a bond stronger than any friendship. I have that part layed in front of you. I cant deny it and..... *he stopped altogether that line of thinking*
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 5:44 pm
Slowly she rose to her feet, her eyes cast down, not trying to avoid nor to make contact with him as she turned and moved toward the door. "There is much for both of us to think about. I will leave now." she said simply, wandering just outside the door before pausing a moment and disappearing with a small pop.
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Posted: Wed Feb 20, 2008 3:14 am
After that all that is happened in this night he came back. He couldnt do nothing more except cry, weep drown himself in sorrow. Is the only thing that he thought would release it. The pain the anguish things that any man of his caliber would have just brush off with pride. He just couldnt he couldnt cuz he has been hurt time and time and time something that could drive any man crazy. He just sat there weeping until no more tears came. He tried to cry but no more tears came to aid him drown his sorrow. He felt lost and left out. To no one that could confort him that could give him a hand he just sat there letting the time pass not being to move nothing not a muscle he couldnt find the strength to anymore those things hat he firmly believe were in his something that it was so flimsy. He started to think that dying was the best course as he was already dead inside. But his heart knew better than give pleasure to some by removing his existance from this plane. God he just wished he would told her sooner, or that his wife were here to aid his heart. Nothing zero nada finit Then he began to sing finding only japanese to be the only language he could speak those words as it didnt matter no one wasnt there to understand them either.
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