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 Posted: Mon Aug 03, 2009 9:08 pm
Valheita Secret: I'm manipulative and I hate myself for it, but people never believe me when I tell them. They always say I'm nice, which is actually the form my manipulation takes D:similar to my evil smile where i smile and look playful, but really just wanna ripout your throat *which does make me happy when i think about it overcome your problem? find people that you cant manipulate so that it slowly goes away?
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Posted: Mon Aug 03, 2009 9:15 pm
Valheita Secret: I'm manipulative and I hate myself for it, but people never believe me when I tell them. They always say I'm nice, which is actually the form my manipulation takes D:Meh The whole purpose of being nice (as human beings) is to manipulate them Whether it's to gain their trust, become friends or more than friends, or even a random deed, you're still manipulating them You manipulate them to listen to what you have to say later So, don't be too hard on yourself on that talk2hand @LMF: Alex is a very good person. He is very loving, and i'm pretty sure that he would not desert you. @Mim: That's so violent XD But i do the EXACT same thing... Sometimes i have to stop myself from doing it
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Posted: Mon Aug 03, 2009 9:18 pm
SoulSkourer Valheita Secret: I'm manipulative and I hate myself for it, but people never believe me when I tell them. They always say I'm nice, which is actually the form my manipulation takes D:Meh The whole purpose of being nice (as human beings) is to manipulate them Whether it's to gain their trust, become friends or more than friends, or even a random deed, you're still manipulating them You manipulate them to listen to what you have to say later So, don't be too hard on yourself on that talk2hand I guess it is kinda human nature. I still feel bad though D: 'Specially with the girlfriend.
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Posted: Mon Aug 03, 2009 9:38 pm
I'm nice, and manipulative if I wanted to be... like my friend Summer grabbed my friend Shannon's boobs once, and then blamed it on me.
Shannon exclaimed, "Bien would never do that! He's too nice". Summer responded "well of course, he's the last person you'd expect if he really DID do it".
Nice-guys gaining trust 100% FTW! Not that I'll use it to my advantage over situations though...
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Posted: Tue Aug 04, 2009 6:56 am
SoulSkourer @LMF: Alex is a very good person. He is very loving, and i'm pretty sure that he would not desert you.
Hehe, I guess I kind of know that, but it's really nice to hear someone else say it... <3
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Posted: Tue Aug 04, 2009 11:10 pm
*Drains emotions out* I'm sorry, but it's midnight, and I just feel sad right now and my feelings that I kept locked are now spilling...
I feel... eternally worthless in this world... I mean, I don't have good looks, I lost self respect and esteem on how I am, my past has had a really bad effect on my current present.
I just know that I'm an unsuccessful, horrific looking scum (aka "ugly". I look like a child though, who wants to look younger than their age anyway??? Benefit to this: cheaper restaurant meals!)... I just hate myself so much. I don't have good looks, I'm not smart since I just make A's in regular classes instead of try on Honors where the Elitist kids are, I just wish so many times I could start over my life... but it's too late now...
If I had the work ethics, successful social life among peers and "family" (neglected by my mom since she left dad for her best friend, my poor father is suffering from the loss of his wife, and the emotional/mental effects on me and my sis takes its toll), and confidence in my earlier years, I might not be this way...
This is why I go on Gaia, to get away from all my troubles within myself, I forget who I am, and forget whatever problems are facing me. Idc on this world any longer, I am not accepted there for my failures.
I... just give up... If I cannot achieve acceptance in this world or on the internet, I feel that I have nowhere else to go.
I mean, I see Ashno, CH0Z0, all the great zOMGers, the Honors Kids at my school... I deducted on their success on one of few things: self-confidence in early years, good company and persistence... I could be really wrong though... but this is how I feel... I just see and watch the success, and enjoyment of others, watching and envying their success and happiness... I sometimes want that feeling too, but it's out of reach...
My ambition: to find answers to solutions like this, and answers to other questions like to find the right answer...
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Posted: Tue Aug 04, 2009 11:18 pm
keito melfina *Drains emotions out* I'm sorry, but it's midnight, and I just feel sad right now and my feelings that I kept locked are now spilling... I feel... eternally worthless in this world... I mean, I don't have good looks, I lost self respect and esteem on how I am, my past has had a really bad effect on my current present. I just know that I'm an unsuccessful, horrific looking scum (aka "ugly". I look like a child though, who wants to look younger than their age anyway??? Benefit to this: cheaper restaurant meals!)... I just hate myself so much. I don't have good looks, I'm not smart since I just make A's in regular classes instead of try on Honors where the Elitist kids are, I just wish so many times I could start over my life... but it's too late now... If I had the work ethics, successful social life among peers and "family" (neglected by my mom since she left dad for her best friend, my poor father is suffering from the loss of his wife, and the emotional/mental effects on me and my sis takes its toll), and confidence in my earlier years, I might not be this way... This is why I go on Gaia, to get away from all my troubles within myself, I forget who I am, and forget whatever problems are facing me. Idc on this world any longer, I am not accepted there for my failures. I... just give up... If I cannot achieve acceptance in this world or on the internet, I feel that I have nowhere else to go. I mean, I see Ashno, CH0Z0, all the great zOMGers, the Honors Kids at my school... I deducted on their success on one of few things: self-confidence in early years, good company and persistence... I could be really wrong though... but this is how I feel... I just see and watch the success, and enjoyment of others, watching and envying their success and happiness... I sometimes want that feeling too, but it's out of reach... My ambition: to find answers to solutions like this, and answers to other questions like to find the right answer... ;___; Don't feel bad for what you see others are like.. You are you. C: Be an amazing you! Don't try to be someone else.. You wouldn't be special if you were just the same. And I don't think you're ugly or even bad looking xD PLUS good looks don't make a good person.. they actually almost mean nothing at all. I'm sorry about your family.. Dx not much you can do there, except hope for the best :3
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Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2009 7:29 am
I give up. I wanted to recover so badly, but I can't. I tried to eat well yesterday. It was so hard, and I felt like crying after every bite. And this morning I was hungry when I woke up, and I missed that feeling. I just can't quit right now.
And I guess I'm back now, since recovery isn't working.
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Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2009 8:01 am
The Ravenclaw Beauty I give up. I wanted to recover so badly, but I can't. I tried to eat well yesterday. It was so hard, and I felt like crying after every bite. And this morning I was hungry when I woke up, and I missed that feeling. I just can't quit right now. And I guess I'm back now, since recovery isn't working. Just ******** eat D; Start working out or something... I mean.. the consequences can be fatal ;___; Just go eat... right now... like PB&J or like Cereal.. :U i will fly to your house and cook you waffles
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Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2009 8:03 am
Ashno The Ravenclaw Beauty I give up. I wanted to recover so badly, but I can't. I tried to eat well yesterday. It was so hard, and I felt like crying after every bite. And this morning I was hungry when I woke up, and I missed that feeling. I just can't quit right now. And I guess I'm back now, since recovery isn't working. Just ******** eat D; Start working out or something... I mean.. the consequences can be fatal ;___; Just go eat... right now... like PB&J or like Cereal.. :U i will fly to your house and cook you waffles It's not that easy. Using a quote from somebody else, "It's like telling a retarded person to just learn those equations". And I do work out, to burn calories. It really doesn't help, it just makes me want to lose weight more.
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Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2009 8:04 am
The Ravenclaw Beauty Ashno The Ravenclaw Beauty I give up. I wanted to recover so badly, but I can't. I tried to eat well yesterday. It was so hard, and I felt like crying after every bite. And this morning I was hungry when I woke up, and I missed that feeling. I just can't quit right now. And I guess I'm back now, since recovery isn't working. Just ******** eat D; Start working out or something... I mean.. the consequences can be fatal ;___; Just go eat... right now... like PB&J or like Cereal.. :U i will fly to your house and cook you waffles It's not that easy. Using a quote from somebody else, "It's like telling a retarded person to just learn those equations". And I do work out, to burn calories. It really doesn't help, it just makes me want to lose weight more. Who cares about losing weight when you aren't eating. It's not healthy. It's VERY bad for your physical health.. D:< and working out should make you hungry ;_;
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Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2009 8:06 am
Ashno The Ravenclaw Beauty Ashno The Ravenclaw Beauty I give up. I wanted to recover so badly, but I can't. I tried to eat well yesterday. It was so hard, and I felt like crying after every bite. And this morning I was hungry when I woke up, and I missed that feeling. I just can't quit right now. And I guess I'm back now, since recovery isn't working. Just ******** eat D; Start working out or something... I mean.. the consequences can be fatal ;___; Just go eat... right now... like PB&J or like Cereal.. :U i will fly to your house and cook you waffles It's not that easy. Using a quote from somebody else, "It's like telling a retarded person to just learn those equations". And I do work out, to burn calories. It really doesn't help, it just makes me want to lose weight more. Who cares about losing weight when you aren't eating. It's not healthy. It's VERY bad for your physical health.. D:< and working out should make you hungry ;_; It's called an eating disorder for a reason. It's a psychological issue. And I like the feeling of being hungry.
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Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2009 8:09 am
The Ravenclaw Beauty Ashno The Ravenclaw Beauty Ashno The Ravenclaw Beauty I give up. I wanted to recover so badly, but I can't. I tried to eat well yesterday. It was so hard, and I felt like crying after every bite. And this morning I was hungry when I woke up, and I missed that feeling. I just can't quit right now. And I guess I'm back now, since recovery isn't working. Just ******** eat D; Start working out or something... I mean.. the consequences can be fatal ;___; Just go eat... right now... like PB&J or like Cereal.. :U i will fly to your house and cook you waffles It's not that easy. Using a quote from somebody else, "It's like telling a retarded person to just learn those equations". And I do work out, to burn calories. It really doesn't help, it just makes me want to lose weight more. Who cares about losing weight when you aren't eating. It's not healthy. It's VERY bad for your physical health.. D:< and working out should make you hungry ;_; It's called an eating disorder for a reason. It's a psychological issue. And I like the feeling of being hungry. Sometimes you have to overcome psychological issues If you feel you cannot accomplish this task alone, there are people who are willing to help you If you want a logical reason to help you, just look at it like this: Nutrition is necessary for your body to function. Without it, you will start dying as you live, and eventually, if you're super hungry, your stomach will digest itself Wait But WHY do you not eat?
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Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2009 8:17 am
SoulSkourer Sometimes you have to overcome psychological issues If you feel you cannot accomplish this task alone, there are people who are willing to help you If you want a logical reason to help you, just look at it like this: Nutrition is necessary for your body to function. Without it, you will start dying as you live, and eventually, if you're super hungry, your stomach will digest itself Wait But WHY do you not eat? That's depressing, but I already knew that. It doesn't help me stop. And I don't eat for a number of reasons. I hate my thighs I'm lazy already, and if I eat I'll be fat Everybody likes the skinny girls It gives me control
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Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2009 8:19 am
The Ravenclaw Beauty SoulSkourer Sometimes you have to overcome psychological issues If you feel you cannot accomplish this task alone, there are people who are willing to help you If you want a logical reason to help you, just look at it like this: Nutrition is necessary for your body to function. Without it, you will start dying as you live, and eventually, if you're super hungry, your stomach will digest itself Wait But WHY do you not eat? That's depressing, but I already knew that. It doesn't help me stop. And I don't eat for a number of reasons. I hate my thighs I'm lazy already, and if I eat I'll be fat Everybody likes the skinny girls It gives me control That's a lie neutral I've dated plenty of fattier girls (nooffencetothem) because of their great personalities. Not everyone likes skinny best
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