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 Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 8:11 pm
Divine_Malevolence The Ravenclaw Beauty Divine_Malevolence The Ravenclaw Beauty I just cut myself, again. Everything just piled up, and I didn't know what to do.... I'm sorry, everyone. I didn't mean to dump this on you.
and I am depressed over David and Sarah... Sorry for lying to you guys. @.@ Perhaps you could take out frustrations in the form of a rant? *Shot* But I'm not mad, really. More depressed, plus I was trying to stop and I just let myself down Tell of it, then? ..... [/me fails] It's a years-long story, but here's the summary. I've made a lot of bad choices that make me depressed all the time. And so I've been trying to stop, and hope that by pretending to be happy I can become happy. But it isn't working, because I keep remembering all these reasons why I was depressed in the first place. So I keep relapsing.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 8:18 pm
The Ravenclaw Beauty Divine_Malevolence The Ravenclaw Beauty Divine_Malevolence The Ravenclaw Beauty I just cut myself, again. Everything just piled up, and I didn't know what to do.... I'm sorry, everyone. I didn't mean to dump this on you.
and I am depressed over David and Sarah... Sorry for lying to you guys. @.@ Perhaps you could take out frustrations in the form of a rant? *Shot* But I'm not mad, really. More depressed, plus I was trying to stop and I just let myself down Tell of it, then? ..... [/me fails] It's a years-long story, but here's the summary. I've made a lot of bad choices that make me depressed all the time. And so I've been trying to stop, and hope that by pretending to be happy I can become happy. But it isn't working, because I keep remembering all these reasons why I was depressed in the first place. So I keep relapsing. Bad choices are all in the mind. They could have been the best possible thing to do in the circumstance, yet seem bad because the overall circumstance was bad. But..... Well, perhaps moods can be tricked by reverse psychology.... By attempting to remain depressed, you'd see some flaw to it that knocks you out of it? ...... My insanity isn't working well at the moment.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 8:21 pm
Thanks for listening and helping out. But somehow I can't think of any times where cutting yourself and having an eating disorder would be good.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 8:26 pm
The Ravenclaw Beauty Thanks for listening and helping out. But somehow I can't think of any times where cutting yourself and having an eating disorder would be good. Ne'er said they'd be a good thing. ..... I hate my limited understanding of things. @.@ And you said "Helping out" rather then "Trying to help out". Flattery be fun.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 8:59 pm
As many of you may well know, I plan on joining the military after college. I'll graduate as a second lieutenant in the USAF, and proceed to go wherever I am ordered to go. However, you may or may not be aware that my parents do not approve of this decision. At all.
I have tried just about everything. I've tried having them talk to the commandant of the Corps of Cadets, I've tried explaining that I will not and in fact cannot be a pilot or navigator, that I'm likely to spend the majority of my time on base as a "developmental engineer" specializing in astronautical engineering (hopefully). Either that or I'll end up a physicist, neither of which lends itself well to going out in actual combat.
Still, try as I might, they simply do not agree with my decision.
Which is hard for me. I want them to like me, to be proud of me, even if the path I choose isn't necessarily what they wanted for me. Today, I went out shopping with my mom for some basic supplies, as I leave for school this month. Picked up about fifteen pairs of underwear (mine always seem to get eaten and/or destroyed by the washing machine or dryer), a new pair of running shoes because mine are horribly worn down, a bath robe, an alarm clock, a desk lamp, some soap and stuff...
Then we got to the socks. My packing list says, very specifically:
"SOCKS, Black for L/Q Shoes (reinforced toes/heels) - 10+ (pair)
SOCKS, White athletic (cover mid calf) - 10 (pair)"
And my mom exploded at me, in the middle of Target, ranting about how I'm ruining my life and wasting my talents by joining the military.
I hate living with this, and yet I feel powerless to stop it. The decision is mine to make, and I know that this is where I want to go, what I want to do. My parents have known for years that I wanted to work for the government in some form or capacity, but I guess they always thought I'd be able to go to NASA straight out of college, or they deluded themselves into thinking I would stop loving flight as I do and go be happy as a doctor.
I know that I can't be happy taking my degree and going to work for Boeing, or some other private corporation, and I also know that banking on being able to work for NASA immediately is only another form of self-delusion. I also can't be happy dropping what I love and studying something else to please my parents, but at the same time, I'm also not happy knowing that they hate my decision.
And it's just hard to deal with. Honestly, this month really can't go by quickly enough.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:02 pm
The Ravenclaw Beauty Thanks for listening and helping out. But somehow I can't think of any times where cutting yourself and having an eating disorder would be good. I'm sorry about this Raven emo Like always, i handled it badly and ended up hurting someone Man my life sucks gonk But don't cut yourself, it'll get you no where It is dangerous, and caring for you, i don't want you to hurt yourself crying Do this for all of us D:
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:04 pm
SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty Thanks for listening and helping out. But somehow I can't think of any times where cutting yourself and having an eating disorder would be good. I'm sorry about this Raven emo Like always, i handled it badly and ended up hurting someone Man my life sucks gonk But don't cut yourself, it'll get you no where It is dangerous, and caring for you, i don't want you to hurt yourself crying Do this for all of us D: It's not your fault. I should've just gotten over it, but I have such a tough time moving on. And I can't stop, that's the problem.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:05 pm
Tabihito As many of you may well know, I plan on joining the military after college. I'll graduate as a second lieutenant in the USAF, and proceed to go wherever I am ordered to go. However, you may or may not be aware that my parents do not approve of this decision. At all.
I have tried just about everything. I've tried having them talk to the commandant of the Corps of Cadets, I've tried explaining that I will not and in fact cannot be a pilot or navigator, that I'm likely to spend the majority of my time on base as a "developmental engineer" specializing in astronautical engineering (hopefully). Either that or I'll end up a physicist, neither of which lends itself well to going out in actual combat.
Still, try as I might, they simply do not agree with my decision.
Which is hard for me. I want them to like me, to be proud of me, even if the path I choose isn't necessarily what they wanted for me. Today, I went out shopping with my mom for some basic supplies, as I leave for school this month. Picked up about fifteen pairs of underwear (mine always seem to get eaten and/or destroyed by the washing machine or dryer), a new pair of running shoes because mine are horribly worn down, a bath robe, an alarm clock, a desk lamp, some soap and stuff...
Then we got to the socks. My packing list says, very specifically:
"SOCKS, Black for L/Q Shoes (reinforced toes/heels) - 10+ (pair)
SOCKS, White athletic (cover mid calf) - 10 (pair)"
And my mom exploded at me, in the middle of Target, ranting about how I'm ruining my life and wasting my talents by joining the military.
I hate living with this, and yet I feel powerless to stop it. The decision is mine to make, and I know that this is where I want to go, what I want to do. My parents have known for years that I wanted to work for the government in some form or capacity, but I guess they always thought I'd be able to go to NASA straight out of college, or they deluded themselves into thinking I would stop loving flight as I do and go be happy as a doctor.
I know that I can't be happy taking my degree and going to work for Boeing, or some other private corporation, and I also know that banking on being able to work for NASA immediately is only another form of self-delusion. I also can't be happy dropping what I love and studying something else to please my parents, but at the same time, I'm also not happy knowing that they hate my decision.
And it's just hard to deal with. Honestly, this month really can't go by quickly enough. ...... Perhaps they think you'll become a dog of the military?
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:06 pm
The Ravenclaw Beauty SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty Thanks for listening and helping out. But somehow I can't think of any times where cutting yourself and having an eating disorder would be good. I'm sorry about this Raven emo Like always, i handled it badly and ended up hurting someone Man my life sucks gonk But don't cut yourself, it'll get you no where It is dangerous, and caring for you, i don't want you to hurt yourself crying Do this for all of us D: It's not your fault. I should've just gotten over it, but I have such a tough time moving on. And I can't stop, that's the problem. It is my fault I handled it badly, and now you have to suffer Don't be too hard on yourself about moving on either Time heals all wounds, and eventually this will be but a slight scar... I'm sorry crying
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:08 pm
SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty Thanks for listening and helping out. But somehow I can't think of any times where cutting yourself and having an eating disorder would be good. I'm sorry about this Raven emo Like always, i handled it badly and ended up hurting someone Man my life sucks gonk But don't cut yourself, it'll get you no where It is dangerous, and caring for you, i don't want you to hurt yourself crying Do this for all of us D: It's not your fault. I should've just gotten over it, but I have such a tough time moving on. And I can't stop, that's the problem. It is my fault I handled it badly, and now you have to suffer Don't be too hard on yourself about moving on either Time heals all wounds, and eventually this will be but a slight scar... I'm sorry crying I promise, you handled it fine. I couldn't think of anything else you could've said.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:11 pm
The Ravenclaw Beauty SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty Thanks for listening and helping out. But somehow I can't think of any times where cutting yourself and having an eating disorder would be good. I'm sorry about this Raven emo Like always, i handled it badly and ended up hurting someone Man my life sucks gonk But don't cut yourself, it'll get you no where It is dangerous, and caring for you, i don't want you to hurt yourself crying Do this for all of us D: It's not your fault. I should've just gotten over it, but I have such a tough time moving on. And I can't stop, that's the problem. It is my fault I handled it badly, and now you have to suffer Don't be too hard on yourself about moving on either Time heals all wounds, and eventually this will be but a slight scar... I'm sorry crying I promise, you handled it fine. I couldn't think of anything else you could've said. D: Well, if there's anything that can help ease your suffering, just ask I would be happy to help you as well as I can
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:14 pm
Divine_Malevolence Tabihito As many of you may well know, I plan on joining the military after college. I'll graduate as a second lieutenant in the USAF, and proceed to go wherever I am ordered to go. However, you may or may not be aware that my parents do not approve of this decision. At all.
I have tried just about everything. I've tried having them talk to the commandant of the Corps of Cadets, I've tried explaining that I will not and in fact cannot be a pilot or navigator, that I'm likely to spend the majority of my time on base as a "developmental engineer" specializing in astronautical engineering (hopefully). Either that or I'll end up a physicist, neither of which lends itself well to going out in actual combat.
Still, try as I might, they simply do not agree with my decision.
Which is hard for me. I want them to like me, to be proud of me, even if the path I choose isn't necessarily what they wanted for me. Today, I went out shopping with my mom for some basic supplies, as I leave for school this month. Picked up about fifteen pairs of underwear (mine always seem to get eaten and/or destroyed by the washing machine or dryer), a new pair of running shoes because mine are horribly worn down, a bath robe, an alarm clock, a desk lamp, some soap and stuff...
Then we got to the socks. My packing list says, very specifically:
"SOCKS, Black for L/Q Shoes (reinforced toes/heels) - 10+ (pair)
SOCKS, White athletic (cover mid calf) - 10 (pair)"
And my mom exploded at me, in the middle of Target, ranting about how I'm ruining my life and wasting my talents by joining the military.
I hate living with this, and yet I feel powerless to stop it. The decision is mine to make, and I know that this is where I want to go, what I want to do. My parents have known for years that I wanted to work for the government in some form or capacity, but I guess they always thought I'd be able to go to NASA straight out of college, or they deluded themselves into thinking I would stop loving flight as I do and go be happy as a doctor.
I know that I can't be happy taking my degree and going to work for Boeing, or some other private corporation, and I also know that banking on being able to work for NASA immediately is only another form of self-delusion. I also can't be happy dropping what I love and studying something else to please my parents, but at the same time, I'm also not happy knowing that they hate my decision.
And it's just hard to deal with. Honestly, this month really can't go by quickly enough. ...... Perhaps they think you'll become a dog of the military? I honestly don't know. They've never once given me a real, clear reason why they disapprove.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:15 pm
Tabihito Divine_Malevolence Tabihito As many of you may well know, I plan on joining the military after college. I'll graduate as a second lieutenant in the USAF, and proceed to go wherever I am ordered to go. However, you may or may not be aware that my parents do not approve of this decision. At all.
I have tried just about everything. I've tried having them talk to the commandant of the Corps of Cadets, I've tried explaining that I will not and in fact cannot be a pilot or navigator, that I'm likely to spend the majority of my time on base as a "developmental engineer" specializing in astronautical engineering (hopefully). Either that or I'll end up a physicist, neither of which lends itself well to going out in actual combat.
Still, try as I might, they simply do not agree with my decision.
Which is hard for me. I want them to like me, to be proud of me, even if the path I choose isn't necessarily what they wanted for me. Today, I went out shopping with my mom for some basic supplies, as I leave for school this month. Picked up about fifteen pairs of underwear (mine always seem to get eaten and/or destroyed by the washing machine or dryer), a new pair of running shoes because mine are horribly worn down, a bath robe, an alarm clock, a desk lamp, some soap and stuff...
Then we got to the socks. My packing list says, very specifically:
"SOCKS, Black for L/Q Shoes (reinforced toes/heels) - 10+ (pair)
SOCKS, White athletic (cover mid calf) - 10 (pair)"
And my mom exploded at me, in the middle of Target, ranting about how I'm ruining my life and wasting my talents by joining the military.
I hate living with this, and yet I feel powerless to stop it. The decision is mine to make, and I know that this is where I want to go, what I want to do. My parents have known for years that I wanted to work for the government in some form or capacity, but I guess they always thought I'd be able to go to NASA straight out of college, or they deluded themselves into thinking I would stop loving flight as I do and go be happy as a doctor.
I know that I can't be happy taking my degree and going to work for Boeing, or some other private corporation, and I also know that banking on being able to work for NASA immediately is only another form of self-delusion. I also can't be happy dropping what I love and studying something else to please my parents, but at the same time, I'm also not happy knowing that they hate my decision.
And it's just hard to deal with. Honestly, this month really can't go by quickly enough. ...... Perhaps they think you'll become a dog of the military? I honestly don't know. They've never once given me a real, clear reason why they disapprove. I hate how people do that. But, if they refuse to give you a good reason, there's no real reason to not go ahead with it.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:16 pm
@Tabi:
Joining the military is NOT a waste of your time!!! Think about the benefits in the future, you can get pension at the age of 45 and retire early so you can watch the money roll in from the Gov't!!!!!!!
My doctor regretted not joining the military since she would have had free schooling and get tons of money and health/insurance benefits for the Gov't.
Your talents can still be pursued in life, since it's not going away quickly.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 9:19 pm
SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty SoulSkourer The Ravenclaw Beauty Thanks for listening and helping out. But somehow I can't think of any times where cutting yourself and having an eating disorder would be good. I'm sorry about this Raven emo Like always, i handled it badly and ended up hurting someone Man my life sucks gonk But don't cut yourself, it'll get you no where It is dangerous, and caring for you, i don't want you to hurt yourself crying Do this for all of us D: It's not your fault. I should've just gotten over it, but I have such a tough time moving on. And I can't stop, that's the problem. It is my fault I handled it badly, and now you have to suffer Don't be too hard on yourself about moving on either Time heals all wounds, and eventually this will be but a slight scar... I'm sorry crying I promise, you handled it fine. I couldn't think of anything else you could've said. D: Well, if there's anything that can help ease your suffering, just ask I would be happy to help you as well as I can Thanks. I don't really think anything can help me, I'm used to getting over stuff by myself.
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