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 Posted: Sun Jul 17, 2011 4:41 am
epic-writer42 *Is sun burnt again.*You would think I would learn by now. *pets* I either burn or nothing happens at all. Thus I am always very pale.
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Posted: Sun Jul 17, 2011 9:12 am
Booom shaka laka booooom!!
I couldnt sleep at all , soo much on my mind, I really really just want to be there, life is tough.
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Posted: Mon Jul 18, 2011 7:23 pm
I have come to a great realization.
I don't have to put up with abuse. There are buttons for it. Glorious, shining, brilliant buttons. One click and I never have to deal with them ever again.
If only everything were so easy.
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Posted: Mon Jul 18, 2011 7:36 pm
bring on the heat, gets me more time outside to sunbathe =w=
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 12:43 pm
My ex-best friend is now smoking pot.
I wouldn't doubt it if she also drinks.
She's trying to get some guy to break up with his girlfriend so she can hook up with him.
Basically she's completely changing who she is and going against her "morals" to fit in with a group of people that don't even like her.
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Yeah, glad I stopped being friends with her when I did..
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 1:32 pm
Who does my coworker think she is trying to give me relationship advice about how you can't be in a relationship with someone faraway that they're just someone you talk to online. If that were true I wouldn't be here today cause my grandparents originally started out as pen pals.
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 1:58 pm
Ungrateful little girl. scream
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 2:06 pm
epic-writer42 Who does my coworker think she is trying to give me relationship advice about how you can't be in a relationship with someone faraway that they're just someone you talk to online. If that were true I wouldn't be here today cause my grandparents originally started out as pen pals.
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 2:09 pm
A world of echoes and fallen gods...
I hate not being able to call his phone... I haven't heard from him in a while now, and it always worries this much time passes between us talking...
Where all is shadowed, no rights or wrongs...
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 2:13 pm
Calling Shenanigans My ex-best friend is now smoking pot.
I wouldn't doubt it if she also drinks.
She's trying to get some guy to break up with his girlfriend so she can hook up with him.
Basically she's completely changing who she is and going against her "morals" to fit in with a group of people that don't even like her.
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Yeah, glad I stopped being friends with her when I did.. That sounds just like a former friend of mine... except switch the drinking and the pot.
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 2:16 pm
I had a friend who started doing coke IN school and she was always talking about going out partying once school was out, needless to say i stopped hanging out with her shortly after.
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 2:58 pm
Today I was in a rather bad mood. I've been angry all day at everyone, for no apparent reason. I've been wanting to hit something all day and I finally caved in and punched a window and now I had some glass in my hand. I took it all out and cleaned myself up and left. I went out for a run to try and clear up my head, but it didn't help. I've been looking more and more forward to recruit training lately, I guess I'm looking forward to getting away from all of this. Although I don't quiet know what "this" is I just know I'm getting more and more irritated the more days that go by. I beat myself up everyday basically, between the exercises that I do, the runs I go on, the diet I put myself on, and all the grooming I do to keep myself as presentable as possible I'm just tired of trying to make myself somebody to appease everyone. I want to bad to just tell everyone to go away and leave me alone. I can't though because while I want so much to be alone and by myself I also want people there with me. So yes, I'll continue to wake up everyday and put on my fake smile. I'll make sure that all the jokes last while I try to maintain the image you all hold of me.
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Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 9:22 pm
I keep having moods, for a while now. Not as bad as before, not nearly. But I feel incapable of being happy. I'm not angry, I'm not sad, I'm not happy. I'm just there. I don't know. I'm not happy; but I'm not unhappy.
It irritates me that I should be decently content. Yet I'm not. I'll have spurts of time where I feel okay, when I talk to people regularly. But I'm just... not.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just addicted to being depressed.
I hope at least I can draw again soon and not look at it without wanting to spit on the paper. I've drawn a proper sketch on paper twice in the past two months. Twice.
I used to draw more than I slept.
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Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2011 6:35 am
Hope is all I have. I know he won't be able to survive much longer, I do - and I want to forget that, but there's a part of me that can't ignore it. Hope is all I have.
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