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Ishira lowered her eyes, not to sure how to approach the subject anymore. He had pushed it aside which hugged her heart tightly sending a small pain from it. He may have said he didnt want to confuse her, but he did, even if it was unintentional. Maybe he was just saying he wouldnt acknowledge what she felt, which wasnt surprising... She sighed, her eyes going back to him as she tried to concentrate more on what he was saying then what was going through her head. It wasnt important to him, so she needed to rid herself of those feelings somehow. Something tugged on her heart as she looked at his smile but she some how managed to have a neutral look on her face.

"Ill learn... Its not like im uncomfortable with the idea of sharing my essence, as long as they arent like Adara then im fine. As it is, I already feel Kyuuketsukis emotions and hear her thoughts when our connection is strong. Shes already part of me, as i am already part of her..." She wanted to bring up the seal again, but didnt and instead let out a heavy sigh, her body slightly slouching over as she did. She needed some type of control over something because she was losing herself, and she wasnt sure how great that would be.

"An act is an act, its when you confuse it that i begin to think it wasnt. " She snapped back, standing straight and crossing her arms, one hand to each side, squeezing tightly as she tried to maintain her neutral stare. It wasnt working, not after the small hint of sadness he had given her and not after his comment. She felt she needed to defend herself, though he clearly already knew the truth behind what was going on. She hated it, hated that he could read her so well and yet she wasnt sure what he was giving her...
"Honestly, it was an act, and then on further thoughts, i became confused with myself and with you. I dont understand the things you do nor do i understand why the hell i want more then i have. I dont expect anything in return, but at times, i wonder if you dont want to lose me just because im your student or if its something else..." She wanted to step away, to shut her mouth and not say another damn word but she didnt stop. Her eyes searched his as she tried forming the right words. "Your doing things to me... And you know you are, and yet... Yet you dont acknowledge them, or you try to push them off. I want truth, i want to know what you want so i can leave it as it is or deal with it. "

"I have no clue how long ill live... Yes normally we live thousands of years.. But im not like the rest of my kind.. The instability between the light and darkness in me will eventually tear me apart... It was suppose to already have.... My life isnt in my hands any more then yours is so each moment is important to me..." Ishiras hands tightened and she lowered her head. She was weak, so horribly weak and she didnt know why she was telling him all of this. She had never once told anyone what her mother had said, how she should have died before her first hundred years. Some how shed made it, and she gave the credit all to the training she never stopped doing. She was striving to live, working as hard as she could. Her eyes started to well up in tears as she looked up at him again. She thought that it would have been easier for her, just to hear him say something other then what he had but it brought more questions to mind. She managed a smile but she held herself tightly.

"I did want more... I still do, but i dont want to be a burden let alone start acting like Ally... I dont want to leave, i dont want to be forced to leave... I rarely ever get to have any emotion or truth to anything, and i....." Ishira stopped, looking down again and thinking about what she wanted to say. He loved her? How? She wasnt anything important, she wasnt something that would be much worth to him... Or at least thats what she thought. And..

Just say it! You know you want to! Kyuus voice rang with such a hyper tone it made Ishira flinch. Her eyes drifted up to him, seeing each emotion and feeling her chest tighten. He wasnt lying, he wasnt playing a game.. But she didnt know if she could trust herself, if she could trust her emotions at all. Wasnt it her.. No, she wasnt her fox, she couldnt blame it on that.

"Im.. feeling that as well.. Im.. " She was whispering, her voice shaking as she looked back down. Tears were escaping her eyes and she wasnt sure how it would come out, but it would. "Im feeling love for you as well... "

"Im not going to decimate my resolve and i am not broken!" Ishira snapped at him, glaring at him lightly before her eyes softened and she cleared the tears from her eyes. It made her happy to hear that she wasnt like Ally, though so many times she felt she was, and many times she was sure she was. She sighed, letting go of her sides before tilting her head and smirking slightly.

"You dont want to break me, yet you come so close to it so many times. I can deal with my training and this, i promise that... As long as i can i will.." As long as she lived that is, but she wouldnt say that. She held back, knowing that she didnt want him to turn away from her, nor did she want this to end. She watched him, seeing him the way she always fought not to see him. It brought relief but sadness, knowing that any time either of them could leave the other completely alone... She needed to lighten the moment so she pulled her arms behind her, and smiled, the biggest smile she could muster as she bowed slightly. She tilted her head a bit more and lowered her eyes playfully, her tunic moving away from her chest and showing their curves. "As far as the dominating part. I think youve already done that."

She watched him, fixed on the colors of his eyes. For the first time, they were different colors, which made her want to touch him. She felt shivers lace themselves through out her back and down her spine to the tips of her fingers and toes. Her eyes grew a bit wider, showing her excitement in many different ways. She watched him carefully though, ready to jump back if he suddenly started acting odd. She kept her hands still behind her back so that she wouldnt reach out for him. She could feel her body slightly trembling though, unsure of how to react to his sudden look, or the way that he watched her. She felt like pray, but at the same time something of great worth. She kept herself still until he approached her and lifted her from her bow. Her hands went to her side, relaxed but urging her to reach up to him.

"Are you going to break me then?" She asked as he kissed her. She closed her eyes, leaning in slightly to show she didnt mind the kiss at all and purred a bit before he pulled away. She was surprised to see him still staring directly at her and became a little self conscious, looking away for a moment as her face turned red. It seemed her old reaction was back again. "I want to be with you as well... " Her blush grew at his last comment and she gaped as she tried to figure out what to exactly say to it. She did not expect him to flirt back.

Ishira didnt answer, she didnt know how to explain it. She didnt want to but then again she did... She had been jealous of Ally and the others, and couldnt control that or even understand that... <******** it, i dont care anymore.." Ishira growled before wrapping her arms around him. She kissed him just as passionately as he kissed her, pressing against him, her eyes closed but her mouth hungry for his. Shen she couldnt control the eagerness welling up in her she pulled away from the kiss. Her arms still around him, but her eyes open slightly with a large grin on her face. "Now teacher, you had things you wanted to teach me?"

Ishira touched the hand that hand touched her cheek, following it until he turned around. She continued to stay close to him, taking a place next to him so close that they almost touched as she looked back to Tabris. She didnt want her attention to be on the girl, but for the time she was ok.. Fine, nothing seemed to bug her that much and she started to finally relax. Tension left her frame and she was relieved. He spoke about the river of light and it didnt worry her as much as it probably should have, but she looked back at him, wondering if shed lose to the river so soon after she had finally decided to take what she wanted.

"I have more reasons to focus and i wont let the River take me... If i become lost, ill find my way back." She wanted to say shed find her way back to him, but it was an odd feeling, thinking thoughts like that again.