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 Posted: Tue May 24, 2011 11:37 pm
LifeSuxEatCake cave_dweller_candy It's too hard to say goodbye. I'll miss you all. Caaave? /hug sidenote, first on pg 600 ;D
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Posted: Tue May 24, 2011 11:43 pm
Hi, I just want a post on page 600 =P
I also want to say... I loooove the way things are going latelyyyy @___@ <3333
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 1:33 am
600. Feels like ages. Would've been 1440, and the secondmost highest number of pages in this guild ever, I think...
Dying is an art, like everything else.
I do it exceptionally well.
I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 3:11 am
Mickeymoot Ugh, I can't remember.
Is it:
Je te manque. OR Tu me manque. ?
I miss you. You I miss. j'pufcdhtezkl
Tu me manque: I miss you
I think both would apply for you
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 3:55 am
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 12:21 pm
Maris Pallitax Cannibal Horsey *sigh* Boyfriend is being a git. Yeh, lets spend the whole day sleeping and playing video games and then moan at you (who has spent the whole day studying for exams that are in two days) for not doing all the housework!
Oh well if you wanna take it that way why the ******** do you end up with rubbish in your room that has LITERALLY been there MONTHS?! Or get pissed at me when I tidy up your s**t hole of a room?! Or why hasn't the kitchen bin been emptied? SURLY YOU'VE NOTICED IT?! BECAUSE I'M MEANT TO DO EVERYTHING AREN'T I?! It's not ENOUGH that I make you're ******** MEALS and make sure you ACTUALLY GET UP FOR WORK and then act like a ******** TAXI SERVICE when you refuse to do so! Go ******** yourself, right now I am not dealing with you
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 12:24 pm
That one night I woke up to a voicemail from her. She's walking into my life again. How did this happen? I'm a mess as it is. >_X If she's making things difficult for you ask her to back off, that is if you want her back at some point. If you don't want her there tell her to gtfo. heart
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 5:30 pm
Since she's trying to change my phone plan to something less ridiculously expensive, my mom has my phone. I didn't delete my texts before I gave it to her. She's been known to snope through my stuff before, let's see if she's learned to not abuse that trust again.
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 6:31 pm
o3o Letting out some pent up feelings. Ignore this if you want~
I can't stand the summer. It's hot. I quickly run out of things I want to do. More often than not, I'm in a bad mood.
There are some good things that's happened, though. XD Though she informed me a little late, my first and best friend has invited me to her high school graduation. I've known her since she was in 1st grade, and I was in 2nd. In fact, she's the sole reason why I have my online friends now. Had she not pointed me in the right direction all those years ago... I can't even imagine it. 8D So I'm super proud of her for completing high school, and later moving on to college many miles away from me. *sob*
Another good note: I walk dogs for a job. While one of the dog owners will be moving next week, the other two I work for have plans this weekend. Extra money is always good. And since I'll be down $120 a month, I'm glad I get to work, even if it's not a lot in the end.
However, with the good news comes the bad. Since I'm not in school, and won't be until September, I've been around my friends more than usual. Being near these friends, well, I get to hear things. Now, I kinda feel bad when I say this, but... Sometimes, I get to hear about how my friends' family is, and well, I'm envious of that. I'm glad to hear that things are going well for them, but I can't help but go, "Huh. It must be nice to be like that." But at least they're happy. I'm sure I would feel worse if they weren't.
I think I mentioned it once before... I probably have. But still, it tends to weigh on my mind. I've been told at least once before to "be happy." I frequently go over that conversation so I can try to comprehend whatever was being said to me at the time, but something's not clicking. I'm sure my life isn't as bad as others are, but I don't see how I can "be happy" about it. It makes me a bad person to see it that way, but my normal life isn't the one I need. D: I want things to be better, dammit. Isn't that why I'm working so hard now? I need for things to get better, sooner rather than later would be perfect, world.
I really can't handle this anymore. I don't even know what "this" is, all I know that I can't handle it. These petty feelings. I've been told that I "should be willing to talk to people you trust and consider friends," but I can't. I kinda don't trust my friends. I know they want what's best for me; I feel the same way for them... But there's only so much they can do. I constantly go over what has been said to me when it comes to advice, and I try to use it the best way I can. That's all that can be done, though. Considering I feel that I'm a burden to others when it comes to anything pertaining to my feelings, all I can do is listen, and try not to act out again. I need to work on not talking so much. Everyone has their own lives to live, as well as their own burdens to take on. I don't need to be one of them.
Man, my head is killing me.
Woah, that's a lot of writing. Er, typing. D: Where was this when I needed it for my class work? *sob*
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 7:48 pm
600?
Even though I have a whole crapload of work I didn't expect, things are starting to somewhat look up. Of course I know once I say this my life is going to be hit by a whole large batch of bad luck.
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 7:52 pm
No! I'm not going to let those two ruin another weekend for me, especially a four day weekend!
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 8:36 pm
I don't know what I'm going to do. Tim, who's been there for me through... everything, is going to Field Training at the start of June. And for an entire month, I won't be able to talk to him at all.
He called me earlier. I don't ordinarily like speaking to people on the phone, I'm just bad at it, and it always makes me uncomfortable. But I've never been so happy to hear someone's voice before. I hadn't realized how much I missed seeing him every day. He asked me to tell my parents before he leaves. About what happened, about the phone call I got. Because he would feel responsible if anything happened to me while he was gone.
And at this point, I guess I have to. I don't want him to worry. It wouldn't be fair for him. And when he says it the way he did... He's my best friend. Is it wrong of me to feel these walls I've built up melt a little when he says, "Gabrielle, I care about you"? Probably is, on some level. And drat it all, but if I could help it, I would.
I'm afraid, though. I don't know how my parents will take it. It's been close to four years now, and it still.... I still have nightmares about it. My parents tend to criticize everything I do, but this... I can't take criticism. Not about this.
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Posted: Wed May 25, 2011 9:02 pm
Yay 600!
I hate it when my family starts yelling and arguing.
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Posted: Thu May 26, 2011 7:58 am
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Posted: Thu May 26, 2011 2:31 pm
I'm all... sexually frustrated T_____T
I actually have found someone I can do sexy RPs with, which at least kind of helps a little bit, but I don't have someone who shares the same... kinks as me... I need my princeyyyyy =(
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