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*Hugs back*
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The one and only.

I know the feeling. *PatPat* Always the nice/pretty ones that get taken advantage. Don't fall into that loop. Or else it'll keep going. Dont' take s**t from anyone. Guys, family, whoever. Being selfish is actually good sometimes. You'll get it. 3nodding

And one more Meano rant/bitchtype thing.
Woop.

[Rant]
Okay, so my parents told me last night that we were going to church, for the first time in almost a year, this morning. I hate going to church, because no matter HOW I dress, I get dirty looks from everyone, even if I smile at them. So I really didnt wanna go, especially to this church, Shiloh. I had unfinished business with an old boyfriend of mine, and I didn't know exactly how I would deal with him and his PARENTS, who despise me for no real reason, once I was faced with it.

So last night I go to bed at midnight, after taking a sleep aid/tylonol, cause I had a headache anyway, and thought long and hard about the situation. I would appologise for what happened (Which we will leave completely out of the story, unless you would like to ask me specifically in PM or IM LATER) between the two of us if he was there. When I finally got to sleep it was about 2 am.

At about 3-4 am I am woken by a huge crash of thunder, immediately followed by a series of over 10 more crashes and lightning flashes, that last at least 20 minutes. So I lost more sleep because of that.

Then, when morning is finally upon me (Mind you we have to leave for church at 10) mother desides to get up at 8 and awake me from my not so beauty sleep. (I had weird dreams, and I MEAN REALLY WEIRD, last night.) I did not know it was 8 am, not that it mattered. I was extremely tired, still. Well she comes back in 3 minutes later, saying "Oops, my bad, its only 8, you have a lot more sleep left!". To which my responce was exactly "Grr." and then sleeping some more. Well then mom desides not to come wake me at 9-9:30, but instead wakes me at 9:50, so I only have 10 minutes to get ready. To which I mumble and curse to myself as I rush to get ready. Then we finally left, and the carride there was silent, because she didn't even want to go anymore, and was being a b***h about it with her body language the WHOLE ride in.

Needless to say, by this point I am pretty upset, but hiding it well, something I've learned over the years.

So we get there, and walk inside. While I'm following my parents to a seat, I am looking for the ex, assuming that he IS there. I do not see him, but do spot his parents, who glare at me as I walk by. I then spot his sister, who he USUALLY sits with, but didn't today. So he is there somewhere.

Then worship starts, and I stood up, only after my dad did. Mom only sang about half the songs, which is very unlike her. She was, again, showing her displeasure for all the world to notice. At this point I am flat out pissed at her, and really just straining to find the guy. About halfway through the worship seesion I saw him. So the rest of worship consisted of trying to make eye contact while singing along and not looking too descreat.(sp?)

Finally worship ends. We make eyecontact as he sists down. He looks nervous. I swear in my head; he is not glad to see me . As the preaching starts I get figity, and pretty much just count the minutes for the damn thing to end, as I am uncomfortable enough, being able to look straight at his parents through the whole thing, while mom huffs and puffs because it is moderately warm in the chappel.

Then, FINALLY, it ended. I jumped up from my seat as my parents moved for the door, said hi to the guy's sister, and bolted as fast as I could at a walking pace, in the direction of where he was sitting. He had left already. Little did I know, he was avioding me. I rushed out the other door, to see him straight ahead of me, and to see him turn and make a speedy exit, when it registers that he is trying to NOT talk to me. I curse once more. My parents turn the corner, and I inform them that I am looking for someone. They say they'll wait in the car. I literally bolt across the grass and back in to the chappel after the guy, and after looking around the main preaching room, realise that he went to a side room. I walk toward it as casually as I can mannage, see him finally, and wait for one of his friends to move because his mother is calling. As soon as the friend moves, he sees me, sighs, rolls his eyes, and says 'great.' My eyes begin to fill with tears, and I almost leave. He says hi. I reply with exactly, "You don't want to talk to me." He nods slightly and says, "It's kind of awkward." I as ask if I can at least shake his hand, and he sighs and opens his arms to hug me. I almost loose it. "I just wanted to appologise for everything that's happened." I say.

His eyes widen. "Really? Wow..." he says. I almost glare, but then chuckle ever so slightly. "Yeah. I want us to be friends." and from then on, it was nearly as awkward, and when I left, we hugged again, and smiled. Then I got in the car. God help me, I wanted to just murder my mom. Bitching about everything she possibly could, as usual. She ALWAYS wants to go to church, but when we do, all she does is b***h. Then we went to eat, and talk about the very WORST subject they could have. My family. I really hate my grandmother's side of the family, which is who we talked about. It only made me not want to eat. It took up my entire breakfast. Our waitress sucked, so we didn't tip, which just made me feel worse, and then I came home only to vegetate for 6 hours. I feel like s**t. I don't want to sleep, and then, just the straw the broke the cammel's back, I see a thread about a girl I had some respect for, loosing her virginity, and announcing it publically to people she only knows over the net. So help me God, I wanted to vomit. If she doesn't like be because of this, so be it, but you know what, that is just not cool. [/rant]

wow...

you people really get riled up over this.


honestly. so what?
it's one of those "taboo" subjects and then when one person brings it up, everyone is all "yay. yay! someone else said it" and then other people jump on em.

yes this is a pg-13 site.
ad i know more than half of you have said or done things in here or out there on the site that go FAR beyond the pg-13 rating.
last time i checked U.S. tv, pg-13 now includes all swear words and breast flashing.
so the Pg-13 thing is a load of bunk to be honest and is peoples way of hiding form issues they don't like.

unless were in here talking about VIOLENCE, BLOOD, RAPE and all those things which are OBVIOUSLY not pg-13, then any subject people post about is cool.


i for one say YAY Jess.
you fixed your problem.
i remember you being in tears over this before. this situation.
and now you feel better.

and to the rest i say this.

she did it BY choice.
her choice.
no one elses.

some of us arn't that lucky.

be thankful for that and be happy she thinks of us all as good enough friends to share it with us.

congrats Jess. i'm serious.. I'm happy to see your happy.

*soap factory burns down. Box is suspected as source of arson*

hmm. i think this is worthy of going in the b***h thread..
*sends it on over*

No one was blaming/accusing her of doing anything wrong.. :/
Everyone was simply stating their opions on sex these days. It wasn't directly towards Jess or anyone else. And it was a good oppurtunity for people to say what they thought..

On the other hand though [also, this is only in my opinion], yes, i'm glad that she's happy that she lost her virginity, but i dont see how thats something to make a whole thread about.

lol.
shadow, in my defence: i'm used to Pg-13 in Canada.
or at least what passes for it out where i am. 3nodding


damn you put to much effort into your responses to this silly boy. xp

rofl