Okay, let me start off: I don't even have the ability to go for the anonymous "The_Voice" because, well, apparently I'm not supposed to be included in this? I'd like to say a few things anyway, even if I'm not particularly welcome, because I'm still a fa'e owner, and I know some of you, and I've had stuff with Neith in the past.
Firstly, Neith: now I see why you were so touchy in the GMFC when I rolled through recently. I had no idea this was going on. I'd like you to know that I have never once posted as "The_Voice" and had nothing to do with any of the stuff going on here because, hey, I wasn't invited to the party, yeah? I only just read all of it today.
But on the subject of my ignoring you, I'll address that very directly. Yes, I ignore you. I've never really understood your behavior in my shop all those months ago, and while I'm generally willing to let things slide by, I recognized that you were the kind of person I would rather not deal with, so my solution has been to simply not deal with you. I'm sorry if this offends you, I certainly don't do it out of malice. But I think it's just easier on both of us if we don't really interact. I'd hate to have a repeat instance of your behavior to me in the past.
Still, I'd like you to know I don't ignore you out of any sort of malice or dislike, honest. It just seems to me that ignoring you is the best way to avoid any upsetting situations. I have a hard enough time with stuff without adding to my burdens.
On the bipolar issue: I've been told by several psychologists/psychiatrists/etc. that I'm mentlly unstable, that I should be medicated, blah blah blah. And then told by an equal number that I shouldn't be medicated. None of them can agree on a diagnosis. I've had labels like "ADD" and "bipolar" and "scizophrenic" and "borderline" and "severely depressed" shoved at me and I came to one simple conclusion:
I am not crazy. Well, okay, I am, BUT! The whole field of psychology is bunk. It's just another way for people to hide behind a label and cry that they deserve special treatment because they have this disorder or that disorder (and if you can name it, chances are someone's told me I've got it) and you should treat them special because of it.
Yet from my experience, everyone experiences a little bit of all those disorders at one point or another. The reason we think it's all so crazy is because most people won't talk about it. We all feel depressed sometimes, we all have manic moments, and I think maybe, just maybe, that sometimes other people must get paranoid about stuff the way I do. In other words, we are all suffering from the same disorder, known as "LIVING." It's not easy to do this living thing! We're humans, plagued by doubts and insecurities, beset by worries and fears.
The only thing we can do is decide how much those fears and worries control our lives. You seem to be at a point where I was not to long ago, grabbing for the label and suddenly feeling "hey, everything's okay! I've got an explanation!" only the label doesn't really change anything, and the doctors might tell you to take drugs because of it. And I'm afraid that the narcissism the doctor's "diagnosed" me with prevents me from believing there is any sort of problem with me that I can't deal with through my own power. Ergo, I absolutely refuse to take any drugs or listen to any psychologist who advises me to take such actions.
This is not to say that I don't believe there aren't some folk out there with some VERY, VERY serious problems who need and deserve psychiatric help. It's just that most of us just need to learn how to deal with life, especially at your age.
Unless, of course, it turns out you are older than me. O_o But I thought I heard you were younger by a few years? Oh well, age doesn't matter. We all have troubling times in our life when the world seems too much and too hard and people hate us.
Of course, it might just be you and me, Neith. But you come sit over here and we can talk about how everyone who claims not to have our problems is a liar and a coward. Of course, maybe our lives are only more difficult at this point because our futures are so much greater? All those truly great people had terribly interesting lives, after all. Like Hemingway and ... someone ... I just woke up. Leave me alone!
xd Syrenrei
When RikProwley, furthermore referred to simply as Em, came along, I was upset she didn't want to partake in our Fa'e community. I couldn't imagine why and for some reason took it personally. Being naive, I complained to a friend of mine who is also coincidentally one of Em's friends and she asked me why I was so upset... rather, "Is it just because she doesn't want to be part of your clique?" Amazing, isn't it? Her first page was even offensive and did anyone have a trial about taking away her Fa'e? No. Now I admire her; she wasn't afraid of what people would think. I was. I was walking on eggshells afraid to upset someone.
Not wanting to be in the clique? I would like to point something out: I was never invited. I was honestly surprised to hear there were AIM chats and things going on. I've been told that it's because people didn't want me to win the auction, they wanted Orasteele and Britain to win. I've been told it's because I didn't want people posting gifts in my diary. WTF?? Can't I have one lovely, continuous story in my diary? I don't like going through other people's diaries and here I am reading a serious RP and suddenly, "HEERE L00K! I bught u a presnt!!!1" with a picture of some pixelated item of food. I dislike that crap. So if asking that it just not be posted directly in the diary was such a crime, then fine! Screw the clique!
And I've been told it's because Neith went around telling people not to RP with me.
I bid in the auction for one reason and one reason only. I love Anya's art, and I love Zev. I would think that love of Anya's art and love of our own fa'e would be something we could all unify behind but apparently not. Of course, there was another reason I bid in the auction... I admired several of the guardians immensely and wanted to roleplay with them and be in their group.
But you know what? Ya shut me out. I don't really know why anyone did it, but that's what happened and them's the breaks.
But that's okay. I understand, apparently more than everyone else here, that on the Internet we can choose who we want to interact with. If you don't want to interact with me, that's fine! I won't force you to! Which brings me to a couple of points.
If y'all have a problem with Neith, then seriously, just ignore her. It's so trying to have to deal with somebody and then think the problem is resolved only it comes back two weeks later because nothing changes. If you continue to deal with that person, the problems will just come back, and create more bad feelings until everyone is upset, and then THIS happens.
Neith, don't take it so hard. These are just a bunch of people who, as much as it seems they've got it together and they dislike you, are hiding behind the Internet and dislike themselves even more. I know it's hard to not take it personally and deal with it -- believe me do I know, because as much as you get shut out, I get shut out, too -- but just grab ahold of yourself and move on. What's happened has happened and you can't change it, but you can change the future. Please don't hide behind some label just because you fit it. Believe me, most people can say yes to those survey things and fall under the definition and that's EXACTLY what the psychologists and -drug companies- want, becuse it means more money in their pockets. (Ha ha, can you tell someone's really ticked off at that whole industry?) But in any event, all these supposedly-great people spend how many hours of their life on this forum?? Y'know what, Neith? They're all losers! (And yes, I suppose this means we are too, but what the hell!) They're not worth your time and your worry! They're no better than you or I are, they just act that way.
Annnnnd I think I'm done. *bows and exits*
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