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It's her old Role play character. xDDD;

I couldn’t help but sight slightly as I finally found a clearing in the forest. At last some peace and quiet. When I had first met normal Ulayas I had been extreme flattered by all the attention they were giving me. I knew that it was mainly my different wings that made them pay attention to me, but that wasn’t the only thing they talked about. They all gave me compliments on my deep green fur colour, and my beautiful golden-yellow markings. I admit I took it to me. I lapped it all up, like a hungry kitten greedily drinking its milk. I allowed it to get to my head. Who wouldn’t? They treated me like royalty. Everywhere I went, the males would flock around me, coming with flirting remarks, and the females would suck up to me, to my face of course. When I turned my back on them, or I was out of hearing range, the song got a different tune. Naturally, I didn’t know about that at first. I was stupid. Young. Not used to the real world. Or at least not a real world where I was head-turning different. Where I came from, I was nothing special. I wasn’t exactly ugly, but I was nothing special either.

After a few weeks, I started picking up on things that I hadn’t noticed before. Females crowding together and sending me glares, obviously talking about me. How the males where starting to expect more than just a few kind words from me, in reward for their attention. It was starting to upset me a bit. But I still chose to ignore it. Perhaps I was just making a big deal out of nothing? I mean. Why would they all of a sudden turn their backs on me like that?

I must confess that I must’ve been a royal pain. But I swear it was only because of the way there were treating me. They were treating me as if they were lowly, so I ended up just going along with it. It’s not really in my nature. To treat people like that, I mean. If I’m being in my normal element, I’m quite grounded. I guess that attention really does make a fool.

Well. Let’s just say I got smarter. Their on-going interest in all of my business, and then their backstabbing finally got to me. I started realizing that even the Ulayas I counted on the most, where saying things about me to their fellow Ulayas. I had considered them my friends! They hurt me so badly. I had never tried having my entire soul and body just ache from all the pain they made me feel. Every time a new compliment was directed at me, 10 glaring eyes would also be pointed in my direction. In the end, it was too much for me, but by now, I had been stuck in a role. And they wouldn’t let me step out of that role. I had to live up to their image of me. I had no way out.

For another few weeks, I tried to live with it. By now, I had been surrounded by these Ulayas for nearly a month. I couldn’t take it any more. I had to escape. I didn’t care where I ended up; I just had to get away. So tonight I did it. When everybody was asleep, I took off. Running as fast as I could, feeling the strong muscles of my hind legs work as I pounced through the forest, feeling with delight, the rush of the wind through my fur and grasping on to my wings. Those damned wings.

Which brings me here. A silent stream divides the clearing into two. I can’t help but feel a sense of serenity here. Feeling thirsty, I drink some of the water. The cold liquid immediately tranquilizes my throat, sore from my ragged breathing. I have no idea how far away I am. I do not care. All I care about is the fact that I’m not surrounded by them anymore. I lie down, giving my body some much needed rest.

Hearing a noise somewhere near the clearing, I jump up, trying to locate the sound. Hearing it once again, now behind me, I turn around and come face to face with another Ulaya. I do not recognize it. I hope for the best. Perhaps this is my new beginning?