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Crying or whining about rape is pathetic and useless. It does no good andonly give your atacker victory. Why be mental unstable about an event that was out of your hands? And why hate the man/woman that did it? Most of them are mentaly ill.

Become hateful, and use it. Hatred is a powerful fuel. I found that much out.


P.S. I'm no trying to insult or hurt anybody.

I will agree with wotfan, though I've never been raped or abused. Crying and being upset over it is a natural reaction, and in many cases it can't be helped. Something traumatic and upsetting happened to that person, and sometimes it's worse if the victim is a child.

Though I think wotfan, by "mentally ill" he meant that they were not crazy, but there has to be something wrong with someone if they get a kick out of raping children. In that sense, I think that's what he meant by "crazy". Not insane, just not mentally... sane. sweatdrop

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I see a therapist. And last night I told her the things that I've remembered. I wrote them out, and I gave it to her. Now she's telling me that she might have to "report it" cause I'm underage. Which is stupid... it was like two years ago. So now I'm all upset over that... I can't do that... I just can't...

I've kinda hurt at the moment (emotionally) so this might be jumpy.

Anyway my brother got some chick to touch him there. My Mom found out and threatened to kill him if he ever did it again. She says she can't forgive something like that.

By the way my brother is 14, the girl was 10.

I'm pissed cause the same thing happened to me when I was four, my cousin was 12. This went on for a few years, it wasn't just a one time thing. But my mother never did anything. When I told what had happened she refused to believe me. I was seven at the time and knew way more than any seven year old should so my mom said I was just mixing up the faces and it my father instead of my cousin.

Which is a complete ******** lie. It stopped when I was around six and I can still remember EVERYTHING. It was my cousin, no one else.

But she did absolutly nothing, she never talked about it again.

Hell she even let him live with us when I was 10 for years.

And she did nothing.

What is she trying to say? It was okay for me, a four year old girl to be sexually molested but for everyone else it's wrong?

Okay, that was more a rant but I really don't understand.

My mom doesn't want any part of it. She's probably be pretty angry if she knew I was talking about it to people, even nameless, faceless people on the internet.

I'm scared my family would hate me if I ever told the police. I'm scared they'll think it was somehow my fault.

Well this isn't really abuse but I can't find a better sticky to post this in so here goes. When I was very young I did things, sexual things with my male cousin, a few years older than me. I remember not wanting to but he'd say i was a chicken and stuff. I feel so horrible and dirty and now we go to the same school so I see him every day. I never told anyone about it. I see a counseller because of other stuff but I don't want to tell her about it because I feel too ashamed of all those things I did when I was a kid. I don't really know why I'm posting this I guess I just need to tell someone about it and you guys have no clue who I am so if you judge me online I can just create a new account.

*huggles* I totally support you.

I would have to say that the best thing to do, even if you don't decide to tell your family, is to talk about it in therapy. If you cannot get it out, it can lead to destructive behavior (I know this because I was molested by an ex bf before, and it led to me overeating from guilt).