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 Posted: Sun Apr 23, 2006 7:34 pm
Keiran yelped a bit when he felt the arms encircle his waist and his timetable fluttered uselessly to the floor. His hands went to the warm chest under him and could feel the slow and steady heartbeat under his right palm.
He had struggled slightly when he found himself being attacked with huggles but as soon as Kazz started kissing him all over he started protesting more
"Ah no." he cried trying to bury hius face against hte other boys neck. It was half playful but in there somewhere was the real sense he didn't want kazz kissing him. This was nothing but a cheap thrill, it wasn't going to last...as soon as Kazz got what he really wanted....then he would be done with him...unless of course he wanted another go and he would come back every now and then just to dip once more into the honey pot and then leave.
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Posted: Sun Apr 23, 2006 8:04 pm
Kazz reluctantly released the boy, allowing him escape. He gave him a slight pout.
"How am I supposed to show you how much I like you when you won't let me hug and kiss you?" he replied, getting into a sitting position. He tapped his chin thoughtfully, violet eyes cast ceilingward. "Hmmm...I guess I can treat you to breakfast. I---do you hear that?" He frowned, his eyes going to the door. What on earth was all that commotion i the hallway?
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Posted: Sun Apr 23, 2006 8:16 pm
Keiran thumped to the floor of his dorm and pulled on his clothes. He felt to vulnerable half naked and KAzz pawing at him without relent.
His eyes went to the door nad he could hear what was going on. He had heard enough fights in his life to know when a bad one was going on.
"I-I don't want to open the door" he murmured looking at it with weary eyes almost speckling into fear. He figited inside the uniform and hung on his small frame and he wrapped his arms around his knees and his chin lay on his knees.
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Posted: Sun Apr 23, 2006 8:34 pm
Kazz smiled reassuringly though he made no move to touch the boy. He was obviously uncomfortable, and Kazz hated knowing he was the cause of it.
"It's ok, Kei-chan. You don't have to be scared ... I told you that I would protect you, and I meant it." He tilted his head slightly. "If you'll let me. I don't want to impose upon you. I feel like you'd rather I left you alone."
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Posted: Sun Apr 23, 2006 8:36 pm
Keiri felt a blush creep up around his cheeks.
"I-I'm sorry." he mumbled "I didn't mean to..."
He was stumbling over his words to try and find an answer.
"I don't know what to say" he looked at the floor and let his legs cross and he picked random lint off of his pants.
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Posted: Sun Apr 23, 2006 8:47 pm
Kazuma climbed off the bed and bowed deeply to the troubled boy, a blonde streaked lock falling over one eye.. He straightened up and tossed the boy another friendly smile.
"Simply tell me what you want, and I'll do it. It's not really so complicated. All I ask is for the chance to prove myself to you Kei-chan. And if I have to keep my distance to do that, then so be it. I keep out of your way and keep you safe."
He stepped forward, cupping the boy's cheek within his hand for a second or two before withdrawing as though he'd been bitten.
"I'm sorry...I couldn't help it...I won't do it again, ne?"
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Posted: Sun Apr 23, 2006 8:50 pm
"N-no Kazu.." he couldn't find the words to finish the sentance
"I'ts not that i don't want you to stay....it's ..... i dont know how to trust anyone. I know that as soon as you get what you want from me...you're not gonna want me any more...you think you will...but you wont"
He idnd't know how else to put it, so there it was, his fear out on the table, and his knowledge of what guys were really like. Users.
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 3:55 pm
"Well...I can't make you trust me, ne? And I certainly wouldn't wanna force you into something you're just not ready for. And I don't what to do to make you believe me. I'm sorry that you don't but I know how I feel." He tilted his head, resting his cheek against his fist, his elbow propped on his knee.
"I think that Michale has really messed your head up. I wonder how long it will take me to undo the damage he's done..."
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 4:00 pm
Keiran widened his eyes and his face shot up to look at Kazz
Did he just say? He really did just say he was messed up in the head....
"Y-you really..." Keiran shouldn't have been surprised...he knew it was all just for the physicality of it, he shouldn't have expected him to be nice even this long...but he really didn't expect him to be so forward about it...
He looked at him and his face sobered. He stood up not allowing his fears to come forth and he went to the door. He knew the fight was over, he had heard it. He opened the door and stepped back.
"I...I think you should leave" he had to be strong, he couldn't let himself fall for another michale, he couldn't...
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 4:19 pm
Kazz frowned slightly, rising from the bed. He walked to the door, but instead of going through it, e closed it. Before Keiran had time to react, Kazuma grabbed him firmly by the biceps and placed him up against the door.
"I'm not going anywhere." Kazuma shook his head firmly, light brown locks swaying. His violet eyes were desperately pleading, practically willing Keiran to listen to him.
"I'm not leaving you. Kei-chan stop lumping me up with Michael. He didn't care about you, he only cared about himself, about what you could do for him. But I...Kei-chan..."
What could he say to make him believe him? Believe in him? To break through that wall of mistrust and fear. He leaned in close, so that he murmered into the boy's ear. He didn't kiss him, though he sorely tempted.
"I like you, Kei-chan... Really like you . I care about you, so stop trying to push me away."
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 4:38 pm
Keiran hadn't expected KAzz to be so forthright and he winced but didn't yelp like he used to. He thought that Kazu was going to kiss him but at the last minute leaned in to simply speak.
'I like you, Kei-chan...Really like you. I care about you, so stop trying to push me away.'
the words rang loud in his head. The next thing that happaned was purly accidental. He hadn't meant to say the words outloud....really he didn't...
"R-Really?...Y-you don't....want to...use me?"
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 6:44 pm
A pained expression briefly fluttered through Kazuma's eyes. He shook his head softly.
"Use you? Use you for what. I want to be with you you, Keiran. Be here for you...that's all. " He ran a hand through Keiran's hair, his fingertips brushing the boy's ear. "I don't want to hurt you. I never would."
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 7:21 pm
Keiran's expression went through a vary of emotions. He hadn't the slightest clue as to whether to believe him or not. Kazu's eyes seemed so sincere.
He tried to push away any thoughts of being with KAzz but then memories of last night slipped into play and he remembered the tears running down the others face. Hadn't those tears been sincere? Could he really trust another man again? Could he really put all his faith into someone blindly? Would someone be there to catch him if he fell? Was it blind faith truly or was he simply crippling the relationship before it even started?
After about five minutes Keiri looked back up to Kazu;s eyes. His face was still framed by the others hand. He wasn't completly sure and there was one way he could find out. Michale's kisses had always been rough and insistant....if Kazz kissed the same...
"Kiss me" he said looking up at him his crystal eyes shining with slight anger at Kazz, wanting him to prove himself.
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 8:06 pm
Kazuma did not hesitate. He leaned in close and softly pressed his mouth to Keiran's. He was not forceful or rough. His long lashes fluttered closed over his violent eyes, and he removed his free hand from the door to Keiran's shoulder.
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 8:15 pm
Keiran hadn't really been expecting a soft and gentle kiss so he was mildly shocked.
Seeing those deep violet eyes disapear behind a cloud of lashes and soft pink lid he felt the larger strong warm hand rest against his shoulder.
He had wanted the other to kiss him roughly, kiss him with force, at least something so that he could have a reason to not trust him, a reason to say no and kick him out.
However that wasn't the reason. His lips responded, his toes even rising to push him more so against the soft velvet caress against his. His hands lifted to his shoulders and he leaned into the kiss wanting to feel hte same heat he had felt the night before, though they were beyond that already, his stomach jolted with electricity and his hands slid up the others shoulders and around his neck pulling him closer, his small frame on it's toes and putting all he had into that kiss.
He just couldn't help it, Kazz had won him over with the initial softness, even if he were to turn rough and savage now keiri didn't think that he could back out, even if he wanted to.
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