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 Posted: Mon Aug 09, 2010 9:18 pm
i know you dont want me feeling that way i dont want you ever feeling that way either... your always gunna be everything to me my bestest best friend and even greater than that my wife and soulmate... i love you with all my heart and soul too and always will... our signals might screw up from time to time but we always manage to pull through and stick together and we always will... i trust you with all my heart and soul and i know you trust me too... we always find something to talk about to like earlier hehe... i just want you to inform me of when youll be on when you go somewhere for a bit or when ur busy so i know when youll be on so we can manage to talk you can do that cant ya and you can manage to actually show up to
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Posted: Mon Aug 09, 2010 9:32 pm
yeah we always manage to try to get back on... if it does kick us... even though mine takes a while at times... of course i trust you with my heart and soul. and i try to tell you ahead of time when i get on.
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Posted: Mon Aug 09, 2010 9:49 pm
mmk i hope you do tell me ahead of time when youll be oo during the week of the fair cuz i know im gunna miss u tons and i know ur gunna make plans with a different frien on almost like 4 er 5 different days considering ashley kayla cassy and tracy not to mention anyone else who might want to hang out their... i really wish i was down their so we could be together every day... i keep thinking that theyll all keep you so distracted youll lose track of time... and well i feel like we wont talk as much that week... and i want to be able to hear about it and for you to cheer me up every day coming home and relaxing and telling me about stuff but also hanging out with me like we usually do... i cant wait to be with you dearest i love you *cuddles and kisses*
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Posted: Mon Aug 09, 2010 10:01 pm
i wish you were down here also. you know that im gonna try to be on as much as i can during the fair. and im sorry i get so distracted at times. i love telling you the stuff that happens during my day. its almost as if im a story teller heheh... i cant wait to be together. i love you too sweetheart. *cuddles and kisses back*
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Posted: Mon Aug 09, 2010 10:17 pm
 we both say we cant wait but we are waiting lol hehe and you are a bit of a story teller and i love hearing every single detail too i know youll try and be on just promise me youll be on for a bit every day then no matter what cuz i dont want a repeat of saturday that was rough... your the best and so am i *snuggles up to you* well i guess night to gaia for now hehe ^-^
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Posted: Wed Aug 11, 2010 5:59 pm
im sorry to you cindy i know im the best for you... i know i havent been in the cheeriest of moods and i know its even worse when u cant seem to get on right away i dont expect you too.. im sorry i made u feel like i was... i want you to be ok i want us to be ok you know i love you with all my heart and soul please dont be down please dont say its over and that u want to be alone forever you and i both know thats not true... i love you dearest *snuggles and kisses* and im sorry i know i havent been giving you enough space i was gunna give you more i was gunna let you be moreprivatized to i guess i just over worried cuz i feared loosing you and i ended up almostloosing you anyway... and now your saying ur single andim scared im gunna leave you alone for awhile and hope you ome back tome realizingi can give you space and let you be private with stuff... im faithfull to you andiknowyour faithfull to me... please give me another shot i wont fail you ever again i swear and how is it fair to just give up when you were hardly trying yourself you wanted our relationship to improve and get better but ou werent trying yourself how is that fair to me
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Posted: Tue Aug 17, 2010 1:25 am
i was... really flusterd when i wrote that... awaiting ur reply dearest and id like to discuss making our accounts on here like they were before... if you know what i mean... unless thatd be wrong... its up to you... i dont want to do anything you dont want yto... i still fearloosing you but i know if you truely loveme... i have to trust you... and know youll always come back... i dont want to be thought of as dense or slow... i want you to tell me if anything si bothering you or tell someone else so they can tell me... like ryan... or cassy even someone else... preferablly not ashley im still a bit scared of her... heh i was never scared of her before... i guess thats a sign ive changed a bit hehe
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Posted: Tue Aug 24, 2010 10:05 am
hm... seems like you moved on here no problem... whatever... i dont know if im ever gonna come on here... maybe once in a blue moon... i dont think anyone would miss me anyways...
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Posted: Tue Aug 24, 2010 5:55 pm
thats not true ive missed you so has captain waffles and namine and many other friends we made... i... have been waiting for you... ive been with kairi and her sister mostly theyve been cheering me up is all... i... dont want you to keep thinking so harshly of me i wasnt that bad... and i was always willing to give you all the things you were saying i didnt give you but you hinted at wanting my attention all the time... it was amisunderstanding really and truely
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Posted: Tue Aug 24, 2010 6:21 pm
hm... sure didnt seem like anyone missed me on here... i didnt get one single message.... so that means... nobody even noticed i was gone... just like if i was gone for a month... nobody would notice...
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Posted: Tue Aug 24, 2010 6:31 pm
thats not true captain waffles has been messaging you... so has namine and well suki made a new account on gaia so i had to re add him... i... im so sorry your... your my princess and well i mistreated you and well all relationships have their bumps... i dont want ours to be over and well its not that im holding on desperately to it its more that... well... ive never truely loved anyone tell i loved you... and thats why... id do anything to win you back... which is why ive been giving you space ive been trying to show you... i am not unhealthily obsessed with you im... gentle and caring you know that deep down you know it in your heart and in your soul... i... you promised to tell me if anything was wrong or bothering you so i could prevent anything from upsetting you but well i suppose that was stupid of me to ask of you and well i wasnt trying to be so nosey all the time either its well i told you everything i was doing so i guess i just figured it only seemed right for you to tell me... forgive me...
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Posted: Tue Aug 24, 2010 6:49 pm
oh wow... i got one comment from him... i got no private messages what so ever...*sighs* im sorry.. its just i dont know what to say anymore...
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Posted: Tue Aug 24, 2010 6:58 pm
cindy... weve bonded and become the best of friends and then kept growing together... and eventually i... told you i cared about you more dearly than anyone else ever would... and well that i always would respect youand take better care of you than anyone ever could... i... no its stupid of me... to even think that you might be willing to but... i...hate good byes... andi hate laters and well... youtold me youd never treat me harshly like everyone else in the world has... and i trust you... i always have and always will... maybe i trust you to much but... its because i do know you... we spent 6 months together of course i know you... and no one can say i dont... no matter what it doesnt matter how we met... what matters is that we were ourselves with eacother... and enjoyed eachothers company... i... can still say... i love you... even though it hurts... ive always meant it to you more than anyone else... i was... going to sing... more often to you... and well i was going to go and play on websites on my own and do my own thing... let you have some space mainly because well i knew i was smothering you and i knew if i kept doing it itd eventually push you away and well thats the last thing i wanted
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Posted: Sun Aug 29, 2010 10:32 pm
someone... actually asked me why i stayed with you so long... and why... even after all thats happend why i wouldnt let go... and well... i had to think for awhile but... honestly i shouldnt have had to think at all... you and me complete eachother were capable of ending eachothers sentences and know eachother well enough that some of the other stuff wed need to know wed learn from eachother over time... i... the old me died... the old me who was... weak... and well... most likely annoying if you claim this as me stalking or harassing thats ridiculous because anyone can see it... its your choice to read it or not... its not harassment nor is it stalking nothing i have done can qualify as stalking i talked to many people about it... if you and your mean friend have saved conversations that youve had with me that can be calimed as stalking... keeping a record of something is a quality of a stalker i never have done that little tidbits of info ive kept bbut not allot because i know stalkers keep tonz of info... i... dont like your mean friend harassing me at all she claims shes not doing it but shes done it over and over again... and you show her everything i say to you and thats even more wrong... im an adult im no teenager boyfriend that youve dumped... our relationship wasnt a high school drama... face the truth... you couldnt handle the pressure of waiting anymore... its alright... i understand things really i do... i honestly dont know why im typing so much... i hope you get off your high horse someday and realize ive always been trying my best for you... and well... i look forward to a day... when you tell me you made a mistake... because well im not that bad... -sigh- well have a good evening all i was just speaking my mind aloud like this one last time... to no one in particular...
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Posted: Mon Sep 13, 2010 12:32 am
*sighs softly and looks away* im just... posting in here to try to get some gold....
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