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 Posted: Thu Apr 01, 2010 2:29 am
Rasiel tried his best to remember what to do within his panic, desperately trying to remember what he needed to be doing next. 'Induce him to vomit..' he thought as he then pulled him forward slightly as he grabbed for the empty trash can, placed it the best he could in front of him and began to shake him back and forth lightly, trying to see if he could upset his stomach enough to get him to throw the pills back up, or at least what was left of them. "Come on,...stay with me... I won't lose you, Deskri. Not like this!!!" he spoke reassuringly as he was determined to try to save him from his own undoing. Rasiel was breaking down inside, horrified to know that he played a hand in causing this to happen, if not all his fault alone. He continued to shake him, trying to stay calm on the outside, and watching Deskri to make sure he didn't pass out completely on him.
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Posted: Thu Apr 01, 2010 2:35 am
Deskri opened his eyes again just a little as he felt himself being pulled up and then shaken. It wouldn't take too much, but Deskri was doing his best to keep himself from vomiting not only because he was determined to let this happen, but also because he really, really did not want to do that at all let alone in front of someone.
Eventually the shaking got too much and he pulled himself down enough to get a proper aim and let his body do the rest. Whatever was in there was definitely not anymore. "******** Rasiel..." He sighed wearily, eyes barely focusing on him. "I-it was better that way..." Perhaps it was the fact that he wasn't human that made the whole thing work, perhaps being a Meta was what made it so hard for everything to take it's full effect. Whatever the reason, he wasn't going to succeed with his suicide attempt and he could already feel that. "Sh-should've let me go."
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Posted: Thu Apr 01, 2010 11:41 am
Rasiel began to rub Deskri's back, trying to force a reassuring smile, still attempting to hold back majority of his tears. "N-no.... you... I....... no..." he couldn't seem to find the words to express his dismay to Deskri's requests. "Y-you can't!! No!!! I need you.." he spoke, trying so desperately not to break down crying once again. He couldn't imagine living without Deskri, as he began to remember what really happened after what Alice had done. He had been repelled from his body, but he hadn't wanted to return. If Deskri didn't love him, he never wanted to exist again. Yet, in the darkness, he heard Deskri's voice, he told him how he loved him and it gave him the courage to stand up and fight to stay alive. If it weren't for Deskri, he'd have been dead a long time go, victim to his first encounter with Syth. Rasiel lowered his head, just trying to find the words he meant to say. "I only live because of you.... and I will not live without you.... You saved my life,.. and I will save yours too." he was calm in his words, slipping into his depression of feeling responsible. "I love you...and only you... I don't want anyone else.."
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Posted: Thu Apr 01, 2010 11:51 am
"D-don't touch my scars!" Deskri pulled away as Rasiel's hand neared the scars on his back, even though there was a shirt between them and Rasiel's hand. It was partially due to his hatred for them, but also because they occasionally gave of a real pain when touched, a pain he didn't like at all. He calmed down, finally truly listening to Rasiel speak. He couldn't understand... Why, why did Rasiel love him like that when he was really only a bother. He'd just accused him of attempted murder and still he came back.
He stared at Rasiel for a moment, as if debating with himself on whether to try again or give in to Rasiel. The latter won and he clung to Rasiel weakly, burying his face in his chest, struggling with a few tears that wanted to work their way out. "I-I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." The words came out muffled but were filled with a sense of regret, not only because he'd hurt Rasiel but also for Sonnet's current state of health. "I-I love you too... I'm sorry..."
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Posted: Thu Apr 01, 2010 9:59 pm
"It's okay... I'm here.. And I'm not going anywhere. I promise." he reassured, moving to pet his hair softly as Deskri's face was burried in his chest. He didn't mind so much being yelled at, everything was going to be okay now, at least he hoped it would be. He avoided touching his back as requested, not thinking twice on why he had insisted so strongly. Rasiel hugged him tightly, never wanting to let him go. "I don't want to live without you... please don't ever leave me..."
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Posted: Thu Apr 01, 2010 10:12 pm
Deskri sniffled a little, struggling to keep himself under control. He had no right to cry, since he had been the one to cause the whole mess in the first place. He repeated it over and over again in his head in an attempt to gain complete control over himself. "I-I'm sorry..." He couldn't really come up with anything else to say. In his current state of mind he wouldn't promise Rasiel anything that involving barring his ability to end himself. That was the one last thing he had control over, right?
"G-getting you all b-bloody..." He released Rasiel, and then looked down at himself and the blood which had soaked Rasiel's sheets and had made quite a mess of his own bed. "S-sorry...." He started to undo the makeshift bandages Rasiel had made with the intent of getting some real ones.
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Posted: Fri Apr 02, 2010 1:24 am
"Don't worry about... it's okay..." he reassured once more, just trying to get Deskri to calm down. "We'll fix you all up and then we can go out and..... and.... and get some ice cream.." Rasiel was horrible with dealing too much with cheering people, but he was doing the best he could, just trying to manage his words in a calm manner so that Deskri would be okay again.
"Should I go... get some bandages... Of course, you idiot, he'll die if you don't dress his wounds!.." he spoke softly at first, but the last part was spoken lowly and to himself as he then stood up and retrieved a first aid kit from under one of the beds. Walking back over, he began to clean and wrap the wounds, not doing a fantastic job at it, but good enough so that it didn't fall off with movement. He sighed, and after he was done and put the excess bandages away, he then leaned forward and hugged Deskri tightly, almost refusing to let him go.
"I hate to see you like this.... I mean, I understand why you'd resort to it... but you don't need to anymore... We can rely on each other rather than pills and cutting. I love you, and don't want to see you hurt by the same things that tormented me long ago. You shouldn't have to suffer... you won't be alone anymore." he leaned back, to look Deskri in the eyes and then kissed his forehead.
"I will never leave you... you'd have to honestly kill me before I could be pried away from you... and even then I'd just find a way to fight my way out of hell just to see you again.." he smiled softly at him, placing a hand behind Deskri's head as he stared deep into his eyes, his own look was unthreatened and loving as he just smiled, hoping that everything would be okay again.
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Posted: Fri Apr 02, 2010 10:28 am
I don't deserve this... he shouldn't be bothered with this... I don't... why? Why does he still love me after this? Deskri remained compliant to whatever Rasiel wanted to do with his body. As he was hugged, Deskri limply wrapped his arms around Rasiel, too tired to really do much of anything else.
Rasiel's words made him indescribably happy, and yet extremely depressed. Deskri managed to create a small, half-forced smile for a few seconds, hoping it would be enough to show Rasiel that his words were working. Slowly, but they were working. "I-I don't... understand...why." He finally admitted the thoughts in his head, eyes dropping, no longer able to keep staring into Rasiel's. "I-....I just accused you of a-attempted m-murder, Rasiel..." His eyes flickered back up, showing extreme sadness and regret. I shouldn'tve said anything... he'll come to his senses now and go away... "I-..." He started again, but paused, could he really be so selfish as to say the next thing he wanted to say? It wouldn't be the most selfish thing he'd ever said or done before...
"I don't... want you to l-leave me I-" he broke off, Rasiel had said that they should rely on each other so surely this was the right thing to do... Why was it so hard? "just don't understand..."
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Posted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 4:22 pm
Rasiel shook his head with a smile, "It's okay. I understand why now.. It was that black and white girl. She did this. She made you think that I tried to kill Sonnet, and she made me think you hated me. This is all her doing... so don't worry, I know you meant that for her, not me..." he explained, holding him tightly. "Just be still for now... everything will be okay.." he reassured, petting the back of his head rather than his back. Rasiel didn't mind so much what had all happened, he was just more than determined to stay with Deskri. "I will never leave you... so don't you worry.. just get some rest and everything will be alright.."
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Posted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 7:18 pm
Deskri adopted a relieved expression as he leaned back into Rasiel's chest. The feeling of being pet was slowly lulling him into a sleep, but his mind kept bringing up different things that he needed to do. So many things he wanted to get accomplished but he didn't have the energy for it. At least not until after he rested like Rasiel said he should.
"'Kay..." He replied in a muffled voice which was then followed by a yawn. He moved away just enough to lie down again, on his side, sleepily looking up at Rasiel. "Hold me...?" He lifted one arm up, holding out a hand in a beckoning sort of way in hopes that Rasiel would lie down with him. Once he woke up he would go back to Sonnet in the nurses office and stay by her side while she recovered.
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Posted: Mon Apr 05, 2010 4:06 pm
Rasiel nodded once again with a smile as he moved to lay down next to Deskri, being on his side, he slid his arms around Deskri, pulling him close as he rested his chin on the top of his head softly. He was so much taller, but that was fine since it meant it would be easier for him to cuddle Deskri in his arms as such. He closed his eyes, feeling at peace with Deskri in his arms.
In his mind, he thought of more way he could his love for Deskri. Maybe he'd buy him something, but what. He considered going to visit Alice in the morning to ask exactly what he could do, maybe she would know. At least he could find a reason to try to be her friend, but it would be a long time before he'd ever trust her fully since they had been enemies since they were children. Rasiel could only hold Deskri with a loving embrace for the time being until the sun rose up in the sky once again.
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Posted: Mon Apr 05, 2010 6:16 pm
Deskri sighed softly and closed his eyes, snuggling into Rasiel's chest once more. He did have to admit, one of the advantages to being short was that he could snuggle into someone taller and fit quite nicely. "love you..." He murmured just before giving into the weariness caused from losing so much blood.
The next morning Deskri woke with a headache, one of the few natural pains he still felt. He blinked his eyes a few times and then moved away from Rasiel just enough to lift his head up and look around. He'd slept all night... Sonnet had been alone all night, too... That worried him. "Rasiel...?" He asked softly, not wanting to wake him up or anything. He just wanted to know if Rasiel was already awake or not.
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Posted: Mon Apr 05, 2010 6:24 pm
"mnngh.." was all he managed from his mouth as he inhaled deeply and then sighed a little, rolling to his back. His hair was a complete mess as always after he slept, it was sticking out in every which direction, as though a cow had went to town licking his head. He managed over onto his other side before finding no more room left and fell onto the floor, pulling some blankets with him. He open his mouth a bit wider than normal and chuckled slightly as his hands reached out for a pillow, pulling it close into a hug as he closed his mouth and smiled, snuggling the pillow as though it were a person. Rasiel seemed to nuzzle the pillow lightly as he then began to fall back into a deeper sleep. "..des....kri....." he mumbled in his sleep as his grip loosened and his smile faded as he seemed to be completely asleep again.
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Posted: Mon Apr 05, 2010 6:29 pm
Deskri sat up and crawled to the other side of the bed, feeling his arms and legs light up with a tingling sensation where the cuts were. It felt good, like usual, which was nice... "Rasiel, I'm up here..." He grinned a little and then slid off of the bed and onto the floor next to Rasiel. "Hey... Wake up please?" He attempted to take the pillow away from Rasiel, but found that he was still weak from the night before.
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Posted: Tue Apr 06, 2010 10:42 pm
[WALL O TEXT! D:]
"..no you're not.." he mumbled to his first comment, gripping the pillow a little tighter. As the pillow was tugged at by Deskri, he seemed to frown a lot as he whined and tugged back. "..noooo~ that's miiiiiiine... myyyyy deskri..." he whined in a childish tone as he pulled the pillow hard with a big pouty face and pulled it close to him again. As soon as he had it in a tight grip again, he managed to begin smiling once again in his sleep.
After only a few moments, his cellphone began to vibrate against the top of the nightstand and ring. Rasiel had a look of annoyance as he opened his eyes groggily and groan. "mmngghh..." he made a sound as he lifted himself from the floor and looked to the pillow, and then to Deskri, then back to the pillow, then to his phone. He grabbed his phone and stared at it, as he sighed then opened it, putting it up to his ear. Leaning back to use the bed as a backrest, he tilted his head back onto the top of the bed since he was tall enough to do that.
"Yes?" he answered in a partially impolite manner. "Mmhmm.. Yeah. Sure I guess can babysit her..." he spoke out after a few seconds of listening. He listened a bit more before a great look of concern washed across his face. "You're kidding, right?....... She did....... How many?... Oh god! You're not serious are you?!......... Well, keep them away from me..... good god... really?....... no way....... Oh man, that's priceless..... Okay, I'll talk to you later. Thanks." his mood seemed a bit more relaxed now as the moment he hung up the phone, he busted out laughing like a mad man. As he caught his breath, he opened his mouth to explain to Deskri, but before he could get a word out past the name "Alice", his phone began to ring again.
He answered it quickly after glancing at the screen. "What do you want?" he asked, in a snappy tone, his face growing serious for only a moment. "Yeah, I heard...... Well, what do you want me to do about it?!........ Yeah, well, tough s**t......... Whatever, I don't care..." he had a sarcastic and snarky tone of voice while he talked to whoever it was on the phone. After though remarks, yelling could be heard through the phone, a female voice yelling for a while before something crashed in the background of the yelling and then a quick silence and then some more yelling, as though still yelling at Rasiel through the phone.
"God, you're such a b***h, you know that?!" he exclaimed, becoming angry. "******** you too, go have fun with your little bundles of chaos...... You piss off to you too!.... I don't care what your situation is. I don't care, I told you to leave me alone!" there was along pause as the voice died down as though becoming calm in tone. "Yeah, right, I see. Whatever. Just don't screw yourself on this. Heh, yeah. At least you're the golden child again. Be glad I'm not kicking the crap out of you for the spotlight. Okay, yeah. See you later." he hung up the phone, the ending of his conversation seemingly a little more compassionate towards the receiving person as though he had a sudden change of heart.
He then looked to Deskri and smiled. "My sister has four hell-raising children now." he commented with a delightful smirk of triumph. He then set down his phone and then hugged Deskri suddenly, pulling him close as he gave him a little kiss on the cheek. "What's for breakfast?" he joked as he held Deskri very close.
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