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 Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 1:01 pm
Entry #8 - It's Official
(Short Entry)
Last night, I just sat on my little air-filled bed, and stared at the night sky. It wasn't cloudy, so the stars were all visible. I started to ponder about what my answer would be if someone ever asked me "What''s your personality?" then I couldn't figure out how to answer that. I tried to think of an answer that wasn't modest, but I couldn't figure anything out.
I realized I don't know because I'm always trying to be someone I'm not. I'm always trying to act silly, or impress people, or act serious, or try and act tough, and things like that.
Could it be that not only has no one ever seen the true me, that I've never even seen myself, as well?
So I decided. From now on at school, I'm not going to act a certain way so others will think differently about me. I'll just do what ever comes naturally. If I feel like screaming at someone, I will. If I feel like hugging someone, I will. Nothing's going to hold me back! I don't care if it's not "cool" or if it's "weird" If it's weird, then I guess I'm weird. And the other person'll have to just deal with it. 3nodding
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 1:38 pm
heart Entry #9 - An Immature, Racist, Valentines Day heart
Valentines Day...the most despised day of my life. The one day where I'm always alone, watching others get mushy and take pity on me for not "having anyone to like me" Come on! That's like saying, "I'm sorry your hair looks crappy and everyone is making fun of it behind your back" then that person going "They're making fun of my hair?!?!? gonk I thought everyone liked it!!"
The day started off like anyother: except everyone exchanging gifts, roses, chocolate, cards, hugs, and questioning me asking "Why aren't you wearing red?!??" As if I am commiting a sin for not. "I'll wear whatever the hell I want, thank you very much!"
I go to class, only to be sent up 3 flights of stairs because of that damned Cranial Crunch Gameshow Round 2 try-outs thingy. (Why didn't I just use to elevator?!?!? gonk )
And to think I use to wonder why I don't have cable. =_=;
So they have these weird remotes that you press the Lightning Bolt in order to buzz in. But these things are crap!!! I keep pressing the damned button but it's not working! Then when I stop pressing it...15 seconds later, it starts beeping, and I'm like "I PRESSED IT FOR THE LAST QUESTION!!! WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO ANSWER THIS ONE?!?!? scream : gonk "
Anyways, they give people easy questions like "What's the Mixed Number version of 37/5?" and "What time of day did Paul Revere make his famous ride?" but when it was my turn, "Who was the author of the book '(Insert book name that I forgot here)'" and I'm like "I NEVER EVEN HEARD OF THAT BOOK?!?!? gonk
Then the next person: "What's a series of 3 books called?" and I was about to scream out "TRILOGY!!! IT'S A TRILOGY!!! GIVE ME THE POINT!!"
In short: I don't think I made it. But you gotta remember that line that some random person a long time a go said "I can except failure, but I can't except not trying." So, I'm glad I tryed and failed, rather than taking a dive. -.-
Later that day, I get encountered by Zoe. Yes, that same phsyco some of you who were in my Quest Thread remember. The one that wanted to get me banned from Gaia as a prank, so she went around spread rumors that I was cybering and mollesting people on Gaia. She said "They knew I was joking!" And I just sighed, informed her about how this isn't neopets or an AOL Chat room, and she started getting pissed at me.
So, back to today, she comes up to my desk in Math A, pulls up a chair, and in her annoying, obnoxious, high-pitched voice, goes "Hi Daniel!"
Then I feel like questioning her about why she's going around telling people "You're acting black!" and I keep telling her how it's racist, you can get expelled for it, and if she says it to the wrong person, she'll probably get shot.
She starts going "It's not racist! ANd I only said it to 2 people!"
So here's how the whole conversation basically was:
- It's racist, Zoe!
- No it's not!
- Yes it is! It's just as racist as going "You're acting white!"
- But that's racist!
- I know! So saying "You're acting black" is racist!
- No it's not!
- Fine, Zoe...explain to me what "acting black" means. What does one have to do to be considered acting black?
- Well.....they....you....I DIDN'T SAY "You're acting black"....I....said....*ponders*....I .....said "Stop acting black"
- EXACTLY!!! SO YOU ADMIT IT!
- No!
- *sighs* You're acting so immature, Zoe!
- No I'm not! You are! scream
- Zoe....not being able to notice that you're acting immature....is immature.
- I'm not immature! You are! Because.....because you're continuing the conversation!
- That's not being immature, that's being consistent in making you realize what you're doing wrong before you're shot someday!
- ....you're immature!
- Zoe, do you even know what immature means?
- Yes I do! You don't!
- I'm able to see when I'm immature! I'm able to admit that I'm immature a lot, and that I like fooling around like a little kid.
- HA! You admit that you're immature!
- I said I'm -- *interupted by Zoe*
- Lalalalalalalalalalalalala!
- And you're telling me that that's not immature?
- *continues to ignore me and go "lalalala"*
- *sigh* Zoe, just get away from me! You're ruining my day! Look! I haven't even finished my work yet! Meanwhile, you never intended to try your work, nor admit that you were racist, and that right now you're acting immature!
- You're immature you a*****e! *beats me with a stuffed animal and walks away*
What the hell is her problem? I guess that little squeaky voice of her's really matches the way she thinks! Is it possible to be as insane as her! If she can't tell when she's being immature, and when she's not, then I don't know how she'll get through life.
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 2:23 pm
I hate reading V-day journal entries, so I skipped it. xp
Your last entry (# cool is similiar to my problem.
It's considered a mask that you put on to hide your true personality. It shows people what you want to see yet never letting them know who you are.
The only defaults in this technique (mechanism) is that no one will know what you're real talents are, or how you would truly react.
I, unlike you, am never going to let down my barrier of protection, I rather be known for another than be remembered at all 3nodding
Good luck,
Mike, The Simpleton.
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 3:39 pm
mike...how could you skip the v-day one... i read it...
haha... i have a date for two years for v-day... i hate it...i hate the stupid day...the whole stupid thing... it is waste of my time...
.however... unlike most schools... v-day at our school means blood drive... and this year i had to help out with it...so i spent about more than half a day watching people faint after giving blood or giving them a juice and cookies... blah... some werid way i wanted to take the little bag of blood with it long strand that hooks up to your arm and take it and run with it saying it was my pet... don't ask...
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 5:08 pm
hanging gallow mike...how could you skip the v-day one... i read it... haha... i have a date for two years for v-day... i hate it...i hate the stupid day...the whole stupid thing... it is waste of my time... .however... unlike most schools... v-day at our school means blood drive... and this year i had to help out with it...so i spent about more than half a day watching people faint after giving blood or giving them a juice and cookies... blah... some werid way i wanted to take the little bag of blood with it long strand that hooks up to your arm and take it and run with it saying it was my pet... don't ask... Ick, sounds crappy sweatdrop
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 6:27 pm
Xeroxer hanging gallow mike...how could you skip the v-day one... i read it... haha... i have a date for two years for v-day... i hate it...i hate the stupid day...the whole stupid thing... it is waste of my time... .however... unlike most schools... v-day at our school means blood drive... and this year i had to help out with it...so i spent about more than half a day watching people faint after giving blood or giving them a juice and cookies... blah... some werid way i wanted to take the little bag of blood with it long strand that hooks up to your arm and take it and run with it saying it was my pet... don't ask... Ick, sounds crappy sweatdrop actually... it has been one of the best v-days ever... i got dissy in trig class and felt as if i was riding a rollarcoast... and my teacher was like "Tetra, where are you " and i said very spacy...here... i was laughed at...but i was great.... yes i lack sleep at this very moment...
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Posted: Mon Feb 14, 2005 6:53 pm
O_O; Dizzy, you mean.
V-days are very unoriginal these days.
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Posted: Tue Feb 15, 2005 4:14 am
Xeroxer O_O; Dizzy, you mean. V-days are very unoriginal these days. well at least at my school they are different... i thought dizzy looked funny...
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Posted: Tue Feb 15, 2005 1:54 pm
hanging gallow mike...how could you skip the v-day one... i read it... haha... i have a date for two years for v-day... i hate it...i hate the stupid day...the whole stupid thing... it is waste of my time... .however... unlike most schools... v-day at our school means blood drive... and this year i had to help out with it...so i spent about more than half a day watching people faint after giving blood or giving them a juice and cookies... blah... some werid way i wanted to take the little bag of blood with it long strand that hooks up to your arm and take it and run with it saying it was my pet... don't ask... I'd give blood if I didn't need every ounce of it! gonk I'm so skinny! gonk
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Posted: Tue Feb 15, 2005 2:17 pm
DualBlader hanging gallow mike...how could you skip the v-day one... i read it... haha... i have a date for two years for v-day... i hate it...i hate the stupid day...the whole stupid thing... it is waste of my time... .however... unlike most schools... v-day at our school means blood drive... and this year i had to help out with it...so i spent about more than half a day watching people faint after giving blood or giving them a juice and cookies... blah... some werid way i wanted to take the little bag of blood with it long strand that hooks up to your arm and take it and run with it saying it was my pet... don't ask... I'd give blood if I didn't need every ounce of it! gonk I'm so skinny! gonk all the skinny people fainted 3nodding however most of them were cheerleaders xp
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2005 12:56 pm
hanging gallow DualBlader hanging gallow mike...how could you skip the v-day one... i read it... haha... i have a date for two years for v-day... i hate it...i hate the stupid day...the whole stupid thing... it is waste of my time... .however... unlike most schools... v-day at our school means blood drive... and this year i had to help out with it...so i spent about more than half a day watching people faint after giving blood or giving them a juice and cookies... blah... some werid way i wanted to take the little bag of blood with it long strand that hooks up to your arm and take it and run with it saying it was my pet... don't ask... I'd give blood if I didn't need every ounce of it! gonk I'm so skinny! gonk all the skinny people fainted 3nodding however most of them were cheerleaders xp Well, cheerleaders try to be skinny....I don't purposelly do it, I'm just never hungry! gonk I think it's some defect with my bladder, where is can only hold so much food at a time, so that's why I don't eat to much. ^^;;
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Posted: Sun Feb 20, 2005 4:36 am
Entry #10 - I'm so sorry Gaia! crying Oh my god! What have I created! gonk
Back in the days when I first joined, I was very n00bish (I can admit it)
I had this theory that you'd get more gold from really large posts.
So I made this weird Bump messege.
Then, all of the sudden, I started to see it being used all over the Chatterbox. gonk
I was so pissed off! They stole my paragraphs! Why can't they just make their own messege? stressed
So I started flaming every last person I saw using it (please remember that I was n00bish back then), and each said "I just copied it from [insert screen name]" So I went to that person, and I wound up going in circles. gonk
So I gave up. Soon, I realized that those kind of messeges don't work. sweatdrop
Anyways, back to present day...
....there was a lotto with a 500k bumping prize, so I was bumping for a while....
....and guess what I see...
http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=6094252&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=2520
....some newbie-n00b's using my Bump Messege! *dies*
What have I created?!?!? This n00by messege has infected the minds of all the n00bs out there! gonk
I'm so sorry for doing that, Gaia! crying
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Posted: Sun Feb 20, 2005 4:42 am
You gotta admit, though....it does feel kind cool to have used that old messege about 6 months ago, and still see people copying me to this day. ^^;;
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Posted: Sun Feb 20, 2005 10:45 am
DualBlader hanging gallow DualBlader hanging gallow mike...how could you skip the v-day one... i read it... haha... i have a date for two years for v-day... i hate it...i hate the stupid day...the whole stupid thing... it is waste of my time... .however... unlike most schools... v-day at our school means blood drive... and this year i had to help out with it...so i spent about more than half a day watching people faint after giving blood or giving them a juice and cookies... blah... some werid way i wanted to take the little bag of blood with it long strand that hooks up to your arm and take it and run with it saying it was my pet... don't ask... I'd give blood if I didn't need every ounce of it! gonk I'm so skinny! gonk all the skinny people fainted 3nodding however most of them were cheerleaders xp Well, cheerleaders try to be skinny....I don't purposelly do it, I'm just never hungry! gonk I think it's some defect with my bladder, where is can only hold so much food at a time, so that's why I don't eat to much. ^^;; same here...but i'm not that skinny... not fat...but not skinny...
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Posted: Sun Feb 20, 2005 10:48 am
DualBlader You gotta admit, though....it does feel kind cool to have used that old messege about 6 months ago, and still see people copying me to this day. ^^;; eh...dan... i don't see it... what page is it on...
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