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 Posted: Sat Jun 14, 2008 10:11 pm
And I guess I've found the answer, or something that seems like it. I'll just tell her to read this. My true feeling are posted all over these last few pages, so having her read it will save me from trying to repeat it. Besides, my words come out best typed, since my mouth is dumb and can't say things right.
PN-301 AAN-751
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Posted: Sat Jun 14, 2008 10:14 pm
That's sounds really nice. Yay, I feel happy now. I also love The Pillows btw. They are an awesome Japanese punk rock band. Check out one of their hits, Hybrid Raindow. It's you've ever watched the anime FLCL, or Fooly Cooly, you'll recognize this band. They play alot of songs for the anime. PN-302 AAN-752
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:06 pm
Ah Father's Day. Honestly, being a guy, I fail to see why it's an important holiday in my family. My dad does just about nothing for me except feed me with the money he makes from his job. Seriously, that's it.
PN-303 AAN-753
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:08 pm
He refused to come to the gathering at my Grandma's house today, and since I was already at 2 Senior Open Houses, I've already stufed myself, so all I did there was watch golf until I passed out from a food coma on my Grandpa's chair. I felt bad, but I said Happy Father's Day to him before I left, which my own mother didn't even do. If she did, I don't recall it.
PN-304 AAN-754
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:10 pm
They're my Grandparents on my Mom's side, so that's why I'm shocked. Maybe they did it over the phone or something. They better have, cuz that's just stupid. My Grandpa kicks, and he needed to be recognized. It is his day after all.
PN-305 AAN-755
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:13 pm
I haven't said anything to my own father cuz he's a stupid jerk. Seriously, all he's done in the past 2 & 1/2 months is play COD4 and work. Not any kind of recognition to me, or my sister for becoming seniors, nothing for grades, nothing for art projects, never asks me about my day, never talks to me about how guys grow up or mature, never has asked me once about where I'm going to college, ect....
PN-306 AAN-756
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:15 pm
I'm not supposed to start those kinda conversations, he is. He's the freakin parent, but it seems like he's just a stupid roomie with a job. That's about the extent of our father-son relationship. Sad huh? Do your parents talk to you about anything, or have they? I hope they do, or did in the past. It's really awkward when it's like your parents don't care.
PN-307 AAN-757
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:17 pm
And he wouldn't get it if I just said, "Hey Dad, do you care about me?" Not only am I 16, but I'm a guy. That's just extremely awkward. And besides, the answer would most likely be, "I feed you don't I?" Yeah, so? That isn't the point you freakin retard.
PN-308 AAN-758
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:20 pm
The extent of conversations in the past with him, which he's brought up mind you, is how he's better than his own dad because he doesn't beat me with a blet, and how the world is a dark, deep, empty place where everyone is out to get me and everyone hates me. A brutal, kill to get what you want kind of world. That kind of crap isn't supposed to be told to me, whether I'm 7, or 11, or 13, or ever for that matter.
PN-309 AAN-759
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:26 pm
Cuz I know for a fact that the world isn't like that. I have tons, and I mean tons of friends who would do anything for me if I was ever in a bind. I wouldn't ask anyone for money, but the point is people aren't evil. He's just really mean, prejudice, and racist, not to mention lewd and disgusting sometimes. So people don't come off as nice to him. Anyone can be friends with anyone, and I know that for a fact.
PN-310 AAN-760
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:29 pm
In short, my dad really isn't a dad, and I know how that sounds. But, that's how it feels, so yeah. Maybe he'll have an epiphany or something and change for the better. However, that is a highly doubtful, but I do hope it happens.
PN-311 AAN-761
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:31 pm
Anyways, I did go to 3 senior open houses today. ^_^ They were quite fun. It's the one thing I hate about summer. In school, I have so much to do, so many people to talk to. I'm home and there's just nothing to do, and it feels really empty compared to the hustle and bustle of school. I've been going to these parties cuz I really love this senior class and I'm gonna miss alot of them.
PN-312 AAN-762
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:35 pm
I'm gonna be a senior next year, and alot of people are gonna miss me too. Have you ever seen Nation Lampoon's Van Wilder before? If you haven't, it's a guy who's in college for 7 years, no diploma. He's not stupid, he just wants to stay, because he loves the school and everyone loves him. I feel like I'm obligated to stay with all my friends back at home, but I have to move on. *sigh* It's sad to think about it really.
PN-313 AAN-763
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:38 pm
The open houses had good freakin food, and people. The first one I went to today, I didn't realize that I forgot where the road was until I was already walking around for about a half hour. I felt horrible, cuz I know what every European capital and country is, and I got lost in my own home town. Basically, my dignity was lost. Found it though!!
PN-314 AAN-764
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 9:40 pm
I felt really bad, because not only could I not find her house until about 45 minutes of walking, but I didn't have any kind of card or money for her. Two of her best friends were there, so I didn't talk to her much. In short, I felt bad and I wanted to apologize for being just about worthless, but I never did. I should of though. Man, I really need to just grow some cahones already.
PN-315 AAN-765
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