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 Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 5:17 pm
Shiori Miko I don't know why but I just don't enjoy being on Gaia anymore. Maybe it's because it's the end of the semester, maybe because I'm graduating, maybe I'm just detached from my friends here, or maybe I seriously just outgrew Gaia. I don't know why. It's not like I'm quitting or taking a hiatus, I still sign on once a day. I'm just...not here. Same, really.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 5:19 pm
I can't stop thinking about what's going to happen if he leaves me. I'm going to be such a mess. I honestly don't think I'd be able to handle it. I'd either end up killing myself or turning into some kind of crazy Miss Havisham or something, just moping around and crying over him forever. He means way too much to me... My entire future is built around him. I don't want to die, but I'm completely terrified because I know that losing him would be too much for me to handle, and I'd probably have to give up...
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 6:38 pm
*Hits a wall with his first attempt at chapter 2 of the story he's writing...tries again fresh.*
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 7:03 pm
Little Miss Fortune I can't stop thinking about what's going to happen if he leaves me. I'm going to be such a mess. I honestly don't think I'd be able to handle it. I'd either end up killing myself or turning into some kind of crazy Miss Havisham or something, just moping around and crying over him forever. He means way too much to me... My entire future is built around him. I don't want to die, but I'm completely terrified because I know that losing him would be too much for me to handle, and I'd probably have to give up...
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 7:11 pm
Shiori Miko Little Miss Fortune I can't stop thinking about what's going to happen if he leaves me. I'm going to be such a mess. I honestly don't think I'd be able to handle it. I'd either end up killing myself or turning into some kind of crazy Miss Havisham or something, just moping around and crying over him forever. He means way too much to me... My entire future is built around him. I don't want to die, but I'm completely terrified because I know that losing him would be too much for me to handle, and I'd probably have to give up...
I don't have anyone...
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 8:38 pm
******** life's good, man. 
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 9:35 pm
Trying to find a place in my city that sells yo-yo's, I have this intense urge to yo yo.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 10:16 pm
epic-writer42 Trying to find a place in my city that sells yo-yo's, I have this intense urge to yo yo. It's almost Yo yo season here. I'll mail you some when they get here if you want xD They usually arrive by summer time.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 10:51 pm
That one night epic-writer42 Trying to find a place in my city that sells yo-yo's, I have this intense urge to yo yo. It's almost Yo yo season here. I'll mail you some when they get here if you want xD They usually arrive by summer time. No thanks, I've been meaning to find a reason to just cause some pointless mayhem.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 11:07 pm
It's times like right now that I really wish that I hadn't gone and ******** everything up. I really want to talk right now. I'm even willingly to risk sneaking out of the house and getting my phone taken away from me so I could talk. But I don't want to be a bother by texting and asking to talk or anything. God, I'm just so, so ******** stupid.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 11:29 pm
epic-writer42 That one night epic-writer42 Trying to find a place in my city that sells yo-yo's, I have this intense urge to yo yo. It's almost Yo yo season here. I'll mail you some when they get here if you want xD They usually arrive by summer time. No thanks, I've been meaning to find a reason to just cause some pointless mayhem. Tops are better for that xD Though, more of a hassle.
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Posted: Sat Apr 30, 2011 9:55 am
=X I need to work on "being happier." Well, in order to be 'happier,' I need to be 'happy' first, right?
...Oh boy, this is going to be tough to work on.
Edit: I've been up for more than 24 hours now. I knew that I would be irritable and slightly agitated, but damn. D: I've been crying so much this morning/afternoon, it's not even funny anymore.
I was crying for at little over an hour at like, close to six this morning. That conversation was fine, really. I just got myself upset with how I was thinking, not what was being said to me. I'll have to explain myself and apologize to the guy again later on, 'cause it probably startled him.
And just a while ago, I was talking to another one of my buddies. Just wearing off of the side affects of the anesthesia, and being up for more than 24 hours, I was trying to be helpful, and giving certain suggestions. I probably can't even go into detail. But overall, I felt partially responsible about the overall outcome. since I was giving suggestions on a heavy subject. He reassured me not to worry; that while my advice was good, the decision is solely his responsibility. But still, when I thought about what I've said, I start to cry.
I just hope I feel relieved by the end of the day: Y'know, get whatever suppressed emotions I probably have out, and such.
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Posted: Sat Apr 30, 2011 10:18 am
That one night epic-writer42 That one night epic-writer42 Trying to find a place in my city that sells yo-yo's, I have this intense urge to yo yo. It's almost Yo yo season here. I'll mail you some when they get here if you want xD They usually arrive by summer time. No thanks, I've been meaning to find a reason to just cause some pointless mayhem. Tops are better for that xD Though, more of a hassle. Then you don't know about the secret technique of the death spinner.
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Posted: Sat Apr 30, 2011 10:51 am
@Shiori and Cho - same heh
secret- I officially cut out all saturated fats out of my diet =D
I find and think myself stupid and silly when I think back heh and really do owe alot of people an apology
I love hot sunny weather
I love Mickey XP
Im totally looking forward to Monday to see what the dojo is like
I m soo jealous of the US because I found a Uni with a course I d kill to do ;;
God damn it!! why does Europe suck in many ways D<
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Posted: Sat Apr 30, 2011 12:49 pm
Little Miss Fortune Shiori Miko Little Miss Fortune I can't stop thinking about what's going to happen if he leaves me. I'm going to be such a mess. I honestly don't think I'd be able to handle it. I'd either end up killing myself or turning into some kind of crazy Miss Havisham or something, just moping around and crying over him forever. He means way too much to me... My entire future is built around him. I don't want to die, but I'm completely terrified because I know that losing him would be too much for me to handle, and I'd probably have to give up...
I don't have anyone...
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