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 Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 4:38 am
I feel like I've posted in here too much today. You don't need to respond to this. I just need somewhere to put all these feelings in and lock away.
I feel like I'm drowning. I want to scream. I want to run away from it all. I just want to give up. I can't take this anymore.
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Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 4:50 am
cave_dweller_candy I feel like I've posted in here too much today. You don't need to respond to this. I just need somewhere to put all these feelings in and lock away.I feel like I'm drowning. I want to scream. I want to run away from it all. I just want to give up. I can't take this anymore.
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Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 4:59 am
it's been revealed, I'm going back to live at my mother's house in about 3/4 months cry I'll miss you all
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Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 8:42 am
I only have 5 weeks of class left until I finally graduate. I'm the drop out and I graduate a week before everyone I went to high school with when I thought I might not get to graduate at all.
My bio teacher asked my class if anyone with a free period could help with the A&P club's bake sale since the members couldn't be there the whole time. I was the only one with a free period. I'm gonna be surrounded by people and baked products. I better get to atleast have a brownie like he promised. gonk
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Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 1:27 pm
@Astral- *hugs* D; T^T
we'll miss you loads
Rant:
I dislike looking at corpses, You might say its fine, stomach it but there is no skin, you can see everything
the muscles and all that lies beneath
=X
As of today, for the sake of everyone I have yet again put my life aside and given up something i really looked forward to, something that wouldve been good for me yet no, I had to give it up =/
I don't want to wait another year, I really don't, Im sick and my body is under going tests again but I really don't want to be stuck in this country for another year -___- I m growing tired, I just need a break =/
I need something good yet
I have bad luck, no matter what I do me and good=not go together
so I guess I need to find out where I belong =/ If I do belong anywhere, I feel rather empty or in a box, the only enjoyable form of contact or interaction i have is online or with my dog ...my mum is usually just an arguement or robot logic,
I do worry
I do care
I do give a damn and remember the good and the bad
But I just want abig massive light like a dream and not something that makes me feel like some kind of monster ;;
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Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 2:58 pm
*lazy to post in white*
got my cap and gown, and totally can't wait to get out [of high school] =D Hopefully hanging 'em will kill the wrinkles.
So many things i'm willing to leave behind [drama], and memories that I want to keep [with friends, loves etc. I wish I had a love during high school but that's theoretically impossible].
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Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 3:21 pm
"My last boyfriend was..."
Whoa there, if he was your last boyfriend, wonder who the current one is?
i c wut u did thur
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Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 5:26 pm
Kamastr0 @Phoenixious - I be here if you change mind, I m scared now to ask but offer still stnads
I hope you're okay, though. I read some of your posts in here, and I wish I could help you out somehow, but the only thing I can do is to listen, so... PM me whenever you feel like it. I'm here for you if need someone to talk to. :3
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Posted: Tue Apr 05, 2011 11:00 pm
It's been a while since I was this irrationally angry.
Like, really angry. As in I kind of want to punch something repeatedly until I break a bone in my hand. Or break something at least.
No one's said anything or done anything wrong beyond the usual.
I'm not angry at anyone at all.
I haven't done anything wrong (yet).
I'm not using any drugs (for once--and by for once I mean for medical purposes, 'kay).
I'm just angry.
I want it to go away, I don't like being angry. I'm not used to wanting to hurt anything (myself included), but I want to hurt something very badly to feel better. I don't like it at all.
In other news, I'm probably going to end my hiatus early (againlol) because I can't stand just sitting here without talking to anyone other than family members who alternately are the most amazing people ever and alternately decide to make my life a living hell through the tiniest details that would annoy only me (and apparently them). But other than this vent post, because I needed to vent somewhere, Imma try to hold off. I already failed by logging into Skype, though.
And I want to dismantle my phone and set it on fire for constantly failing on me. It apparently does not like its charger.
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Posted: Wed Apr 06, 2011 2:19 am
Well, I was expecting crap tonight, but you came to the rescue, heh i'm at a loss of words, for once. Thank you.
My mind is so active.. i don't think i'll be able to sleep tonight.
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Posted: Wed Apr 06, 2011 4:21 am
@ Kam, why and when have you been looking at corpses?
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Posted: Wed Apr 06, 2011 5:22 am
I hate being this busy. Comes with the extra pressure on my shoulders, mind, and takes it's toll through my sleep.
I've been dreaming, a LOT. Same subject matter, same one person, which is actually really soothing =w= because it's been too busy and blah. I feel really bad ;;
But I enjoy the fact that I have two days off now that my teacher has cancelled today's class. =w= can get a lot of work done if all goes according to plan.
I just want this school year to finish.
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Posted: Wed Apr 06, 2011 7:16 pm
This month just keeps getting worse and worse.
I tried to make it so we could at least still be friends. I know I probably totally overreacted about the whole thing, but seriously? You should have known I would react that way. Especially with something like that.
I can even kind of understand you not wanting to be friends anymore. But to seriously be so ******** up and tell everyone that we know everything that I ever confided in you?
I can't deal with this anymore.
It's crap like this that makes me hate people more and more.
I'm done trusting and caring about people.
I should just go back to being the selfish self-absorbed a*****e that I used to be.
I just want to go somewhere far away and start all over. Forget everyone and everything so I just don't have to deal with it anymore.
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Posted: Wed Apr 06, 2011 7:34 pm
I spent an hour looking at the More Dakka trope page...I loved every second of it.
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Posted: Wed Apr 06, 2011 7:43 pm
I had a really personal conversation with my celebrity squish yesterday. I'm not the only one, either. He opened a lot of contact avenues recently and seems genuinely interested in connecting with his fans. It's amazing.
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