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God, today had to be one of the worst days of my entire life. First, I knew I had to wake up early for work today, yet I couldn't get any sleep last night, so I said "******** it" and just stayed up the whole night playing that new pokemon game for the DS. Then I figure my dad was taking me to work and since he lets me drive on the freeway I figured I'd leave the house 15 minutes ahead of time, but then something came up and my dad couldn't take me so I had to go with my mom and go by streets, making me 15 minutes late to work. Then at work I endured one of the worst ******** days possible, complete with nagging/bitching customers, customers who want to cause problems just because they don't like the store's policy on returning items, and the brattiest ******** kids I've ever seen in my life, not to mention the rudeness of a very high majority of the customers (considering they were all mexican gangsters, illegal aliens and ghetto blacks). Also, since the pokemon game came out today the store was busy as hell, mixed with the fact that Sundays are normally our busiest days of the week. So yeah...it was a ******** nightmare. The busiest I've ever seen that store in just HAD to be the day that I would be closing alone for the very first time. Then, as I predicted, just before we close, here comes a ******** load of last-minute shoppers, engulfing the entire store and destroying all of the game sections when it was only 10 minutes left til closing. We don't get everyone out til 6:10pm, ten minutes after we close. Then my co-worker decides to go take a s**t, and the bathroom is where we keep the safe where I needed to get the dropped cash out of so I could close out the store. I wait a couple of minutes til he's done, then try to close out as quickly as possible. I then realize a lot of paperwork was missing and was most likely thrown out within the rush of all the customers. I say "******** it" and let it be and set the alarm and try to lock up as quickly as possible. I ******** up and end up struggling with both, the gate and the door, I won't be surprised if the alarm went off.

I then walk away from the store and sit down in the car next to my mother and the first words that fly out of my mouth with extreme exhaustion and frustration are: "Get me the ******** out of here." As we're driving home, I asked my mom if my shedule for my driving test at the DMV was taken care of...she tells me that they are booked completely, meaning I will have to wait ANOTHER week to schedule my appointment.

This is the breaking point for me.

I break down completely in a fit of rage, cussing up a storm, which obviously leaded to an argument with my mother with lots and lots of yelling. I then realize that it was no use arguing about it so I stopped the argument and remained stoic the rest of the drive home.

Once again, today HAS to be one of the worst days of my life.

rawr... ninja

But yeah, I've seriously never been that angry before. I really lost it today... sweatdrop God...all this stress is really beginning to wear me down and turning me into a beast of rage. This is what happens when Lone has all work and no play... domokun

I wish life was easier and wasn't completely centered on work. Being a free-spirit, I can't stand the same old routines day after day and hardly having any time to myself. I need to be free... sad Ever since I moved out here(and ever since I created this guild for that matter), I've been constantly feeling like a bird in a cage. I feel trapped and surrounded. I guess I'm finally reaching that point, after 4 years of enduring severe lonliness, depression, isolation and extreme stress, I'm finally getting to that point of cracking...I really need to get a hold of my nerves, cause if I keep going this way, my blood pressure will surely go through the roof.

Sheesh...imagine if the "Beast of rage" side of me actually does come out....that surely wouln't be a pretty sight to behold, especially considering my size and brute strength...I'd damn near smash everyone in my path like the incredible Hulk... neutral

I finished reading the damn book, but now I have to make a two page paper on one part of the book, like one page, and use it to make a statement of the whole. stressed
The ending doesn't even bring closure! The ending doesn't answer any questions! scream
*head explodes*

I have til monday to do it... but still..... it sucks

Also added 4th chapter of the Lonewolf's Dragoons story. Check it out and lemme know what you think...this chapter is a bit graphic and kinda creepy. Just giving you guys a fair warning right now. 3nodding

I wound up reading chapter 4 anyways... that is gruesome and creepy