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Nan is having an operation on her hand today (Wednesday). While the surgery won't kill her the anesthetic might. The last time she had a surgery they put her under a general. She died on the table. They had to fly her down to the Royal Adelaide hospital.

This time they are going to use a Local. She may remember everything they do to her hand. But, there is still a high risk that she could die. There even going to have a helicopter on standby.

If she doesn't have the surgery she will have pain for the rest of her life and will lose the use of her middle finger. If she has the surgery which she is, she may die.

I know the surgery will benefit her, I just hope she doesn't lose her life over it.

@Raven- *hugs* D= I hope everything works out =[

@Cave- heh I kind of do too heh/Atleast around here x----x
I found out today the people who talk to me the most in RL are in 20's-70's

@Emi- *HUGS* Hang in there!you maybe a wallflower but you're a beautiful flower and every flower has a strong stem, if you ever want to talk or rant we're here for you okies? heh

@Vin- Take it easy, you look in pretty alright shape from your pics heh(sorry hope that doesnt sound weird x---x)

@Gakre- I honestly get days like those too, heh but Sometimes ( maybe not good advice) you have to force yourself to get up and take the first step and then things sometimes not always click and happen that way

But what about your friends you go to the beach with? =0

Is it that you don't like people your age or that you don't like people in general?
I don't mean this in the anti-social-I'm-going-to-go-live-under-a-bridge type of thing. I mean this more of a "I'm really not into building and maintaining friendships" type thing. Like . . . there are people who can and will go up to just about everyone and want to make friends, but then there are those of us . . . who really can't be bothered.

LIke (I don't mean to take this into a thing about me, but it has been on my mind and maybe it can help), I often avoid the cafeteria because it's just an awkward place. Sometimes I feel lonely because I have no one to eat with, but often when I do go, I see people I'm semi-friends with, but I really don't want to sit with them. I just want to be alone. I'm really a very low-maintenance friend type person. The friends that I do have here . . . often spend a LOT of time together, whether it's hanging out in their rooms or the library or cafeteria, and I'm just not that type of person. So I end up not having a lot of friendships. The bonds that I have with others disappear because the bonds they have with other people are so much stronger that I just fade away and feel like a fifth wheel - because ultimately, I am.

Omg I love my counsellor. And my mom and my sis for this. XDDD
Okay, so today there was a meeting with my counsellor, head of Academics (my old Academic Decathlon coach), and my mom and sister, to see if they would allow me to go on a home study for possibly the rest of the year, at least until I get better.
I'd prepared a packet of my work and everything over the past few weeks to show that I'm capable of studying on my own. Wasn't too worried how it'd go, my sis was totally prepared, it was like she was a lawyer defending my case. ouo
But apparently, my counsellor started off the meeting mentioning how she'd hugged me in the hallway after seeing how shitty I looked.
And did a perfect imitation of me being hugged, with the freezing and penguin-like arm pose when I get an unexpected hug from just about anyone (because I seriously do that when family hugs me too).
And my mom started rambling about how "We Asians just aren't used to physical contact, it's part of our culture" for about 5 minutes, while my sister was just laughing at them.
I kind of wish I'd felt well enough to go just to see that. xDDD <3

I get it, you don't like what I'm doing. What happened to your friend was a horrible thing. But this guy missed his curfew because he saw my little Buddha statue which started over an hour long conversation about religion which somehow ended with talking about the westernization of Russia. I don't need to be afraid of him.

Omg I just had a nostalgiagasm for the past hour. Had to move to the upstairs laptop again, but I hope I can upload the screens sometime later today.... I have 18 pics of Kat/Qix screenies, Promaggedeon, last year's prom, random mule screens, Skype chats, random Dev Meats/discussions, TasnWar wedding, and post-Carmella-murder discussions. /considering making a thread for it...

Your avatar totally fits your mood. xDDD

*panic dances*