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 Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 12:27 am
Fawk me with a buster blade. Why can't I just commit seppuku for stomach pain, that would solve everything. D8< No damn ******** way I'm going to be able to sleep like this and I'm probably going to get kicked off the compy again. x,x
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 3:15 am
kittycross don't know when I'll be on due to medical problems getting worse. tired and burned out and my knee hurts like bloody hell (screwed it up pretty bad during a seizure thing). sometimes it gets hard to remember that i really do like my life, except the really terrible and horrific parts, which is to say I love my friends and family that i have left, and there are things i enjoy but i don't know how long i can hold out like this
Please take it easy heh ;;
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 3:17 am
Jer0nim0 Fawk me with a buster blade. Why can't I just commit seppuku for stomach pain, that would solve everything. D8< No damn ******** way I'm going to be able to sleep like this and I'm probably going to get kicked off the compy again. x,x *HUgs* NOOOO and never! Wont let that happen =[ I m sorry You have to go through so much, do you have or were given anything you can take to help cope? Do you have any chocolate? heh(random but at times it helps abit)
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 3:59 am
I feel like he's doing things to TRY to hurt me. He knows I've been waiting years for us to be able to be Facebook friends, because he told me we would once he turned 18. Today, I found out that he added a bunch of other Gaia people, but not me. Is he testing me to see if I'll flip out or has he already decided he doesn't want to be with me? It hurts a lot.
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 3:59 am
CRANKY CRANKY PANKY OHWELL
day is already bad..screw it
I kind of need coffee or I think Im going to emotionally erupt ******** IT! I can't hold it in anymore, they really bloody mean it when they say something good happens there must always be something ******** bad to balance it out, you know what take the bad and shoveit up your ******** a** -___-
I rant and I try to resolve my issues yet they are continuous like old problems and just pains are quick to be resurrected
Im slowly becoming jaded heh, Im stuck between just foolishly going Kamikaze or build a huge barrier and keeping people out
EDIT: I got my doctor reports in the mail -___-
Now Im pissed off
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 5:36 am
Had another nightmare. It wasn't as bad as the last one, but still kinda odd.
I can't seem to remember what started it, but I was arguing with this girl. I didn't know who she was, or where she came from. All I know that it was her and her little sister there. At some point in the argument, I got upset and stormed off, and laid down on a nearby couch crying to myself. After a few minutes, the girl's sister started yelling at me and hitting me. Something about her sister being upset, I don't remember. Still upset, I pushed the little girl away, telling her to leave me alone. After two minutes, I hear the one girl yell "You don't put your hands on my sister!" Then outta nowhere, I was dragged off of the couch I was laying on, and got beaten up. Mostly just being kicked and punched. What I find odd though, is that I never tried to defend myself. I kinda had an apathetic attitude towards the whole thing, almost like I didn't care, or that I deserved it. After the beating stopped, I was on laying on my chest. I rolled onto my back and stared off into space. I then saw the older girl looming over me, with a chef's knife firmly gripped in her hand. "This'll teach you not to hurt my little sister," she said. She thrust the knife right into my chest, all with a satisfied look on her face. As she walked away, I started kicking, I guess outta shock or something. owo Then I woke up.
People sure are crazy in my nightmares.
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 2:07 pm
Kamastr0 *HUgs* NOOOO and never! Wont let that happen =[ I m sorry You have to go through so much, do you have or were given anything you can take to help cope? Do you have any chocolate? heh(random but at times it helps abit)
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 2:13 pm
Jer0nim0 Kamastr0 *HUgs* NOOOO and never! Wont let that happen =[ I m sorry You have to go through so much, do you have or were given anything you can take to help cope? Do you have any chocolate? heh(random but at times it helps abit)
Im sorry you have to go through that, Im happy you be ok and got some sleep as for the pain , are you allowed take pain killers?why hate tummy? =[
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 2:18 pm
Kamastr0 I know alot of how you feel oddly ;; *hugs*
Im sorry you have to go through that, Im happy you be ok and got some sleep as for the pain , are you allowed take pain killers?why hate tummy? =[
I feel better than yesterday, so I'm happy for now. XD
Not allowed to take anything other than tylenol, might interfere with medical tests.
And I keep getting random tummy pain is all. Didn't have anything to do with food this time, was just laughing at something, tasted bile, and was suddenly hurting. /shrug. It's getting old.
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 3:34 pm
s**t. I need to reach Math 126 before starting any degree program and the last one I did was 096. gonk
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 4:40 pm
I'm beginning to realize that I can mess with people's emotions, make them feel what I want to. I could say something differently, just a little change in phrasing, and cause things, if I wanted to. Like, I could walk into a chat and say "You know, I really have no reason to live. I'm just here because I have no balls." That would be normal. But if I really wanted to hurt someone, I could start off with "You know, you guys have helped me realize something..." It's so simple. It's like pushing a button...hell, if I were actually going to do it, I could destroy them for years with just a little extra. It doesn't even have to be that much. I could change one word, one punctuation mark even if I were saying something particularly versatile, and it could change the thoughts and feelings of the person I'm talking to entirely.
The world of manipulation is a strange and wonderful place. Now the only hitch is that it would only really work on people I actually like...
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 6:57 pm
Curse you rival! The shaking patch of grass was right there and you challenged me to a pokemon battle D<
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 7:01 pm
Valheita Curse you rival! The shaking patch of grass was right there and you challenged me to a pokemon battle D< So kiss me softly...
Kill him/her!
It could be deadly...
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 7:07 pm
LabTech Kestin I'm beginning to realize that I can mess with people's emotions, make them feel what I want to. I could say something differently, just a little change in phrasing, and cause things, if I wanted to. Like, I could walk into a chat and say "You know, I really have no reason to live. I'm just here because I have no balls." That would be normal. But if I really wanted to hurt someone, I could start off with "You know, you guys have helped me realize something..." It's so simple. It's like pushing a button...hell, if I were actually going to do it, I could destroy them for years with just a little extra. It doesn't even have to be that much. I could change one word, one punctuation mark even if I were saying something particularly versatile, and it could change the thoughts and feelings of the person I'm talking to entirely.
The world of manipulation is a strange and wonderful place. Now the only hitch is that it would only really work on people I actually like... The power of manipulation can be used in many ways. I'd personally suggest the form of manipulation that involves story writing.
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Posted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 7:29 pm
The stuff Gaia is doing regarding Charlie Sheen is making me feel legitimately uncomfortable. ._.
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